Jeonghan, your dad, arrives at the beach house and joins in on the vacation. You and Seungcheol still can't keep your hands off each other but this time, you're just being sneaky.
PAIRINGS | Choi Seungcheol x F. Reader
GENRE | smut, comedy, drama, fluff, angst in the next few parts
RATING | Mature, NSFW, EXPLICIT, MDNI, 18+, Any Minors and Ageless Blogs will be blocked
CONTENT/WARNINGS | non-idols au, best friend's dad, big age gap, dilf!Cheol, swearing, kissing, caressing, unprotective sex, pool table sex, oral sex, penetrative sex, hair grabbing, body worship, dirty talk, praising, daddy kink, pet names, thigh riding
AUTHOR’S NOTE | Hi and bye. Part 2 is here! Not proofread/edited so sorry in advance if there are any errors lmao.
Part 1 here
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You wake up a few hours later, the space next to you empty. The memories from yesterday play back in your mind. You fucked your best friend's dad, your father's friend, in that very bed. You'll never be able to see Seungcheol, or your bed, the same way again.
You hear Seungcheol talking to Jinmi and Jongho, lightly scolding them about coming home ten minutes ago with a massive hangover. You shake your head, grabbed a fresh pair of clothes and made your way to the bathroom to wash off the filthiness. The filthiness your mind was having flashbacks of the multiple rounds of sex you had last night.
Last night wasn't a dream was it? Your stomach twisted in embarrassment and a dull throb starts up between your legs, reminding you of how sore you were. It wasn't a dream. And what's worse, his moans will forever be etched in your mind, the way he held you down and thrust his thick, long cock into you and made your head spin, made you see stars, the way he told you what a bad little girl you were.
You never thought you'd be into the whole daddy kink, but Seungcheol had a way of making even the nastiest kink sound good. Your cheeks and face burn crimson at the realization. The words he muttered under his breath last night, the filthy promises, the way he felt inside of you, hot and throbbing, your mind couldn't erase any of it even if you wanted it.
You make your way to the kitchen after getting dressed and join Jinmi and Jongho's groaning session at the kitchen island. You pour the four of you a cup of coffee as you watch your father's oldest friend at the stove, flipping the eggs. Seungcheol hasn't acknowledged you once, probably because his kids are here and he doesn't want any slip-ups to expose anything that happened last night.
"How's the hangover, guys?" You ask them, sitting beside them at the island, bringing their cups of coffees in front of them.
"Like fucking hell," Jongho groans, sipping his coffee, while Jinmi kept her head buried in the crook of her arm, just resting on the tabletop, refusing to move an inch.
Seungcheol places four eggs sunny side up in front of you guys. "Can't believe I have drunks for kids," he lightly tsks, rolling his eyes.
"Please, dad! Have mercy," Jinmi complains. "I'm an adult, you can't say shit about my drinking habits." She went right back into her position on the island's granite surface, while Seungcheol shakes his head disapprovingly at his daughter.
"Well, now you both have to suffer the consequences," you tease.
Jongho grunts. "I should have stayed in like you."
"What did you do all day yesterday, Y/N," Jinmi asks without moving her head from its resting place.
"Slept for a bit. Then watched a movie and then slept even more," you shrug. There's no way you'll tell her that you slept with her dad. That's something you'll have to carry in private.
Seungcheol comes out of the kitchen, no longer wearing the apron he was wearing earlier. He reaches the island, grabs his coffee and took the free stool right beside yours, leaving a couple inches in between. "What time is your dad coming again?"
You check the text messages. "He said he left like thirty minutes ago, and if the traffic was clear then it won't take him as long as he thought. So maybe an hour, or even less."
"Wait," Jinmi finally moves her head off her arms. "Your dad's gonna be here too? For vacation?"
You nod. "Yeah, he's free. He told me that he managed to get some time out."
"Sweet! A beach trip with the parents! Nice, that's awesome. I can't wait for uncle Jeonghan's spicy pork cutlet. That's literally my favorite thing," Jinmi cheers as she gets excited to see her favorite uncle. "Buuut I'll leave you guys be. I still have a raging headache," she rubs her temple. She waves you goodbye, went up the stairs to probably sleep for the whole day, Jongho follows her closely behind, but with a quick turnaround to give you and his dad a proper goodbye.
"Sleep well." You grin. "Hope you get better by the time my dad gets here."
You wait a few moments after hearing the door to their bedroom slam shut, and the air conditioning kicks on. With your dad not being able to show up for a few more hours, you decide now would be the time to break the ice. "So," you exhale, before facing Seungcheol. "Are we gonna pretend last night never happened or...?" You raise your brow, curious and anxious on what his answer would be.
"Hey," his palm wraps gently around your elbow, guiding you towards him, an intimate, yet still safe enough. "If you're uncomfortable with the whole thing, I promise I'll back off."
You tilt your head back. He's so close. If you just reach forward, you can lean into his chest, close your eyes and bask in his strength and safety. "But I don't want that, and that's the problem," you admit softly, nervously rubbing the nape of your neck. You breathe in deeply, looking him in the eyes.
"I loved every part of last night, and I can't imagine not ever experiencing it with you again, and the way I'm drawn to you, how is that normal, Seungcheol? I don't want it to be a one-night stand," you said and his eyes gleamed in happiness, the crinkle of a smile and the hushed relief of his exhale. "And I understand if this whole thing between us is completely weird for you," you continue, rambling until you feel the tips of his fingers brush your jaw gently.
"Who said it was weird for me?"
You shrugged. "You're friends with my dad. I'm your daughter's best friend and we have a 20 year age gap."
Seungcheol's kisses brushed from your temple to your ear. His voice is barely more than a whisper. "You weren't too young for me last night. Plus last I heard, 25 is a full-grown, capable adult, capable enough to make your own decisions. We can be whatever you want this summer, Y/N. I'll be your uncle, your lover, your daddy. Anything you want."
You slowly start to give in. This summer, you'll be his and he'll be yours. Whatever this relationship may be, even if it's wrong in anyone's eyes, you want it. This forbidden bliss.
His tongue runs over his full lips and you're distracted by the hunger you feel growing inside you. All thoughts vanish, all reasonable logic is lost as you press closer into his body, only to have him pull away. The smirk he leaves you with is cruel and teasing. Seungcheol smiles, tugging the ends of your shirt. He whispers, his breath brushing your ear. "Look who's being a needy girl."
It sends tingles through you, this power dynamic is new to you.
You watch as Seungcheol stands up, offering a hand to you, and a devious smile on his lips. "Don't tell me my good, sweet little girl is begging already," the way his gaze ran up your frame, so filthy and yet so tantalizing. "Daddy might have to teach you some lessons on manners if you're gonna act like a brat."
"Would it get you to touch me faster?" You giggle, biting down on your lower lip playfully, watching as his expression darkens and desire dances across his irises.
Seungcheol takes your hand in his. Your palms press flat together, interlocking your fingers. "Are you willing to find out, baby girl?"
You knew how this worked. When a daddy talks to a good, sweet, little girl like you, you knew they expect for you to say, "Yes Daddy."
Your knees nearly buckled with those two words, but Seungcheol kept your frame from faltering. The spark was back, those dangerous flames that led you right into bed the night before, and there wasn't much stopping you this time around, not with your dad taking hours to arrive at the beach house.
"i know a good place where Daddy can teach you some manners," he squeezed your hand tighter and started pulling you toward the garden shed in the back.
At first, when he led you towards the garden shed, you panicked a bit. You did not want to fuck in a place like that. Seungcheol however seemed to sense your hesitation.
"Relax," he gave your hand a squeeze.
"How can I relax when you're taking me to the garden shed," you huffed. "It's a garden shed, Seungcheol. Of course it will be uncomfortable!"
Seungcheol laughs. "Have a little faith, baby girl. I promise that it's not going to be uncomfortable." He reached for the door, swinging it open.
It turned out the garden shed was far more comfortable than you would have anticipated, but then again you were expecting the stereotypical movie cliche, the shed being filled with old rusty shovels, rakes, mowers, and other things that a regular garden shed would normally have.
Not so, this garden shed is amazing, in fact. In the back corner there's a little couch that looks cozy, and the lighting seems to have been remodeled recently to make the shed look more spacious than it actually is, there's a couple windows near the top of the ceiling that let in an ample amount of light. In front of the couch, was a wood TV stand with a rather nice TV placed on it, the carpeted flooring seems brand-new as well, and even has a colorful design on it. Near the back wall, there's a pool table, and behind the couch, are shelves holding miscellaneous objects, and a work table.
Your jaw literally hangs open. "Why have we never had our parties in this shed?! This is amazing! I could live in here!"
Seungcheol blushed slightly, not meeting your eye. "I just had it remodeled a few weeks ago."
Your jaw nearly hits the ground. "No shit...this is...amazing! It's the best thing I've seen, why did you decide to remodel it anyways?" You asked. Seungcheol doesn't reply, his gaze focused on you as his finger trails lightly over your hip. "Was it for a girl," you scoff lightly.
"Why? You jealous?" His fingers tuck under the fabric of your shirt.
You know you shouldn't, but that thought of the idea that this whole redecorating process was specifically for him to bring a girl here, has you feeling slightly irritated.
You cross your arms over your chest, glaring at him.
Seungcheol pushes forward, you back pinned against the edge of the couch. Your irritation doesn't seem to amuse him. Instead, Seungcheol's moves have that familiar possessive air around them. The way his calloused palms roam your stomach and caress up your chest has your blood racing and your skin reacting, nipples puckered against your shirt.
"Stop being such a brat. You think I'd have a whole room remodeled just for some casual fling," Seungcheol grits his teeth against your pulse, making you keen and gasp. "I had it remodeled for a hangout spot, a little game room," his hand dips lower to palm the round of your bottom, groping the softness beneath his fingers, the flesh bulges out between his hold and your knees wobble, a steady throbbing beating inside. "No one has put it to good use yet, since you're the first person I've told about it. Even the twins don't know about it."
His teeth and tongue and lips, hot against your ear and the heat settles between your thighs and makes your hips restless against the hard muscles of his chest. He growls against your jaw. "And soon, no one else will put it to use, especially a girl," his other hand rests low on your abdomen. "Especially not any other woman who isn't you," and he can feel the telltale shiver of excitement. The slow curl of desire and you melt against him.
"There's no way I'm letting anyone else have this room," his lips trailed against yours, tempting and teasing, as his breath coasts over your skin, turning every inch of you tingling and aching and needy for this forbidden love. "Only my little brat."
You nod obediently to him, "Yes daddy, only yours," a moan leaves your lips.
His hands drop to the waistband of your pants, fingers curling and pulling until your jeans are bunched on the floor and your standing in front of him, lips slightly parted, as the pool table behind you presses cool and flat against your rear. "I want to bend you over the pool table and fuck the attitude out of you." His breath ghosts over the slope of your neck. "What do you think, baby girl? Should daddy teach you a lesson?"
Your answer is breathless. "Please, teach me a lesson, daddy."
He releases a deep breath before turning you over, pressing your upper body to lay flat on the pool table. "Jesus, you'll be the death of me," he cursed low and gentle as his hands rub against the swell of your behind. His fingers slid over your underwear, teasing at the seam, and a bolt of pleasure rushes through your body. You lean into him and he lets you rub yourself along him for a moment. Then his fingers pushed your panties aside. One hand spreading you wider, while his index and middle fingers slid between your legs, spreading your lips, spreading the wetness.
"My good little brat, she's already nice and wet for daddy," he mutters appreciatively, kissing your neck. He stroked the folds, reveling in the slippery feel between his fingers, before thrusting his two fingers up into you.
"Fuck!" You gasp and groan. He's knuckles-deep, buried into you, fingers spreading and scissoring, spreading you open.
"Feels good?" He whispered, nibbling at your jaw and he's sliding his thick digits in and out. "You like it when daddy finger fucks your pussy like that, sweet girl," he moaned against you, feeling his chest heave against yours. You can barely breath, but still you're wriggling back into him, getting his fingers as deep into you as possible, loving the rhythm of it and the way his large hands can manhandle you.
"Please daddy, please, ohhhh," you gasped and wiggle harder, needing a touch to your throbbing clit, but unwilling to plead for more, no matter how much you craved it, just waiting for him to give it to you because you're daddy's good girl and he'll do it eventually. You're sure of it.
But when he drops to his knees, you're caught off guard. Seungcheol drops down onto the rug, positioning one of your legs up on the pool table's edge, your legs spread to accommodate him. He can see your whole glistening cunt, puffy and wanting for him. His fingers stroke once over the lips, playing gently, before he swipes the broad side of his tongue over the aching bud of your clitoris.
He kisses your thigh, spreading your slick, getting his lips all messy with your wetness, and you squirm in the warmth of his grip. "I know baby, I'm taking my time," his lips hummed over your clit. You nod, swallowing the thickness in the back of your throat. "You taste so good, though," he grumbles before licking again, a steady swipe against the entire of you and he spreads his own saliva before he's swirling, tasting, devouring you.
"Daddy, do I taste good?" You moan. "Is my pussy nice and yummy for you, daddy? I- fuck, Seungcheol."
You grind up on his face and Seungcheol dives his tongue inside you, quick and fierce, before retracting his lips, pulling a strand of cum out with them, stretching it before it snaps. He answers your question as his gaze rises to meet yours.
"You're so yummy, princess." He bites lightly at the fatty parts, pulling you closer and closer towards orgasm. You whimper as his mouth covers your folds, lips fastening down as his tongue curls inside you and makes your eyes roll back and your vision go white. "You're my good girl, coming just for your daddy," he groans, tongue driving faster into the convulsions. "Fucking cum on daddy's tongue, pretty girl.
You climaxed, you can feel the wetness squirt a little from how hard you come and how quickly. You whined and clung and sobbed until it was finished and you could breathe again. Seungcheol released your inner thigh and placed both his hands on the cheeks of your behind, giving them a small squeeze. "Such a beautiful girl. Now what do we say?"
Your back pressed closer, tilting your head back to rest against him and he kisses your jaw affectionately as you glance to him.
"Thank you, daddy," you sighed dreamily, eyes half-open and hooded with bliss.
"My sweet baby," Seungcheol smiles and tilts your chin, dragging you into a slow, sensual, kiss that you felt in the tips of your fingers. The kiss lasts for only a minute, when he hears the familiar sound of tires and car doors slamming, his movements slowed to a complete halt. "Your dad's here," he rasped breathless and looking confused as you pulled away. "Get dressed and I'll help you move stuff."
When you and Seungcheol emerged from the garden shed, your dad already had the trunk of his SUV full of luggage and suitcases of things that neither you nor Seungcheol could see him leaving home without.
"My precious Y/N!" Jeonghan squealed and flung his arms around you, lifting you off of your feet in a strong bear hug, something which happened every time you guys met up. You hugged him back, giggling, your fingers clutching the fabric of the back of his t-shirt, before he released you. He cupped your cheeks and started squeezing, squishing your cheeks together. You were used to his antics, and smiled brightly at him. "How's my angel? Oh, I missed you so much," he fawns over you.
"Daddy," you snickered as his hands rubbed your hair and face, "I just saw you last month. We can't possibly miss each other that much."
Jeonghan pouted, tugging you to his chest and he tucked your head underneath his chin. "But you're my precious baby! My one and only daughter," he whines. "Awww! What's wrong with missing my baby? Is that too much?"
If you compared both Jeonghan and Seungcheol as single fathers, they were polar opposites. Seungcheol was the cool dad who gave Jinmi and Jongho lots of freedom. Jeonghan on the other hand, spoiled you rotten. When you were younger, it was cute that your dad would treat you like the apple of his eye. As you got older however, it started getting embarrassing, but you can't say you weren't appreciative of his pampering, there was no harm in that. He loved you with all of his heart and wanted the best for you, even at the age of twenty-five.
"You're squeezing the life out of her, Hanie," Seungcheol playfully teases, dropping his hand onto his shoulder.
"Sorry, sorry," Jeonghan gives your cheeks a few final pecks, and you smooth your hands over the wrinkles he's caused to form in the cotton of your T-shirt. He turns to Seungcheol, also bringing his arms around him in an embrace. "C'mere Cheol, I missed you too."
Seungcheol grumbles, pushing his hand against his cheek. "Okay okay, let go. Save the clinginess for your daughter. I'll carry these in." Seungcheol leans down to lift a couple of the bags that were thrown near your father's car, slinging them over his shoulder. "I'll wake up the twins later. They're still sleeping." He called out to your dad, already starting to walk back to the house, leaving you and your father to follow behind him.
"So," you say, hooking your arm through your dad's as you walk back to the house. "How did it go with Mr. Park? Did you get the deal?"
Jeonghan heaved a huge sigh, shaking his head. "He backed out last minute. Said he got a better offer from someone else. Can you believe the nerve?"
You made a sound of sympathy. "Oh, daddy. That's terrible. What are you going to do now?"
Jeonghan waved a dismissive hand. "Eh, what's done is done. I'll try again. Maybe next quarter. For now, I'm here to relax with my daughter, my friend and his twins."
You smiled, leaning your head on his shoulder as you walked. The scent of his familiar cologne brought a wave of comfort, a stark contrast to the heady, masculine scent of Seungcheol that still seemed to cling to your skin, a secret you carried like a second heartbeat.
Back inside, you could hear the faint sounds of Seungcheol moving around upstairs. You and your dad stepped into the kitchen, the remnants of your breakfast still on the island. Jeonghan made a beeline for the coffee pot, pouring himself a mug with practiced ease.
"You know," he said, taking a long sip and sighing in contentment. "It's good to be here. Feels like old times. Remember when we used to bring you kids here every summer? You, Jinmi, and Jongho, causing a ruckus on the beach from dawn till dusk."
You chuckled, leaning against the counter. "I remember. I also remember Jinmi and I burying Jongho in the sand so deep he started crying."
Your dad laughed, a warm, genuine sound that filled the kitchen. "That's right! Cheol was so mad at you two. Said he had sand coming out of Jongho's ears for a week."
Just then, Seungcheol came back down, now wearing a loose-fitting tank top that did little to hide the solid muscle of his arms and chest. He caught your eye for a brief, electrifying second, a ghost of a smile playing on his lips before he turned his attention to your father.
"The kids are up. They're getting dressed. Said they're excited to see you, Hanie." He grabbed an apple from the fruit bowl, taking a loud crunch. "So, what's the plan for today? Beach? Grill?"
Jeonghan's eyes lit up. "The beach! Definitely the beach. And we need a barbecue tonight. I'll make my famous spicy pork cutlet for Jinmi."
At the mention of the food, Seungcheol groaned. "Not that again. You know what that stuff does to my stomach."
Jeonghan scoffed. "It's called flavor, my friend. You should try it sometime." He finished his coffee, placing the mug in the sink. "Alright, I'm going to get settled. Y/N, can you make sure we have everything we need for the barbecue tonight? I'll go shopping in a bit."
You nodded. "Sure, dad."
He gave you another quick hug before heading upstairs, leaving you alone with Seungcheol in the kitchen. The air between you crackled with unspoken words, with memories from the garden shed still fresh and tantalizing.
Seungcheol stepped closer, his presence overwhelming. "So," he said, his voice low and intimate. "Barbecue. Beach. All very normal family activities." He reached out, his fingers lightly brushing against your hip, a touch so brief you might have imagined it. "You think we can survive a whole day of playing house?"
Your breath hitched. "I don't know," you admitted, your voice barely a whisper. "But I'm willing to try."
He smiled, a slow, dangerous smile that made your knees weak. "Good. Because I have a feeling this is going to be a very... interesting... vacation."
He turned and walked away, leaving you leaning against the counter, your heart pounding, your skin tingling where he had touched you. You knew he was right. This vacation was going to be anything but normal. And a part of you, a part you were only just beginning to discover, couldn't wait.
"Cheol, I'm heading out with the twins!" Jeonghan calls out, "Do we need anything else for tonight's party?"
"Bring back some booze! We're running low!" Seungcheol yells back, a wide grin on his face.
"Will do!" And with that, the door closes shut.
You and Seungcheol are alone again. The silence stretches between you, a tangible thing, filled with the memory of his hands on your skin, the taste of him on your lips.
He turns to you, a slow, deliberate movement. "So," he says, his voice a low rumble that vibrates through you. "It seems we have the house to ourselves."
Your heart does a little flip. "For a little while," you manage to say, your voice a little too high, a little too breathless.
He takes a step closer. "A little while," he repeats, his eyes holding yours. "What do you suggest we do with our little while?" He reaches out, a finger tracing the line of your jaw, a touch that sends a shiver through you. "We could be responsible. We could... prepare for the barbecue."
You swallow hard, your eyes locked on his. "Or?" you prompt, your voice a mere whisper.
He leans in, his lips brushing against your ear. "Or," he breathes, "we could make out on the couch like a couple of teenagers."
A laugh escapes you, a short, startled sound. "Here? Now? What if they come back?"
"They won't," he says, his confidence absolute. "Hanie will take at least an hour. He can't resist a bargain." He nuzzles your neck, his lips leaving a trail of fire. "And the twins... well, they'll be too busy trying to convince him to buy them everything in sight."
You're melting, your resolve crumbling, your body screaming for him. "You're sure?"
"I know my friend and kids well, and a little while is all the time in the world, baby girl," he murmurs against your skin. His hands are on your waist, pulling you closer, molding you against him. "So, what's it going to be? Barbecue prep, or...?"
You don't answer with words. You reach up, your fingers tangling in his hair, and pull him down for a kiss. It's a hungry kiss, a desperate kiss, a kiss that's been waiting to happen since he left you in the garden shed. His lips are firm and demanding, his tongue plundering your mouth, and you meet him with a fire of your own.
He walks you backward, your bodies pressed together, until his legs hit the couch and he pulls you down with him. You land on his lap, straddling him, your hands on his shoulders, your bodies flush against each other. You can feel him, hard and ready, through the thin fabric of your shorts.
"You're driving me crazy," he growls, his hands sliding down to cup your ass, pulling you even closer. "I've been thinking about you all morning. About this. About how you felt, how you tasted."
You grind against him, a slow, deliberate movement that makes him groan. "I've been thinking about you too," you admit, your lips finding his again. "About your hands, your mouth... about how you filled me up."
His hands are under your shirt now, his calloused palms rough against the smooth skin of your back. "You like that, don't you?" he murmurs, his lips trailing down your neck. "You like being filled up by daddy."
You shudder, a wave of heat washing over you. "Yes," you gasp, your head falling back, giving him better access. "Yes, daddy."
He chuckles, a low, dark sound. "Such a good girl," he praises, his teeth scraping against your collarbone. "Ride daddy's thigh, baby girl. Show me how much you want it."
A flush of heat washes over you, a mix of embarrassment and raw, unadulterated desire. His words, so filthy, so commanding, should shock you, but they don't. They fuel you, ignite a fire in you that you never knew existed.
You hesitate for a moment, a flicker of self-consciousness. This is new, this is... wanton. But then you look at him, at the dark, hungry look in his eyes, and all your inhibitions melt away. You want this. You want him.
You shift, positioning yourself on his powerful thigh, the muscle solid and firm beneath you. You start to move, a slow, experimental rock of your hips, the friction sending a jolt of pleasure through you. He watches you, his gaze intense, his hands resting on your hips, guiding you, encouraging you.
"That's it, baby girl," he murmurs, his thumbs stroking circles on your skin. "Just like that. Ride daddy's thigh."
You find a rhythm, a steady, grinding motion that has your breath catching, your heart pounding. The friction is delicious, the pressure building, a slow, steady burn that's driving you wild. You can feel the wetness soaking through your panties, the evidence of your desire, and it only makes you bolder.
You lean forward, your hands on his chest for leverage, and increase the pace, your movements becoming more desperate, more frantic. He captures your lips in a searing kiss, his tongue delving into your mouth, claiming you, tasting you. One of his hands slides up your back, into your hair, fisting the strands, holding you captive.
"Look at you," he breathes against your lips. "So beautiful, so desperate for daddy. You're going to come for me, aren't you? Right here, on my thigh."
You can only moan in response, your body moving on its own accord, chasing the pleasure that's just out of reach. The coil in your stomach is tightening, a delicious, torturous tension that's making you ache. You're so close, so damn close, and you can feel it, the crest of the wave, the promise of release.
"Please," you whimper, your nails digging into his shoulders. "Please, daddy."
"Come for me," he commands, his voice a low growl. "Come for daddy, baby girl. Now."
That's all it takes. The permission, the command, it sends you over the edge. You shatter, a wave of pleasure crashing over you, so intense, so overwhelming, it steals your breath. You cry out his name, your body convulsing, your hips bucking wildly as the pleasure washes through you.
He holds you through it, his arms a steady anchor in the storm of your release. He murmurs praises, his lips pressing soft kisses against your temple, your cheek, your neck.
"Such a good girl," he whispers. "My beautiful, good girl."
You collapse against him, boneless and spent, your body humming with the aftershocks of your orgasm. You're a mess, a tangle of limbs and sweaty skin, and you've never felt better.
You stay like that for a while, wrapped in each other's arms, the only sounds your ragged breaths and the steady thrum of his heart against your ear. The world outside ceases to exist, and for a moment, it's just the two of you, in this bubble of stolen intimacy.
But the bubble has to burst.
"I should..." you start to say, pushing yourself up, but he pulls you back down. "Seungcheol, we have to get up. They'll be back soon."
"Five more minutes," he murmurs, his lips finding yours again. "Just five more minutes of this."
You want to argue, to be the responsible one, but his kisses are persuasive, and you find yourself melting against him once more. "Five minutes," you agree, your lips curving into a smile against his.
Five minutes turns into ten, then fifteen. You're lost in each other, in the taste and feel of him, when the sound of a car pulling into the driveway jolts you back to reality.
"Shit," you swear, scrambling off his lap, your cheeks burning with a mixture of pleasure and panic. "They're back. We have to—"
But he's already on his feet, a calm, cool presence in the face of your chaos. He straightens his shirt, runs a hand through his hair, and then turns to you, a slow, lazy smile on his face. "Relax," he says, his eyes gleaming with amusement. "I'll handle it."
You watch, your heart pounding, as he walks to the door, opening it just as Jeonghan and the twins are coming up the porch steps. You take a deep breath, trying to compose yourself, to smooth down your clothes, to wipe the dazed look off your face.
"Did you get everything?" Seungcheol asks, his voice casual, as if he hadn't just had you writhing on his lap minutes before.
"Everything and more," Jeonghan says, bustling in with a couple of bags. "Jinmi talked me into getting that expensive sparkling water she likes, and Jongho found a new brand of barbecue chips he's determined to try." He looks around, his eyes landing on you. "Everything okay here? You look a little flushed."
Your cheeks burn even hotter. "I'm fine," you say, your voice a little too bright. "Just... warm in here."
Seungcheol chuckles, a low, knowing sound that makes your stomach flutter. "Yeah, it was getting a little hot. We were just... discussing the menu."
Jeonghan seems to accept this, nodding as he heads to the kitchen. "Good, good. Well, I've got the pork. I'm going to get it marinated. Y/N, can you help me with the sides? Jinmi, Jongho, you're on salad duty."
The next few hours are a whirlwind of activity. You chop vegetables, Jeonghan marinates the pork, Seungcheol mans the grill outside, and the twins, after a few mishaps, manage to assemble a decent salad. It's chaotic, it's loud, and it's the most normal, family-like activity you've done in ages.
Everyone changes into their swimsuits, the atmosphere buzzing with a pre-party energy. Jinmi and Jongho are already by the water, chasing each other with the kind of reckless abandon only a day at the beach can inspire. Jeonghan is fussing over a cooler, making sure he has enough of everyone's favorite drinks.
You linger on the deck, watching them, a strange mix of contentment and anxiety warring within you. This is what you've always wanted, this sense of belonging, this easy camaraderie. But it's tainted now, colored by the secret you and Seungcheol share.
He comes up behind you, his hands resting on your shoulders, a casual, yet possessive touch. "You're quiet," he says, his voice low, for your ears only. "What's on your mind?"
You turn your head to look at him, the setting sun catching in his dark hair, making him look almost ethereal. "Just... this," you say, gesturing to the scene in front of you. "It's nice. I'm... happy."
He frowns slightly, his thumbs stroking the sensitive skin at the nape of your neck. "But?"
"But I'm also terrified," you admit, your voice barely a whisper. "What if they find out? What if this... what if we ruin this?" You look back at your dad, who's now laughing at something Jongho said, his face alight with joy. "I can't ruin this for him, Seungcheol or for your kids. What would they say?"
He pulls you back, into the shadows of the deck, away from prying eyes. "Hey," he says, his hands cupping your face, forcing you to look at him. "We're not going to ruin anything. We're going to be careful. And we're going to enjoy this. Enjoy us. For now, that's all that matters." He leans in, his lips hovering just above yours. "And for the record," he murmurs, "I'm happy too. Happier than I've been in a long time." He kisses you, a quick, hard kiss that's over almost before it begins, but leaves you breathless. "Now, let's go enjoy this party. Before Hanie sends out a search party."
You nod, a small smile playing on your lips. He's right. You're going to enjoy this. You're going to enjoy him. Whatever comes next, you'll deal with it together.
You both walk down to the beach, where the party is in full swing. The barbecue is a success, the pork is delicious, and the atmosphere is electric with laughter and good cheer. You find yourself relaxing, letting the rhythm of the waves and the warmth of the fire lull you into a state of blissful contentment.
