one step forward, three steps back - bakugou katsuki
genre: angst | notes: song fic, interactive song (fic)? !toxic relationship! | 0.6k words
- loving bakugou is like moving forward but also three steps back,,
--- extra notes:
- the following is inspired from Olivia Rodrigo's 1 step forward, 3 steps back (from SOUR album)
- if you see this symbol make sure to play the song " ►"
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Katsuki Bakugou was indeed a man with a lot goals, that includes him being the strongest and the number one hero; some even say he worked too much but to him it’s just a stepping stones despite what he believes you already knew that he was more than enough, you believe that or rather you already knew that but what amazes you the most is his burning passion of being a hero.
[► PLAY THE SONG HERE ►]
It adored you on how he kept on pushing himself towards his goals, and you love him for that---you loved him for that. Not until everything was falling apart between you and him.
Called you on the phone today
Just to ask how you were..
All I need was speak my mind
Somehow, I still struck a nerve..
You wanted to remain blind to what is happening, you seem to not realize or you rather choose not to realize that Bakugou made you doubt yourself so much if you’re pretty, or even if you’re fun and by now you somehow hated that he kind of has that power over you. Loving him, indeed, is a complete bliss, until you make him mad.
Bakugou never noticed how you would strive harder just to be with him, for he was always moving forward, and you kept following me from behind. However, he knew you kept on following him so he never really turned around to see if you’re still around. He kept on climbing every wall, every mountain, and walked every obstacle for he believed you were always there right behind him.
It's always one step forward and three steps back
Do you love me, want me, hate me? Boy, I don't understand
No, I don't understand…
You never heard him say some sweet and enticing words, you never saw him stop and look at you, but you hoped it was because of his nature but what makes you break more is how you sometimes wonder which love will you get today, Is it the lover who will walk you by the door or the lover who will send you home crying? Because Bakugou is sometimes the latter and sometimes neither.
Despite the fear of falling apart you still push to one step forward but as you see his eyes piercing to you, without a doubt you take three steps back, you were his, you keep on reminding yourself you were his, but somehow you never knew if he loves you, want you, or even hate you, you will never understand him.
Always going back and forth, because you keep on wondering if you said something wrong, going back and forth as you wonder about the things you said, going back and forth wanting to tell him it’s his fault instead, that was loving Bakugou and you wished you knew that, you wished that you never even bother him, or knowing him.
Because like from the start it’s always..
One step forward and three steps back
And I'd leave you, but the roller coaster is all I've ever had
Yeah, it's one step forward and three steps back
You called him and somehow he was mad, you kept saying that you hate him, every inch of your relationship was just a bunch of messed up rollercoaster, you told him that you wanted to end it. But still, for the first time he said something, he talked to you about something.
“I need you..”
And somehow he said that you heard it with hesitation and just this once you stood up for yourself as you replied with tears and a smile on your face.
“Do you love me, want me, hate me?....I don't understand. No, I don't understand.”
i’m compiling the last few messages i got yesterday so i don’t crowd anyone’s feed
CHERIEEEEE thank you sm omg i never knew you’ve been following me for so long 😭😭 and i’m sorry for not talking to you lately, i’ve been ia recently but this message is so sweet ily 💗💗
thank you!!! 💞💞
you’re totally fine! i replied late so it’s not your fault but this message is so sweet omg thank you so much for the well wishes 🥺💞💞 (also i looked up kahlua toast and it looks so good omggg)
thank you for the wishes and for the pic of my twin much appreciated lol 💞
