#katleon

[editsbyamanda]

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[kgupfm]

Interview with @iamKatLeon Ep 13 out now! 🎧 This week, Mikey Jayy catches up with the very talented #KatLeon. You might recognize her from @HolyWarsMusic, @PepSquadrahrah featured in the Netflix original show "Teenage Bounty Hunters", or from her solo project. Kat Leon is unlike any artist we've ever come across. Her music is not only amazing, but she is a true survivor. Her personal story is what really drew our attention. In 2015, Kat lost both her parents. Even though Kat continued to live on, she was forever changed. For the world of music, Kat was given a new life. Out of this tragedy, Kat began to create incredible music that represents edginess, beauty, pain, and fun and each project she is involved with gives us a different perspective. We hope you enjoy this interview as much as we do. To listen to this episode, click the link in our profile or listen and subscribe on your favorite podcasting platform. Listen for music by Kat Leon and artists like her on KGUP FM Emerge Radio at www.kgup1065.com 📻 Also, search "KGUP PRESENTS" on our official curator playlist on @Spotify, @YouTubeMusic, and @YouTube. On Amazon Alexa, just say, "Alexa, play KGUP FM". Listen to KGUP FM on your Android device, just say, "Google, ask KGUP FM to play" #podcast #KGUPPRESENTS #interview #alternative #nogenre #interviews #holywars #pepsquad #teenagebountyhunters #fearless #rebel #IHATEMYSELF #KGUPFM #KGUP #indie #supportlocalartists #newmusic #localartists (at KGUP FM Emerge Radio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CGsIhovDWUX/?igshid=16cjlwtqccm92

[mxdwn]

Holy Wars Kat Leon Releases Debut EP This Is How The World Ends

https://music.mxdwn.com/2019/10/17/news/holy-wars-kat-leon-releases-debut-ep-this-is-how-the-world-ends/

[confessionsofanegomaniac]

Ego death

Everyday we die and are born again. Our “created self” dies a little death every single day and we come back to repair and improve...the “I”... the self. And the “I” is the identity(ies) we created for ourselves...hundreds to thousands of identities one person creates for the self.

Let me back it up a bit... Since the loss of my parents I feel like I woke for the first time. This awakening of course came with such a devastating price where I had to lose the two most important people in my life at the same time as well as the loss of myself.

(I guess when you tell the universe you want to get in touch with your "higher self" it really throws you a mother fucker of a lesson) True growth can only come from pain in my opinion.

Back to my point : Up until then I was very much asleep, very much hooked into the machine and had several identities I created for myself like a warm blanket of security. Two of these identities would die with my parents.

1: The daughter of Sharon & Dave, that I lived by with loyalty since birth. And yes I am aware I am still their daughter but in the physical form of where I can actually talk to and touch is no longer here.

and

2. My former band of which I was consumed by. It was my career, my lifestyle, my identity and I needed it to be seen by the world to confirm it’s successful existence. To confirm MY existence. We are ALL like this.

Let me word vomit this: we call ourselves so many things, daughter, wife, husband, mother, father, sister, friend, musician, politician, teacher, actor, lawyer, religious, vegan, yogi, Christian, Muslim, atheist, male, female and thousands of other titles to make my point. And then through this we claim sub identities : Victorious or defeated, good or bad, stupid or wise, beautiful or ugly, famous, powerful, victim, etc... all in hopes that we are seen because our number one greatest fear in anything is non existence. Though, inevitably we will cease to exist and so in this life, we try to leave a trail of crumbs behind to be remembered by whether through our children, our career, our charity... you name it.

Who gave us these titles to live by? You did and with societies major MAJOR influence. Telling us what is right, wrong, popular and so on.

During my life, I did not question much, except the trending controversial political or religious topics but I never questioned the self...MY “self”.

I never thought about breathing I just did and life... it just existed. And I certainly never thought too much of my ego except the obvious explanation of it that it was just insecurity. Until one day it was all I could see. I see in myself and all I could see in everyone around me. The need for claiming existence. 

And I say this because I know I am most certainly not the only one... I am confident pretty much every conscious living human on the planet is just like this. And if others claim they are not and already have come to this point, then I guarantee you will come back to it again and again because it is far too ingrained in you by society and biology to escape it. But I can keep reminding myself of this truth until I get it right.

And here we are... dead again to rise again and create ourselves once again. We live in these cycles. But am I living? I am always aiming my bright eyes on some imaginary prize. I have a messy mind.

Bottom line... we try to “BE” all these things but the real freedom is knowing we are nothing at all. None of these titles... it is just a title in a material world and we give it so much weight allowing its gravity to weigh us down. We put these titles on ourselves and live by it unpleasantly. I am and this is and for a short time I will exist in this life and we are here but we are not “it”. Until we can release the “I”, we will never be truly free.