Later, as the sun dips below the horizon, painting the sky in shades of orange and pink, you find yourself sitting next to Seungcheol on a large beach blanket. The twins are roasting marshmallows, and your dad is telling one of his long, rambling stories that has everyone in stitches. Your fingers are so close to Seungcheol's on the blanket, you can feel the warmth radiating from his skin. You resist the urge to close the distance, to thread your fingers through his, a small act of rebellion in the face of this fragile peace.
"So," Jeonghan says, turning to you, "What are you planning to do now that's school is over? Finally join me at the company? I could use my daughter's artistic eye, you know."
You almost choke on your marshmallow. Your dad had been gently nudging you about joining the family advertising firm for months now. It was the safe, sensible path, the one he'd always envisioned for you. But it wasn't your path. Your passion was in photography, in capturing moments, not selling products.
"Dad, we've talked about this," you say, trying to keep your tone light. "I want to give my photography a real shot. I have a few portfolio showings lined up."
Jeonghan sighs, a familiar, weary sound. "I know, I know. But photography... it's such a tough field. So competitive. I just want you to be secure, to have a stable future."
You feel a familiar frustration bubbling up inside you. "I know you do, dad. But I have to do this my way. I have to try."
The conversation hangs in the air, an awkward, unresolved thing. You can feel Seungcheol's eyes on you, but you don't dare look at him. Then, to your surprise, he speaks. "Hanie, let her be," he says, his voice calm, but firm. "Y/N's got a good head on her shoulders. And a lot of talent. She'll be fine." He looks at you, a small, encouraging smile on his face before turning to his friend. "Now my kids on the other hand... I'm not so sure about them." he says, a teasing glint in his eye.
The tension breaks, and everyone laughs, including you. You send a silent thank you to Seungcheol, a grateful look that he returns with a subtle nod. He understands. He gets it. And in that moment, the connection between you feels less like a forbidden secret and more like a shared truth, a silent alliance against the world.
The party starts to wind down as the last of the embers fade to a soft glow. Jeonghan, fueled by a few too many drinks, is starting to get sentimental, telling stories from when you were all just kids. Jinmi and Jongho are yawning, their energy finally spent. It's late, and the cool night air is a welcome relief from the heat of the day.
"Alright, you two," Seungcheol says, ruffling Jongho's hair. "Time to head in. Let's get you to bed."
The twins groan, but they're too tired to argue. After a round of goodnights, Seungcheol herds them towards the house.
You start to pack up the remaining food and drinks, but your dad stops you. "Leave it," he says, slinging an arm around your shoulder. "We'll deal with it in the morning. Let's just sit here for a bit. Enjoy the quiet."
You lean your head against his shoulder, listening to the gentle lapping of the waves. The moon is high and bright, casting a silvery light on the water. It's peaceful, a perfect end to a near-perfect day.
"You know," Jeonghan says, his voice soft, a little slurred. "It's hard to imagine you as an adult sometimes. In my head, you're still that little girl with pigtails and scraped knees, chasing after Jongho and Jinmi." He squeezes your shoulder. "I'm so proud of you, Y/N. No matter what you decide to do with your life."
You feel a lump form in your throat. "Thanks, daddy," you whisper, your heart swelling with a mix of love and guilt. You're keeping so much from him.
He kisses the top of your head, a familiar, comforting gesture. "I know I can be a bit... overbearing," he admits. "I just worry. It's a dad's job, you know."
"I know," you say, your voice thick with emotion.
You sit in silence for a while, just listening to the sounds of the night. The world feels quiet, still, and for a moment, you allow yourself to forget about the complications, the secrets, the fear. You're just a daughter, sitting with her father on a beach at night, and everything is okay.
"Okay," Jeonghan says, breaking the silence. "I'm officially exhausted. Let's head in."
You help him up, and together you walk back to the house. The lights are all off, except for a small lamp in the living room. The house is quiet, a stark contrast to the lively chaos of a few hours ago.
"I'm going to bed," Jeonghan says, giving you a final hug. "Don't stay up too late."
"I won't," you promise.
You watch him go up the stairs, and then you're alone in the quiet house. You clean up the remaining mess in the kitchen, your movements slow, methodical. Your mind is a whirlwind of thoughts, of conflicting emotions. The joy of the day, the fear of being discovered, the thrill of Seungcheol's touch, the weight of your father's love.
You're wiping down the counter when you hear footsteps on the stairs. You turn, and there he is. Seungcheol. He's changed into a pair of loose sweatpants and a plain t-shirt, and he looks... domestic. And devastatingly handsome.
"Couldn't sleep?" he asks, his voice low in the quiet house.
You shake your head. "Just cleaning up."
He walks over to you, taking the cloth from your hand and tossing it on the counter. "It can wait," he says, his eyes holding yours. He steps closer, his hands on your waist, pulling you against him. "I was thinking about what you said earlier. On the deck."
You look up at him, your heart pounding. "What about it?"
"About being scared," he says, his thumbs stroking your sides. "I am too. But not about ruining this." He glances towards the stairs, where your father disappeared. "I'm scared of losing this. Of losing you."
Your breath catches. "Seungcheol..."
He silences you with a kiss, a soft, gentle kiss that's full of unspoken promises. "I don't know what this is," he murmurs against your lips. "I don't know where it's going. But I know I don't want it to end." He pulls back, his hands cupping your face. "We'll figure it out, Y/N. Together. I promise."
You nod, your eyes welling with tears. You believe him. You don't know how, or when, but you believe that somehow, you'll find a way.
He smiles, a slow, tender smile that melts your heart. "Now," he says, his tone shifting, a playful glint in his eye. "How about we go make sure that garden shed is living up to its full potential?"
You laugh, a watery, breathless sound. "What about the twins? And my dad?"
"They're all dead to the world," he says, taking your hand. "And I checked the lock on the shed earlier. It's got a bolt on the inside. We won't be disturbed." He wiggles his eyebrows. "Unless you want to be."
You swat him playfully, but your blood is already humming, a familiar warmth spreading through you. "You're impossible," you say, but you're already letting him lead you towards the back door.
The night air is cool on your skin as you make your way across the lawn, the grass soft beneath your bare feet. The garden shed looks like a sanctuary in the moonlight, a little haven of secrets and stolen moments.
Seungcheol unlocks the door, and you step inside. He closes it behind you, the click of the bolt echoing in the quiet space. The small lamp in the corner casts a warm, intimate glow, illuminating the cozy couch, the TV, the colorful carpet.
"It's different in the dark," you say, your voice hushed. "More... intimate."
He comes up behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist, his chin resting on your shoulder. "It's our space now," he murmurs, his lips brushing against your ear. "Our secret."
You turn in his arms, your hands on his chest. "Our secret," you repeat, the words feeling right, feeling true.
He leans down, capturing your lips in a kiss. It's a slow, deep kiss, a kiss that's full of longing and a future yet to be written. His hands roam your body, relearning your curves, your dips, your hollows. You respond in kind, your fingers tangling in his hair, your body pressing against his, a silent plea for more.
He leads you to the couch, pulling you down with him. You settle into his lap, your legs wrapped around his waist, your bodies fitting together like two pieces of a puzzle.
"This is better," he says, his hands sliding under your shirt, his palms warm against your skin. "No rush. No fear of getting caught."
You smile, a slow, confident smile. "Just you and me," you say, leaning in to kiss him again. "And a very comfortable couch."
He chuckles, a low, rumbling sound that you feel more than you hear. "And a very comfortable couch," he agrees. "And I plan on making very good use of it."
His words are a promise, a delicious, wicked vow that makes your core clench with anticipation. He shifts, maneuvering you until you're lying back on the couch, the plush cushions giving way beneath you. He hovers over you, an arm braced on either side of your head, caging you in. The lamplight catches the sharp line of his jaw, the dark intensity in his eyes as they rove over you, taking you in.
"What are you thinking about?" He murmurs, a thumb stroking your cheek.
"About how this feels unreal," you confess, your hands coming up to rest on his biceps. "Like I'm going to wake up and this will all have been a dream."
"This is no dream, baby girl," he says, his voice a low growl. He dips his head, his lips finding the sensitive spot where your neck meets your shoulder. He places a soft, open-mouthed kiss there, then another, a trail of heat that makes you shiver. "This is real."
He kisses you then, a slow, possessive kiss that claims every part of you. His tongue delves into your mouth, tasting, exploring, and you meet him with a hunger of your own. His hands are busy, one tangling in your hair, angling your head to deepen the kiss, while the other traces the curve of your hip, the dip of your waist, before sliding up to cup your breast.
You gasp into his mouth as his thumb brushes over your nipple, a jolt of pleasure shooting straight to your core. He does it again, a slow, deliberate circle that has you arching into him, your body begging for more.
"Seungcheol," you breathe, your nails digging into his shoulders.
"Shh," he murmurs against your lips. "Just feel."
He makes quick work of your shirt, pulling it over your head and tossing it aside. Then your shorts, sliding them down your legs, along with your panties, until you're bare before him. He doesn't rush, his movements are unhurried, as if he's committing every inch of you to memory.
"You're so beautiful," he says, his voice husky with emotion. He kisses your stomach, his tongue dipping into your navel, making you squirm. "So perfect."
He settles between your legs, his shoulders pushing your thighs wider apart. He looks up at you, his eyes dark and intense, and you can see the raw, unfiltered desire in them. He lowers his head, and you brace yourself for the touch of his tongue, but instead, he presses a soft, reverent kiss to your mound.
"Such a pretty pussy," he whispers, his fingers gently parting your folds. "All for me."
He finally gives you what you want, what you've been craving since he left you on the couch earlier. His tongue flattens against your clit, a slow, languid lick that has you crying out. He does it again, and again, building a rhythm that's driving you wild. He's not just tasting you, he's worshipping you, his lips and tongue and teeth exploring every inch of your most sensitive flesh.
You're lost in a haze of pleasure, your hands fisted in his hair, your hips moving in tandem with his mouth. He slips two fingers inside you, curling them just so, hitting that spot deep inside that makes you see stars.
"Seungcheol," you gasp, your back arching off the couch. "I'm... I'm going to..."
"Not yet," he says, his voice a low command. He pulls away, leaving you panting and desperate. He stands up, stripping off his clothes with an efficiency that's almost frustrating. He's before you in all his glory, his body a work of art, all hard muscle and tanned skin. His erection stands proud, a testament to his desire for you.
He kneels on the couch between your legs, positioning himself at your entrance. He looks down at you, his eyes searching yours, asking for permission. You answer by wrapping your legs around his waist, pulling him closer.
He enters you with a slow, steady thrust, burying himself to the hilt. You gasp at the sudden fullness, the stretch, the delicious pressure. He stills, giving you a moment to adjust, to get used to the feel of him inside you.
"Okay?" he asks, his voice strained.
You nod, unable to speak. He starts to move, a slow, deep rhythm that has you moaning his name. He's watching you, his eyes never leaving yours, and the connection between you is so intense, so profound, it's almost overwhelming.
He leans down, capturing your lips in a searing kiss. "You feel so good," he murmurs against your lips. "So tight, so wet. Made for me."
You meet his thrusts, your bodies moving in perfect harmony. The pleasure builds, a slow, steady burn that's consuming you from the inside out. You're a tangle of limbs and sweaty skin, a mess of raw emotion and primal need. You're not just having sex, you're... connecting. On a level you've never experienced with anyone else.
Sure, he's twice your age but he knows what he's doing. He knows what it takes to make a woman's body hum. This is a far cry from the fumbling, awkward encounters you've had with men your own age. You won't deny that you never been attracted to your best friend's dad when you were younger, but you always pushed those feelings aside. But now, here, in this secret haven, all those suppressed feelings are rushing to the surface, more powerful, more undeniable than ever before.
He shifts, changing the angle of his thrusts, and he hits that spot again, the one that makes your toes curl. You cry out, your nails digging into his back.
"Right there?" he asks, a smug satisfaction in his tone.
"Right there," you gasp.
He hits it again, and again, driving you wild. "You like that, don't you?" he growls. "You like it when I fuck you deep."
"God, yes," you moan. "Don't stop. Please don't stop."
"I have no intention of stopping," he says, his pace quickening. "I'm going to make you come so hard, baby girl. I'm going to make you forget your own name."
He's as good as his word. He drives into you, fast and hard, the force of his thrusts pushing you deeper into the couch. The coil in your stomach is tightening, a delicious, torturous tension that's making you ache. You're so close, so damn close, and you can feel it, the crest of the wave, the promise of release.
"Seungcheol," you whimper, your head thrown back, your neck exposed. "I'm... I'm..."
"Let go, baby girl," he commands. "Let go for me. Come on my cock."
His words are your undoing. You shatter, a wave of pleasure so intense it's almost painful, washing over you, stealing your breath, your vision going white. He swallows your cries with a kiss, his tongue plundering your mouth, as your body convulses around him. Your orgasm seems to go on forever, an endless, rolling wave of ecstasy that leaves you boneless and spent.
He follows you over the edge a moment later, a low groan rumbling in his chest as he buries himself deep inside you, his release hot and pulsing. He collapses on top of you, his body a welcome, heavy weight, his face buried in the crook of your neck.
You stay like that for a long time, your bodies tangled together, your breathing slowly returning to normal. The only sounds are the pounding of your hearts and the gentle hum of the lamp.
He rolls off you, pulling you into his arms. You rest your head on his chest, listening to the steady, reassuring beat of his heart. His fingers trace lazy patterns on your back, a soothing, calming motion.
"You okay?" he asks, his voice a low rumble against your ear.
You nod, a contented sigh escaping your lips. "Better than okay," you say, your voice a little muffled by his chest. "That was... wow."
He chuckles, a low, satisfied sound. "Wow is a good start," he says. "But I was going for more of a 'life-altering, earth-shattering' vibe."
You laugh, a genuine, happy sound that fills the small space. "Well, mission accomplished. I think you've successfully ruined me for all other men."
"Good," he says, a smug satisfaction in his tone. "That was the plan." He's quiet for a moment, then he says, "I meant what I said earlier, Y/N. About figuring this out."
You lift your head to look at him. "I know," you say, your fingers tracing the line of his jaw. "But how? What do we even do?"
"I don't know," he admits, his expression serious. "But we'll take it one day at a time. One stolen moment at a time." He leans in, kissing you softly. "And right now, this is our moment."
He's right. You can't solve the future tonight. But you can have tonight. You can have this. You lean in, deepening the kiss, pouring all your complicated feelings into it. He responds with a passion of his own, and you can feel him stirring against you, a testament to his insatiable desire for you.
"Again?" you ask, a little breathless, a lot surprised.
"For you, always," he says, rolling you over, pinning you beneath him. "I'm an old man, but I'm not that old."
You laugh, wrapping your arms around his neck, pulling him down for another kiss. "You're not old," you say, your legs wrapping around his waist. "You're just... experienced."
He growls, a low, predatory sound that sends a shiver of anticipation down your spine. "And I'm about to get even more experienced," he says, his lips trailing down your neck. "In all the ways you like."
And as he enters you again, slow and deliberate, you let go of all the fear, all the doubt, and just feel. You feel the pleasure, the connection, the rightness of it all. You feel him, all of him, and you know, with a certainty that scares and thrills you, that this is just the beginning.
Pairing: Vampire!Jimin x Vampire!OC (named reader)
Summary: The oracle has given you an impossible choice; leave and get vengeance for your coven or stay and find your fated mate. You want both but the choice may have just been taken out of your hands.
Rating: 18+ (NSFW) MDNI
Genres: vampire au / strangers to lovers / fated lovers au / fantasy / angst / fluff / suggestive
Warnings: mention of death of family / mention of murder / mention of fire / mentions of grief / lots of anger / making out / both characters get naked.
Word count: 2.9k
Banner and moodboard: me
Beta: @colormepurplex2 thank you so much!
Author notes: This is for @btskitten7 with the song "serendipity" I really hope you enjoy it.
Revenge or love.
The oracle had given you her advice and said it plain as day. They were your two options – Take revenge for your murdered coven and possibly bring death upon everyone here, or, stay and find your fated love.
For a vampire to find their mate, living side by side for the rest of eternity can be a rarity, and yet, something most vampires strive to find.
You had seen your sister, Rayla, with her fated love, Seokjin, the way they were so involved with each other – he doted on her and she adored him. It was something straight out of a fairy tale, which had quickly turned into your horror story.
Remembering the two of them hurts your heart, like a stake driving through it and splitting it in two. You wished for nothing more than for them to be beside you again, the mothering way your sister had about her, and Jin's sense of humour that had you in hysterics most days. You would never hear another lame joke of his or be comforted by your sister's embrace. Tears prick at your eyes, but you quickly blink them away, replacing the sadness with rage as your hands ball into fists at your sides.
The images of your coven burning and trapped inside, the feeling of helplessness as you'd found them too late, looking in from the outside, burn behind your eyelids. How can you move on when it's still so fresh, when the scene plays out for you all day, every day? The oracle has to be wrong. There must be a way you can get to have both. Perhaps you can find who did this and make them pay, then come back and find your love. Why was that not an option on the table?
The oracle had seen you in her visions long before you entered her building, you are sure of it. The familiarity in her stare when you walked in, the sadness in her eyes before you told her anything, you have no doubts she was expecting you.
You're unsure if that unnerved you or brought you comfort, never having encountered an oracle before. But Rayla had always insisted, if anything happened to her or the coven, to go to the oracle, and so you had.
But now, you have a choice to make, and with the rage and grief that still courses through you, it feels like an impossible decision to make. How can you move on from losing everyone you love? How are you supposed to forget about finding out who took them from you?
You need revenge, it's all you can think about as you sit in the covered courtyard of this new coven. You look around at everyone walking about freely in the shade, even in the late afternoon before the sun has set.
Could you condemn them all to death for your need for revenge? You know the answer to that, you can't. But how can you move past it?
They say grief comes in stages, and you seem to have skipped denial and gone straight to anger. You can feel it lighting your veins, powering your body. All you want to do is kick and scream and pull someone apart with your bare hands, nails clawing at skin, teeth ripping through flesh. Fingernails dig into your palms, making you bleed, seeing the scarlet crescent moons, you take a deep breath and decide to occupy yourself with something else. But as you uncross your legs, about to stand, your eyes notice someone across the courtyard. Something about him renders you speechless, the shoulder-length blonde hair blowing softly in the breeze, his flawless skin that looks as soft as satin, or maybe his kind eyes as he surveys the courtyard, and for a brief moment it provides you a welcome distraction from your chaotic thoughts and decision-making.
His gaze meets yours and you freeze, but even if you wanted to look away from his intense stare, you couldn't. His soft and open stare pulls you in, deeper and deeper, until you feel like you're drowning in it, too far out of your depth and struggling to stay afloat. Only you didn't want to be saved, you wanted to go deeper.
Other members of the coven move quickly across the stone path, but you both remain, as if time has stopped momentarily just for the two of you.
His full lips stretch into a shy smile, breaking eye contact and looking down at his feet, giving you a moment of respite before meeting your gaze again. His dark, piercing eyes, now crescent moons, accompany the purest smile you've seen on a vampire. He almost takes your breath away, your heart picking up pace from its usual slow, featherlight beats, as you watch the way he's watching you. It feels as though you're the only other person on the whole grounds with the look of wonder on his face. He takes a step towards you and your breath catches in your throat, but before he can continue closing the space between you, someone he seems familiar with steps into your path, shattering the moment into tiny shards of glass and sending them flying along on the breeze.
They drag him off towards the main entrance, and disappointment lands heavy in your stomach and settles like a rock. With a longing glance back in your direction, he follows them, leaving you alone with your thoughts once more.
And just like that, the rage you felt comes hurdling back like a slap on the face, sharp, hard and unexpected. It was a nice moment of peace, no matter how brief, one you will surely think about all night. As you head off to your room thinking about the handsome stranger you just encountered, and wondering what he would have said to you, given the chance.
*
The round moon sits high in the sky tonight, and something about it calls to you, pulls at your insides and makes you restless. Before you know it, you're walking through the woods, twigs snapping under your feet as you head towards the lake. The water sings to you like a siren, each gentle wave shimmering in the moonlight, inviting you in.
Pulling off your shoes, you walk to the water's edge and stand in the shallows. Your toes sink into the earth as the cold water laps at your ankles. Taking a deep breath, you tilt your face up to the moon, letting its light bathe you. It rejuvenates you and sates some of that rage you feel. It's as if the moon goddess has called you here herself to aid you in your troubles.
“What should I do?” you ask up to the black sky, endlessly stretching on. The many stars shine bright, sparkling like thousands of tiny jewels placed neatly above you.
A twig snaps behind you, causing your head to snap in its direction, fangs and claws out, ready to use them.
“Sorry, I'm sorry,” the man from the courtyard says, stepping out of the shadow with his hands up in surrender, “I mean you no harm, I assure you.”
Retracting your fangs, you relax your stance, assuming he's not a threat. He doesn't seem like one.
“I didn't mean to frighten you,” he says, with a voice so sweet it completely disarms you. “I saw you earlier, didn't I?”
You watch him as he takes careful steps towards you, stopping just short of the water.
“I'm Jimin,” he says, holding a hand out that you take a step forward to accept. As soon as they touch, you're surprised by the softness of his skin, so smooth you almost don't want to let go. An electric current passes through you and he jolts a little in surprise, apparently you're not the only one who felt it.
“Nyrie,” you respond, sounding more than a little dazed, even to your own ears.
“What a beautiful name,” he says quietly, almost to himself, before shaking his head and grinning. “You're new here.”
It's a statement rather than a question but you nod, regardless, as you take a few steps over to a nearby fallen tree and take a seat.
Hesitantly, he follows. “May I?” he asks, pointing at the space on the log beside you. Nodding, you shift slightly to give him space and as he takes a seat, your arms touch once more, the current returning in full force. It's so powerful you can barely think straight, everything in you is screaming, pulling you closer to him. Slowly, you peek across and find him already staring back at you with a look of the same bewilderment you feel. Shifting away slightly, so that you may breathe again, he clears his throat.
“What brings you to us?”
The question stills you, images of that burning building flash in your mind again, taunting you, but you swallow down the rage that rises like bile inside and push it away. Your hesitation is long enough that he starts to backpedal, eyebrows knitting together full of regret.
“I’m so sorry, that was entirely too personal for a first meeting, please forgive my manners, this is most unlike me,” he says, staring off at the lake in confusion. “Perhaps, I should go and leave you to it. I disturbed your night, I'm terribly sorry.”
He stands and walks quickly back towards the clearing he emerged from. Something swells inside you and escapes from your mouth before you can stop it, “No, wait.”
He pauses, turning slowly back to you, seeming unsure of the next words you're about to say. You didn't know this man and yet, he's a peaceful presence beside you. An enigma you wish to fathom.
“Stay,” you whisper, suddenly feeling a little self-conscious in the silence of the night.
His eyes search yours somewhat hesitantly before he nods and joins you back on the log.
You sit there a moment in silence, watching the lake and listening to it lapping up onto the earth, the ripples seem to chase you, getting higher and higher.
“Can I ask, what were you doing in the water?”
Snapping your attention back, his question catches you off guard, making you chuckle, realising how you must have looked to a complete stranger, standing in water staring up at the sky.
“It's something my sister and I used to do when we needed advice.” Looking over at him sheepishly, you find he's still watching you, his curious gaze even more intense now.
“You talk to the moon goddess?” he asks, and there's an undertone of shock that ordinarily would have made you want to shy away from this conversation but instead you nod. Since losing everything, caring about what people think of you is the least of your worries.
“Does she ever answer?” he asks with a sadness in his eyes you really want to explore. You're skating the surface with this man but something is telling you to dive in deeper.
Smiling, you stare up at the pale moon, recalling every time you've gone to her in the past, needing guidance and every time she's answered, in one way or another, to give you clarity. Looking at Jimin, wanting nothing more in this moment than to explore the depths of his dark orbs – like the black lake before you, mirroring the sky. You want to get lost in him, wanting to know him in ways you've not wanted to know anyone else, you can see she's answered you, even now.
“She always answers,” you say simply.
He's so focused on the moon you can see the tension in his body, as if preparing to dive in.
“You should try it, I can go and give you some privacy–”
“No,” he says quickly, reaching out to gently grab your hand, “please stay.”
The warmth of his digits as they envelope yours brings you such great comfort, tears prick at your eyes, and all you can do is nod in response, for fear that words would open the dam.
“Does it have to be in the water?” he asks, curious but unsure in his hesitant gaze across the lake.
“The water and the moon have a powerful connection, how else do you expect her to hear you?”
When you turn to him you're shocked to see your face only inches from his and judging by the way his eyes pop, so is he, and yet, neither of you move. It's as if a magnet is pulling the two of you together, it feels harder keeping your distance than it does being close to him, something very odd considering you know nothing about him.
His breath fans out across your face, drawing you in. Looking down at his full lips, so smooth and inviting, you can't help but lean in. What is it about this man that makes you lose all composure?
I hear you, moon goddess, I hear you. She can be so loud sometimes.
“So, why don't we go and talk to her?” you whisper, snapping him out of whatever thought he was lost in as he stared down at your lips, too. “How about a swim?”
Standing, you head to the water’s edge, looking back at him over your shoulder. He watches you with bewildering fascination but his mouth teases a mischievous smile, and it sends a wave of excitement to your core.
Slowly, you remove your clothing piece by piece and let it drop to the ground, your movements are teasing and deliberate, almost as if the moon goddess herself is controlling your every move. When your naked skin shines in the moonlight, you glance back, pleased to see it's having the desired effect with his stare focused on you as his teeth dig into his bottom lip.
“Are you coming?” you ask before walking into the water until it's deep enough for you to swim out a little way. By the time you turn back to him, he's already half undressed. His chiseled torso glows in the white light, highlighting each ripple of muscles along his arms and down his stomach. The view has your core fluttering with its own excitement. Turning back to the moon to give him some privacy, you listen as the water ripples as he swims to you.
“So, what should I do?” he asks quietly, his voice deep with a heat that makes your skin feel hot, even in the cold water.
“Ask her your question,” you say, spinning to face him.
He hesitates a moment, suddenly seeming unsure of what it is he wants to ask. “You asked her a question just before you saw me,” he says, fingers touching yours under the surface as you both tread water. “You asked what you should do…did she answer?”
His genuine curiosity is sweet and endearing but with a cheeky smile, you reply, “I told you, she always does, now it's your turn, unless you want me to go…?” You start to swim away. He grabs your hand and pulls you back towards him until your bodies touch and your mouths are barely an inch apart.
Something happens in that moment, you can't quite explain it, but that pull you've been resisting since he came to you tonight, you decide to stop fighting it. Under the white light of the goddess, you press your lips to his, and that electric current runs rampant through you, sending a heat with it that rivals the way the sun burns your skin. His arms wind around your waist, holding you flush against him, you can feel every muscle ripple as you move in the water, trying to stay afloat. The feel of his lips, soft like the inside of a rose petal, and the way he tastes is unlike anything you've had before, better than any blood. If you could live off of this moment forever, you would.
Unable to get enough as you explore each other's mouths, your hands find their way into his hair, gripping the blonde locks and holding him firm in your grasp.
His tongue darts out and begins a romantic dance with yours, swirling around yours like the movements in a rumba. You can barely breathe, and yet, you did not want to stop kissing him, the urgency to continue powers your lips.
Suddenly, twigs snap back at the shore and both your heads snap in the direction, only to see a frozen deer staring right back at you. Chuckling, you use this moment to breathe, as the deer leaps off into the trees.
“You are like no one I've ever met,” he says, eyes full of awe.
Your heart swells, feeling twice its size. “I was thinking the same thing.”
He tucks a stray strand of hair behind your ear, fingertip skating down your cheek, neck and chest, sending a train of goosebumps rippling along in its path.
“Didn't you have a question for the goddess?” you ask, remembering why you were here in the first place.
He looks at you, searching your eyes, still holding you firmly in his arms. “I don't think I need to anymore.”
Pressing your lips against his, this kiss is different, full of love and hope and a need that chokes you.
“Give me your hand,” he requests against your lips, and you oblige. He lifts his hand while holding yours and tilts your wrists up to the moonlight, it takes a moment but when you see it, your heart almost stops.
There on both your wrists, arewere the matching pearlescent marks of fated lovers.
Pairing: RebellionLeader!KimHongjoong x Female!Reader
Summary: In a dystopian world controlled by a corrupt government, rebellion leader Hongjoong and his second-in-command, Shadow, fight side by side while secretly harbouring feelings for one another. When betrayal leads to Hongjoong's apparent death, Shadow sets out on a path of revenge…only to discover that the man she’s lost has one final secret.
Rating: 18+ (NSFW) Mature (MDNI)
Genres: friends to lovers / angst / smut / fluff / colleagues to lovers / Collab / apocalyptic au / Dystopia au / Fantasy
Warnings: main character death / Violence (gun, knife, hand to hand combat) / mentions of blood / mentions of kidnapping / mentions of holding a hostage / hinted at torture, abuse and sexual abuse of a main character / main character tortures someone / very brief mentions of experiments on children and child murder / characters being stabbed (inc main character) / using a knife to mark someone / explosions / bombs / strangulation / snapping necks / shooting someone kneecaps / vomiting / mentions of mind control /
Smut warnings: Unprotected sex / sex on furniture / making out / groping / clit play / cream pie
Word count: 9998
Banner: Me
Authors notes: This is an adrenaline fic which is part of a collaboration with writers in @lapydiaries Please see the other fics by @sanjoongie @anyamaris @potatomountain @flurrys-creativity @daemour @an-annyeoing-writer @defwoodz
“They won't get past me, Joong.” you stress, full of confidence, as you slap the back of your right hand against the palm of your left. The sound echoes in the deathly silent room and the four other faces in the room glance hesitantly in your direction.
