how do you love somebody? - dohoon.
಄ pairing(s): kim dohoon x reader
಄ warnings: some tears might be shed…
಄ synopsis: weeks had gone by since (name) and dohoon had broken up based on a ‘mutual agreement’, yet both of them are suffering silently…
hello this is melon! this story was inspired by a song by my favourite english band why don’t we (wdw). even though it’s been years since they last released a song and this being their last song, i absolutely love them so much so please check them out if you have the time! this randomly came into my mind when i heard my sister singing their songs so yeah! i hope you enjoy this thank you!
how long has it been since i last saw her?
how long has it been since i held her face?
how long has it been since i felt her lips on mine?
“name” i unconsciously blurted out.
the members turn to look at me, with eyes filled with sympathy. the eyebags under my eyes were obvious, and at night they would hear me try to suppress my cries. practice hasn’t been going well too, especially since i keep messing up the choreography.
shinyu, our leader, hesitantly walks up to me and asks, “dohoon, are you alright?” i looked at him, tears threatening to fall again while i slowly shook my head, “i miss her so much…”
not knowing what to say, shinyu could only give a light pat on the shoulder.
as everyone slowly started to leave one by one, i gave them the excuse of wanting to practise more, even though everyone knew that i needed some alone time. the moment the last member left, i plopped onto the ground, facing the ceiling.
my hoodies no longer had your scent on them, i thought as i tugged at the strings, escaping into the hood.
a few weeks ago (3rd person perspective)
dohoon had been busy with the comeback schedules in a few weeks time, and (name) knew it. that’s what happens when you date an idol.
but their messages that used to be frequent turned to coming in once in a few days. the messages asking if the other had had their meal stopped. there wasn’t anymore joking of how dohoon had tripped over kyungmin’s leg. it all just stopped, like it was never there in the first place.
at home, they don’t even see each other. he goes out early in the morning before she wakes up, and comes back when she’s already asleep.
(name) hated it. she tried not to let it show. she wanted to greet him at the door even though it was late. she wanted to show that she loves him.
the clock struck 11pm, the door finally clicked open after she had waited on the sofa for hours. it revealed a dohoon who was physically and mentally exhausted, clearly tired from all the schedules.
she approached him to give him a hug, but he swatted her hand away. thinking that he was just a little cranky since he was tired, she didn’t think too much about it. unaware, she cheerfully asked him how his day had went. but that might have been the last straw for him. something just snapped.
“can’t you be quiet for a second?” his words coming out a lot harsher than he had intended for it to be. his mouth was moving faster than his brain, with words that he would regret the moment it leaves his mouth, “you’re so annoying. can’t you tell that i just need some quiet? why can’t you let me rest when i’m at home?” words coming out louder this time.
taken-aback, she didn’t know what to say but apologise with her head down. she thought that she hadn’t been considerate enough.
“and now you’re making me look like the bad guy here.” he utters, clearly displeased while pushing his hair back.
that too, was the last thing she heard before a switch in (name) flipped.
what? i’m trying to be supportive of him and this is what i get in return?
“do you think that i like how you’re never at home and how you’re always so busy? i’m trying to support you here for the past few days, i’ve been compromising things for you and this is how you treat me?” she laughed out.
“i never asked you to in the first place!” he replied angrily.
that was it. she was done sacrificing for him. she showed him love and support but he chose not to. she knew not to stay any longer.
(name) scoffed, “if this is what being in a relationship is like, i’d rather not be with you at all!”
“what a coincidence, i think the same.” dohoon replied, rolling his eyes.
with that, she went to her room, packed her things and slammed the door shut for good without looking back.
that was the last time they had spoken.
back to the present (3rd person pov)
i actually really love you.
those thoughts kept replaying in his mind over and over again, he could only wish for her to be in front of him right now so he could convey those words to her.
his airpods started playing a song that he had never heard before, but he couldn’t be bothered to skip it.
every day, every night, i can only think of us
on the coast, in july, when you thought you said too much
guess it don’t always go, like the stories we’ve been told
‘cos you’re gone, and you’re fine, i’m lying here fucked up
“does spotify know i’m going through a heartbreak now?” he laughed, finding it way too relatable. i hope she’s doing alright now.
how do you love somebody?
how do you love somebody else?
