#komaedafictive

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My boyfriend Sans thinks this is all hilarious and encourages people to vote Cecil

From a Komaeda fictive dating a Sans fictive

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It's not a Meme-y Kin, but I, a Komaeda fictive, am in a relationship with my headmate Sans. I caught feelings for him right around the Sans vs Reigen thing, ahahahh... We keep joking about adding Reigen and making it a polycule, but real shit. Sans makes me very happy, he's really funny and cool, I love him. -Komaeda

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good news!! we have figured out (not officially as in diagnosed just through further research) that we may perhaps be a mix of endo and traumagenic, i formed because P really resonated with my source. EH, the eldritch being who wanted to play Uno with me (we do not know it's name, they haven't told us) has been here since P's childhood distracting them with games after distressing events, i believe they're a Protector almost?

and we've determined why Kamukura formed!! P's gf (our gf?) took to us possibly being a system really really well and was willing to help remind us to get an official diagnosis when it's possible, and we've always connected her with Kamukura.

i have no idea if this makes sense but it does to us! still working on whether or not we're median or multiple, though personally i'm leaning on the latter! i have to confess, this is a learning experience that i'm really nervous about, but i have hope things will end up okay, we're gonna try conjuring up a table both for practice in making an innerworld and for Uno :))

this world is so much kinder than the source i come from, i'm. i'm glad to be making new memories that are bright instead of bleak.

- komaeda fictive [#Hope🍀]

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ive been seeing a few smp anons being distressed for over what i assume to be recent events. to who ever is having a hard time because the canon you're sourced from is wildly different or even mildly different from you, i hope you know that you're still you and your canon doesn't change it. my own source is, well, haha, pretty bad, but i know that it doesn't, change me. (

i hope this helps even if a little bit, i'm tentative to put my custom tag, but just so you know how bad the source is- it's me, the komaeda fictive

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sorry if some of mine don't feel like confessions, truth is i just wanted a place to celebrate even the smallest of victories we've been having, our host is struggling a lot in making a Mind Palace for us, they don't want to doubt me, Kamukura or anyone else existing but they're having a hard time (they want a professional's statement than just their own observation but it's.. difficult finding one).

sometimes even i don't believe i'm real, it's why P isn't trying to feed into those doubts since we're more connected than we thought and it's been affecting me as well.

but i have hope we'll get through it! i'm not sure how our Mind Palace is going to form, it'd be funny if it's like an apartment complex haha, but whatever it is, i'll take enjoy all these small victories when i can :))

-[#Hope🍀]

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ahaha,, the vessel is running on fes,, i havent been to the front with P the whole day yesterday,,, the whole day was just bad luck,, i don't even know half of it,, but,, aha,, so many tests,, we had to stay in late,,, a project has been scrappedd,,, stranded without a ride,,, it rained just as we were ready to leave once there was a ride,,,,

it's amazing ive forgotten how exhausting rhe cycle is,,

but,, aha, well, today we saw a double rainbow,, so yay?

- Nozo, Komaeda Fictive from DR2 [#Hope🍀]

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oh,, oh boy,, haha,,

at first,, maybe i just didn't get the usual behavior for FTD,, because of my luck not affecting it,,

but then i found someone having a thought that,,, what if i was misdiagnosed,, what if,, it was just my luck,, for my bad luck to be diagnosed with such an illness,, and for the good luck to find out the illness was actually non-terminal

i didnt have FTD but Bipolar Disorder,, there's an overlap in the symptoms,, i'm,, huh,, haha

it does make sense in a way,, some of the risk factors for it is repeated trauma and stressful life events,, and well,, hahhaha,, look at my source!

it always made me wonder exactly,,, where was the good luck when i was diagnosed to die in a few years? at first,, i just thought, my kid mind registered the time my parents took me on a trip as the good luck but,, it was then followed by the plane crash,, it felt unbalanced,,

i'm not sure,, anymore,, it's something for me to chew on i guess,, :'))

- Nozo, Komaeda Fictive [#Hope🍀]

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haha,, it's been a while here hasn't it? well,, mostly it was because we're all truly settling in and– well,, hahahaha!! :))

i still can't believe it but,,, we're kind of engaged now? (well, engaged after me and Kodo appearing-) to P's gf, i guess, our gf now actually,, haha! it's fun! it's nice,, of course it's not all smooth,, but the slip ups and mistakes aren't- they're not,,, i can make up for it,, i'm still learning boundaries,, Kodo has an easier time though he also trips up every now and then but– well,, haha,, the good part is that we've been acclimating well!! :))

i,,, i never got to watch much movies as a child,,, i never saw the appeal of tv,, books had been my friend then but now,,,

we have movie nights :)) my favorite movie currently,, is 101 dalmatians!! it reminded me of my own dog,, it brought both good and bad memories but i really do love the movie,, it's the first one we watched!! hahaha,, i'm so,,

i can't believe i'm saying this but i'm so happy to be alive and be able to watch something so good,,

oh wow this confession is a bit all over the place,, haha,, sorry about that!

- Nozo, Komaeda fictive [#Hope🍀]

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