“I’m sure it won't come to that.” Hongjoon replies, straight faced and watching you carefully from the corner of his one good eye.
If the government wants him dead, they can try but you will stop them, you have to. Besides, he's escaped their clutches many times before, he'll do it again with or without your help.
“Let's focus on the plan at hand.” He insists, looking away from you and down at the map on the table. Everyone around him sits up a little straighter, giving him their undivided attention. But you can't focus, not on this, not when you've all just found out the government has put a ‘kill on sight’ order out on him. You feel like you can't breathe, the air left your lungs as soon as he had said the words. But what set your nerves on edge was the strange calmness he exhibited, he’s never been one to panic, always cool, calm and collected in any situation but this felt different. There was an air of acceptance to it that you weren’t willing to accept, and you would fight it tooth and nail.
As you watch him relay the details of the next attempt to fight against the government regime, barely able to focus on the words being said, panic sets in. You ball your hands into fists at your side, attempting to swallow it but it remains, simmering away and concealing itself as rage. Anger you know how to deal with, it’s your go to, your M.O. but Hongjoong made you feel things you weren’t capable of managing. He made you feel a plethora of emotions you were ill equipped to handle.
You didn’t grow up in a happy, loving household, far from it, and that taught you at a young age not to rely on anyone, to always have you guard up and to play your cards close to your chest. But with Hongjoong that seemed impossible now, having become increasingly difficult over the years. He is the only person you can be yourself around and know there’s no judgement, he’s held you when you’ve cried, he’s calmed you down when you’ve been murderous but right now, you were terrified to show him how scared you truly felt. You’re the strong one, his protector, a soldier in the rebellion, you couldn’t afford to look weak with fear.
But he’s the leader of the rebellion, he needs to be strong and to fight, if he doesn’t then what’s left? Submit to the corrupt regime trying to get everyone to conform to their own sick and twisted ideals? Forming an army of super soldiers with no minds of their own to destroy anyone who steps out of line, and you’re supposed to, what…join them? The idea is laughable. Hongjoong didn’t build this rebellion because he wanted to change the law and make it better, he wanted to burn it down and write a new one, and you supported him ever since he saved you from that…that doesn’t matter. He found you and got you out and you will forever be indebted to him for that.
But that’s not the reason you’ve stayed by his side all these years.
At first, you needed to find a way to repay him, then the more time you spent with him, you found a close friend. Maybe the first real friend you’ve ever had. He taught you to do things you never thought you’d be capable of, he taught you to channel your rage and make it work for you instead of fighting against it. He gave you that power and freedom of not needing to rely on anyone else and in doing so you became your own protector. Naturally, you spent a lot of time together, honing your skills, and you got to see a side of him he never seemed to show anyone, a raw vulnerability you quickly came to love.
So, now you stay because there is nowhere else you want to be. You made the choice years ago that your entire heart belonged to him, not that he’d ever know. Always so focused on the cause, just one of the things you loved about him, but lately something about him has been off…different. There didn’t seem to be any fire in him anymore, no drive to keep pushing, that was unlike him and it terrifies you.
You want to help, you want to fix it but you have no idea how. So, you’re stuck in limbo, feeling lost and useless. At his side as usual and where you will remain but waiting for the impending doom you can feel looming in the distance. You don’t know what’s coming but something is, and when it does you will be ready for it.
*
He knows you will put yourself in the path of a bullet for him and it turns his stomach every time he thinks about it. He can barely look at you. Every time he sees your worried expression he almost confesses right then and there but he can’t. You trust him too much. You've built such a companionship over the years, he’s not sure who needs who more at this point. But it’s definitely him.
A life without you would be meaningless for him. Even thinking that seems absurd. He’s someone who’s never been in love, never had time for it. Never even known what love has felt like in any form…until he met you.
There’s no one else like you and he loves that. You’re remarkable and unforgettable, you blaze like an inferno, with a heat that sears everyone. You’re a force to be reckoned with, one he does not and would not want to control. You’re an unusual blend of chaos – your fists first, ask questions later, approach to most things isn’t the way he would choose to resolve issues, but it kept him on his toes – and home. You are the person he searches for after a hard day, the face he looks for in the crowd, the one he shares his thoughts and dreams with, the one he would love to fall asleep holding, making you feel protected for once.
The news of his head on the chopping block came as no shock to him, the regime has wanted him dead for years, but watching the fear in your eyes – something he hasn’t seen since the day he found you in that god-forsaken den.
He thinks back to that fateful day. Hearing rumours of a group of ex-government soldiers, hiding out and causing havoc, never did he imagine that he’d find you, chained up and kept prisoner. The look of fear as he approached you made his chest hurt and his stomach churn. The way you quivered with wide eyes darting from face to face, like a trapped animal, and flinched as he reached out to release your binds. He still remembers the raw hated he felt as his eyes traversed the bruises that marred your skin, some in the shape of fingers around your throat and wrists. It made him feel an anger he didn't think he could control, and what he did to those men that day was a line he'd never crossed before but he did and he doesn't regret it.
He had taken you back to the rebel base, where you had clung to him, not leaving his side. He didn't mind, he was just glad you didn't seem to be afraid of him. He knows he can look intimidating to some with his eye patch and scar peeking out from under it. But you didn't seem to mind, you never have, even when he's not wearing it, you never make him feel self conscious about his milky eye or the fact he can't see out of it.
He had led you to a room of your own, sat you down on the bed where you curled up, hugging your legs, eyes trained on the window, but he gave you some space to settle. When he returned a couple of hours later, the fresh clothes he had left on the edge of the bed were still untouched, you remained, still sitting in the same place, eyes unmoving as he entered, almost catatonic.
Your wounds needed tending to, and so he had run you a bath. He cautiously led you into the bathroom where you walked like a zombie and just stood there. He felt so helpless, he could only imagine the trauma you went through at that place and he would have given anything, even then, to have taken that away from you and erased it completely. What he wouldn't give for it to have been him to have suffered in your place.
He had said he would bring another woman in to help you, but you had caught his hand and shook your head. And for the first time you had spoken. Just one word in a raspy voice “Stay.”
You began to undress, he turned to give you some privacy in the small room but before he did, he could see the extent of your injuries and a fury rose from the depths in him again.
He had helped you in, unsteady on your feet he had to practically hold you up. But as soon as you were in the warm water he could see you relax into it. It was a relief, just to see that slight bit of peace on your face. He had sat in there with you while you soaked, you even seemed to doze off at one point before jolting awake, frantically looking around the room and clinging onto the sides of the bathtub in panic. He was at your side, holding your hand that you gripped onto so tight and stroking your matted hair to reassure you. He had washed your hair for you and combed out as many of the knots as he could but most of them had to be cut out later, giving you a shoulder length style that seemed to suit you.
He had brought their female doctor in to examine you, he had left the room for that, hoping you would open up to her about what had happened and when she had emerged the horror on her face told him everything he needed to know.
That first night you had asked him to stay and how could he refuse when you looked terrified of your own shadow.
He slept in your room the first two weeks you were at the rebellion, woke to your screams and sobs, and would hold you until you fell asleep again in his arms.
Once you had gotten used to the place and some of the people, he stopped sleeping in your room but instead moved his bedroom to the room next to yours, hoping it would help make you feel safe.
You followed him around everywhere but he didn't mind. You began talking more, asking him things. You were so curious about the work they were all doing and soon enough you wanted a part in it, but your rage became apparent very quickly. He bore the brunt of it on more than one occasion but he didn't mind, he understood. So, he showed you ways to channel it better, but when he saw what you could do, he knew you were someone special. You may not have adrenaline powers but you were closer than anyone else would get.
You spent everyday together, it became routine. He’d bring you coffee in the morning like your own personal alarm clock, but he loved seeing your tired eyes, face puffy from sleep. He'd wait while you showered and dressed and then you would begin whatever planning or tasks you had to do together and at some point over the years, you began to protect him.
Out in the field you were a force to be reckoned with and he loved to watch it, ruthless and powerful and more beautiful every time. When he had nightmares, seeing the people in the rebellion that had been lost, you'd be the one to come in and calm him, wrap your arms around him and he'd wake in the morning, with his face buried against you.
There may have been a time when you needed him but that had long passed, it's him who needs you. But with the worry of what you would do in retaliation to his death, it plagued him.
He can’t sleep at night and not with the concern of his own life ending, but at the thought of you dying trying to prevent it. Every time he closes his eyes he sees your lifeless body behind his lids, haunting him each time he looks at your beautiful face. Every flawless feature turned cold and grey, your blinding smile - gone. He can’t bear it.
Your presence as his shadow, once a comfort, now felt like a hindrance, but not for him, for you. It made you a walking target but he knew if he mentioned anything about keeping you safe, it would only fall on deaf ears. You would follow him into the shadows of hell if you could, and there was only one thing he could think of to stop that from happening.
*
His heart pounds as he listens to Mingi’s voice from the phone at his ear. A deep fury begins to rise in him, something he hasn’t been able to feel for some time, not since the images of your demise keep him in a choke hold. He hangs up without a word and shoves the phone back in his pocket before leaving his quarters as quietly as he can, as to not wake you and making a beeline to one room in particular. Even at this late hour he doesn't knock politely like he usually would but instead slips inside unnoticed.
He stalks over to the man sleeping soundly on his bunk and leans down to him. Taehyung. A man he took in, housed, clothed and fed. A man he has trusted, only to be betrayed by him all along. He watches him, breathing in and out, clearly feeling safe in his web of lies he’s spun around him. He pulls his knife out of his holster on his belt and brings it down slowly to Taehyung. The silver of the blade glints dangerously in the moonlight streaking through the gaps in the slacked blinds. Holding it to the man’s throat, just in time for his eyes to fly open in panic and a scream to get smothered by the hand clamping around his mouth. Hongjoong had a plan for him tonight, and that was to find out everything he had told those that sent him here to begin with. By any means necessary.
*
The fear in Taehyung’s eyes is obvious and if Hongjoong’s honest with himself, he would admit that he’s enjoying it. He’s never been a cruel person, never wanting to hurt people without cause, he wasn’t even keen on unnecessary violence, although he’d given into that beast on a few occasions, but in his desperation to keep you safe, he’s prepared to be ruthless.
“I have all night, Taehyung.” Hongjoong says darkly, sitting on the chair in front of the frightened man. He spreads his legs wide as he watches and waits for him to talk, flipping his pocketknife between his fingers.
“I-I’ve t-told you everything.” he stammers, blood running from his nose past his lips until it drops off his chin onto his top. The red spots seem luminous against the white of his t-shirt.
Hongjoong takes off his eye patch, revealing his eye with the scar that runs from his forehead and ends an inch or so under his right eye.
“You know,” he starts, “going blind in this eye was probably the most painful experience I've ever had.” He stands and walks around the man bound to the chair. “As they sliced through my retina,” he pauses and hisses, “I can’t describe what it was like, the burning. It felt like someone had lit my face on fire, and it would not stop.” Hongjoong pauses, crouching down in front. “Maybe I should just show you, then you’ll know what I mean.”
“N-no, no. I’ve told you everything!” he strains against the chains but to no use, they’re not budging. “I can prove it.”
This stops Hongjoong in his tracks. “Go on.”
Taehyung relaxes slightly in his seat, “I have a phone, hidden in my room, in my mattress, it’s how I contact them. You can see everything I've told them.”
Hongjoong rushes out of the room so fast he’s like a ghost floating down the halls in the middle of the night. He wastes no time flipping the mattress and slicing it open with his knife, it doesn't take him long before the little grey object falls out and clatters to the floor. He snatches it up and strides out, down to the tech room in their basement.
“Can you unlock this phone?” Hongjoong asks their tech expert, Minho.
He looks down at it, glasses perched on the end of his nose and nods. “Piece of cake.”
He takes it and connects it to his computer, thrums some keys on his keyboard and then leans back in his leather chair, pointing at the screen.
“Show me all correspondence received.” Hongjoong orders.
“There's nothing.” Minho replies.
“Are you sure?”
The man nods. “Positive. Nothing has come into this phone, no texts, no calls, nothing. There's not even any saved contacts.”
That put Hongjoong’s mind at ease a little more. “What about outgoings?”
Minho fingers thrum on the keyboard once again, “No nothing.”
Hongjoong simply stared at him. Something about this didn't feel right, what kind of mole hides a phone but doesn't use it? It didn't make any sense.
“Search for anything that may have been erased.”
Minho nods, face full of concentration as he stares up at the screen. A big smile spreads across his face, “bingo.” Before quickly disappearing into a look of shock and turning the screen around for Hongjoong to see.
“Look at the message time stamped today at 9:45.”
Hongjoong's eyes scan down to the last message. Fury blazens, burning his insides as he stalks out of the room with eyes only for Taehyung. Lying sack of shit. He didn't mention your name or a description apart from that you were a female but he did pair it with the words Hongjoong had been dreading, ‘second in command’. It may not be much but it's enough to put a target on your back. As his feet rush through the building, he relives every moment with you, wondering where he could have stopped this from happening, wondering where he went wrong. But there was something else, something more pressing, the last message carried something else in it…their location. The rebel’s base has been compromised.
*
Hongjoong drags an unconscious and bleeding Taehyung through the hallways, leaving a trail of red behind him. He pulls him to the back exit, where he had arranged to meet Mingi, and hand him over as a hostage, after all it's what Mingi does best.
“Keep him alive.” Hongjoong orders as he lets him drop onto the floor between them. The man lands with a sickening thump.
Mingi nods then laughs as he stares at the man and the message carved across his torso. “Traitor.” He reads, “couldn't think of anything more subtle, Joong?”
“Get as far away from here as quickly as you can. We've been compromised.” Hongjoong says watching Mingi lift the man over his shoulder as if he weighs no more than a backpack.
“And if I don't hear from you…?”
“I don't care, kill him, cut him loose, it won't matter.” Hongjoong says carelessly. He has bigger things to worry about right now and all of them begin and end with you.
Mingi nods, pulls a scarf over his face and begins his journey across the dunes. “Don’t die!” He calls over his shoulder, disappearing into a flurry of sand.
Hongjoong heads back inside, racing back through the building and straight to your dorm. There is something he needs to do before setting his plan in motion, and the urgency coursing through him has him pounding his fist against your door. When you pull it open, irritation and confusion marrs your sleepy face, but is soon replaced with surprise and concern when you see him.
However, it's the floral nightdress that steals his attention. He's never seen you in anything but your practical clothes, comfortable, moveable and ready to fight in combats and plain tops.
His eyes skate down the dark fabric to the lace frill around the bottom that teases at your thighs, his throat is suddenly the dessert and he swallows to try and ease it.
“Hongjoong? What's wrong? Are you ok?” you ask him through the gap in the door.
“We need to talk.”
*
Those four little words he's said have your stomach plummeting. The blood on his shirt combined with the critical look you're met with have your mind racing, considering a wild number of possibilities and none of them bringing you any kind of good news.
You open the door for him and grab your robe, pulling it tightly around you, not that it helps, you've never been in something so intimate in front of him before. He steps in, eyes traversing your outfit, probably thinking how ridiculous you look, it seems apparent when he looks quickly away. Any hope you did have that he might reciprocate your feelings die at his reaction. He stares off into the corner of your room, clearing his throat.
“There’s something I need to tell you. And the order I'm about to give is exactly that, there's no space for arguing.” He says, glancing hesitantly in your direction.
You nod, not liking where this is going at all. That feeling of dread you've sensed for weeks, it's finally happening, whatever he tells you to do you're not going to like.
“We had a mole and the base’s location has been compromised. The regime knows where we are and they are coming.”
This wasn't what you were expecting to hear. “Shit,” you mumble, hitting the side of your fist against the wall, “who was the mole?”
“Taehyung.” He says slow and controlled, you can see the rage he feels by the tic of his jaw.
“Mother fucker. I'll destroy him for this.” You say, heart pounding a fury through you you'd be more than happy to unleash.
“He's irrelevant right now. Mingi has him–”
“Mingi? Why would you trust him with this?” Your anger takes on a new direction, aimed at Hongjoong for keeping you out of this. He involves you in everything, why start excluding you now?
“It doesn't matter, Shadow!” He snaps, pinching the bridge of his nose and letting out a frustrated sigh, “I just need you to listen.”
Swallowing your pride, you attempt to ease your wrath by staying silent, crossing your arms across your chest and waiting for him to continue.
“I'm going to raise the alarm and when I do, I need you to lead everyone through the tunnels to our back up location.”
That rock forming in your stomach drops. Here it is, the words you’ve been waiting for, come to life in front of you. “I won't leave you here, Hongjoong.”
He turns to you, taking a step forward, you can feel the heat radiating off him as you stare at the veins protruding in his neck. “I'm not asking, Shadow, I mean it. As my second in command it is your job.”
“My job is to protect you!” You yell, poking him in the chest as you take your own step forward, leaving only a hairs width between your bodies.
“For once, don't make this anymore difficult for me, please.”
You laugh, “Difficult for you? You're the one sending me away, how is that difficult for you?”
He stops, snapping his mouth shut, eyebrows pinched together. “I'm trying to keep you alive, Shadow.”
“Bullshit. You're just tired of fighting, you're giving up.”
Standing toe to toe, both of your chests rising and falling with each quick breath, hearts pounding in unison, he does something so out of character, it stops you in your tracks. He reaches out and tucks a stray strand of hair behind your ear, an action so gentle it has your cheeks heating.
“I'm not giving up, I just have something I want to protect more than myself; more than any cause, more than anything, because if anything happens to you, I really wouldn't have anything left to fight for.” His thumb brushes across your cheek, and all you can do is stare up at him in disbelief. “I wanted to tell you in a different way, at a different time, but it's been four years and no moment ever felt like the right one.” He holds your face, eyes unwavering and flitting between yours, “and now we're out of time.” His words hang heavy in the air and tears prick at your eyes. “‘I love you’ doesn't feel quite enough to explain how I feel…” he smiles shyly, “but if something happens and I haven't at least tried, I will regret it.”
In struggling to explain his own feelings he has still managed to mirror yours, a disbelief lurks in the back of your mind but you shut it down. How could you not believe him when he's looking at you and waiting for a response with such a raw vulnerability. You hardly recognise the man in front of you.
A deep, hidden urgency arises making you act just as uncharacteristic, if you are to be separated from him then you would pour every ounce of feeling you have for him into this moment. Leaning up, you press your lips to his and he stiffens, frozen beneath your touch, it's enough to make you believe that maybe you misunderstood his words, only for a split second, before his lips start moving against yours. A heat erupts inside you, burning and making it hard to breathe. It turns into a frenzy, a clash of tongue and teeth as you move messily across the room. His hands roam down your body and when they reach the back of your thighs he lifts them out from under you. Wrapping them around his waist, your back crashes against the cold stone wall, making you gasp, as he sits you on your chest of drawers. His hands travel up to your hips, gripping the flesh while still somehow managing to be gentle. You can feel his desperation digging against the inside of your thigh, you need him, now.
“Hongjoong, please.” You beg, grappling with his belt.
*
Hearing those words fall from your lips he could just about stand upright, this all felt like some kind of fever dream. To be kissing you and touching you like this after all these years of longing…
You manage to undo his trousers and your hand reaches into his pants to free him. Just the warmth of your digits around him had him bucking up into you. You open your legs and wrap them around his, pulling him further against you, until he's pressed up against the wooden draws.
He lifts your silky nightdress and robe, bunching it around your waist, as you manoeuvre him to your entryway. He pauses, reluctantly pulling his lips away from yours, “Are you sure?”
You stare up at him with such a heated expression the phrase ‘if looks could kill’ comes to mind and he would definitely be incinerated.
“Don’t make me wait any longer, Hongjoong.” you reply, stroking your finger down the scar on his eye.
He captures your lips again, pouring his entire self into the kiss as he repositions himself at your entryway.
He can feel your arousal allowing him to slide swiftly inside you, he wants to stop and savour the moment, to watch the way you react when he bottoms out but now is not the time. You both need each other too much. Instead, he begins to move, in and out, faster and faster, loving the way you moan against his mouth.
He wishes you were naked so he could appreciate you completely. If there was more time he would worship you until the sun came up, pry his name from your lips as many times as he could, explore your naked body with his mouth, his tongue, everything.
You roll your hips joining his movements and hongjoong can't help but drag his teeth across your bottom lip.
His hand finds your rear, grabbing the supple flesh and using his grip to pull you deeper on him with every thrust.
The feel of you around him, so tight, warm and wet, it takes all his focus not to finish right there.
Your lips break from his as you lean backwards, holding the back of the drawers for support. He takes advantage of this, holding up your nightgown and watching as he slides in and out of you, a slight he could easily get lost in. He coats his thumb in your arousal and uses it to make fast circles against your clit.
The moans coming from you are like music to his ears, he would descend into madness if he could never hear them again.
“Don't stop, Hongjoong.” You gasp and hearing his name like that has his eyes rolling in his head.
Your legs clamp around him before suddenly, you're unravelling around him, squeezing him so tight he can no longer hold back, and he releases inside you. Ripples of pleasure cascade through him as he watches you ride out your high.
He buries his face in your neck, suddenly unsure what to do now. He knows what he has to do but he doesn't want to, how can he now after this?
Your hand holds the back of his neck, as you pepper kisses against the side of his head. Surely, fate is teasing him by allowing him to see what he could have had all these years if he had just been brave enough, only to take it away once he's got it.
Your lifeless body appears beneath his eyelids and that snaps him out of it. He needs to take charge and make the hard decision for everyone.
“Shadow, I need you to get dressed and lead everyone out…now.” he says looking into your eyes.
“I don't want to leave you.” You whisper, eyes desperate and pleading.
He strokes the side of your face. “I know, but it's what needs to be done.”
He slides out of you, feeling cold and incomplete, as he adjusts his trousers. He watches you rush around, throwing clothes and boots on before looking back at him again with tears brimming your eyes. He's at your side in an instant.
“I promise, I will find you, you hear me?”
You nod and a tear escapes, running slowly down your cheek. He can't bear it, so he kisses you again and holds you against him before rushing out of the room, without looking back for fear he'd change his mind completely.
*
Once you hear the bombs going off you almost turn and go back but these people need a leader in the absence of Joong. You aren't sure it should be you but you're here…for now. Ushering everyone through the tunnels, a small child falls in front of you, and you scoop her up before she gets hurt, carrying her the rest of the way.
You make it safely to the second base, and hand the girl back to her parents. Your thoughts are immediately back on Hongjoong. Only a handful of men stayed behind with him, it wasn't enough, you would have argued given the chance.
But you focus on everyone else, handing out food packs and supplies as evenly as you can, until only three men come running, covered in dirt, battered and bruised, hands on knees as they try to catch their breath. Three, just three. You wait along with everyone else for more footsteps heading this way, but the silence is thick and choking.
The man at the front lifts his head, Eden, his eyes search the crowd and when they land on you, the tormented look he gives you tells you everything you need to know. You simply shake your head, refusing to believe it even if deep down in your gut you know this is the dread you've been waiting for.
He walks over to you, limping, watching you carefully with soft, sympathetic eyes, “I'm sorry, Shadow but he's dead.”
“No.” you say quietly, taking a step away from him, aware of the panicked murmurs surrounding you.
“The bombs were coming so fast and part of the building collapsed. We tried to get to him, but we couldn't. I'm so, so sorry.”
Your throat constricts, you try to suck in air but you can't, even though you can hear your ragged breaths coming fast but your chest feels tight and suffocating. The floor seems to be swaying beneath your feet and you move unsteadily back towards the tunnels. Bile rises up before you can stop it and escapes from your mouth, retching in the entrance of the tunnel, Eden comes up behind you and hesitantly touches your back. You shrug him off, an inferno of rage brewing inside you but your disbelief outweighs that. You need to see for yourself, only then can you accept it.
“It's not safe to go back there.” Eden says behind you as you stare into the dark passageway. “The government are all over it.”
“I have to go, I have to see.” you rasp out.
“You’re the leader now, you can't leave them.”
He's right but the trouble is without hongjoong you don't care enough about anything. “You're my second, when I'm not here, you're in charge.” you say over your shoulder before you jog off into the dark.
“They'll kill you if they see you!” He calls out but you're too far gone to care.
Your legs power you forward even though they wobble with each step making you unsteady, you use the curved wall of the tunnel to keep you upright. The stone feels like it's vibrating as you rush along it, but it's actually you who's trembling uncontrollably. Eden must be wrong, he has to be.
You come to a fork in the tunnel and you split off choosing the route you know leads you outside rather than into the building. It's still dark out, you can use that to your advantage. You emerge at the back of the building and make your way around to see the front, giving it a wide birth. The air is dusty, and already feels choking as you watch the clouds of smoke roll away. Government agents are everywhere, counting them as you move into the shadows, six…seven…that you can see around the outside. You pause behind a large rock, stuck in the sand and let two of the agents pass. As soon as they're gone you're running off to another bit of stone from a demolished building and taking cover there.
The two agents sit there mumbling to each other when one of their radios start up. “Target confirmed, I repeat, target confirmed, HJ was seen in the building, over.” The voice says and your heart stills.
Oh god, they’re talking about Hongjoong. Your fingers cling onto the rock you're leaning against, hoping it will keep you upright while your legs feel like they could give way.
The agent picks up the radio and clicks the button, “Confirm target status. Do we still have a live target? Over.”
The silence seems to stretch on for an unbearably long time, you bite your fist the more the seconds tick by trying to keep from screaming, as soon as you hear the static on the radio your heart races so fast you feel like it could leap right out of your chest.
“Negative. Target is KIA, I repeat target is KIA. Over.”
The world around you falls apart, your knees giveaway and you sink down into the ground, a strangled sob escapes echoing into the quiet. You want to scream up into the sky and ask why? Why him and why now? He was a good man who wanted to help people, that’s all, he didn’t deserve what these people have done to him! A dangerous heat burns inside you, starting right at your core and growing so big it squeezes the air out of your lungs. Staring down at your trembling hands, you watch as they ball into fists, as if they don’t belong to you.
A click of a gun clocking beside you, draws your attention as you look up into the eyes of one of the agents, you watch the side of his mouth turn up in a devilish smile, so sure that he has you. Rage lights your veins, muscles straining against your fight for resolve, but that cocky smirk switches something inside you, something you try to keep buried but today, with hongjoong gone, you have no reason to do that anymore.
The agent says something to you, but you can’t hear it, the blood rushing through your ears deafens you as you snatch out and grab his gun, pulling it and him to you, using his body as a shield. When the agent on the other side starts shooting at you they enter the man pressed up against you, and you watch that smirk fade as the light in his eyes disappear too.
Pulling your knife out of its holster, you throw it at the other agent, straight into his throat, he falls making a gargled sound. You shove the dead agent off you and run over to get your knife, pulling it out of him roughly, leaving him struggling for air with blood pumping out of the hole in his neck.
Other agents begin to descend on you but you welcome it, you'll make them all pay for what they've done.
Running full pelt towards an agent, legs powering you forward like a machine, and before he even has time to raise his gun towards you, you lunge at him. Both of you fall behind another broken wall, he tries to wrestle out from under you but you quickly snake your arm around his neck. Squeezing him hard, his legs flay wildly but soon enough he goes limp. You let him slump to the ground as you unhook his gun strap from him and peek out from behind the stone. A few agents are closing in on your left, you roll across the ground hearing their shots ring out around you before crouching behind a burnt out car. You aim the gun and shoot all three of them in the knee caps and smile when they collapse in agony. Throwing the gun away – you didn't care for them, you prefer fighting up close – you glance at the concealed entrance of the tunnel you came out of and make your way in that direction. An agent cuts you off aiming at you and shoots, you dodge but slightly too late as you feel the bullet graze your shoulder. This only has the big ball of fury emblazoning in your chest. You leap on him, grabbing the sides of his head and twist hard, hearing the snap, and as he falls you roll off him. Another agent grabs your arm and pins you to his chest, holding a knife up to your throat. You stop all movement but this is not the first time you've been in this position and you know just what to do. Grabbing the arm that has the knife, you force it away from your neck and kick at his legs backwards. His shin makes a sickening crack and he screams, falling backwards. You snatch the knife away and pull out your own as another agent rushes towards you. Circling out of his grasp you stab him repeatedly in the side, until he too, ends up another body decorating the floor. You move closer to your destination, but another man cuts you off, you spin around to the back of him and slice his throat before shoving him to the ground. Another agent pops up in your view a few feet away, you watch as he pulls a pin out of a grenade and in that split second, you throw your knife. It lands right in his chest, sending him stumbling backwards before the grenade explodes in his hand, taking two more men with him.
You freeze behind the wall of the place you called your home, full of memories with you and Hongjoong.
No more movement, no footsteps rushing your way, just the screams of the men whose kneecaps you shot. The coast is clear…for now. You head over to the only three unlucky enough to be alive, enjoying the fear in their eyes as you close the distance between you. Grabbing their scruffs one by one you drag them over to the nearby posts outside of the now crumbling building you used to live in.
You spot some rope hanging off of one with a shredded government flag tied to it and feel inspired. Pulling it down, you use it to tie all three men together by the feet. Their begs and pleas fall on deaf ears as you crouch down next to one, grabbing his face roughly in yours and pulling out your knife.
