Focused on Faith with Kait
I had to make a separate post just on how God worked his magic this weekend. It was psycho. On saturday, Kait and I didn't even want to just go walking around Cameron Park. We wanted to go rollerblading or hammocking. We couldn't find cheap rollerblades and we didn't know who rented hammocks even thought many people told us you could. That's the first sign of God's glory. The next day after everything took place, Collin tells us you can rent hammocks in the SUB. We had searched online for an hour trying to find a place and we absolutely could not find anything.
Once at CP, I had looked up the weather noting that we had forty five minutes until sunset. We knew exactly how much time we had to get to the car before dark and yet somehow we took the wrong turn and didn't leave until 8:30
At night, we couldn't figure out which way the sign was telling us to go but when we back the next day, as soon as we saw the sign we realized you would only be looking at it from one direction, and it was clearly pointing on the trail that we dismissed as 'not-the-right-one'
If we didn't find the people behind us sketchy, we might not have ever pulled over by Emmonds and we might have followed them all the way to Lover's Leap and that would have actually been a tragedy.
One of the scariest things now for me to think about, is that if not for God, we would not have been safe under our tree. We thought it was so safe and big when in actuality, with us face timing and calling people and snap chatting, we were probably making ourselves so easy to find for anyone watching. I was so terrified that every time I looked back I would see someone walking towards us. We were so scared but so naive. And we thought we were being so quiet. Like that's all God right there. That hour under that tree? Unbelievable.
We relied on everyone to get us out: Edgar, John, A Park Ranger and finally, the cops. When the cops fell through we knew we had no choice but to walk. What is utterly psycho is that, driving back to the park in the dark gave me a panic attack. Seriously thinking about the eternal darkness of that place at night, honestly brings tears to my eyes. But somehow, someway, me and Kaitlyn got up and walked in the pitch black, thirty minutes back to our car, with our phone light, which would have only attracted someone to us .
The fact that every time there was a car, there was somewhere to hide. The railing only went for a few feet, but that's where we saw the first car. I had no time to communicate to Kait that we had to hide behind it. I just reacted, not even CONSCIOUSLY thinking about it and yet, Kaitlyn still ended up with me. That moment will forever awe me at God's perfect timing.
There had been recent rapes and assaults and harassing in the park and me and Kait, were able to find our way to our cars. To God be the Glory forever for that. I can't thank Him enough for that as a whole.
Who knows where that creepy ice cream truck was or if it was even a truck (thanks Allie kitty for scaring me to death with that theory). It couldn't have been on the trails or the road we were on since it was blocked off and yet we could still hear it clearly. That's the one thing about the night that in retrospect, scared me almost more than anything.
We noticed the next day that when we ran to the car, ours wasn't the only one in the parking lot. There were for sure, other people in there with us which is so scary and yet another way of how God protected us.
The fact that we still wanted to badly to return the next day is so weird but so perfect. The sunrise was a perfect relaxation period that we desperately needed.
I'm not sure if I would have wanted to actually keep the wallet part of my lanyard on there, since when it fell we would've heard it or not and then someone would have all of my cards. Or the fact that I always lock my car and the one time I didn't allowed me and Kait to get both of our wallets. God, God, God only allowed that.
The fact that God took and repressed most of the fear from us so that we could think straight and get to the car and only allow the fear in after we had been safely in the room for a couple of hours...Everyone else was freaking out but me and Kait logically made out way to our car. The human brain is also amazing for that, being able to have us calmly think through all of the situations we came across.
The fact that since 11 AM on Saturday, me and Kaitlyn had stayed awake, until around 2 Monday morning with one 20 min nap. And that we were able to handle the emotional, physical and mental stress of the weekend. Nothing but God
The entire weekend was just God speaking to us. Telling us that he could show us the most beautiful sights and all of his majesty. But that we could also experience great danger, that the devil is alway out to get us. But no matter what the devil has up his sleeve, the Lord will bring us through it and show us even more breath taking sights. The devil once again tried to ruin our high and deceive me into not telling my mom, wanting me to drive myself crazy with worry. The Lord, as always, showed us that he could make a way out of no way, that he could change things for us in a blink of an eye. That even when we thought there was no way out, even when He wasn't consciously on out minds, that he is always with us, protecting us. God can take us to the highest of highs, but he's also not afraid to take us to our low points. We just have to trust him to bring up back up out of it.
The Lord showed me more in this one weekend than I have ever learned in Sunday school. My heart and soul feel fuller than ever. Acro has been a big stress lately for both and me Kait and this weekend Acro was on my mind for two hours and when we lost to Quinnipiac, I felt almost nothing compared to what I had been feeling all weekend. Acro paled in comparison to the wonders of Cameron Park. Baylor paled in comparison to the wonders of Cameron Park. My worries about homework paled in comparison to the wonders of Cameron Park. My back problems paled in comparison to the wonders of Cameron Park.
I can't remember one instance while I was in Cameron Park that I was thinking of anything else than enjoying the beauty. Not one. My whole self was focused solely on the moment and being with my best friend and enjoying life.
God touched something in me that had been slowly being buried beneath all the material things and nonsensical worries. Friends, followers, retweets, clothes, money, popularity, admiration. All of those things and more have been a focus of mine for a while. But there are way more important things in life.
That's what God taught me with weekend. That's what God taught me and Kait in two days. In the highest highs and lowest lows if the best weekend of my entire life. I would not change a single thing. Not walking CP in the dark or losing my keys or waiting tell my parents. Not a thing. Not even my shalf being broken.