▬▬ Before You Go ╼ Jung Hoseok
PAIRING. Hoseok x reader
GENRE. angst, fluff if you squint // oneshot
WC. 1,000+
WARNINGS. talk about Hoseok leaving to the army
SYNOPSIS. Tomorrow Hoseok was leaving to the army and you were struggling to keep yourself together, but as always, your boyfriend was there to comfort you even though he was having a hard time too.
AN. the first paragraph was written by @hwasdollie because I had no idea what on earth to write to start this off. thank you so much for helping me! <3
You didn’t know why it was so silent, well you did, but you didn’t. There were so many things you wanted to say, that both of you wanted to say, but silence emitted through the room instead.
If you just didn’t look at him, you wouldn’t cry...You wouldn’t cry. You kept telling yourself that, but the lump in your throat was growing larger and you couldn’t swallow it away.
Hoseok was the first to break the silence, “Are you okay?” His shaky voice rung in your ears and you finally built the courage to slowly lift your head and look at his own watering eyes.
“Yeah” You tried to control the steadiness of your voice, but your voice was not the only thing that cracked. Your wall that you were keeping so firm the entire week finally broke and you threw your hand to your mouth to prevent any noise from escaping it as tears rolled salty trails down your cheeks.
You took a loud unstable breath, staring up at the ceiling, “I was supposed to not cry this week. You ruined it.” You tried to laugh, but it came out more like little croaks instead and your smile slowly faltered, your lips trembling as you spoke.
Hoseok pulled your head into his chest to comfort you, but also to hide his own welling tears. You took deep, suffocating breaths to control your breathing so you could hold a little bit of dignity before he left. But his consoling hand stroked your hair and any bit of dignity you had left shattered and soon your cries echoed in the room.
He let your tears and snot soak through the fabric of his old black T-shirt. It hurt him to see you suffering because of him. He didn’t know if he was making the right decision to let you wait on him for an entire two years until he was finished with his civic duty. He couldn’t bear the thought of you crying like this while he was away, unable to lend you a shoulder or tissues. He wouldn’t be able to wipe away your warm tears with his thumb and tell you how much he loved you as he kissed your cheek. He wouldn’t be able to calm you down by rubbing little shapes on your back or hold your hand when you’re having a really hard time. But seeing you with someone else when he came back would tear him apart.
“If you…” He started, his hand stopping motion in the middle of your hair, “can’t wait…and need to-“
“Stop.” Your hoarse voice spoke as you pulled yourself from his chest, “Don’t even finish that. I’m waiting for you.” You voice managed to stay firm although you had just been crying.
Hoseok took in a deep breath with his nose, unable to keep his face from faltering. His nose scrunched up, his eyes hardly visible as a couple tears made it’s way down his face and onto his lips, leaving a salty taste on his tongue. He held his nose bridge as he heaved a few breaths, “I’ll come back soon. I promise.” He whispered.