“You can tell them,” you say darkly, “Hongjoong may be gone but the rebellion still lives on and we will destroy you all.”
You slice through his dark-coloured uniform, ripping a piece off at the bottom, balling it up and shoving the material in his mouth. Taking a seat on his thighs, you pin his arms with your feet and hold his face right, before taking out your knife and carving the words ‘child killer’ across his forehead. He struggles beneath you, muffled screams fill the darkness of the night. The other two beg and plead but all you do is smile. Smile for Hongjoong, for everyone they've killed in the rebellion, for all the children they've kidnapped and experimented on, for everyone they've taken and tortured, for all the women they've abused and raped. Each man gets a different message carved into him, before you string them upside down on the post and leave them for their friends to find.
As you head back, covered in blood, taking a slow walk back through the tunnels, you listen to the radio you had stolen from one of them, waiting eagerly to hear when they've been discovered.
*
A knock on the door breaks you out of your immersion from your current task, and without you saying a word Eden hesitantly enters, stopping a few feet away from you.
“Sorry to bother you, but we need to get word to San about Hongjoong and let him know our location has changed.”
The last thing you needed to be doing was telling people Hongjoong was dead, you could barely think the words let alone say them out loud.
“We could send a coded message to Wooyoung,” he suggests, “I'm sure San will go to his safe house at some point, if not, Wooyoung will know where he is.”
“Yep, fine.” You reply nonchalantly, eyes down at the paper scattered all over the floor.
“What are you doing?” Eden asks as you frantically move between maps, circling and drawing lines of possible routes.
“I’m making a plan.” You say through gritted teeth, jaw set so tight you have to refrain from pushing your pen right through the paper. You needed something to do, you could not just hide out and lay low, you'd go insane and take everyone with you. You're at a loss why you don't feel better after what had transpired last night at the base. You thought hurting them would help but it doesn't, you don't feel anything, only numb.
“For what?” He asks, you can feel him at your side, peeking over your hunched form. You must look like a crazed goblin the way you're crouched down on the floor, bent protectively over your papers, but you don't care. The only thing you care about right now is revenge.
“We're going to attack them this time.”
“Didn't you already do that?” He replies dryly. He had been impressed when you'd made it back alive, even with you returning looking like something straight out of a horror movie.
“It's not enough.” You retort, feeling the anger bubbling away inside you about to boil over.
You prepare yourself for the backlash, you had already rehearsed your argument in the shower, of how you would get your point across, but it doesn't come. Looking over your shoulder you're met with his solemn face.
“For Hongjoong?” he asks quietly and you nod.
“For Hongjoong.”
*
Diving straight into planning the attack, like an ostrich you buried your head in the sand with your grief, not willing to deal with it, not wanting to. That meant admitting Hongjoong wasn't coming back and you weren't ready to do that. Right now, you were channelling all your rage into this attack.
Standing on the edge of your old rebel base they've now taken over, it makes you sick to your stomach, this was your home for years, they have no right to take it from you. You are not foolish enough to believe you'll get it back but they will not be keeping it, that's for sure. You will hit them hard with everything you've got today and make sure people talk about this for years to come, regardless of what happens to you in the process.
The cover of darkness works in your favour as you all surround the area. You'd made sure when you told your plans to the rest of the rebellion they knew this was a volunteer mission only, no one was forced, no one was guilted. Every single person is here because they want to be, and boy, did you have some serious fighters on your side.
The plan is to fight quietly and take out as many as we can without raising the alarm, if you are honest you didn't care how long that lasted, you just wanted to make them bleed. You wanted to make them hurt.
You nod to the others that you can see and sign for them all to begin, the message gets passed along the chain as each of you move silently to a nearby target.
Your footsteps are feather light as you close the distance between you and one of them. An agent surveys the area, you sneak up behind him and wrap your arm around his throat, squeezing as hard as you can. It doesn't take long for him to give up the fight and slump in your arms. Laying him gently on the ground you move to the next one and repeat the action, it almost seems mechanical as you move within the shadows. Until suddenly there's a cry, a call for help from one of the agents. The sound pleases you, sneaking around and taking them quietly did not bring you the same satisfaction as seeing the fear and pain you inflict.
Everything happens so fast after that. It's almost as if someone switched you onto auto pilot as you ran, ducking for cover and taking agents out as fast and aggressively as you can.
Grenades explode around you and it's almost as if some higher power, Hongjoong himself in the beyond, was protecting you. The way you move, managing to evade bullets, arrows and knives, it didn't feel real.
Your soldiers utilise their strength using their powers, you could see bolts of electricity shoot out of their finger tips and send agents' bodies flying. Others held flames in their hands and blew fire around the base watching it spread viciously as the regime screams echoed through the night. The healers concealed nearby were completely focused and keeping them alive and you were attacking anyone who came at them.
You scan the area as you run around the perimeter and see Eden inside the building, three agents surrounding him. Your legs burn as you push them like you never have before, charging right at them. As you close in you jump, kicking your legs out as you fly through the air and straight into the back of the agent, sending him flying off across the room, head slamming against the wall, spraying blood everywhere. You and Eden take on one each, a mess of punches and kicks until more of the regime seems to appear from nowhere.
Pulling out your knives, you take out as many as you can, using them as shields for their own bullets when you can, but suddenly it seems like you might be losing. You glance over at Eden, being choked by one agent and kicking another, everything seems to move in slow motion. A bomb goes off outside, stealing your attention as someone hits you hard in your side, stealing the air from your lungs. You fold over, a sharp, stinging pain makes you cling to it, but when you feel wet you look down at your crimson hand. Scarlet droplets decorate the sandy ground beneath you, and for a moment you're frozen, suddenly unsure what to do. A door to your left swings open and shouts echo through the building, as more people run through, taking out agents in their path, only, they're not your soldiers.
More people here to help, who could have sent them? That was a question for later. But with your new allies you find a new fire alight inside and straightening up you charge at those nearby.
You're a deadly force as you snap necks and slams heads against walls. Spinning, you see an agent make a play for his gun but you grab his throat, lifting him off the ground before slamming him down onto it and stamping a foot over his neck.
It's only then you feel the tightness in your chest, the way you seem to have to suck in each breath and the weakness of your legs when you collapse to the ground.
Another agent spots you and makes a beeline, you try to stand but you can't, all you can do is watch as he stalks towards you, knife in hand ready. You thought you would feel fear in this moment but you don't, there's a strange sense of calmness that washes over you as you prepare to meet your end. As the agent raises the knife about to plunge it in, you close your eyes, Hongjoong's face appears behind your lids. You are ready to be with him again. But nothing happens. Your eyes snap open and you're face to face with the agent, looking into his pain and terror filled eyes as blood seeps out of his mouth and dribbles down his chin. You watch as he collapses in front you. Your vision blurs and the pressure in your chest makes the room spin as you start to fall backwards. Something catches you, arms, strong arms and as you look up, you see a hazy Hongjoong come to meet you at your end and take you to wherever people go after.
*
Something rouses you but trying to get your eyes to open feels impossible, they seem to be weighted down and stuck shut with glue. You focus back on the sound, a whisper tickling at your ear, “Open your eyes, please.” They plead with you, followed by the soft press of lips against your forehead. There's something familiar here but you can't quite reach it and the more you try the further away it seems to get.
You want to reassure the person, to let them know you can hear them but trying to form any words feels equally difficult.
“Shadow, wake up. Come on, my love.” Another whisper sounds, full of sadness and desperation. You know this voice, you know it but you can't place it. Trying to think feels like you're wading through mud, and you can feel yourself being pulled under the blanket of sleep again but you resist. An urgency to follow what's being asked of you rises up and makes you determined.
Focusing all your energy into one task, you will your eyelids to open and very slowly, they do. Bright white light blinds you making them snap shut again.
“No, no, no, baby. Keep them open.” the voice says, breath fanning out across your face.
He calls out for a doctor, the sound piercing through your skull like a sword and making you wince.
You try again, prying your eyelids apart, the light hits you but you force them to stay open, blinking rapidly, and focusing on the painted white ceiling. You stare at a thin crack in the ceiling, trying to get your eyes to follow along its line until it stops at the walls edge.
“Shadow,” a different voice sounds, a woman's voice, “Shadow can you hear me?”
A face leans over you, familiar again, her eyes flit between the two of yours.
“Shadow, if you can hear me, blink twice.”
You do as she says and she smiles, “Good, that's good. I'm just going to shine a light in your eyes, I know it won't be nice but I'll be quick, ok?”
You blink twice again and she nods happily, fishing a small flashlight out of the breast pocket of her white jacket. The light blinds you for a moment before she whisks it away again leaving you seeing spots of green decorating the ceiling.
“Can you try and talk for me?” She says back in your eye view.
Your mouth opens, lips trembling as if they haven't been used for quite sometime. You're both shocked and pleased to hear a hoarse, “yes.” in response.
“Perfect.” She beams at you, “Do you know who I am?” She asks, a slight frown pinching between her eyes.
You think about it for a moment, you do know her, everything about her brings you a familiar sense of comfort, your mind races trying to land on a name. “M-Mi-sun.” You manage to rasp out, throat so dry it's as if you swallowed a cavern of sand.
Relief smooths her face into a relaxed smile. “Good. And you know who you are?”
You give her a pointed, unamused look and she laughs. “Humour me, please.”
“Shadow.”
She nods, satisfied with that. “You gave us quite the scare.” She looks over at something next to you, her expression changing from one of relief, to worry in seconds before focusing back on you.
“We need to talk about some things that have come to light.”
Your heart starts racing as images explode behind your eyes, a machine in the room seems to sound as erratic as your pounding organ, with a high pitched beep that hurts your head.
The attack. The one you plotted and rushed into, hell bent on revenge in your grief. It all comes back to you, flooding your mind and filling it with so many emotions you can't keep up with them, tears prick at your eyes, burning as you try to keep them in. “Hongjoong.” A sob escapes as you grab fistfuls of the sheets around you, the pain ripping through you like wildfire. Your insides burn, the blood in your veins feels like lava pumping through your body, you want to scream and cry and fight–
“I'm here.” A voice beside you says and snaps you out of your misery, and stops every chaotic thought you were spiraling into. Slowly, you turn your head towards the sound and when your eyes meet his, the world around you falls away, crumbling, but you're not afraid.
“I thought death would not be as uncomfortable as this.” You whisper, throat protesting at even that.
Hongjoong smiles then, a bright, beaming smile you've never seen before. “My love, you're not dead, and neither am I.” He reaches out to cup your face, wiping away an errand tear trailing down your cheek.
Your throat swells as if he has you in a choke hold as you try to fathom his words. You can barely suck any air into your lungs, they're moving too fast, trying to catch up to your racing heart.
“But…” you rasp, “...the building…it collapsed…you were in there...”
He shakes his head, “No, it was all a lie. I'm so, so sorry Shadow.” He says, his eyes brimming with tears, eyebrows knitted together in anguish. “Atfer I found out about the kill order on me, all I could think about was you and how to protect you. I needed them to think I was dead, I needed it to seem real.” He sits on the bed beside you, holding your hand in one of his and stroking your hair with the other, “They were about to find out about you and I couldn't let that happen, I couldn't let you die. I meant what I said Shadow, I love you, more than my own life.”
Your heart stutters and then stampedes in your chest, thrumming a song meant only for him.
“And so, I sent you away to protect everyone else, and while the government thought I was dead, it gave me enough time to make a plan.”
You can’t process what he is saying in a way where it makes sense. You don't want to try and make sense of it, your brain feels like its going to explode. His words echo in your head as if they’re bouncing around a deep, dark cave.
“I knew you would be plotting to take revenge and I knew you'd be lethal, so I had Eden relay every detail of your plan, so I could time mine with yours. It worked out well, until you got hurt.”
His face falls, a solemn look marrs his handsome features and a darkness seems to seep out of him that you've never seen. “I thought I lost you.” He says quietly, his voice wavering slightly, “I couldn't–I didn't–” he takes a deep breath before continuing. “If I lost you, I would burn the world to the ground.”
He means it, you know because you were ready to do exactly the same thing.
You should be angry, you know you should, but right now, staring into his face, the face you've been longing to see again, wishing you'd done so many things differently, you're determined not to waste anymore time.
“Glad we're on the same page then.” you reply, grabbing him by the lapels of his jacket and pulling him to you, pain in your stomach causes you to wince.
“Are you ok?” He asks, full of worry, breath fanning out across your face.
“Kiss me.”
His eyes drift to your lips, “Are you sure? If you're in pain…”
“I'm in pain every moment you're not kissing me, Hongjoong.”
He smiles at that, cups either side of your face and places his lips against yours in a tender but urgent kiss. You explore his mouth, relishing the sweet taste of him as he holds you firm in his grasp. There's more work to be done to try and stop the regime and you're ready to do it, feeling safe and at peace by his side where you belong.
Spending the summer at your best friend’s coastal house was supposed to be about sun and relaxation—until a scorching, late-night affair with her impossibly handsome 45-year-old father turns a simple vacation into a dangerous game of secrets.
PAIRINGS | Choi Seungcheol x F. Reader
GENRE | smut, comedy, drama, fluff, angst in the next few parts
RATING | Mature, NSFW, EXPLICIT, MDNI, 18+, Any Minors and Ageless Blogs will be blocked
CONTENT/WARNINGS | non-idols au, best friend's dad, age gap, dilf!Cheol, swearing, kissing, caressing, female masturbation, sexy toy, protective sex, oral sex, penetrative sex, hair grabbing, body worship, dirty talk, praising, daddy kink, pet names
AUTHOR’S NOTE | Hi and bye. working on a part 2 lmao
Part 2
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"Hi baby girl," Choi Seungcheol's deep voice makes your body shiver but you know his greeting isn't towards you. He's hugging his daughter, your best friend since middle school, after not seeing her for a few weeks. The both of you have been stuck in your shared apartment pouring over books and finishing up assignments and projects for university.
"You look tired," he comments, pulling away from the hug and giving his daughter an inspecting look.
Jinmi whines at her dad's comment, "I am! You try finishing all your finals in one week, all while trying to prepare a portfolio, and dealing with someone as annoying as her," she teases, thumbing over at you.
"Excuse you!" You scoff at the comment but let out a small laugh at the same time. "You're the annoying one!"
Seungcheol just chuckles, shaking his head as he pulls you in for a hug too. He smells so good. His cologne is so intoxicating that you have to take a deep breath as he pulls away. He smiles down at you, a smile that makes your heart flutter every single damn time. "Good to see you too, Y/N. How's Jeonghan?" He asks, ruffling your hair, a habit he's had since you were a kid.
The ruffling of your hair has always been a friendly gesture from him. But it feels different now. Maybe it's because you're older, or maybe it's just because you're more aware of him now. You're more aware of how handsome he is, how good he smells, how his smile makes your heart beat a little faster.
"Dad's good," you manage to say, trying to ignore the way your heart is pounding in your chest. "Still working too much as usual. He wanted to take a vacation and come along too but he couldn't get the days off work."
You had planned a two month long beach vacation with your best friend. A much-needed break from the stress of university life. Her dad, Seungcheol, owns a beautiful beach house that you would vacation in back when you were kids and he had offered up for the both of you two to use. The only catch? He'd be staying there too with Jongho, his son and Jinmi's twin brother. A vacation for you and Jinmi, but also a family vacation for them.
Jongho isn't the issue. As your best friend's twin, you would've expected him to be opposite of her in all respects, but boy were you wrong. Built like his father, with the same gorgeous eyes, and the same stupid charming smile and floofy black hair, he's equally as charming as well. Jinmi thinks you have the biggest crush on Jongho, because who wouldn't? But you two had tried being a couple years ago back in high school but agreed that you worked much better as friends. You never even told Jinmi that you dated because it wasn't really anything to talk about since it only lasted like a week before you got on each other's nerves.
The real issue is Choi Seungcheol. Your best friend's father. The man you've been crushing on since you were sixteen years old. The man who is now, at forty-five years old, even more handsome and charming than he was when you were a teenager. Your father, Jeonghan, and Seungcheol became friends when you and the twins started middle school. Being single fathers to children the same age had brought them together. Your mother had left when you were young, leaving your dad to raise you on his own. Seungcheol's wife had passed away shortly after the twins were born, leaving him to raise two children by himself. They bonded over their shared experiences, and their friendship had only grown stronger over the years. Their close bond had, in turn, made you and the twins grow incredibly close, and you had become a constant fixture in the Choi household.
That's how your crush on the Choi patriarch had started. You'd spend countless nights over at their house, and you'd see him walking around in a t-shirt and sweatpants, his hair messy, a cup of coffee in his hand. He'd always greet you with a warm smile, a ruffle of your hair, and a "How's my favorite girl?" (besides Jinmi, of course). You'd watch him interact with his kids, with your father, and you'd feel your heart swell with an emotion you couldn't quite name at the age of sixteen.
Now, at twenty-five, you can name that emotion. Desire. You desire him in ways that make you feel guilty, make you feel like you're betraying your best friend. But you can't help it. He's everything you found attractive in a man. Mature, responsible, kind, and so damn handsome. His salt-and-pepper hair only adds to his charm, making him look distinguished, experienced. His broad shoulders and muscular build, a result of years of working in construction, makes him look powerful, safe. His deep, rumbling voice makes your core clench every time you hear it.
So now, here you are, about to spend two months in close quarters with the man of your desires. Two months of seeing him in swim trunks, of possibly sharing meals, of watching him interact with his kids in a relaxed, vacation setting. It's both a dream come true and a nightmare. A dream because you'd get to see him in a different light, a nightmare because you aren't sure if you can control yourself around him.
You definitely can't control yourself in your dreams, that's for sure. Your sleep is plagued with images of him. Images of him pinning you against a wall, of his hands roaming your body, of his lips on yours, of him whispering dirty things in your ear. You can practically feel his thick, muscular thighs underneath you as you rode him, can hear him groaning in your ear and praising how good you feel around his cock. You can even feel his wide tongue gliding down your folds, sucking and licking up every single drop of you before pushing himself into your waiting hole. Your dreams left you sweating and hot, heart pounding in your chest and panties soaked. Yeah, this is going to be a real test of your sanity.
Yeah, there's no way you can tell your best friend that you're down bad for her dad. You have to keep your crush under wraps. For the sake of your friendship, and for the sake of your own sanity.
The car ride to the beach house is a three-hour stretch of highway that feels both infinitely long and agonizingly short. Seungcheol drives, one large hand on the wheel, the other resting casually on the center console. You're in the passenger seat, a choice you now deeply regret. Every bump in the road, every shift of gears, has his arm brushing against yours, sending jolts of electricity through your body that has nothing to do with the car's static charge.
Jinmi and Jongho are in the back, in a world of their own. Jinmi is animated, chattering about everything and nothing, her hands flying as she recounts some dramatic story from her literature class. Jongho is quiet, nodding at the appropriate times, letting his sister take the floor and occasionally laughing at the absurdity of her story.
You try not to look over at Seungcheol. If the warmth of his bare arms against your skin has this effect, who knows what else will happen if you start looking.
Seungcheol engages with them, deep chuckles rumbling from his chest at Jinmi's dramatics. "You need to learn to pick your battles, kiddo," he says, glancing at her in the rearview mirror. Then, he turns his attention to you. The shift in focus is palpable, like a spotlight has just been aimed directly at you. "You're quiet, Y/N. Tired from all that studying?" His gaze lingers on you for a second too long before returning to the road. You can feel the intensity of it on the side of your face, a physical warmth.
"Just enjoying the peace," you manage, your voice a little too high. You turn your head to stare out the window, focusing on the blur of green trees and gray asphalt. "It's been a hectic few weeks."
"Hmm," he hums, a low sound that vibrates through the car, through you. "Well, you can relax now. No books, no deadlines. Just sun, sand, and the ocean."
And you, you think. Sun, sand, the ocean, and you. The thought is so dangerous, so tantalizing, you have to physically restrain yourself from squirming in your seat. You clasp your hands together in your lap, your nails digging into your palms. The leather of the seat feels cool against your bare thighs, a stark contrast to the heat building inside you.
The rest of the drive passes in a similar fashion. Snippets of conversation from the backseat, the low thrum of the engine, and the occasional, devastatingly casual question from Seungcheol. Each one is a test of your composure, a small probe that you have to parry with practiced nonchalance. By the time you turn off the main highway and onto a coastal road, bordered by wild grasses and weather-beaten fences, you feel like you've run a marathon.
The beach house appears suddenly, perched on a slight rise overlooking the sea. It's not a mansion, but it's substantial, all weathered gray wood and large glass windows that glint in the afternoon sun. It looks solid, welcoming, like it has stood there for a hundred years and will stand for a hundred more.
"Home sweet home," Seungcheol announces, killing the engine. The sudden silence is deafening, filled only by the distant cry of gulls and the rhythmic shush of the waves.
Everyone piles out of the car, stretching and groaning after the long journey. The salty air is a cool balm on your skin, and you take a deep breath, trying to use it to clear your head. It doesn't work. You can still smell the faint, clean scent of Seungcheol's cologne clinging to your clothes.
Jongho silently grabs their bags from the trunk, heading inside with a nod, while Jinmi bounces on the balls of her feet, her energy renewed. "Come on, I call dibs on the one with the balcony!"
"You and your balconies," Seungcheol says with a fond roll of his eyes, popping the trunk. He pulls out your suitcase, the one with the bright pink ribbon tied to the handle, a gift from Jinmi so you'd "stop losing your boring black luggage." His muscles flex under the thin fabric of his t-shirt as he heaves it out with an ease that makes your stomach do a flip. He sets it down on the gravel driveway, turning to you with a smile that doesn't quite reach his eyes.
"Let's get you settled in." He gestures for you to lead the way, but his presence is right behind you as you walk up the wooden steps to the porch. So close you can feel the warmth radiating from him, so close you could lean back a fraction of an inch and be pressed against his chest.
The inside of the house is even better than the outside. It's open and airy, decorated in shades of white and pale blue, with driftwood furniture and soft, comfortable-looking rugs scattered across polished wooden floors. The entire back wall is made of glass, offering a stunning, uninterrupted view of the ocean.
"It's beautiful," you breathe, stopping in the middle of the living room. "Can't believe you remodeled the beach house, Uncle. I haven't been here since I was a kid."
"Yeah," Seungcheol agrees, but he's not looking at the view. He's looking at you. His gaze is heavy, appraising. It lingers for a moment too long before he clears his throat and looks away, toward the hallway. "The rooms are down here. Jinmi and Jongho already know where they're going. You can take the one at the end of the hall."
He leads you down the hall, his footsteps echoing slightly on the wood floors. He stops at the last door on the right and pushes it open. The room is perfect. A queen-sized bed with a crisp white duvet, a small writing desk overlooking a small, private garden, and an open door leading to a pristine, tiled bathroom.
He carries your suitcase in and sets it down at the foot of the bed. "Is this okay?"
"It's more than okay," you say, a little too quickly. "It's amazing. Thank you, Uncle."
He flinches almost imperceptibly at the formal address. "Seungcheol," he corrects you, his voice lower than before. "We're on vacation. And you're not a kid anymore." The statement hangs in the air between you, heavy with unspoken meaning. He looks at you for another long moment, his eyes tracing the line of your jaw, the curve of your neck. Then, as if breaking a spell, he takes a step back, turning toward the door. "I'm right across from you if you need anything. Rest for awhile and I'll have one of the kids grab you for dinner."
He leaves, closing the door softly behind him. You're alone, but the room still feels full of him. You press your palms against your cheeks, and they're burning. You walk over to the window and look out at the garden, but all you can see is the reflection of your own flushed face, and the memory of the way he looked at you.
You begin pulling out stuff from your luggage. You start hanging up your clothes in the closet and setting a few of your bathroom necessities in the bathroom. As you're pulling stuff out and unpacking, something falls to the ground, hitting the wood floor with a dull thud.
You kneel down, picking up the sex toy you forgot you packed. You packed it on a whim. A couple rounds of alcohol in you and Jinmi a few weeks prior, and you had declared you'd pack it "in the case something happens," referring to the hypothetical beach babe you'll no doubt meet on the beach.
But that was way before you knew Seungcheol and Jongho would be joining you guys. You're glad you kept the toy. You'll need something to help take the edge off the constant lust you'll most definitely feel towards the older man. You lie in bed, the vibrating dildo in your hand, and you turn it on.
You take a few deep, steadying breaths. This is going to be a very long two months.
Seungcheol runs a hand through his hair as he closes his bedroom door behind him. "Fuck," he mutters, leaning against the wall and letting out a heavy sigh. He's fighting an internal battle with himself, a battle he knows he's already lost. He'd kept his distance, played it cool, pretended he hadn't noticed your tank top slipping down to reveal a sliver of cleavage as he brought in your suitcase.
"Fuck," he says again, closing his eyes and taking a long, slow breath. It doesn't help. His mind is filled with images of you in his house, in his arms, in his bed. Your voice, the delicate scent of your perfume, your goddamn long, shapely legs. "I'm so fucked."
He's never had thoughts about you when you were younger because he watched you grow up. He never thought about you, inappropriately, until now. Sure, you were a pretty girl growing up. He'll compliment you on your outfit or hair, which he finds help put a stop to Jinmi from teasing you so much about what you're wearing. But never anything beyond the limits of what a father should think of their daughter's best friend.
Now though, you're twenty-five. Old enough for him to notice and take notice. The same tank top that you thought was "modest" shows way too much of you, in his opinion. Far too much, which made the decision of carrying your luggage rather difficult to do.
He doesn't want to be the pervy old man checking out his daughter's best friend, his friend's daughter, but damn. Damn did he want to run his hands over those curves and kiss the tattoo-marked skin on your collarbone.
He stands up straight and takes another long breath in through his nose. "Pull yourself together, Cheol," he grumbles to himself. He has no right to think about you in any way that goes beyond friendly, parental concern. He should get his shit together and prepare dinner for his kids and you. They all needed some sort of meal after that long car ride.
He walks down to the kitchen and is greeted by Jinmi, already rummaging through the cupboards. She's clearly not finding much, judging by the growing frustration evident in her groans.
"Bagels," Seungcheol says, sliding open a small door on the side. "Mini frozen pizzas in the freezer, and canned soup here."
"Yes, dad! All I wanted! How did you guess? Did you get some telepathic message from my brain?" Jinmi bounces.
Seungcheol chuckles at his daughter and shakes his head. "I just know you."
"Mhm," Jinmi hums in a teasing manner, "or I left a grocery list, you finally followed it, and have stocked the cabinets the way a responsible human adult would do, and not with only one type of ramen flavor."
"Yeah, okay, you got me," Seungcheol huffs, unable to hide the proud smile tugging at the corners of his lips. "Where's your brother? Is he up in his room?"
"He's in his room," she tells him, tossing a bagel into a bowl before heading towards the microwave. She preps her bowl, slamming the buttons aggressively until a beeping noise fills the silence.
Seungcheol leans back on the counter and folds his arms. He stares out the glass, looking at the view from their vantage point, looking over the top of the hills towards the ocean. The sky is fading to a light purple as the sun dips closer and closer to the horizon line. "Are you going out tonight?" he asks, turning to face her, one eyebrow slightly arched in a knowing expression. "With that new boy who's been texting you constantly?"
Jinmi pauses, almost embarrassed. But she isn't really embarrassed. More like, caught off-guard. She shoots her father a knowing, devilish grin before reaching out to open the microwave doors. "How'd you know? I haven't said anything to you!"
"Do you seriously think I haven't seen his name, 'Lee Chan' with a million emojis around it, constantly appear on your screen?" Seungcheol snorts. "Every time he texts, you make the biggest goo-goo face before texting back, or whatever it is you kids do. And you just smiled the other day, your eyes, squinty and everything, when you checked your phone," he teases, raising a challenging eyebrow as the bagel pops loudly in the background, interrupting the father-daughter conversation.
Jinmi clicks her tongue in feigned annoyance. "Shut up! It was only a smile! Whatever, yeah, fine! I'm going out tonight, not like I'll miss anything. He's cute. Maybe I'll get laid, see if I can make some seagull jealous when it sees us making out on the pier," she challenges, before looking at her watch and downing half her water bottle.
"What about your best friend that you're so, incredibly desperate to be with the entirety of this vacation?" Seungcheol immediately winces when he realizes that, as the words came out, he sounded way too invested.
"Y/N knows about him," she shrugs, already wrapping the bagel in a napkin and placing it in her mouth, readying herself to eat in one giant bite. "She knows we're going to meet up in town. It's fine, dad, we both talked about it when we planned this vacation. Because who knows, Y/N might hook up with a handsome stranger, too."
"Really? Well, that's just...fun."
"You're ruining the fun, dad. You and Jongho," she adds, not missing a beat. She places a finger over Seungcheol's lips, threateningly. "It was just supposed to be me and Y/N. Girl time, beach babe time, maybe hook up with hot locals time," she says, dragging her hands away from Seungcheol's face with a shrug. "But no, my dad and twin brother had to insert themselves into the girls' trip and now they've taken away the vibe."
"M-hm, go. Get going. Do whatever you want," Seungcheol rolls his eyes. Jinmi nods at him, pleased at having the final say and walks out the back patio door, not wanting to interrupt your sleep in her exuberance. He calls after her, "Don't get too drunk."
"I'm not planning to," she calls over her shoulder as she jumps over a low wall onto the beach, sand flying everywhere. She yells loudly over the roar of the sea, her voice growing fainter and fainter with each passing step she takes, "Bye, dad! Love you, have fun!"