‘cos when you left i lost myself
“i messed up so bad. i’m not even thinking straight anymore.” he scoffed, bring his arm over his eyes, tears starting to stain them.
how do you love somebody?
how do you numb the pain so well?
‘cos when you left, i lost myself
how do you love somebody else?
before another flood of tears hit him, he stood up, packed his things and left the studio, knowing he was at his limit.
i miss the way he used to laugh.
i miss how he used to make me smile.
(name) wasn’t in a better state then he was, she was just as hurt and heartbroken. she couldn’t focus on her work or anything that she did. she missed his presence too much.
she was covered by her blanket, airpods in her ears as she listened to a playlist titled, “songs to listen to when you are going thru a breakup”. she had been crying to them for hours, tissues all over her floor, the pillow stained with all her tears.
coincidentally, why don’t we’s ‘how do you love somebody’ had played too.
did emotions fade with the summer?
like an ocean wave took me under
and you left without a sound
“did he start to lose feelings?”
“i wonder if he’s eating his meals properly.”
“has he already moved on while if still stuck here?”
she mumbled those words to herself over and over again, only causing more tears to flow out. it’s been weeks, and she’s still not over it. she can’t move on.
she wanted to send him a message, and ask him if he was doing well, but everytime she tried to do so, she just couldn’t bring herself to do so.
trying to distract herself, she turned on the tv, but the first thing on her youtube was a fan cam of dohoon in their latest comeback. she immediately turned it off, burying her head back between her knees.
annoyed at herself, she put on a jacket, took her keys and headed to the nearby convenience store.
the road there was dark, but illuminated by the streetlights. every time she took a step, she would pray, “dear god, if you exist, please grant this one wish of mine. let me talk to him again.”
perhaps a miracle had happened, or the gods had heard her calling. in the distance, she spotted a male figure, who was as tall as dohoon, hair messy like how he used to leave it, that hoodie that she used to wear, and that face that she would recognise anywhere.
there he was walking down the path. there was kim dohoon.
she stopped in her tracks, and when dohoon had lifted his head, he spotted her, and their eyes met.
he stopped too, freezing on the spot even though he had practised many times in his mind how to apologise to her. he just couldn’t believe it, that she was really before him. (name) was in front of him.
after a few awkward seconds, the words finally came out, “have you been well?”
“not really, what about you?”
they were mutually surprised at the other’s answer. they were both longing for the other again, but ironically, they didn’t know.
“i’m sorry, i messed up really bad that day. i wasn’t in my right mind and i didn’t know why i even said all those in the first place. i really miss you, can you give me one more chance, i’ll prove to you that you won’t regret it… please…” he voice was sincere, linger and nerves in every word.
unbeknownst to (name), a tear had already fallen, she had been longing to hear those words for the longest time, all her emotions came crashing down at once.
dohoon, in shock, immediately rushed forward, panicked, but still wiping away her tears with his sleeve.
he was hesitant, but still asked anyways, “can… can i hug you?”
she immediately pulled him closer, grip so tight as if she feared that he would leave again if he let go. and he did the same by reciprocating the love that she was giving him.
right there and then, he silently swore to himself, to never make her feel that way ever again.
after a while, they both pulled apart slightly, looking deep into each other’s eyes.
he brought his hand to her cheek, slowly leaning into her, she closed her eyes, telling him that she was ready. and he gave her a gentle, yet tender kiss on her lips.
“i’m never letting you go again.” he said.
hope you enjoyed that! sorry if it was kinda cringey or anything or if it wasn’t enjoyable… feedback is always welcomed! thanks for reading!:)
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