Seungcheol shakes his head. Where did the time go? Just yesterday Jinmi was three, sitting on his shoulders and yanking on his hair. Now she's an adult, off on her own and living life the way she wants. It feels a bit weird, but his baby girl is becoming a woman before his eyes.
He pulls his phone out and shoots a text over to Jongho, wondering when his son is planning on leaving his cave to venture into the real world. Jongho's text comes back, surprisingly. His son doesn't waste time telling his father that he's planning on leaving shortly. He tells Seungcheol that he'll be meeting up with some friends at the local bar to play pool. Seungcheol asks about his plan of returning home that night. He lets his father know that he'll be late or crash at a friend's house. Seungcheol reminds his son of drinking responsibly and making sure he's back in the early morning and not tomorrow afternoon, like the previous year's vacation had entailed. Jongho assures him that everything would go smoothly, and promises to be home the following day, or call if his plans change.
Once he hears Jongho leave, the house is now empty. You must still be sleeping in your bedroom, after the long drive and all. But you definitely need to eat something, at least, while everyone's out. Seungcheol goes to your room to check on you. Your door is slightly ajar, he knows he closed it earlier. Maybe you had to grab something from Jinmi's room or something and forgot to close your door. When he peers inside, a delicious sight meets his hungry gaze.
There you are, naked now, your head thrown back in the throes of pleasure, his name tumbling from your parted lips as one hand clutches the sheets. The other is pressing a vibrating dildo to your glistening cunt. You moan and mewl, eyes clenched shut, not yet aware of Seungcheol watching you, as the dildo finds that magical spot that only he should.
Fuck, he shouldn't be here. Shouldn't be staring. Definitely shouldn't be growing painfully hard at the sight of your delicious tits bouncing, your pussy leaking, as he's sure you imagine it being him pounding into your wet cunt. But he can't turn away. Can't resist watching you cry out for him, your whole body arching as you desperately beg for him.
And fuck, he wants you too.
"So that's what you think of me, huh?" He growls. He knows it's not a good idea to sneak up on you like this. You startle so suddenly, causing the toy to fall out of your wet pussy. You immediately slam your legs together, your face a mixture of shock and embarrassment, the object slipping off the side of the bed, but not before revealing how juicy and creamy your core is.
"H-how long-" you breathe, clenching the sheets against your exposed chest.
"Long enough," Seungcheol replies, the deep timbre of his voice resonating inside you and spurring on another wave of arousal.
"I-I'm so sorry…"
"Why do you need to be sorry?" he interrupts. He walks over, looming large and imposing in your bedroom. For a moment, neither of you move, neither of you breath. He picks up the fallen toy, not breaking eye contact with you. "Don't know how a good girl like you got hold of such a naughty toy," he muses. He drags his eyes slowly down your body, taking in the sight of your thighs pressed tightly together. "How long have you been thinking about me, Y/N?"
"For awhile..." you admit, your cheeks flushing. "I didn't want you to find out this way, that I want you."
"I don't mind," Seungcheol rumbles, a devious look in his eye. "In fact, I like it."
Seungcheol moves quickly, his large hand pulling the bed sheets down and exposing your naked form. You yelp in surprise and try to cover yourself but the sight of his stern frown makes your hands stop.
"Uncle—"
"That's not what you were screaming a few moments ago." His hand travels up your soft thighs, and he revels the little shivers and goosebumps you get in his touch. "No more uncle. Tonight, you're gonna call me daddy."
"Yes, daddy," you whimper, bucking your hips forward, hungry for his touch, your mouth curving into a smile.
"That's my girl." Seungcheol smirks. "Come over here and help daddy out." His fingers grasp the hem of his white shirt and pulls it off, throwing it behind him somewhere on the floor. "Take care of your daddy."
With shaky fingers, you crawl forward on your hands and knees toward the foot of the bed, where the man that's tormented your dreams and fantasies for months stands. You reach for the band of his sweatpants and lower them slowly to reveal his raging cock. A thick bead of precum beads on his tip. Seungcheol stands still and allows you to take over, as the power imbalance was never the problem, the only problem is how much both of you needed the other. He closes his eyes, groaning in ecstasy and finally succumbing to the sensation of you slowly running your tongue down his shaft.
"Good girl," he praises.
You hum in approval, looking up and catching his lust-filled gaze. His eyes darken, watching as you begin taking him into your mouth. He sighs a long, deep moan of pleasure and gently strokes your hair as you bob your head over his dick, your warm and wet mouth enveloping his rock-hard cock, his eyes train on you the entire time.
He cups your face and pushes himself all the way in your mouth, allowing you to take him all the way down, which you did. You hold it for a few seconds and allow him to pull away as you inhale the air you need so badly. Saliva drips from the corner of your lips, dribbling down your jaw and between your tits.
He grabs the back of your head and gently begins thrusting himself inside your mouth. "That's a good girl," Seungcheol breathes, cradling your face with his rough palms and encouraging your movements, "show daddy how much you want this cock."
Seungcheol swallows harshly when he see how his words make your eyes glisten with tears, a streak of saliva down the sides of your face and neck and dripping down your bare tits and belly. The lewd, slick noises, coming from between your mouth and his cock, made his eyes roll. "G-good g-girl," he praises as he bites his bottom lip and forces himself to keep his eyes open, not wanting to miss the view as his cock disappears into your sweet, little mouth over and over. "Suck my cock, good fucking girl."
You fondle his heavy balls in one hand, as you maintain steady strokes up and down his thick length, your spit making the slide of your lips so obscenely loud. "Daddy," you breathe, continuing to stroke him while keeping eye contact and fluttering your eyelashes seductively, "do you like it when I swallow your big, fat cock?"
Seungcheol looks over and gives you a very sexy grin before whispering, "Open your mouth, doll. I'm gonna feed you." You're quick to comply, your lips parting and tongue extending ever so slightly out. He groans softly at the sight, moving his hand faster as his hips start to thrust forward, trying to increase the amount of friction. "Open wide, baby girl. Swallow all of your daddy's milk, okay?" You moan your consent, continuing to suck him, hoping he doesn't have any longer to hold off and release, wanting to see and taste him cum.
"And after that, we're gonna get to the fun part, where daddy gives my favorite girl a new toy to play with," he snarls as the first jet of thick cream hit your lips. You let out a sharp, desperate whine at his promise and grip his thighs, using them to brace yourself for his warm liquid. "Now swallow every last drop," he whispers, running his fingers through your hair lovingly.
You do as you're told, making sure your tongue doesn't miss a drop, his tip still nestled snugly in your mouth. His cum is thick and creamy, with just the right amount of saltiness mixed with sweetness, a perfect combination that was utterly delicious.
He slips out of you with a slight pop, giving you a quick pat on the head and grinning happily as he watches you stick your cum covered finger in your mouth, tasting every inch of him on your tongue. "Go lie down, baby," he said in a thick voice, already helping you back onto the mattress, his palms kneading your ass and coaxing out a few giggles of happiness. "God damn, your ass," he groans as he looks at the soft curves of your body, "it's beautiful. Makes me want to absolutely destroy it."
You felt your breathing getting shallow and fast with anticipation as you see him getting off the bed to grab something in his wallet, before returning and holding the condom for you to see. "As much as I want to fuck you raw and give you the fucking you deserve," he explained, ripping the top of the foil, "we have to be responsible. Got it, baby girl?"
"Yes, daddy."
The whole time he rolls the condom down his cock and grips the base tightly, his gaze never leaves you, looking like a god, standing naked, unashamed and glorious as he looks at his little plaything and fantasies begin to come true. Seungcheol grabs your dildo, placing it beside his cock, he moans a little at the size comparison and slides the toy along your wet, drooling slit.
"Hate to say this," he watches as you push your body up the bed when the dildo glides effortlessly and sinks deeply inside you with ease, your pink folds closing around the silicone, "but good choice on your part, baby girl. But after my cock? None of these will satisfy you."
You whimper from the praise and the fullness of your toy. Your juices are flowing, spilling around the toy and sliding down the sheets as he pumps the silicone length into you with a squelch. His eyes drink the sight of you, moaning as your fists ball the sheets tighter. He throws the dildo on the other side of the bed.
"Turn around."
You're so, lost in the intense, feeling and sensation, but the voice is demanding and you obey. On your hands and knees, your chest laying flat and ass sticking up in the air. He lines the head of his cock against you. Without hesitation he sinks his throbbing head all the way in, eliciting a whine from you. You're tight, delicious, and he doesn't know how long he'll last after all the tension that's built up.
"Shhh, baby," he hisses, pushing in more of himself, feeling your walls sucking him in deeper and deeper. "Does my good girl love her daddy's fat cock?"
He's big, bigger than your dildo and so, unbelievably real. You grip the pillow in front of you as he pushes all the way inside and fill you in a way that not even your sex toys can satisfy. "Y-yes, I love it," you manage, gritting your teeth as you struggle to cope with the sudden feeling of being completely full. It hurts so good.
"Yeah you do," Seungcheol leans to hover on top of you, and kisses your earlobe as he rocks his hips to test your limits, "but do you love it more than that toy, baby? Do you feel fuller?" You mewl and push back to meet his thrusts, desperate for more. "Tell daddy. What feels better? Tell me which big, thick cock, you prefer."
"Your cock, daddy! Fuck! So fucking good..." you trail off, burying your head further into the mattress and crying out when the older man grips your hips to slam your backside more firmly against him as he pumps you in an achingly slow, delicious tempo.
The older man groans in pleasure, savoring how hot and wet you are as his dick slides smoothly and effortlessly within you. "Oh yeah, you like that, huh, baby?" He gasps, leaning closer until he can kiss the top of your back. "You want more? I can hear it in those filthy words falling from your pretty lips. Come on, don't hold back baby, tell daddy how bad you want my cock."
Seungcheol doesn't take a break, not slowing as his muscles start to burn. You're begging for him to move. Your request is granted when a needy whine escapes your throat as your hole tightens around the older man's pulsing member. "What is it, baby girl? Say it loud and clear. Do you want me to fuck that sweet pussy?"
"Mmm... daddy, please," you whimper as you try to angle your hips just right for the best possible access and ride, Seungcheol knows exactly what you're asking for, his desire building even more to fuck you the way a daddy should fuck his naughty, little girl.
You bite your lip as you feel his hand slide under you to toy with your clit. "Such a desperate slut you are," he says as he pins your small hand onto the bed with the other. "Taking my dick, rubbing yourself like the horny brat you are." You're whining now as Seungcheol begins thrusting his hips forward. "Come on, baby girl, come on daddy's cock," he murmurs. "Such a pretty little cock slut." His hips begin to buck erratically. "Be a good girl and cum for me, huh? Make daddy happy," the older man groans in between thrusts. He can feel himself growing impossibly harder at the way you clench his shaft with every word, every promise and whisper.
His finger is mercilessly playing with your sensitive bundle of nerves, circling and brushing it against his cock. The mix of sensations are overwhelming, the wetness and his thick length rubbing against every nerve, has you already ready to burst, but he won't stop. It's a drug he can't stop craving.
"Cum for me."
"F-fuck!" You scream, losing control as you grip the pillow for dear life, Seungcheol's rocking forcing the air out of your lungs and leaving you breathless as the older man continues to push his way deeper inside you. He pounds hard and relentlessly, with the confidence and ego to match, with no fear that he'll ever hurt you. "Fuck, fuck," you whine.
"Yeah baby girl. Daddy's got you," he reassures you, chasing his own high and nearly purrs at the delicious clench and fluttering of your pussy around his length. "Good girl," Seungcheol commends as you shake in a toe curling climax. It isn't long until he releases himself in the condom with a groan.
It takes the two of you a minute to catch your breaths before Seungcheol slowly pulls out. You watch as he pulls off the condom, tying it shut before he settles back into bed.
"Did I hurt you?" Seungcheol asks, lightly running his fingertips up and down your arm and pressing soft, delicate kisses against your neck and jawline, as if to coax the answer out of you. You feel his heart rate slow, beating rapidly against your back in sync with the pulsing of his hot, cumming member.
You hum and turn to face him. "No, it's just..." you look up at him nervously, his deep-set eyes glossy and glazed over, like melted chocolate.
Seungcheol starts to look nervous. "It's just what?"
"This changes things, doesn't it?" you ask softly, afraid to hear his response and he stops breathing for a moment. "We'll never be the same."
"Not unless you want things to be the same, Y/N," Seungcheol cautions. The gentle giant carefully lifts his arm to allow you to slip beneath the cozy cover of his strong embrace. He intertwines his calloused, working man fingers, with yours and wraps his large body, around you as you snuggle against his solid chest, drawing on the security you needed in his arms. "Or am I misinterpreting this?"
"I've never done this. Fucked my best friend's dad."
"I've never wanted my best friend's daughter before. Kind of a surprise for me too." You rest your chin on his chest to look up at him through half-lidded eyes, the familiar warmth of sleep about to whisk you away, content that, for the next two weeks, the man holding you isn't going to let you go, no matter the circumstances or repercussions.
Seungcheol settles under your familiar touch and looks at you with a soft smile, and a twinkle of delight. He leans in and kisses you chastely before snuggling, pressing a kiss on your hair. "Rest, baby. I promise we'll talk about this later. Together."
You wake up in the middle of the night to your phone vibrating insistently. Blearily you pick up your phone and answer without looking. You shouldn't have answered since you were in the middle of such a great sleep, and you wanted your warm body next to you.
"H-hello?" you yawn.
"My precious daughter!" You hear your father cry through the other line.
"Daddy?" You're bit more awake now that you hear your father's voice on the other line.
Jeonghan heaves a heavy sigh and you hear some background voices calling to your dad, making sure everything is all right. "Are you at the beach house already? I tried calling Cheol but he didn't answer. Maybe he fell asleep in the other room."
At the mention of the name of the man beside you, your cheeks burn brightly. He's sleeping naked with his arms under the pillow, exposing his strong, toned body. As if he hear his name, he sleepily reaches around until his hand meets your body and he's pulling you into his arms. You yelp softly as your father hears the noise.
"Everything okay, darling?"
"Yeah, of course daddy," you grin and nuzzled the back of your head against his muscled chest. "Just tired since it's like 2am."
"Oh my bad," your father said. "I thought you would be raging all night with Jinmi, Jongho and whatever folks you were planning to meet for the night. Sorry for waking you."
You shook your head even though he couldn't see it. "I was tired. Didn't really want to stay out that late, it was honestly a nice night by myself."
Seungcheol wakes behind you. Not fully, just enough that you feel the pressure of him sliding his large, warm body around you so you are enveloped in his arms. And his hot, naked erection slides along the seam of your ass.
"Did you need anything, Daddy?" You shiver a little, whispering the last word softly and noticing the slight tension in the man holding you and the slight stir. You hear him inhale sharply. You turn your head, lifting a sleepy gaze at Seungcheol. His eyes are still closed, although the slight smirk on his lips is there. Did he realize who you're speaking with?
"Oh yeah!" Jeonghan snaps. "I actually managed to get a few days off and I'm heading up there as soon as I can. Probably be there sometime tomorrow afternoon. Wanted to be a part of that old beach house gang! Can you tell Cheol? The dude needs to pick up his damn phone."
You pressed the mute button quickly and look up at the man cradling you, eyes wide.
Seungcheol shifts, rising slightly onto his elbow, his eyelids heavy with fatigue and a boyish glint, as he gazes down at you. "Yes, doll?" he says in that voice that sends tingles straight to your core.
"Seungcheol...my dad is coming to the beach house."
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Ooh, it's so good, it's so good,
It's so good, it's so good
It's so good
Your voice has everyone in a trance, their eyes fixed on you through the purple haze of smoke and flickering lights. The bass vibrates your bones as the music flows through you as if it were made for you, your dress accentuating your hips as you dance with a subtle seductiveness that keeps everyone coming back. Your hair flows effortlessly, catching the glow of neon, and your makeup is flawless, commanding attention.
Ooh, I feel love, I feel love
I feel love, I feel love
I feel love
You lick your lips, a smirk on your face as your confidence grows.
I feel love
I feel love
I feel love
You know you are killing it, stepping off the stage and sitting in a patron’s lap as your soulful, rich voice seduces her further. You see it in her eyes, a hidden, curious flame you might be interested in unlocking at the end of the night.
Ooh, I'm in love, I'm in love,
I'm in love, I'm in love
I'm in love
Her eyes watch you intently as your finger brushes her chin, trailing flirtatiously to her lips painted a shade of plum. With a wink, you rise from her lap, sashaying across the floor as you sing your heart out. The drink you had before you stepped on stage is slowly kicking in, easing the nerves you felt earlier. You feel a strange pull, magnetic and charismatic, as the crowd's energy bends around you. The main attraction at Neo City Night Club has never looked better, and you love every bit of it.
Not too bad for a woman who doesn’t remember two years of her life.
Ooh, fall and free, fall and free
Fall and free, fall and free
Fall and free
Your accident made news all over the city, the scandal of a promising club singer robbed of her memories overshadowing the ongoing murders haunting the darkest corners. As far as you know, you slipped and fell during a robbery gone wrong, you were in the wrong place at the wrong time. You woke up at Neo City Memorial Hospital with your head wrapped in bandages and swollen, black eyes. Your mother prayed in front of a holographic Bible, clutching her Rosary tightly, while your father stared blankly out the window, lost in thought. It was the worst day of your life that you can remember, and it lingers in your mind.
So it’s no surprise that people from all over would come to see this mysterious person with a great voice and missing patches of her life put on a performance, because that’s what this city lives and breathes on. Scandals, violence, and sex mixed in between. You’ve figured out your role, and you play it well—it’s the only way you can survive.
I feel love
I feel love
I feel love
The beat fades out as you’re back on stage, the purple lights shifting slightly and shining on you, the enigma. Claps and cheers erupt in the club, and you let yourself bask in it all as the velvet curtains close. Buzzing from the energy of the crowd, you stand there rooted in place, your eyes closed as you hear them chant ENCORE! ENCORE! ENCORE! The buzz you get from this can never be replicated, no matter how much kosmi dust you snort.
“Well done, gorgeous.”
Turning around, you face your boss, Cado, who walks towards you, clapping his hands. Your buzz drops like a free fall.
“Just doing my job, boss,” you sarcastically salute, the energy in the room shifting to something colder. It’s no surprise your boss is attracted to you, and you don’t miss the way he gazes over your body as something to possess rather than something to behold. He’s offered many times to get you to do “work” on the side for him, but you never budged. Maybe it’s worked on others, but not you. You don’t shit where you eat.
He’s unfortunately a conventionally attractive man, with a jawline sculpted by a god and dark, seductive brown eyes you can get trapped in. Cado takes good care of his body, bragging about how much he works out and sometimes flexing his arms or flashing his abs. All he talks about is himself and his money; it doesn’t impress you.
“You know my offer still stands, if you are looking for extra work,” Cado offers, a glint of mischievousness in his eyes.
Giving him a slow once-over, you snort. “I don’t need the extra money. You know that,” you scoff. “I’m sure one of the waitresses might.”
You walk away before he can say another word, exiting the side stage and heading to the bar. The need for a stiff drink is strong as ever, craving a shot of Sunshine Mist that’ll burn your throat and numb you in the best way. You only put up with Cado’s advances because this club feels familiar to you, even though you don't remember working here before. The nice guy facade he tried to put on at first, you saw through that early on. You see him for who he is, and you’ve made it clear every chance you get.
Holding your fingers up towards the bartender, Chan, you take a seat on the stool as the lively chatter and studio music fade into the background. Your head bobs lightly, your fingers drumming on the counter as you wait for your drink.
“Rough night?” Chan asks, twirling the cocktail shaker.
“Eh, just Cado being Cado,” you quip.
“My condolences,” he chuckles, sliding the shot towards you.
You snort, grabbing the glass and throwing it back. It gives you an almost therapeutic burn, instantly putting you at ease. Sunshine Mist is one of the strongest drinks concocted, and while not everyone can stand its aftereffects, it’s your preferred drink here, especially when dealing with the likes of Cado. For a moment, everything softens, and your buzz has returned, leaving your skin tingling all over.
“Mind if I join you?”
You turn towards an unfairly attractive stranger standing beside you, staring at him blankly before realizing you were. His dark hair falls across his forehead, his smile bright enough to rival the neon lights flooding the club. He definitely doesn’t fit this crowd, and you don’t recall ever seeing him, but you are not a stranger to unusual occurrences.
You gesture towards the stool next to you, and he follows your lead, scooting his seat closer to you.
Chan gives him a measured look. “What can I get you?”
“I’ll have the same thing she’s having,” the stranger responds, tapping his watch and revealing a digicard. “And put hers on my tab.”
“Thank you,” you say, the curves of your mouth twitching.
“You’re welcome, gorgeous.”
Your eyebrows lift, followed by a silvery laugh. Studying him more carefully, you can’t help but notice the shape of his eyes, the curve of his smile, the timbre of his voice. A flutter of butterflies invades your stomach; you shake your head as the heat creeps up your neck.
“So, what’s the catch?”
It’s his turn to lift his brow. “Catch?”
Sitting up straighter, you throw him a look. “You bought me a drink, which is greatly appreciated, but I have the feeling that you didn’t come over here to take a shot with me.”
You can’t help but notice the way his eyes twinkle when he laughs. “Okay, you caught me,” he says, raising his hands. “I just wanted to tell you I liked your performance.”
You stare at him blankly, and then you laugh. “That’s it?” You flash him a smile. “I’m almost disappointed.”
“Give me time.”
Chan slides the drink over to the stranger, who catches the rim with the tips of his fingers. The veins on his hands pop suddenly, and you shake away the thoughts that are creeping into your head. He thanks Chan as he takes his shot, shooting it back in the same manner you did. The burning liquor doesn't faze him at all, and you sit there impressed.
“Seokmin.”
Your brows knit together. “Excuse me?”
He pulls out his hand to shake. “My name is Seokmin.”
You giggle, realizing he was introducing himself. “Nice to meet you,” you say, shaking his hand in return. “My name is—”
“I know who you are,” he says smoothly. His hand is warm and soft, and you can’t shake this sensation in your chest. You gaze at each other, your body feeling drawn to him, as if magnetism is pushing you together. Your hand is still in his, and you are in no hurry to let it go.
“I’m sorry, I have to ask,” you say suddenly. “But have we met before?”
Seokmin falters slightly before regaining his composure, slowly taking his hand from yours. “I—”
“Hey, boss wants us to go over the set list for tomorrow night.”
Your manager, nicknamed Snake-Eyes, appears from behind, holding a holographic tablet with a floating stylus. Looking past your manager, you eye Cado towards the back, watching you intently with a cigarette in his mouth. Of course, he wants to talk about it now, of all the times.
Glancing back at Seokmin, you let out a small sigh, your mood soured once again thanks to your boss. “I’m sorry we have to cut this short,” you say. “Maybe I’ll see you again?”
“Maybe,” Seokmin smiles softly, sending more butterflies to your stomach.
He gives you a hand to slide off the stool, his cologne appealing to your nose. It smells familiar, and you can’t pinpoint where it’s from. Maybe it’s something you came across in the years you can’t remember. Lucky you.
You start to walk away, but something tells you to turn around, and you find him still standing in place, watching you walk away. “Don’t be a stranger?”
He smiles. “Don’t worry, love. You’ll be seeing more of me.”
For some reason, those words resonate with you for the rest of the night.
Seokmin steps out into the wet night, lighting a cigarette from the corner of his mouth. The petrichor is fresh and calming as he deeply inhales, letting the enhanced tobacco burn his throat. It’s past two a.m., and the city is still alive, with no sign of slowing down. Neon lights and advertisements are shoved in his face at every corner, drug paraphernalia in the streets, and people coming from all directions looking for adventure. He remembers when he was that carefree and full of life, looking forward to the next day and many after. But so much has changed, and it feels like a distant memory, a whole lifetime ago.
Seokmin takes another puff as he watches on, lost in the thoughts that have been tormenting him for the past two years. He came to the club to find peace, to get answers to the darkness in his soul and the mystery that refuses to rest in his mind. Seokmin sought a reprieve that can only be cured by one, and when he watched you perform for the crowd, with the light shining on you like the star you are, it made him sadder. You don’t remember him, or your past life together, and every day it gets harder to bear. You are the light of his life, the one thing that has kept him alive, and he is determined to help you remember him, or at least, know the truth.
The authorities say it was an accident. Sure, like he will believe a fall like that will leave you on the brink of death with black eyes, broken ribs, and needing surgery. Seokmin has been a private investigator for many years and has seen a lot of shit, and the insult to his intelligence is laughable. He’s mentioned it to your parents, but they practically threatened to call the police if he came on their property again. The reaction didn’t surprise him much—your parents never thought he was good enough for you anyway.
They never told you about Seokmin and your life together. Your father is a very powerful man, and he had every trace of you and him wiped out of digital existence. It’s almost amusing the lengths he went through to erase Seokmin from your life. But what’s cruelly ironic is that he cannot take Seokmin’s memories away from him. It’s what helps Seokmin sleep at night.
There were many times he sat in the dark, in the apartment that you shared, and thought about barging into the hospital room or the club and telling you the full truth, hoping it would trigger something. But he can’t tell you anything he doesn’t know himself. How were you hurt? Who would do this to you? Why were you targeted? These are questions that have been wrestling in his mind with little to no answers, and forcing the truth on you wouldn’t serve you any better.
But being in your orbit again, hearing your voice and seeing the warmth in your eyes, renewed something in Seokmin’s spirit. He’s more determined than ever to uncover the truth and secure the justice you deserve. To bring you home.
God help anyone who tries to get in Seokmin’s way.
“Hi, baby.”
The voice is a low, honeyed murmur that makes you smile. A kiss is planted on your shoulder in a haze, and your body automatically eases. You reach back, blindly massaging the head of the hidden person as you watch the sun rise in an apartment. He feels familiar, as if you’ve known him for some time, even though you can't see his face.
“Have you been to sleep yet?”
You shake your head, a peaceful smile on your lips as sunlight rises over the horizon. It’s the first time you have seen the sun in days because of the rain, and you're too wired to sleep, thanks to the cup of coffee you had when you came home. “I just wanted to see this—the sun rise,” you explain. “There aren’t enough artificial sun rooms that can compare to the real thing.”
“Mmm,” he hums in agreement. “You are right about that, baby.”
He shifts, placing a lingering kiss beneath your earlobe. A moan escapes your lips as tingles spread throughout your body. His hands are warm, comforting as they grab your waist, pulling you closer to him. His cologne is pleasing, its scent unlike any of the synthetic materials made in factories throughout the city. It’s fresh and comforting, like vanilla, with a hint of aromatic spice. More kisses trail down your neck, his soft lips each imprinting electric and hard to ignore. Your nipples harden at his sensuality, your skin suddenly feeling hot and in need of more touch.
“I’m supposed to be watching the sunrise.” Your protest is weak with little effort. The hidden figure smirks against your skin, a low chuckle booming through his throat. “Not funny,” you sigh.
You turn to face him, kissing him with your eyes closed, allowing your body and mind to give yourself to him completely. His hands roam your body as if they know you, and your spirit isn’t disturbed—instead, your intuition tells you it’s okay, and he’s yours. Your shirt rises over your head, and you lean back into your pillows. Your blanket is caught in between your fingers, a tug of something metal caught in its snag. Raising your hand in the light reveals a ruby ring on a silver band, sitting perfectly on your ring finger.
“I fall in love with this ring every time I see it,” you sigh, the words flowing from your heart. “Good job, lover.”
You look up at him properly, trying to catch the shape of your stranger’s face. But it keeps slipping at the edges, the rays of light refusing to let you focus too hard. His presence, however, feels steady, familiar in a way your thoughts don’t know how to argue with.
“I missed you, you know,” he says, his hands cupping your face. He kisses you deeply, and you lose all feeling in your legs. “I could do this all day.”
You raise a brow, a smirk on your lips. “Technically, you can.”
“I could.” He lets out a silvery laugh. “But Seungcheol wouldn’t like that.”
You don’t know who he is, but somehow the name doesn’t seem foreign to you. Sitting up slightly, you cock your head to the side. “Well, tell Seungcheol you have plans and will be busy all day.”
“And what are those plans?” He asks, trailing his fingers along your shorts.
Despite his face being covered in a shroud of light, you know he’s staring at your body, ogling your breasts that were made just for him. Lifting slightly, you help yourself out of your shorts, revealing your bare center, and part your legs slightly, just for his view.
“Tell him you will be busy eating out your fiancé,” you half-joke, placing your foot on his shoulder.
He guffaws as he lays his head on your foot, massaging it. You don’t know why the words ‘fiancé’ came out of your mouth. You don’t even know who you are in bed with. It like deja vu, and you can’t explain it, but it feels right. This is where you are supposed to be.
“I don’t think I can tell him that, baby,” he breathes in between laughs. “I’ll think of something.”
His free hand spreads your legs apart further, dipping his fingers into your wet heat. You hiss at the contact, every nerve in your body on alert.
“You're soaked, baby,” he coos, his thumb rubbing against your clit. “Maybe I’ll tell Seungcheol there was a leak that needs fixing.”
You're buzzing, unfocused, enthralled with the pleasure he is giving you. “Mmhmm, sure.”
The stranger shuffles, spreading your legs wider as he lowers himself to your center. His tongue takes a long swipe without warning, leaving you clutching your sheets. He moans and grunts in your pussy, tasting and sucking you as you squirm in his hands, the haze you are in multiplying by the second. Lip smacking, slurping, and lewd moans fill the room, lifting you further on cloud nine.
“Fuck, I—” you sound pathetic, but the incessant need to cum in his mouth is greater. You try to pull yourself together, but the pleasure is too great, and you succumb to him completely. Tugging his hair, you ride the wave of his tongue, chasing your release until it washes over you suddenly, leaving you with a vision of white and shaky breath.
“I got you, baby,” he says smoothly. “Give me all of it.”
You let out a guttural moan that ripples through you, gushing in his mouth unabashedly. He doesn’t let up, licking you until there is nothing left, leaving a kiss on your pulsing clit that makes you shudder. You dissolve into the blanket, slowly coming down from your high. Lying there with half-sleepy eyes and a smile on your face, the sunlight shifting as it rises in the sky. You turn your head as your lover lifts his face, the sunlight no longer protecting him, revealing him at least.
“I love you.”
You jolt upright, your heart beating heavily, your vision blurry, beads of sweat forming on your forehead. He disappears, and you’re no longer in the dreamy haze of light; instead, the softness shifts cruelly into a large room of unnatural darkness. Your alarm clock is blaring on the walls, the constant chirping grating on your nerves.
“Maxima, I’m awake,” you croak to the virtual assistant.
It takes a moment for your vision to fully come back, replaying what just happened in your bed. You dismiss it as a dream, but it feels so real, like an unlocked memory calling to you. You glance down at your crotch, noticing the obvious wetness between your legs. Letting out a loud groan, you scoot to the edge of the bed, your head in your hands, trying to make sense of it all.
Seokmin.
He was the man of your dreams. You were in love, you were happy, and seemingly engaged. Your parents never mentioned you to him, and maybe it is all just a dream, but you still remember how your body reacted when you were near him, as if he were a familiar instead of a stranger. Or maybe it is all in your head—a fantasy constructed by a lonely brain.
But something tells you there is more to the story, and if you want your mind to rest, you will need answers.
Aug 02 2061.
That was the day Seokmin’s life changed forever.
He remembers the day like it was yesterday. You two watched the sun rise together, made love, and he watched you fall asleep before he left for the day. He did not, in fact, tell Seungcheol you had a leak that needed fixing, but Seokmin promised he would spend the next day with you. He had it all worked out with Seungcheol, and he was so excited to come home to you that night, to tell you the good news and plan the day together, or do nothing at all. It didn’t matter as long as he was with you.
But when you didn’t come home, and the minutes turned into hours, he knew something was wrong. Seokmin checked your location and noticed it was headed towards the opposite end of the city. He rushed out of the apartment like a bat out of hell, following your signal until it came to an abrupt stop at Neo City Memorial. Seokmin pushed on the gas pedal as hard as he could, running every traffic light and evading law enforcement to get to you. Every fear he had came true that night—you were hurt almost beyond repair, and there was nothing he could do about it.
Bzzt! Bzzt! Bzzt!
Seokmin shakes his head slowly, taking himself out of that day and back to reality, in an apartment where the sun no longer shines, barren of the life and love you brought into it. His phone buzzes again, and he sighs, grabbing the phone and swiping the screen up. His colleague and friend, Wonwoo, has been helping him with his investigation, digging into records that are behind red tape and out of his reach. A large file was sent to Seokmin’s email, encrypted with a password that only he knows.
Vulpes.
Entering his password, he connects his phone to a projector as the files load, filled with contacts of people who were at the club the night you were hurt. Scrolling through the list, he recognizes some of the names: bigwigs, politicians, and gang leaders who contribute to the corruption of Neo City. Nothing out of the ordinary. His attention turns to the file that holds the video footage, the icon blinking in sequences of threes. Tapping on his screen, he sees the video display on his wall, the frame still focused on a back entrance.
“Let’s do this,” Seokmin sighs before pressing play.
The video is audioless, with heavy rain pouring from the sky, slightly obscuring the street camera's lens. Seokmin watches intently, his fingers drumming on his leg in anticipation, not wanting to miss anything amiss. Growing impatient, he fast-forwards the video, the minutes dragging on with little to no movement to the back entrance. Did Wonwoo make a mistake? Seokmin thinks to himself. Maybe this is the wrong vid—
At 2:03 am, the back entrance door swings open, with two large men carrying what appears to be a woman, who is twisting and turning wildly, trying to get loose. A light flashed on the figure, briefly but clearly enough, which gave Seokmin pause. The blue dress, one he has seen too many times, is on display, and a chill shoots up his spine. Rewinding slowly, he stops at the frame, his chest tightening at the frozen image before him.
It’s you.
Seokmin stares for far too long, almost unable to believe what he is seeing. You were being carried out and manhandled like you didn’t matter, as if there wasn’t anyone out there who loved you and wouldn’t care if you disappeared. His blood boils with anger as he hastily taps the screen to let the video continue. One of the guards made the mistake of letting go of one of your legs, and you used it to your advantage, kicking him in the chest. He fell back, losing his step and falling ass-first onto the wet pavement. The other guard had your arms pinned behind your back, and as hard as you wrangled, you couldn’t get out of his lock. Even without audio, Seokmin knows you were giving them a good verbal lashing, a look of rage on your delicate face that Seokmin has never seen.
“Atta’ girl,” Seokmin says out loud. At least you still fought back.
Seokmin’s smile vanishes quickly when the fallen guard rose from the ground, stumbling towards you furiously. His fist connected with your left cheek, stunning you into shock. Blow after blow, the man assaulted you, hitting every exposed area he could. Seokmin watched your body go limp, the glee in the guard’s eyes embedded in his head. The guard holding you said something to your assaulter, who stopped his onslaught with a look of satisfaction on his face. Seokmin watches on, his stomach in knots, the anger burning deeper in his gut. These men will never see the light of fucking day again.
You're dragged to a waiting vehicle, set aside the passenger door like some sort of rag doll, your chest rising and falling slowly, your face swollen and bloodied. A figure stepped out of the back entrance, the light catching him, and Seokmin recognized him: Cado. Seokmin always sensed he didn’t like him much, and it’s not lost on him how Cado looked like you with carnality in his eyes. Cado knew better than to try anything in front of him, though.
Cado hustled over to the car, raising his hands angrily and slapping the backs of the heads of the guards. Opening the back door, he motioned for your assaulter to put you in the car. As he grabbed your arms, it is as if you were brought to life, and as an act of defiance, you spat in his face. The light goes out suddenly, just for a few seconds, but when it comes back on, you are on the wet ground, rain pouring on your face, with blood pooling from your head. Cado was enraged, picking you up and shoving you unceremoniously in the car, shouting and pointing in the north direction. Both guards entered the car, driving off suddenly, and Cado re-enters the club, the door shutting swiftly behind him.
The video stops playing, and Seokmin stands there, rooted in place and stewing in rage. He couldn’t be there to protect you, and he had to watch you experience the worst day of your life, and indirectly his too. You were supposed to be married now and living happy lives, but instead, you are apart, and you don’t remember a any of it.
Swiping to a different screen, he presses Wonwoo’s contact, the phone ringing once before he answers.
“You saw the video?”
“No shit,” Seokmin scoffs. “I want those guards found—”
“I’m already ahead of you, Seokmin,” Wonwoo answers. “I’m going to send you this address for the one who did the most damage.”
“Do that, and tell Seungcheol to meet me there,” Seokmin instructs. “Things will get extremely messy.”
“Well. You weren’t exaggerating about the mess.”
Seungcheol walks into the blood-splattered small apartment, slapping on a pair of black gloves made of matte obsidian and seamless synthetic polymer that clings like a second skin. Built with tech that alters fingerprint texture, it makes the person who uses it basically untraceable.
“I take it they are still alive?” Seungcheol surmises, stepping over broken glass.
“Barely,” Seokmin mumbles. Kneeling, he turns the head of one of the guards, the assaulter, Scion, lifting a finger under his nose.
As soon as Seokmin retrieved the address from Wonwoo, he was there in no time. He could’ve waited for Seungcheol to do things the ‘right way’, but all Seokmin could see was you being beaten and thrown around. He could have granted them mercy, but why should he? They gave you less than that, and now you’re both paying the price.
Seokmin hears shuffling behind him, and he turns, watching Seungcheol drag the other guard, Brucus, into the bathroom. He quickly learned their life story from the information Wonwoo sent over. Brucus’s family all died in the war in the neighboring desert, Dismiscus, a decade ago, and Scion comes from a family of lowlifes who are either dead, in jail, or walking the streets.
Basically, nobody would miss them when Seokmin wipes them off the face of the planet.
The bathroom door opens, and Seunghcheol comes out, his nose crinkling at the protruding smell that is starting to fill the space. “I’m pretty sure that guy took his last breath in the tub,” Seungcheol comments, surveying the living room. “I didn’t see any stab wounds or gunshots. What did you use?”
Seokmin holds up his left hand, showing off a glove made of synthetic chromium. “My goal was to make sure he stopped breathing.”
“Goal met,” Seungcheol quips.
Seokmin turns his attention back to Scion, tapping his cheek with two slaps. “Wake up.”
Scion doesn’t stir, his chest rising and falling as if he is in a deep coma. Without a second thought, Seokmin lowers a fist to his ribs, hearing a bone-shattering crack that satisfies him. Scion’s eyes almost bulge out of his sockets, followed by a piercing howl that is quickly covered by Seokmin’s fist.
“This pain is nothing compared to what you gave her,” Seokmin grits his teeth. “Tighten the fuck up.” Crimson slowly coats Scion’s lips. Seokmin stands straight, observing the weak man in this state. “I’m going to ask you some questions, and you are going to tell me everything I need to know.”
Scion slowly raises his head, meeting your gaze for the first time. “I’ve…seen…you…club.” His mouth twitches, a slight smirk on his lips. “You come to see our Vixen.”
Seokmin clenches his jaw, anger stirring in his stomach and hardening from within. He referred to you by your stage name, a nickname Seokmin gave you, and it makes him want to wring Scion's neck. Seungcheol appears to his left, adjusting his gloves. “So you know why he’s here then.”
Letting out a weak scoff, he attempts to sit up but winces, sliding further down the carpet. “Let’s…not play games.”
Seokmin couldn’t agree more. “Aug 02 2061,” he began. “Why was she being carried out of the club?”
Scion attempts to sit up again, lifting off the ground until he is comfortable. He doesn’t answer, instead pulling a cigarette from his front pocket and slipping it into his mouth.
“You got a light?”
Seokmin and Seungcheol exchange annoyed looks, shaking their heads in unison. Seungcheol digs into his pocket, pulls out a lighter, and flicks the switch to ignite the flame. Seokmin is in his right mind to take that cigarette and shove it down his throat while it’s still lit.
Scion looks at you carefully, inhales deeply, and lets out a wet cough. “It was on the boss’s orders.”
Seokmin stares, his jaw ticking in annoyance. “Cado?”
He nods, taking another puff. “That’s the one.” Wiping his nose with his sleeve, he closes his eyes and leans his head back against the wall. “She saw something she wasn’t supposed to see.”
That catches Seokmin’s attention. “What wasn’t she supposed to see?”
A slow, evil grin is on his lips, followed by a chuckle. “Business. Stuff way above my pay grade.”
“Care to elaborate on that?” Seokmin grits his teeth.
Scion doesn’t answer, instead burning out the cigarette in his hand. Seokmin takes a good look at him, watching the color slowly drain from his face. A long white scar trails from his sea-green, baggy eye to the corner of his mouth, and he looked rugged, rough around the edges, with tattoos and more scars riddling his arms. It would scare the average person walking down the street, but one thing Seokmin has learned in life is that it doesn’t matter how tough you look if you can’t back it up.
“You still want to protect your boss in death? That’s almost admirable.” Seokmin reaches into his back pocket and pulls out a 9 mm silencer. Taking a deep breath, he points the gun at his head, his index finger steady on the trigger. “I suggest you think long and hard about your answer.”
Flashes of your face and your smile flood his mind. The woman he knows, the person he wants to spend the rest of his life with, was taken away from him cruelly. He will work day and night to get you back, and if a few brains have to be splattered on some walls, so be it.
“I’m not telling you shit—”
The gun goes off before Scion could finish his sentence, blood splattering on his face. Seokmin is numb, not bothered by the violence he had to inflict. He could do it ten times over and still wouldn’t satisfy him.
“Go, Seok,” Seungcheol commands, taking the weapon out of his hands. “I’ll clean up here.”
Seokmin nods, leaving without saying a word. He wasn’t concerned about the noise, since the apartment is in a shitty part of the city and everyone minds their own business. The rain starts to fall heavily from the sky, washing the blood off his face and his leather jacket. Seokmin stands there for a moment, soaking it all in, letting the memories of you dancing in the rain fill his mind. You were always carefree, a pretty bird in a city of terror, and he would give anything to have that back.
Climbing onto his motorcycle, he loads “I Feel Love” into his headphones and roars out of sight, the venom of vengeance consuming him whole.
You can’t stop thinking about Seokmin.
He encompasses every corner of your mind, the montage of your moment together fresh in your head. You seemed to be a couple in love, a familiarity that you somehow feel in your heart, and it bothers you. You don’t know who Seokmin is; you met him for the first time last week at the club. Why does it feel like you were meant to know him?
You gaze at your bare ring finger, rubbing it with your index finger as you're lost in thought. For the past few days, it has felt weird not having a ring there, and if you stare long enough, you imagine seeing an imprint of something that might have been there at one point. You don’t know.
“Is everything alright?”
Slowly coming out of your reverie, you glance at your mother, whose eyes mirror yours in color. “I’m fine,” you clear your throat, shaking your head. “Just a bit tired.”
You stab your fork lazily into your seared lemon trout, taking a small bite to appease your mother. You aren’t sure what your relationship was like during the years you were gone, but before then, she was barely a parent. You were raised by the various nannies that were employed in your home; your mother spent her time playing the perfect wife, and your father was hardly around. You were merely an afterthought unless there was an event that required the whole family to be together. Chin up and smile wide, your mother would dutifully remind you. You don’t want to embarrass your father or the company. Your name carries weight in Neo City, and your parents will protect it by all means, even making you a pawn whether you like it or not.
“Are you still working at that club?” Your mother grimaces. “I don’t know why you bother setting foot in that soiled establishment.”
“Because I like to sing, Mom, and being there lets me do that,” you respond, feeling slightly irritated. You glance at your father, who watches you carefully, his silence louder than anything your mother could say. Crossing your arms, you feel the erratic thump of your heart. “I know you guys are worried about me, but aside from a weird dream, I’m fine—”
“What dream?”
Your father’s voice is soft yet commanding, catching you off guard. He hasn’t talked much since you arrived, barely shown any interest in the daughter walking around with partial amnesia.
“It’s nothing really, Dad,” you dismiss it, shaking your head. “I doubt it means anything.”
“Tell me.”
Your eyes drift from your father to your plate, and you let out a quiet breath. Your finger taps on your leg, unease settling on your chest. If you say it out loud, it becomes real, this dream, that moment with Seokmin. You don’t know what to make of it, and it scares you, experiencing a level of intimacy with a stranger you only met once. But knowing your parents, they will not let it go, and you might as well rip the Band-Aid off now.
“I had a dream about someone who came into the club,” you start, running your fingers through your hair. “I don’t think I know him, but in the dream, it felt like I did. Like maybe I knew him before.”
“Oh?” Your mother’s eyes light up as she wipes her mouth with a napkin. “And you’re sure you don’t know him?”
“Yeah,” you shake your head. “This guy, Seokmin, I have never met him before—”
“Wait,” your father cuts in, raising his hand. “What did you say his name was again?”
‘Seokmin,” you confirm. Grabbing your glass of white wine, you take a sip, noticing his brow furrow with annoyance. “Do you know him, Dad?”
‘What?” Your dad slurs before shaking his head. “No, I don’t know him. I am just concerned about you having dreams about a stranger.” He smiles reassuringly, though it doesn’t match his eyes. “You are still taking your medication, right?”
You throw him an incredulous look and scoff. “Yes, I’m taking my medication!” you spit, rising from your seat. “How could you think that?”
“Well, hold on,” your mother leaps out of her seat, raising her hands. “Your father and I just want what’s best for you.” Her voice cracks at the end, tears welling in her eyes. “We almost lost you.”
You stare at your mother and father, the burning ember of anger brewing in your stomach slowly cooling off. There is something indescribable in your father’s eyes that leaves you uneasy, an ice-cold shiver spreading down your spine.
“It was just a dream,” your mother says. “I wouldn’t worry about it, okay?”
“Your mother is right,” your father agrees. “Sit down and finish dinner.”
It wasn’t a suggestion, but you don’t have any more will to fight with your family tonight. You do as you're told, slowly putting on your poker face as you finish your meal in silence. But something your gut tells you is more than just a dream, and even more sinister, your father might know something about it.
Two weeks. It’s been two weeks since Seokmin has seen you, and the distance physically aches. Not that he hasn’t wanted to, but he’s been busy, cracking heads and taking names—so to speak.
He’s gone through the list of names that were there the night you were hurt, and showed up to a few of those places, gathering all of the information he could get. Some gave it to him willingly; others were harder to convince. It didn’t matter how he got it done, as long as he got what he was looking for. Some survived to see another day; others weren’t so lucky.
Seokmin stares at his hands in the bathroom, his hands covered with dirt and dried-up blood, bruised knuckles that are turning into a nasty shade of purple. Turning on the warm water, he washes the blood away with a fluxus genorum soap he acquired from the Neo City black market, which specializes in rapidly healing most injuries. It was created by a scientist who wanted to cure humanity of their ailments, but the government had other plans. It’s said that the scientist refused, and the scientist suddenly went missing, presumed to be killed by the others of your very own Senator. Yet somehow, his creation can be accessed by certain means. Seokmin always found that interesting.
He unbuttons his shirt, revealing fading bruises he didn’t care to heal. In a way, Seokmin is addicted to the pain. It’s one of the few things that’s real to him; the feeling of a fist trying to crush his abdomen or a pole that swings wildly on his arm. It’s an adrenaline high that he is not trying to be cured from. It keeps him focused and guarded on his investigation to reveal the truth and set you free.
And bring you back to him.
Seokmin strips off the rest of his clothes, washes up quickly, and changes into jeans and a white long-sleeved shirt, then pairs them with his leather motorcycle jacket. He puts on the cologne you like, hoping it will stir your memory in some way. He reminisces about the first time you brought the bottle home and sprayed it on him without warning.
“Whoa there, baby. What did you put on me?”
“Your good luck charm,” you said cheekily, holding up a small yellow bottle.
“My good luck charm is standing in front of me,” Seokmin flirted, pulling you by your waist.
“Well, yes,” you agreed, pressing the bottle onto his chest. “But this will give you an extra boost. It smells good.”
Seokmin squinted, trying to detect any deceit. You loved to prank him, and even though he knew what you were doing before it happened, he let you do it anyway. Seeing the joy in your eyes, the warm laugh that bubbled from your throat gave him endorphins no one else could replicate.
"This isn’t some sort of joke, is it?” Seokmin murmured, his hand drifting lower to squeeze your derriere.
“Mm mm,” you shook your head. “No joke, baby. I bought this with you in mind, and I hope it makes you think of me.”
“I think of you all the time,” Seokmin chuckled, leaning in. “It doesn’t take much.”
“Good, my sunflower,” you nodded proudly. You spray his neck lightly, rubbing in the cologne with your fingers. “Now take me to bed.”
KNOCK! KNOCK! KNOCK!
Seokmin jolts himself back to the present, clutching the gun hidden in the back of his waistband. He wasn’t expecting anyone over, and aside from Seungcheol and Wonwoo, no one knows where he lives. He stalks towards the door, his heart racing, wondering if all of the bloodshed is catching up to him. Slowly looking into the peephole, he lets out a small breath of relief, followed by an annoyed scoff.
“You’ve got to be fucking kidding me.”
Seokmin unlocks the door, swinging it widely, facing the unwanted visitor.
“Silas.”
“Seokmin.”
The older man lets himself in, brushing his shoulder against Seokmin as a silent test to see if Seokmin will bite. He knows this type of man, the kind who gets a rise out of pushing buttons; they snap, and then the victim becomes the villain, fitting their narrative. Seokmin was almost always one step ahead of him, and he’s sure it's one of the many reasons he hates him.
“Yes, come in.’ he says under his breath, shutting the door.
“Why are you bothering her at the club?” Silas gets right to the point.
Seokmin gives him a slow, unimpressed once-over. “Because she’s my fiancée,” he answers bluntly. “That’s never going to change, no matter how you try to spin it.”
Silas snorts, surveying the space. “I think you need to get your head checked, boy. My daughter doesn’t and will not have anything to do with you.”
“Yeah, we’ll see about that,” Seokmin scoffs, holding eye contact. “Did you come all this way to puff out your chest? Or are you going to finally be the father she needs?”
Silas’s eyes narrow into menacing slits as he steps toward him, his voice a low, dangerous growl. “You don’t know shit about what she needs.”
Seokmin lets out a short, dry laugh, feeling it deep in his gut. “Old man, I know way more than you think.” Stepping around him, he opens the door. “If that’s all you have to say.”
Silas does not invoke any fear in Seokmin’s heart. It doesn’t matter how many connections your father has; Seokmin will still find a way to take them down, and he’s doing alright so far.
Silas sneers, turning on his heel and storming down the hall. “You will regret this!” He barks over his shoulder.
“No, I won’t,” Seokmin yells back, slamming the door behind him.
The sound echoes through his apartment, and Seokmin lets out a long, drawn breath, relieving the tension in his abdomen. A visit from Silas is never a good thing, but it doesn’t deter him—it pushes him to dig even deeper to uncover the lies just beneath the surface. How did he know Seokmin was coming to the club? Aside from the obvious, why is Silas bothered by it?
A myriad of questions swirl in his head, his suspicions growing louder. Pulling out his phone, he presses the dial button and is immediately met with a voicemail.
“Wonwoo. Look into Silas—yes, that Silas. I have a feeling this is bigger than we thought.”
I'm gonna tell you about love
Let's forget your life
Forget your problems
Administration, bills and loads
Come with me
You’re one with the rhythm, twirling in a sensual circle as you swing the mic in the air. There is a large attendance tonight, due to a convention in Neo City that brings nerds from all over the planet. You changed up your makeup at the last minute, going for a more divine look that brings out your eyes. Cado gave you shit for it, but you know what you’re doing, and it’s working; once again, everyone is at your mercy, their mouths partly open as you seduce the crowd with your voice.
Connect to the sky
Future lovers ride their ambitions high, would you like to try?
Let me be your guide, cut inside your pride
Future lovers hide love inside their eyes
The red light sparkles on your dress, a tight, short number that accentuates your legs, paired with heels that are an accessory in their own right. Scanning the room, you let the vibrant energy take over, falling into a trance while you perform. Being on stage is truly your happy place, and there isn’t anywhere else you’d want to be.
As you sing, you’re drawn to a pair of warm brown eyes you could get lost in, a slow smile on his lips as he watches your every move. Excitement tingles through your body, and you keep your composure as you strut over to the man of your dreams.
Love controlled by time
Future lovers shine for eternity in a world that's free
Put away your past, love will never last
If you're holding on to a dream that's gone
I'm gonna tell you about love
Would you like to try?
The final note lingers in the air, a shimmering vibration that seems to hold the entire room in an intoxicating suspension. As the crowd roars in applause, you wink at him, the shimmer of your makeup catching the strobe lights before you gracefully leave the stage.
Your heart is racing, but it’s not just because of the performance. Instead of heading to your dressing room, you detour to the floor, searching for him among all the bodies in colorful attire. You find your dream guy at the bar, ordering a drink with Chan. Despite the butterflies invading your stomach, you take a seat next to him.
“Hey, stranger,” you greet him with your signature low, sultry voice. “Thought I’d never see you again.”
“You did?” Seokmin responds, a gentle grin on his lips. “That just made my night.”
“I’m glad I could be of service.” You wink again. Feeling confident, you grab his hand, slide off your stool, and pull him along. “Walk with me?”
His hands feel the same as they did in your dream; warm, inviting, and safe. You notice the way his eyes dance as you lead him outside to your hideaway spot near the front entrance. You’re fully aware you’re acting recklessly, and you don’t really know Seokmin. For all you know, he could be a mass murderer. But despite all that, something in the back of your mind tells you it’s okay.
You stop in a tucked-away spot in the dimly lit alley, two patio chairs in front of an abandoned building. Streaks of magenta and cyan from the neon signs spread across the brick walls, alternating sides as the light adjusts according to its programming. No one else comes here, and you come here to think whenever the noise gets too loud. It’s your own little sanctuary, a small bit of peace that’s of your own making.
Seokmin digs into his jacket pocket, pulling out a pack of menthols and opening the carton toward you.
“Want one?”
You smile, taking one and slipping it between your lips. He lights it, his eyes not leaving yours, sending a jolt of sparks throughout your body.
“The man of my dreams,” you murmur as you exhale.
“Am I?” His eyes shift to something softer and unspoken, and you feel heat creep up on your neck.
“Figuratively speaking, of course,” you lie, inhaling deeply.
You exhale the smoke with a perfect ‘O’, watching it rise in the night air until it dissipates. You feel his eyes burning on you, and you don’t know what to say. You don’t know how to explain that you feel drawn to him, and it feels like you were meant to know him. You haven’t had another dream since then, and yet, Seokmin has been in the back of your mind with every thought. You tried shaking it away, meditating away, even sexing it away with someone you met at a bar that you knew you would never see again. Nothing has worked, and you are starting to feel you are truly fucked.
“So what do you do, Seokmin?” you ask, discarding the ash from the stick.
“I’m a private investigator,” he answers, taking a puff of his cigarette. “Been doing it for a while.”
“Yeah?” You say, amused. “So you probably have seen a lot of crazy things.”
“Something like that.”
A sly grin curves on his lips, making him more attractive. “I bet you handle yourself well.”
“I… do my best,” he alludes. “I’m still breathing.”
“You look good and alive to me,” you laugh, your nerves suddenly getting to you. Turning to the side, you slap your hand lightly on your head. This has never been you. You don’t tumble over your words or get tongue-tied over anything, especially men. And yet, Seokmin has you all over the place, stumbling over everything you thought you knew.
“So… what do you do when you’re not hypnotizing clubs or terrorizing your boss?”
You let out an embarrassing snicker, caught off guard by his statement. “What makes you think I terrorize my boss?”
Seokmin throws you a look, a twinkle in his eye as he raises a brow. “You perform like that on stage, and you tell me you aren’t driving your boss nuts?”
You almost choke on your cigarette, laughing. The nerves leave you as easy as they came. “Is it terrorizing or just knowing that I’m right?”
He shrugs with a smirk on his lips. “Touche.”
You shake your head playfully, putting out half of your cigarette. You aren’t really a smoker, but he offered, and you didn’t want to turn him down. Gazing at the sky, the two moons of the planet are full, in a shade of red that appears only once every millennium. How ironic that you are sharing it with the man of your dreams.
“I would ask if you come here often, but I think we know the answer to that,” you say, sauntering closer to him. “I never forget a face—brain injury aside.”
Seokmin bites his bottom lip, turning away slightly to hide a grin.
“It’s okay to laugh,” you encourage him. “My accident didn’t deprive me of my sense of humor, thank gods.”
He lets out a guffaw, his voice echoing off the walls of the alley. In the darkness, you see the light in his eyes, and it melts you. He's even more handsome than he was the first day you saw him.
“You… are funny,” Seokmin manages to say in between breaths. “Are you sure you don’t want to be a comedian?”
“Nah.” You scrunch your nose playfully. “I’d get bored.”
The time on the nearest building dings midnight, signaling your break being over. You don’t want to leave; you want to stay in this place and get to know him, figure out what makes him tick and why you can’t get him out of your head. Silence falls between you two, loud thoughts running through your mind, unsure of what to say next.
“So will you be coming back—”
“—Do you want to go out with me sometime?”
You stare at each other, the silence thick and charged with the kind of electricity that would raise your hair in the wind, followed by a lightning strike. A slow, playful smile curves on your lips as you lean in, the scent of his vanilla-and-spice cologne swirling around you, mixed with the sharp tang of menthols.
“You wanna go out with me?” you tease him. “How do you know I’m not a crazy person who takes their victims into dark alleys?”
Seokmin’s laugh is silvery, his foot itching closer to you, the warmth of his presence vibrating off you. “You’re a creative woman. I’m sure you could do better than that.”
You cock your head back in laughter, almost at a loss for words. “Touche.” Looking back towards the club, you turn to him again. “Walk me back?”
Seokmin holds out his arm to you, and you slip into it easily, like a fitted glove. The walk back is mostly quiet, aside from exchanging numbers and agreeing to see each other in two days. The neon lights dance on your skin, and the club's impending noise grows louder with each step. It’s like you're in your own bubble, existing with him with ease, feeling a sort of peace you didn’t know you needed.
When you reach the entrance, the bubble bursts as Cado leans against the doorframe, arms folded with irritation on his face. His eyes land on you two, his dark pupils narrowing into predatory splits.
“You’re late for your second set, Vixen,” Cado says with a smile that doesn’t match his eyes. “Let’s get you inside, gorgeous.”
He holds out his hand, but his gaze is on Seokmin, his poker face faltering with each second. You glance at Seokmin, who meets the gaze with an unimpressed stare, stepping back slightly to give you space.
“I’ll see you Friday, sunflower.”
You watch him walk away, disappearing into the night. Giddiness takes over; you wish you could leap forward two days. You feel Cado’s hands grip your upper arm, a tad too much pressure, making you wince. You’re ushered back inside, the thumping bass, the thick smoke, and expensive perfume irritating your nose.
“You don’t have to guide me to my dressing room,” you bite. “I’m not a child.”
“If only you knew the concept of time is money,” Cado snaps. “You have five minutes.”
You step into the dim light of your dressing room, the mirror reflecting your image in all of its glory. You quickly tousle your hair, adjust your dress and makeup, and touch your lips with a shade of red that would make the devil jealous. You were done in two minutes instead of five, rolling your eyes at Cado’s attitude earlier.
“I don’t know what his issue is,” you mutter to yourself. “I’m already done.”
Swinging the door open, you make your way to the stage, passing by the boss’s door, which is left slightly ajar.
“Yeah, she’s in the dressing room now… yes, I will keep an eye on her.”
You come to a halt, a chill coming down your spine. You may have lost part of your memory, but you aren’t naive—he is talking about you.
“Yeah… yeah… He was here again.”
Your heart starts to race, everything suddenly feeling heightened as you continue the conversation. Why is Cado so invested in you and who you keep your company with?
“Are you alright?”
You turn around suddenly, facing Chan, who is standing in the hallway, holding boxes of liquor, presumably to stock the bar. You blink, your ears burning from embarrassment and being caught red-handed.
“Yeah, I’m fine,” you croak, clearing your throat. “I just have a slight headache, that’s all.”
“Oh, if you want, I can give you coltis powder later; that’ll clear it up.”
You give him a weak smile. “I would appreciate it, Chan.”
He nods and walks around you, going back to the bar. You pinch your nose, shaking your head as you let out a loud sigh. Fuck, that was close. Turning around, you see Cado’s door is now closed, ending any chance you had to hear more of the conversation. Disappointment starts to seep in like a leak, but you push it aside, realizing your five minutes are up and it’s time to get on stage. You put on your best poker face, going on stage to applause and cheers, your hands resting on the microphone as you begin your next set.
“Who’s ready for more?”
The crowd cheers.
Turning to your right, you meet the eyes of Cado, who watches you intently with an all-knowing look you can’t understand. You wink at him and begin your set, seemingly showing everyone all is right in the world.
But that’s the opposite of the truth, and it’s far from over.
Part 2 will be posted soon! Let me know what you think in the comments or reblogs <3
A sun-drenched afternoon by the pool leaves Seungcheol’s drenched white t-shirt burned into your mind. But when the villa finally goes quiet, the playful tension shifts into something far more intense, loud, and impossible for the rest of the group to ignore.
PAIRINGS | Choi Seungcheol x F. Reader
GENRE | smut, pwp
RATING | Mature, NSFW, EXPLICIT, MDNI, 18+, Any Minors and Ageless Blogs will be blocked
CONTENT/WARNINGS | non-idols au, swearing, kissing, caressing, unprotective sex (wrap it up folks), oral sex, penetrative sex, hair grabbing, body worship, dirty talk, creampies,
AUTHOR’S NOTE | Because I've been feral for Cheol lately.
Seventeen Masterlist | Main Masterlist
The midday heat at the villa is intense, but nobody seems to care. Seungcheol’s friends—all twelve of them—has turned the backyard pool into an absolute battleground of splashes, chaotic chicken fights, and echoing laughter. You're sitting on the edge of a lounge chair, nursing a cold drink and just taking it all in, when Seungcheol finally hauls himself out of the water.
He's wearing a simple, thin white t-shirt that he foolishly left on when he got pushed into the deep end earlier. Now, the fabric's completely drenched, turning entirely translucent and clinging relentlessly to every line of his chest and abs. As he walks towards you, running a hand through his dripping hair, the wet fabric stretches tight across his broad shoulders.
He stops right in front of your chair, blocking the sun, a breathless, boyish grin plastered on his face.
"Having fun just watching?" he teases, his voice a little raspy from yelling over the music. He leans down, pressing a deliberately cold, wet kiss to your cheek, leaving a damp patch on your skin.
You swallow hard, your eyes involuntarily darting down to the way the wet cotton traces the definition of his torso, leaving absolutely nothing to the imagination. Your heart does a sudden, violent flip.
"Yeah," you manage, your voice a little tighter than usual as you look back up into his dark eyes. "A lot of fun."
He chuckles, entirely oblivious—or maybe entirely aware—of the effect he's having, before being dragged back into the chaos by Seokmin and Mingyu. But for the rest of the afternoon, no matter how loud the guys got, your eyes keep tracking that damp white shirt.
Hours later, the villa finally went quiet. The guys crashed in their respective rooms, exhausted from a day in the sun and a heavy dinner.
You're sitting on the edge of the bed in the room you and Seungcheol share, the cool air conditioning humming softly in the background. The door clicks open, and Seungcheol walks in, freshly showered and wearing nothing but a loose pair of gray sweatpants. His hair is damp again, but this time it smells of the villa’s sharp, clean soap.
He lets out a long sigh of relief, stretching his arms over his head before looking at you. "Man, I love them, but they are exhausting. I'm so glad we finally have some quiet—" he stops mid-sentence, noticing the way your gaze was fixed on him. "What?"
"Nothing," you say quickly, but your eyes betray you, tracing the lines of his chest and stomach, the memory of the wet t-shirt still burning into your mind.
He moves closer, a slow, knowing smile spreading across his face. The air in the room suddenly feels thicker. "No, it's not nothing," he says, his voice lower now. "You've been looking at me like that since this afternoon. Ever since the pool."
Heat floods your cheeks. You open your mouth to deny it, to say something, anything, but he's already closing the distance between you. He kneels in front of you, his hands resting on your knees.
"Tell me," he murmurs, his thumbs stroking slow circles on your skin. "What were you thinking about?"
You swallow, your breath hitching. "The... the wet t-shirt," you admit, the words barely a whisper.
His smile widens, a flicker of pride and amusement in his eyes. "Just the shirt?" he pushes, leaning in until his lips are just a breath away from yours. "Or what was under it?"
You let out a shaky breath. "Both."
"Good," he whispers against your mouth before finally kissing you. It isn't soft. It's deep and hungry, a kiss that's been waiting all day to happen. His hands slide from your knees up your thighs, pulling you to the very edge of the bed.
When he finally pulls back, both of you are breathless. He looks at you, his eyes dark with a question he doesn't need to ask. You answer by reaching for the hem of your own shirt and pulling it over your head in one smooth motion. His gaze drops, and the last of the playful energy in the room evaporates, replaced by something much more intense.
"Much better," he breathes, leaning in to press a trail of kisses down your neck, his hands exploring the newly exposed skin of your waist and back.
"Cheol, the guys—" you start, your head tipping back to give him better access.
"Don't care," he mumbles against your collarbone, his hands moving around to your stomach, tracing the edge of your shorts. "Let them hear. They should know what happens when my girlfriend comes on a trip with me."
You can't help the small laugh that escapes, but it's quickly cut off by a gasp as he lifts you effortlessly, moving you further back on the bed and hovering over you.
He looks down at you, his expression a mixture of adoration and raw desire. "Now, where were we?" he asks, but he doesn't wait for an answer before leaning down to kiss you again, slow and deep, while his hands work to remove the last barriers between your skin and his.
His thumbs hooks into the waistband of your shorts, dragging them down your legs with a deliberate slowness that made your breath catch. The fabric whispers against your skin before being discarded onto the floor. The cool air of the room is a stark contrast to the warmth of his body, and you shivered, though not from the cold.
Seungcheol’s eyes followed the path of his hands as they travels back up your legs, skimming over your knees, your thighs, settling on your hips. He watches you, cataloging every tiny reaction—the way your stomach tightens, the soft sigh that escapes your lips.
His touch is reverent, almost worshipful, as he leans down to press a kiss just below your navel. Then another, lower still, on the sensitive skin of your inner thigh. You tangle your fingers in the damp hair at the nape of his neck, a silent encouragement.
He responds by parting your legs gently, settling between them, as he looks up at you. "I'm okay with you screaming for me, baby," he murmurs, his breath warm against your most sensitive skin. "But if you really need to muffle your screams, we can use your pretty panties." he says before he hooks a finger into your panties, pulling them down your legs. "Love eating you out," he confesses, his voice vibrating against you. He then dives in, eating you out like a starved man.
"Cheol," you gasp, your back arching off the bed as he set a devastating rhythm.
He's relentless, using his tongue, his lips, every part of himself to push you higher. He eats you out with the same focused intensity he applies to everything else, as if making you fall apart is the most important thing in the world. One of his hands slide up your body, finding yours, and your fingers lace together, a grounding anchor in the sea of sensation he's creating.
The sounds you're making are uninhibited now, soft cries and gasps filling the quiet room. You can feel the tension coiling tighter and tighter in your stomach, a delicious, dizzying spiral. "Cheol, I—"
"I know, baby," he mumbles against you, not stopping. "Let go. I've got you."
His words are the final push you need. The tension snaps, and pleasure crashes over you in a blinding wave. You cry out his name, your body shaking as he works you through it, drawing out every last bit of sensation until you're limp and breathless on the bed.
He kisses his way back up your body, pausing to lavish attention on your breasts before finally reaching your lips. The kiss is slow and deep, tasting of you and him.
When he pulls back, he's smiling, a soft, triumphant look in his eyes. He's still wearing those damn gray sweatpants, and you're suddenly overwhelmed with the need to get rid of them.
"You're still wearing too many clothes," you whisper, your hands sliding down his back to the waistband of his sweatpants. He lets out a soft hum of approval as you tug them down, freeing him.
Your eyes widen slightly at the sight of him, hard and ready for you. You wrap your hand around him, stroking him slowly, watching as his head tips back and a low groan rumbles in his chest.
"Fuck," he breathes, his hips bucking slightly into your touch. "Keep doing that and this'll be over before it starts."
You smile, a slow, satisfied smirk. "We can't have that, can we?"
With a strength that never fails to surprise you, he flips you over, pulling your hips up until you're on your hands and knees. He runs a hand over the curve of your ass, a low, appreciative sound in his throat.
"Seungcheol," you breathe, pushing back against him.
"I'm right here, baby," he murmurs, positioning himself at your entrance. He pushes in slowly, a shared gasp filling the room as he stretches and fills you completely. He pauses for a moment, giving you time to adjust, before starting to move.
The pace he set is deep and deliberate, each thrust hitting that perfect spot inside you that makes your toes curl. The sounds of skin slapping against skin fills the room, mingling with your moans and his harsh breaths.
"God, you feel so good," he grits out, one hand gripping the headboard for leverage, the other splayed across your back. "So fucking good."
You can't form words, can only push back against him, meeting him thrust for thrust. The bed's rocking beneath you, the headboard hitting the wall with a soft thud, thud, thud that's a perfect counterpoint to the rhythm he's setting.
You bury your face in the pillows to muffle your cries, his hand skimming up your spine. "I know you feel good baby, but don't forget to breathe," he says, leaning down to press a kiss between your shoulder blades. "I want to hear you."
You turn your head to the side, taking a deep, shaky breath. "Harder, Cheol," you manage to get out. "Please."
Your plea seems to flip a switch in him. The careful control he's been exercising shatters, replaced by a raw, primal need. With a guttural groan, he tightens his grip on your hips and drive into you, the force of it stealing the air from your lungs.
The pace is punishing, a relentless rhythm that has the headboard slamming against the wall with a new, desperate urgency. The sound is loud, unmistakable, and a tiny, hazy part of your brain hopes the villa walls are thicker than they seem. But the rest of you, the part being utterly consumed by Seungcheol, doesn't care at all.
"That what you wanted, baby?" he rasps, his voice straining with the effort. His hands move from your hips, one wrapping around to find your clit, the other tangling in your hair, gently pulling your head back. "You wanted me to fuck you so hard the whole house hears?"
"Yes," you choke out, the word almost unintelligible. "Yes, Cheol, don't stop."
He growls in response, a low, possessive sound from deep in his chest. He doesn't stop. The pressure on your clit is perfect, circling in time with his brutal thrusts, and you can feel yourself hurtling towards the edge again. Your knuckles are white where you're gripping the sheets, your entire body wound tight with anticipation.
"I want you to come for me," he commands, his breath hot against your ear. "Come on my cock, baby. Let me feel you."
His words are your undoing. The world splinters, your vision going white as your orgasm rip through you. You scream into the pillow, your body convulsing with the force of it, your inner walls clamping down around him.
He follows you over the edge seconds later. With a final, deep thrust, he buries himself inside you and come with a hoarse shout of your name. His body shudders against yours, and for a long moment, the only sound in the room is the ragged sound of your breathing as you both come down from the high.
He collapses beside you, pulling you into his arms and spooning you from behind. He's still inside you, a warm, heavy weight that's surprisingly comforting. He presses a soft, lingering kiss to your shoulder.
"You okay?" he murmurs, his voice rough and spent.
You hum contentedly, wiggling back against him. "More than okay," you whisper, turning your head to look at him. His face is flushed, his hair a mess, and he has the most ridiculously satisfied smile on his face.
"Good," he says, kissing you softly. "Because I'm not done with you yet."
And the moment the words leave his mouth, you both hear a banging on the door.
"For the love of God, will you two please shut up!" came Joshua's muffled, but very annoyed, shout from the hallway. "Some of us are trying to sleep!"
Seungcheol just laughs, a deep, rumbling sound that you feel in your own chest. He pulls the covers over both of you, a mischievous glint in his eyes. "Next time, we get a private villa," he whispers. "No friends."
You cuddle closer to him, a lazy smile on your face. "Next time," you agree, already looking forward to it.
You and Mingyu are childhood friends and two self‑aware comic characters that are forced into clichéd romcom roles you both hate. On the page, he’s the perfect jock and you’re the villainess; off the page, you’re a nerd–queen duo secretly in love. Fed up with scripted drama and unwanted love triangles, you rebel, glitching the comic as the Writer fights to force you back into place. What follows isn’t a romcom but a battle for agency, freedom, and the right to choose each other.
PAIRINGS | Kim Mingyu x F. Reader
GENRE | romantic comedy, smut, angst, drama, childhood friends to lovers, meta, breaking the fourth wall(?)
CONTENT/WARNINGS | non-idols au, swearing, comedy, self-aware characters, verbal jabs, reader is a bully but she can't help it because that's how her character is written, punching and grabbing narration boxes, forced scripted “scenes” (comic scenes), miscommunication, yearning, kissing, caressing, unprotective sex (wrap it up folks), shower sex, oral sex, hair grabbing
AUTHOR’S NOTE | She's finally doneeeeee! This fic is for the SVTFLIX collab hosted by @100vern. It's loosely inspired by the k-drama Extra-Ordinary You and I had soooo much fun writing this 💚. Thank you @livmarauder for reading a portion of this and hyping me up as I write this and thank you @lovetaroandtaemin for reading the whole thing when I thought I was going crazy that my ending was rushed. Maybe we'll have a part 2???
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PANEL 1 — WIDE SHOT: CAMPUS QUAD, GOLDEN HOUR.
Students stroll across the lawn in perfect symmetry. Cherry blossoms drift in slow motion. A sparkly pink narration box hovers above the scene like a smug cloud.
NARRATION: Springtime at Carat University, where love blooms, hearts flutter, and destiny awaits...
PANEL 2 — CLOSE ON YOU
You’re standing dead center, holding a coffee. You stare directly at the narration box with the expression of someone who's been dealing with this for far too long.
“Don’t you dare,” you warn it.
The narration box flickers.
NARRATION: ...and the villainess plots her next—
“NOPE,” you snap, grabbing the box mid‑air like it’s a misbehaving balloon. “We talked about this. No villain monologues before 9 a.m.” You fold the narration box until it is the approximate dimensions of a post-it note and shove it into your pocket.
The rest of the campus, meanwhile, bustles around you like nothing happened. Like it never happens. Like there isn't a floating narration box following you from birth and plotting your eventual fall from grace. You really should start looking into those therapy services offered by the mental health office. You know they can't help you with "being narrated since birth," but it's probably the next best thing, right?
Anyway, it's spring and, frankly, you're very tired.
You, Y/N, are the notorious campus queen: the stunning daughter of an affluent political family and the presumed villainous antagonistic force in Kim Mingyu's, your childhood friend, star-crossed love story. For three volumes and counting, you, Mingyu and Lee Ara have fallen into a rhythmic dance of misunderstandings, relationship dramas, and flashy battles all leading to one, inevitable conclusion: Mingyu and Ara will fall in love and live happily ever after.
Or that's how it's supposed to work.
Except none of that happens in the shadows, the white spaces that the Writer's pen never quite fills in. Those are the places where characters come to life in ways even the omnipotent Writer can't see coming. Like when Mingyu saved you from a car last spring. Or that night you snuck into the school pool together and splashed around instead of studying. When it was just the two of you, when no one could see, no one was writing. When everything seemed perfectly scripted without a script.
In those moments, when the narration box couldn't reach you, nothing else seemed quite as important as his smile.
Until the next scene began, that was.
You don't remember when you and Mingyu became aware of the fact that none of this was real. You always thought that you were losing your memory, wondering how you ended up at home when you were just in class seconds ago, how so much time seemed to pass without your realizing it. It didn't click until you were aimlessly roaming the school halls one afternoon and noticed the air fluttering unnaturally around you, things moving floating out of place in the corner of your vision and an unsettling feeling of something. A presence? A monster? A force beyond your knowing and naming trying to reach out to you.
When you talked to people, they'd be confused or dismissive, thinking you're joking. And when you'd ask them again some time later, they wouldn't know what you meant and keep repeating the same responses over and over, no matter how many times you would try and ask, hoping it'd finally ilicit a different response.
Finally, you tried talking to Mingyu about what was happening to you, only to find Mingyu was feeling exactly the same way. That things were happening without his express conscious will, and he felt the presence of something vaguely sinister outside of his direct sphere.
That's when you both realized the absurd, nonsensical reality that you're living in a webtoon, in a narrative world crafted by someone who felt very little need or concern for either of your agency. That something, a presence beyond human knowledge and imagination, was dictating and guiding you along towards an end goal: an inevitable romance between Kim Mingyu, the male lead, and Lee Ara, the female lead, and you're left to be the evil side character who had to be defeated for Mingyu and Ara to obtain their Happy Ever After.
Which sucks ass because you really like Mingyu. Maybe even a little too much. And you know, deep down, that the feeling is mutual. The Writer might make you do whatever she wants to further the plot, like flirt with Mingyu against your will during scripted love tropes. But whenever the writer isn't actively intervening, you get to be just you and Mingyu, and not the fictional, plot-dictated versions of you two that are forced together by the writer. You wonder sometimes, if it wasn't for this damned world, if you'd be happily dating each other.
You feel the narration box wriggling in your pocket, desperate to escape and comment. To announce loudly, obviously that you'll do whatever you can to disrupt Kim Mingyu and Lee Ara from meeting, but ultimately end up helping the course of fate along because the Writer makes it so. Because the narrative demands a twist at the very last second, and Kim Mingyu can't end up with you.
With a sigh, you take the now much smaller narration box out and unfold it, letting its words be absorbed back into reality:
NARRATION: ...and the villainess plots her next loser plan to keep our golden boy and pure maiden away from each other.
"I fucking hate you," you mutter under your breath.
Just then, a slim figure rounds the corner: Lee Ara in all of her oblivious perfection, wearing a fluffy dress that no college student would survive in, looking very much like she is running towards you.
PANEL 3 — BUST SHOT: YOU, GLOWERING.
Your lips curl up into your default, scheming smile. You really wish it didn't feel so natural.
PANEL 4 — EXTREME CLOSE UP ON LEE ARA.
Her hair blows dramatically out of the way as she stares determinedly ahead like this isn't a typical, daily interaction for the two of you. You can't tell if it's supposed to look brave or goofy, but it sure isn't intimidating.
"Ara, you look absolutely stunning today," you feel your eye twitch as the words leave your mouth, words you didn't choose, didn't want to say, words that materialized on your tongue like someone else is operating your vocal cords.
Which, technically, someone was.
Ara blinks up at you with those impossibly wide doe eyes. "Oh! Um, thank you? That's... really nice of you to say."
No, it fucking isn't, you thought viciously, even as your face arranges itself into what you know is a calculated, mean-girl smirk.
"I just wanted to say," your mouth continues without your permission, and you feel the familiar horror of a scripted scene taking over, "that dress is so brave. Not everyone could pull off that... particular shade of yellow."
There it is. The backhanded compliment. Right on schedule.
Ara's face falls slightly, and you want to scream. You helped her pick out that dress last week during your actual, off-page friendship that the Writer conveniently ignores. You told her the sunshine yellow made her look like bottled happiness.
"Oh," Ara says softly. "I... thank you?"
"If you like looking like you're blocking traffic, then feel free to keep wearing it," you snort and then the scene releases you like a puppet with cut strings, and you immediately grab Ara's arm. "Wait, that came out wrong—"
PANEL 5 — ARA TURNS.
She's already walking away, and you know why. The Writer has got what they wanted: another moment of you being terrible to the heroine. Another panel of the villainess doing villainess things.
You stand there in the middle of the quad, students flowing around you like water around a stone, and contemplate the very real possibility of screaming until your throat bleeds.
"Rough scene?"
You don't have to turn around to know who it is. You recognize that voice anywhere. It's the voice that makes your stomach do complicated acrobatic routines, the one that belongs to your best friend since childhood, the one that's supposed to fall in love with Ara and definitely not with you.
"Mingyu," you say, turning to face him. "I just told Ara her dress makes her look like a jaundiced traffic cone. How do you think it went?"
Mingyu winces, adjusting his backpack on his shoulder. He's wearing his usual off-scene outfit: an oversized hoodie that's seen better days, glasses slightly askew, hair unstyled and falling into his eyes. He looks nothing like the chiseled, perfectly-coiffed golden boy who appeared in the actual comic panels.
"Ouch," he says. "Did you at least get to apologize before the scene ended?"
"Tried. She walked away. The Writer probably needed her to be sad for the next panel where you comfort her and she realizes she has feelings for you for the millionth time," you make a gagging noise. "I hate this. I hate all of this."
"I know," Mingyu falls into step beside you as you start walking toward your next class. "I had a scene this morning where I had to flex at the gym for fifteen minutes while Ara watched from the doorway. Fifteen minutes, Y/N. Do you know how long fifteen minutes of flexing is?"
Despite everything, you snort. "Did you at least get a good pump?"
"I got a cramp in my left bicep and the overwhelming desire to go home and read my economics textbook," he pauses. "Which I did, by the way. Chapter twelve is fascinating. Did you know that—"
"Mingyu, I love you, but if you start explaining supply and demand curves right now, I will push you into that trash can."
The words hung in the air for a moment. I love you. You said it all the time, had said it for years, best friends who'd grown up together and know each other's every secret.
But lately, the words felt heavier.
Mingyu's ears turned red, they always did when you said it, even casually, and he clears his throat. "Right. No economics. Got it."
You reach your classroom and stop, turning to face him fully. He's tall, he'd always been tall, but he hunches slightly, like he's trying to take up less space. It's such a contrast to his on-page persona, where he stands with the confidence of someone who'd never doubted himself a day in his life.
"Same time tonight?" you ask. "My place? We can finish studying for that chem mid."
His face splits into a grin, a wide, boyish one that makes his glasses slide down to the tip of his nose. "Definitely," he agrees. "Maybe without the interruption this time."
PANEL 6 — ARA WALKING TOWARDS MINGYU
"And here I go," you mutter, "back to fading into the background so these two can have their meet-cute."
"I'm really sorry," Mingyu says again, "and I know that doesn't mean anything. I hope I can—"
NARRATION: ...Kim Mingyu notices his true love standing alone in the corner, a beautiful flower ready to bloom into...
"You changed into your jock gear," you note, sounding unimpressed, as Mingyu looks down and realizes that yes, he's wearing the clothes his character usually wears to work out instead of the sweater he wore before.
"Fuck," he sighs, "Here I go, I guess."
"You want me to text you after?" you ask him.
He nods, giving you a strained smile, and says, "Please."
PANEL 7 — SLOW ZOOM-IN ON ARA'S FLAWLESS SKIN AS SHE LOOKS UP AND ATTENDS MINGYU'S DAZZLING SMILE, HEARTS POPPING AROUND HER AS WE DRAMATICALLY FOCUS IN ON MINGYU.
"Ara! Just the girl I wanted to see."
You let out a long sigh, before turning away from the pair. Your story might be stuck in this linear route, but you really don't have to stick around and watch the love of your life play his part in this tale.
PANEL 8 — Y/N WALKS AWAY, SHOULDERS HUNCHED, BACKGROUND BLURRING INTO SOFT PASTELS AS THE ROMANTIC SCENE CONTINUES BEHIND HER
Each step away feels like wading through honey. You can hear Ara's delighted laugh behind you, that genuine, sweet sound that makes you hate yourself for being scripted to hurt her. You can hear Mingyu's voice doing that thing: that confident, flirty thing that isn't him at all.
The real Mingyu stutters when he's nervous. The real Mingyu talks about economic theory at 2AM and falls asleep with his glasses on.
But the Writer doesn't care about the real Mingyu.
PANEL 9 — CLOSE-UP ON Y/N'S FACE, EXPRESSION CAREFULLY NEUTRAL, BUT EYES BETRAYING PAIN
NARRATION: Meanwhile, the villainess retreats to lick her wounds, knowing she can never compete with—
"Oh, fuck off," you snap, reaching up to grab the narration box again. It's vibrating indignantly, trying to narrate your heartbreak into something convenient for the plot.
You squeeze it harder.
"You don't get to narrate this. This part is mine."
You track down Jeon Wonwoo, the webtoon's dark, brooding second male lead, in the library—specifically, on one of the beanbag chairs near the back. Wonwoo's sprawled out like an overly pretentious Renaissance statue, head titled to the sky, eyes closed, reading glasses perched low on the bridge of his nose, a heavy, glossy book perched precariously on his chest.
"What happened this time?" He mumbles. "Faded into the back like usual before the scene started?"
Wonwoo became self-aware just like you and Mingyu; about five episodes ago. And also like you and Mingyu, he didn't come into his new reality prepared. He hadn't realized it at first. He was too busy brooding and contemplating life's meaning, so it wasn't until he was speaking to Mingyu about his memory blackouts. That was when Mingyu called you over, and the three of you had had the worst meeting you could've imagined.
Wonwoo wasn't particularly enthused to find out he was a love interest. He wasn't really interested in the romantic side of things in general. Not when he was made out to be the mysterious, dark bad boy who sulks in corners, glares at people, and spends too much money on poetry books that aren't actually worth their cost.
"Fuck me," you drop yourself into the bean bag beside him, throwing your backpack across the table and letting out the loudest, most exasperated sigh of frustration known to mankind.
"You can let Mingyu do that once he's back in the shadows," Wonwoo chuckles softly as he flips a page of the book.
"And then what will happen when we have sex and a scene between him and Ara happens?" You glare at him. "He vanishes from my bed, to confess to a woman he doesn't even like? You want that to happen? I sure as hell don't."
"Then don't have sex." Wonwoo doesn't look up from his book.
"...That's your answer?"
"Don't have sex and become canon."
"I..." you let out an incredulous laugh, reaching for the nearest object near you to throw. You grab a discarded highlighter and throw it at his forehead, causing him to shut his book and finally glance over at you. "If only it were that easy, asshole."
"Can I go back to my book, or have you finally broken?" Wonwoo looks bored out of his mind as he speaks.
"We're talking about my and Mingyu's relationship. Mingyu and mine's. I hate being the villain. I'm the most popular fucking girl on campus. I'm nice to everyone, and I somehow still get treated like an evil piece of shit when a scene starts." You kick your leg up for dramatic effect, which causes a few students around you to shift uncomfortably. "This is bullshit!"
Wonwoo picks up the highlighter you threw at him and examines it like it's a particularly uninteresting specimen. "You done?"
"No, I'm not—"
"Good. Because you're making a scene, and the last thing either of us needs is to trigger another scripted moment." He tosses the highlighter back to you. "Go study with your boyfriend. At least off-page you can pretend you have free will."
You catch the highlighter reflexively, your anger deflating into something closer to exhaustion. He's right, of course. He's always right in the most infuriating way possible.
"He's not my boyfriend," you mutter, but it sounds hollow even to your own ears.
"Semantics." Wonwoo reopens his book. "Now get out of here before the Writer decides we're having a moment and I have to brood attractively at you."
Your apartment is blessedly, perfectly normal.
No cherry blossoms. No golden hour lighting. No background music swelling as you open the door. Just your slightly messy living room with Mingyu already sprawled on your couch, his laptop open, surrounded by a frankly alarming number of economics textbooks.
He's wearing his glasses, the ones that never appear on-page because apparently the Writer thinks they make him look "too nerdy" for a male lead. His hair is unstyled, falling into his eyes. He's wearing a hoodie that's two sizes too big and sweatpants with a hole in the knee.
This is the real Kim Mingyu.
"You're late," he says without looking up from his screen, but there's no accusation in his voice. Just familiarity.
"Wonwoo was being useless." You drop your bag by the door and collapse onto the couch next to him, close enough that your thigh presses against his. "How was the rest of your day? Did the Writer make you do anything else humiliating?"
"Define humiliating." Mingyu finally glances at you, and his expression softens. "I had to carry Ara's books to her next class. My hands were full, so I couldn't even text you to complain about it in real-time."
"Tragic."
"It really was." He shifts his laptop to the coffee table and turns to face you properly. "She kept talking about how strong I must be. I'm not even that strong. I'm just tall. There's a difference."
You can't help but smile. "You're a little strong."
"I have the upper body strength of a particularly determined pool noodle." He pushes his glasses up his nose, a nervous habit he's had since you were kids. "How was your scene with her? The dress thing?"
Your smile fades. "I told her she looked like a sad banana."
"You didn't—"
"I did. Well, the Writer did. Through my mouth." You lean your head back against the couch, staring at the ceiling. "We picked out that dress together last weekend. She was so excited about it. And then I had to stand there and watch my own mouth form words about how it washed her out."
Mingyu is quiet for a moment. Then his hand finds yours, fingers interlacing with a practiced ease that comes from years of this, this thing between you that has no name because the Writer won't allow it one.
"I'm sorry," he says quietly.
"Not your fault."
"Still sorry."
This is what you love about him. Not the on-page version with the perfect smile and the athletic build and the confident swagger. This Mingyu, who apologizes for things he can't control and stutters when he's nervous and gets genuinely excited about fiscal policy.
This Mingyu, who has held your hand through every forced scene and every narrative violation and every moment where you've both felt like puppets with cut strings.
"Did you finish the problem sets?" you ask, because if you keep thinking about how much you love him, you might do something stupid. Like kiss him. And if you kiss him off-page, there's no telling what the Writer might do to punish you for it.
"Most of them." He reaches for his laptop again, but doesn't let go of your hand. "I got stuck on number seven. The one about market equilibrium."
"Let me see."
You spend the next two hours like this, working through economics problems, your head eventually finding its way to his shoulder, his thumb tracing absent patterns on your knuckles. He explains supply curves with the kind of enthusiasm most people reserve for their favorite movies. You argue about elasticity and make him laugh so hard he snorts.
No narration box appears to comment on the "comfortable silence" or the "unspoken tension." No background music swells. No cherry blossoms drift past your window.
It's just you and Mingyu, existing in the spaces between the story.
"I wish it could always be like this," you murmur at some point, when the sky outside has gone dark and you've both abandoned any pretense of studying.
Mingyu's arm is around your shoulders now. You're not sure when that happened, but it feels right. Natural. Like this is how you're supposed to fit together.
"Me too," he says, pressing a light, half-awake kiss against the crown of your head. "Just like this."
You lean into his warmth, your eyelids fluttering closed as you memorize the weight and shape of his arm against you, his head resting against yours, the steadiness of his breathing as he begins to drift off. You memorize it all.
You memorize every last detail.
Because when you open your eyes, you're alone again.
PANEL 1 — MEDIUM CLOSE-UP ON KIM MINGYU, RUNNING ON A TREADMILL AND CONSIDERING THE THOUGHTS IN HIS GORGEOUS HANDSOME BRAIN
"Damn," Mingyu mutters as he treads, "I can't even sleep peacefully on the couch with the woman I'm hopelessly in love with."
PANEL 2 — WONWOO, EXHAUSTED AND DEBATING LEAVING MINGYU TRAINING TO WALLOW IN HIS MELANCHOLY MUSINGS BY HIMSELF
"I fucking hate my life." Wonwoo groans out his displeasure. He wonders how much trouble he'd get in if he "accidentally" hit the speed button and watches Mingyu flail off the treadmill.
NARRATION: Back on campus, the handsome male lead dwells on the true love he so sorely misses.
Mingyu grabs the narration box and flings it into the nearest corner of the gym, where it blinks weakly and powers itself off to spare itself any further humiliation.
"You done?" Wonwoo asks, the picture of composure and zen.
"No, I'm still fucking pissed off!" Mingyu hops off the treadmill and heads straight for the boxing station, grabbing some tape and bandages and wrapping up his fists in record time.
"Do you wanna tell me why you're pissed off this time, or are we just gonna keep going back and forth like this forever?"
"Y/N and I were just working on the homework, and it was... perfect. It felt perfect. Right. It was good—real good. But then, before I could realize what had happened, the Writer snatched me and now here we are."
Wonwoo nods along like the therapist that his character and personality have inexplicably deemed him, and sighs deeply.
"Happens to me all the time." Wonwoo goes about packing up his belongings for his trip back home. "One moment I'm helping one of the female side characters with a jammed door lock and the next moment I'm staring at Ara for four pages straight wondering if I want her to be my first or last kiss. Every. Damn. Time."
"You poor thing," Mingyu mumbles condescendingly as he furiously punches the boxing bag.
Wonwoo steps away as he watched the narration box slowly creep over to join the two men. "A scene is starting soon, just warning you now."
PANEL 3 — MINGYU CONTINUES TO HIT THE BOXING BAG, UNTIL HE HEARS A SUDDEN CRACK.
NARRATION: He swings and it hits. His fists continue, his speed increasing as he repeats a simple question in his head: why is Y/N messing with Ara?
PANEL 4 — MINGYU STILL BEATING THE HELL OUT OF THE BOXING BAG.
NARRATION: Something has gone terribly, terribly wrong. His anger is spilling out like a broken kettle, and its burning, stinging him.
"STOP!" Mingyu shouts to no one in particular, punching the narration box instead of the bag.
"And this is why I wanted to stay home," Wonwoo murmurs out loud. "I hate these things."
"Why can't someone else be the main character?" Mingyu whines. "It doesn't have to be me."
"Because you're the one with huge muscles, you're tall, and you've got the best abs in the entire school?" Wonwoo offers bluntly.
Mingyu doesn't answer and turns his attention to the boxing bag again, throwing several more powerful punches until suddenly, the narration box begins to hover, drawing both men's attention as a new caption begins to write itself:
NARRATION: As his heart screams and his fists bleed, the only image that flashes through Mingyu's mind is Ara.
Mingyu screeches, throwing the gloves at the boxing bag this time. "LEAVE ME ALONE, YOU EVIL BOX. STOP SHOVING ME BACK INTO THE CAST OF THIS DUMBASS STORY."
PANEL 5 — KIM MINGYU IS PISSED
NARRATION: An irrational urge seeps into him. An urge to reach his hand into his own heart, find Ara, and...
Wonwoo narrows his eyes suspiciously at the box and waves a finger in Mingyu's direction, directing his attention. "Stop."
"It's not going to work!" He screams at the narration box. "LEAVE MY HEART ALONE YOU STUPID BOX!"
But the narration continues to hover, circling Mingyu like the ring leader of a very messed up circus. Mingyu swings for it with his bare hands, punching at the thin air before it moves out of the way, now standing closer to him than it was a moment ago, the writing appearing faster. The text is bold and demanding now.
NARRATION: The urge is too powerful. He sees Ara's face, and all he can think about is her.
"NO!" Mingyu screams, tears of pure, unfiltered rage welling in the corners of his eyes as he punches the wall beside him, putting a hole through it. "I DON'T LOVE ARA. I DON'T."
The wall patches itself instantly, the hole vanishing as if it were never there. But the crack in Mingyu's composure remains, spiderwebbing across the surface of the Writer's perfect narrative.
"It's trying to rewrite you," Wonwoo says, suddenly serious. "Pushing you into the corner where you have no choice but to think about her. It's rewriting your thoughts, Mingyu."
The narration box pulses with an almost smug satisfaction. The new words appear, glowing with an unsettling light.
NARRATION: His heart belongs to Ara. It has always been Ara. It will always be Ara.
"It's not true," Mingyu whispers, his anger deflating into a desperate plea. He's looking at Wonwoo now, really looking at him. His knuckles are bleeding from the punch. "It's not true, is it?"
Wonwoo sets down his bag and crosses the distance between them. For once, he doesn't look bored or annoyed. He looks like a soldier assessing battlefield damage.
"You know the answer to that," Wonwoo says quietly, so quietly that the narration box might not catch it. "The question is, how much of you is still left for you?" He glances at the hovering box. "The Writer is getting more aggressive. This is new. This is... invasive."
They've fought scenes before. They've tried to walk the other way, to mumble their lines until the scene reset, to trip over conveniently placed props. They've tried everything, but it's always been external. Pushing against the boundaries of their world, not the boundaries of their minds.
This feels different. This feels like a violation.
"I can't..." Mingyu staggers back, leaning against the now-perfect wall. "I feel it. Trying to get in. Like... like static in my head. A thought that's not my thought."
Wonwoo's face is grim. He's read every book in this godforsaken library, including the ones on psychology he never wanted to read. He knows what gaslighting looks like. He knows what brainwashing feels like. And this has all the hallmarks of both.
"It wants you to break," Wonwoo states, his voice flat. "It wants you to give in and accept the role. If it can't control your actions, it'll try to control your mind."
PANEL 6 — Y/N WALKING INTO THE GYM DRESSED IN TOO TIGHT WORKOUT CLOTHES TO TURN ANY MAN'S HEAD.
"What kind of scene is this?" You mutter to yourself as you pass the two men and head towards the cycling machine in the other room.
NARRATION: As Y/N crosses the room, a flash of anger illuminates the depths of Mingyu's soul.
"Huh?" You stop short, one leg forward as the narration begins to morph again.
NARRATION: As she crosses the room, Mingyu can't take it anymore. Just the sight of her makes Mingyu burn with hatred.
"Well, fuck you too, buddy," you murmur at the box now trying to smack you in the face. You don't even need to stick around to know where this scene is headed, and you aren't going to stick around when Ara bounces through the doors in her pink sports attire to try and talk Mingyu down from his fury.
"Ugh," you groan as you walk into the cycling room and find that this is already the set up for a scene. "Oh, this is just perfect."
"Y/N!" Someone calls you, and it's Seungcheol, a supporting character in this shitfest who's written to have a crush on you. His smile is easy, and so is he, because in this dumb universe, Seungcheol is so much less important than the main character and you're allowed to trample all over his heart, though he somehow continues to pine for you.
"Oh, hey there," you offer a grin and head over to the spin bike next to him, joining him and his row of friends from the track team. The nameless ones. All of them here to serve a single purpose—and yet none of them are aware enough to break out of it.
You know when a scene starts because suddenly, you're having a casual conversation. Everything about your posture is suddenly just slightly more interesting—your lips redder, your cheeks rounder, the cut of your collarbones subtly highlighted by the shine from the lights above you. Everything is suddenly for show, but this time, so are you. You're not speaking the lines you want.
PANEL 7 — YOU INSIDE THE CYCLE ROOM, ON YOUR BIKE AND TALKING TO SEUNGCHEOL.
NARRATION: Y/N tries desperately to seduce a certain boy. She teases him in her sickly sweet tone.
"Cheol!" You greet, laughing at one of his jokes. You know what's coming next, and you know that you aren't saying this and yet the words escape anyway, as if they belong to someone else. You hate it. You hate this.
NARRATION: Seungcheol teases her right back, not knowing that Mingyu is watching their every move.
"Maybe you could give me some more advanced lessons," you bat your eyelashes and flash Seungcheol that sweet smile. You hope you don't throw up.
NARRATION: So distracted, she didn't notice Ara right behind her.
You glance down as you begin to cycle, glancing behind you for a split second. There are too many characters in here, and there's no guarantee that the story won't make an extra scene out of your path crossing with any of them, and your luck really does run out, because right there, in pink workout gear to match Mingyu's blue, is Ara, pretending not to watch you and Seungcheol.
PANEL 8 — Y/N FINALLY NOTICING ARA.
"So much for privacy." You scowl, your voice pitched higher to catch the attention of the one-woman audience that's suddenly in this scene. You know it's just a scene, you don't mean what you're saying and you definitely did not mean to flirt with Seungcheol. You get angry thinking about how fake this entire world is. "What?" You turn to look at Ara, tilting your head and smirking. "You've never seen a man and a woman flirting before?"
"I-" Ara starts, but suddenly looks downright uncomfortable. "It's not like that, Y/N."
You sigh and turn forward, meeting the screen again and shaking your head at how utterly useless it is to try and even change things. No one's in this scene to notice what you say, so why does the story even care? The story is stupid, and pointless, and written entirely around Ara and you don't care who's on board. "Why should you care who I flirt with anyway? You got Mingyu wrapped around your pretty little fingers, don't you?"
"I would never," Ara tries again. "He's-"
"He's what? Something else I can never have?" You're a villain through and through, apparently, and the Writer wants this kind of drama. "It's cute how you think I'll stay away, just because of a little warning." You smirk and wait a beat, just to watch the discomfort bloom across Ara's face. "We both know you don't have the stomach to threaten me back."
PANEL 9 — MINGYU STEPS IN
You can see the look in Mingyu's eyes. He doesn't care about what the narration is doing, apparently, and in the midst of this disaster of a story, you suddenly realize it.
"Mingyu," Ara almost sighs. "I- please don't-"
"You." He points to you, and for a brief second, you can see how Mingyu clenches his fist, trying to fight against the word that's already forming on his lips. "Watch it."
"Mm, and if I don't?" You shrug, innocently pouting and getting off the bike. You ran your fingers down his chest, making sure to keep eye contact. "What are you going to do to me, Kim Mingyu?" You lick your lips and don't stop touching him, running your fingers down his torso and the planes of his muscles, one hand over his arm and the other curled up to grip at his chest. "Don't you think you and I have more fun ways to play, or have you forgotten about the night we-"
Mingyu holds on to your wrist tightly, holding your touch away from him. "Shut your mouth."
You look up at him and bite your lip, shrugging again. "Or what?"
"Please stop, Mingyu!" Ara tugs at the side of his t-shirt, begging Mingyu, who barely notices.
He was there, during that one weekend, when the story took a vacation and let your real selves drive. Neither of you were ready to stop. Neither of you were ready to be written and puppeteered as the main characters. There's so much Mingyu wants to say right now. Instead, the Writer uses his mouth to spit vitriol and spite.
"Stay the fuck out of my life, and off my girl," Mingyu hisses. "Do whatever the fuck you want, but stay the hell away from her."
"Oh wow." You roll your eyes and pull away from him, wiping his hand down your skirt. "Protective, aren't we?" You cross your arms and lean into his personal space. "Wouldn't want me to show her how much better I could fuck you, huh?"
Ara gasps, backing away and covering her mouth with her hands. "Why would you say such a thing!" She screeches at you, and you shrug it off.
"That's not happening." Mingyu narrows his eyes at you, fists curling into themselves.
PANEL 10 — INTENSION OF RAGE HANGING AROUND MINGYU.
"Now that just sounds like a challenge, handsome," you tap the tip of his nose and flash him that perfect smirk, the kind designed to bring even the biggest, baddest, male characters to their knees. You turn away, and head to leave the gym. "Your girlfriend can keep playing house, but you and me?" You blow him a kiss as you walk to the changing rooms. "I'm always down to play rough."
And as you walk away, you can hear the familiar sound of fists punching a bag, Mingyu screaming, and a heartbreaking "I hate her!" that makes the Writer grin in delight.
When the door to the changing rooms close, you sink to the ground, pulling your knees up to your chest and fighting back the tears in the corner of your eyes. You hate this. You don't want to be a villain. You just want to love him and be loved, and the Writer just refuses to let that happen.
For the next thirty minutes, the Writer leaves you alone, and you're curled up against the bench as you cry. The last thing you really needed was Mingyu to actually hate you.
And you hate the thought of being anyone's villain. Especially his.
Mingyu finds you curled up in your bed. Not just a lump under a mound of pillows. In your bed, buried underneath the blankets and nursing a tub of ice cream.
"You okay?" he asks gently.
"Not really," you mutter and take another spoonful of ice cream, avoiding eye contact. You're being grumpy and pathetic, but you don't really care.
Mingyu grabs the tub of ice cream and places it on your nightstand, not caring if it'll melt, as he gathers you into his arms, letting you wrap your own around his torso.
"I don't like doing it," Mingyu whispers. "It was-" He takes a deep breath and holds you a little tighter. "God, saying those things to you, I hate that the Writer made me do it. Even the visual of... of-" He doesn't need to finish his sentence.
"Me and Seungcheol," you mumble, and let him lift your chin.
Mingyu nods. "But Y/N-" He searches your face and taps your forehead. "I didn't mean a single bit of it. None of it. Never. Okay? I would never ever treat you like that, okay?"
Your eyes tear up, and you nod, biting your lip and trying to get rid of the sting of the Writer's manipulations.
"And I hate myself for hurting you like that," he admits softly. "Even if I didn't mean it, I still said it, and that hurts. But... but at least we're self-aware?" He gives you an awkward grin.
You manage a laugh through the tears. It was a crap day, and maybe Mingyu wasn't helping, but your favorite thing about your best friend has always been that you feel understood when you're with him.
"This is hard," Mingyu groans, flopping backward on your bed. He hugs you close to him, so you don't flail around. "Can't we just," he moves one hand, gesturing wildly "I dunno, rewrite this stupid thing so we're happy?"
"If only that was a possibility," you giggle.
"Wait," Mingyu props himself up on an elbow. His eyes sparkle. "Wait. Y/N, what if we do exactly that."
"What," you roll your eyes and give Mingyu a blank look, not trusting his tone.
"Seriously! Let's rewrite this ourselves," Mingyu exclaims. "You and I, Wonwoo too, are self-aware. Why don't we work together to change things? It could work, don't you think?"
"What would we change, Gyu?" You ask him, a tiny glint of hope lighting up behind your irises.
"Well, to start," Mingyu grimaces. "Maybe, uh, have the Writer stop trying to make you kiss the entire university population, yikes."
You grimace and lift your hands up to the sky as if you're going to fight the Writer's pen with your bare hands. "That's a damn start. My god, we need a human resources department for this shit."
"It's more like human rewrite department and I'll file a complaint," Mingyu deadpans and the two of you share a quick look before bursting into a fit of uncontrollable laughter, needing this moment of levity after the exhausting scenes you're usually roped into.
"Wait, wait," you can't believe how many brilliant ideas come to you once you give yourself an afternoon to wallow. "Wonwoo!" You glance around as you grab Mingyu's phone from the floor, quickly dialing Wonwoo's number and grinning mischievously when it picks up. "We're forming a union. Bring beer. See you later." And then you hang up.
Mingyu is beside himself in a fit of laughter. "Oh man, won't the writer be pissed when they find out three of their characters are rebelling against the plot line."
"I hate this stupid plotline," you groan. "I'm the most popular girl in school but what does the narrative care about?! Me kissing a different character every week. I swear, we're literally nothing more than tropes used just to create more drama for the narrative, and it's annoying and pointless and I've had enough!" You let out a long, loud sigh and Mingyu grins.
"Damn, you're hot when you're angry," Mingyu mutters and when you give him a look, he looks away with flushed cheeks.
"Gross." Wonwoo let's himself into your apartment and holds up the beers. "Union time, but please. Can you not flirt with each other. I've dealt with enough forced bullshit today."
"What happened?" You look over the couch and see a distressed looking Wonwoo, your confusion and Mingyu's morphing into that same glare the two of you shared mere hours ago. "Did you just get some scene thrown into your storyline as well?"
Wonwoo winces and rubs the back of his neck. "I was forced out of the comfort of my own apartment to walk around the campus with Ara, the words spewing from my own tongue saying how she's everything I want and more, and how her personality is so cute, I can't get her off my mind, bla bla bla..."
The two of you just sit there, horror written on your face as the thought of a love sick Wonwoo has your brain nearly short circuiting.
"Dude, what the hell," Mingyu gags and shudders. "Was this scene like-" he pauses, horrified with the thought that passes through his mind. "Don't tell me. I don't want to imagine it."
"Neither did I, believe me, Mingyu. Please don't say anything else. I had to go through five showers with nearly boiling hot water to rid the thoughts of even holding her hand." Wonwoo winces as the memory makes his skin crawl. "Okay. So." Wonwoo nods. "Union time!"
As the sun dips low beyond the horizon and night overtakes the room, the three of you drink and dream and plan for the world that's promised. It's been far too long, since you've allowed yourself to dream. But with Mingyu and Wonwoo? It might actually work.
"Holy shit, guys." You stare up at the building looming overhead and then at the sign next to the door, squinting and reading out loud. "'Humanity Rewrite Agency. The world's solution to author control.'"
"I was kidding about it," Mingyu starts as he looks between his co-conspirators. "But there's really a HR building in the shadows? Do you think the Writer knows about this place?"
"Dude, if it's in the shadows then they won't be able to see it," Wonwoo shakes his head, almost wanting to laugh at the three of you standing outside of the building. It was a spur of the moment decision to go into the HR building, and though the three of you were pretty serious about the whole union thing, it all seems a bit far-fetched.
"Alright, let's go," You shrug and make your way up to the sliding doors, pushing in and finding the empty reception desk. "Um. Excuse us?"
A person pops out from beneath the desk, glasses askew and jacket slightly messed up. "Y-yes, how can I help you today?"
"We're thinking about forming a union? And thought a place like this might help, given it's hidden in the shadows." Wonwoo comments casually, leaning on the counter.
The receptionist's mouth opens, surprised. "A union?" Their eyes drift from Mingyu, to Wonwoo, and settle on your gaze. Their eyes soften, lips parting a moment later as a few memories spark in their mind. "Oh. Oh, dear. You three really are self-aware, huh." The receptionist, who's name tag reads Joshua, snaps out of his thoughts and offers a kind smile. "You're not the only self-aware characters working through an issue. Follow me." Joshua spins around the desk, flicking off the switch to the light above and disappearing into the hallway behind him, beckoning the three of you to follow. "You must know about Danoh and Haru, right? What happens to them in Secrets? What happens after?"
"Secrets?" Your brow furrows as your try to connect the dots, knowing very little about the book in question.
"I see you three really haven't done your due diligence then." Joshua laughs a moment later, voice light and cheerful. "Secrets is a comic about the typical high school romance. But in their case, our spunky Danoh was a supporting extra with a heart disease and Haru was a faceless extra." Joshua stops at his office door and gestures to the chairs across from him.
"Is there a reason why they're important?" Mingyu asks, clearly perplexed with the idea of side characters rebelling in their own way.
"Oh yes. I'll let Seungkwan tell you. He's like your mediator or something, I dunno. But he can help you find some answers at the very least."
You trail behind, your mouth moving faster than your brain as you pepper Joshua with questions. Wonwoo and Mingyu shake their heads but listen just as intently to Joshua's ramblings. You know there's a whole world here, out there in the shadows, and now that you've tasted self-awareness you're hungry for every detail you can find.
"In here," Joshua calls over his shoulder. "Everyone. These are our newest clients."
"New clients?!" A male's voice practically squeals, followed by a swift punch to the arm.
"More self-aware folk who don't know enough?" A second male's voice pipes up, amusement glinting in his eyes as a slow smile pulls across his lips. "Well, we can fix that. Hi, everyone! Welcome to Human Rewrite Agency, located conveniently in the shadows, where we'll do anything within our power to help."
"It's great to be here," you nod, stepping forward. "I'm Y/N." You tilt your head to your two conspirators, a shy smile on Mingyu's lips. "This is my best friend, Mingyu. And that brooding, tired-looking beanpole, is Jeon Wonwoo."
"Flattering," Wonwoo smirks, shaking his head as he pushes his glasses up his nose.
"I'm Boo Seungkwan," the bright male who's eyes sparkled from the moment you stepped through the doors bounces over and pulls you and Mingyu into a tight embrace before doing the same to Wonwoo. "This is Vernon. A few of the others are working with clients so you can't meet them right now, but it'll probably be a long time before anyone else does, especially if your situation is even half as strange as a love pentagram." Seungkwan rolls his eyes.
"Love pentagram?" Wonwoo murmurs.
"Another comic where the female lead falls for four men and she can't chooses between them," Vernon shakes his head. "All the four men ended up self-aware because her dilemma and they have yet to figure out how to resolve their issue."
"Wow," you shake your head. "Who has the time and energy to think of this mess of a love story."
"The Writer of that comic does, and they're enjoying the pain," Seungkwan chirps. "Our agency does what we can to resolve their issues without erasing their awareness, so they can live their lives as they truly want to."
"How do you guys fix the issue?" Mingyu wonders aloud.
"Depends," Seungkwan tilts his head in thought. "Sometimes their comic becomes too unstable and they have to go through a series of major rewrites for them to fall into the correct timelines or character placements, etc. I assume Joshua has mentioned Danoh and Haru?" He catches your nod. "There were lots of up and downs with those two and their comic. Secrets came to an end and even though Danoh and Haru weren't end-game there, they became extras in a new comic and have the agency to choose each other, finally."
"So you're saying..."Mingyu begins as his brow furrows in thought. "We're fucked no matter what we do? No matter how hard we try to change the narrative, the Writer can always rewrite whatever happens? If we create a glitch, the Writer will just delete it? There's no winning in that."
Seungkwan grins and nods at the question. "Correct, for the most part," He agrees, not willing to dismiss any fears the three of you are harboring. "Which is why, a lot of these couples learn to focus on their lives in the shadow while still fighting to get to a happy ending. Because happy endings are for every character, even a background one."
Mingyu reaches for your hand, squeezing it in his palm. "So what should we focus on?"
"Do your part. Flirt in scenes, take the kisses when scripted and try not to gag...too much." Seungkwan laughs brightly, noticing the distasteful expressions on the three's faces at the thought. "Just because it's written one way doesn't mean you're doomed. Hell, our main clients in the Love Pentagon have to act out this drama where they basically hate the shit out of each other but in the shadows, they're all friends and bond over their scenes at their local bar." He laughs, his face glowing at the fond memory. "All because they're learning to balance both. The shadow and the world beyond." Seungkwan comes forward and places a reassuring hand on both Mingyu's shoulder and your hand.
"Don't forget, you can always visit. We're open seven days a week, twenty-four hours a day. I encourage the glitching and breaking the fourth wall, but do keep in mind, a sudden plot twist will never sit well in the comic so sometimes the Writer's hand will get involved. But don't give up." He squeezes again, pulling his hand away. "At the end of the day, the three of you are still you. Self-aware doesn't change that and the Writer can't remove that fact either. They might be able to rip the self-awareness right from under your noses, but what they can't do is control the you you've created for yourself in the shadows."
Your entire being hums from his words, Seungkwan's melodic voice full of genuine kindness. You let Seungkwan's gentle reassurances sweep the worry from your brow, even as your mind continues to swirl. You've found an ally, one with endless optimism. You let out a sigh and your gaze settles on the grin dancing at the corners of Mingyu's mouth, the hope you always feel blooming whenever you're close, blossoming behind your ribs. "Shall we?"
Mingyu squeezes your hand once more. "You bet."
Another day, another scene. This time you're staring at an unrealistically happy Wonwoo as he looks down at Ara, his fingers brushing a lock of her hair from her eyes. Mingyu stands beside you, a look of disgust on his face as he tries not to vomit from Wonwoo's forced expressions.
"Is this how you feel when you look at me and Ara during our scenes together?" Mingyu asks out of the blue and you laugh.
"Now you know my pain," you pat his cheek with your palm. "Tough to watch?"
"Painful," he admits. "Happy Wonwoo is hard to watch. I'm so used to him being broody and aloof, it's just strange seeing him like this."
"And that's coming from a nerd who's forced to flex his muscles every day," you chuckle. "He's all brawn and brains and still scared of horror movies."
"To be fair," Mingyu pouts slightly. "Horror movies are terrifying."
"I love you Gyu, but you're just a big baby."
"Your big baby," he counters, pout growing. "Right?"
"C'mere, baby," you laugh, cupping his chin as you stand on the tips of your toes and plant a firm kiss on his cheek. Mingyu flushes a shade of pink that spreads up his neck and blooms across his ears as a stupid grin flashes across his face.
"Eww, gross." The sudden exclamation catches your attention, spinning you around. Wonwoo stands a few feet away, shaking his head in mild disgust and faked annoyance. "Ugh. Get a room."
"Done with your scene? Ready to go back and brood like your normal self?" You smirk.
Wonwoo glowers. "Shut up." He tucks his hands into his pockets as he falls into step beside the two of you. "I am the model of happiness."
"What a lie," you laugh. "Wonwoo, no. Your true self is brooding. Being happy is not your forte. But it's okay. We still like you."
"That's kind of cruel but not untrue," Mingyu adds. Wonwoo heaves an exasperated sigh but says nothing.
The three of you stroll off the campus grounds, heading downtown toward Mingyu's favorite bakery. When your thighs begin to ache, Mingyu gallantly offers you a piggyback ride. "Took you long enough," you mumble, but a grin breaks free the minute your arms are looped around Mingyu's neck and his arms are linked under your knees, his palms curled snugly around the curve of your thighs. You're cackling the entire way.
When you arrive at Mingyu's favorite bakery, Wonwoo slows to a stop. "Sorry to skip out," he sighs. "I'm tired and I need to wash whatever happened in my scene today off of me. But text me the plan, alright?" He leans in and steals a pastry from the box Mingyu just purchased, much to the latter's protest.
"Dude, that was my favorite," Mingyu frowns, watching him run off with the pastry clenched tightly in his fist, looking smug as he turns the corner.
"So dramatic," You shake your head and steal the next pastry from the box before darting away, laughter erupting from behind you.
"Why do I even bother?" Mingyu rolls his eyes in jest, racing after you, easily catching up. "You really gonna make me run when I'm holding a box of goodies?"
"You'd anything for me, dummy," you tease with an arched brow.
"Can't say no to that," Mingyu laughs brightly, letting his fingers intertwine with yours, a feeling that makes your entire body glow.
He'd walk through fire for you. And, you suppose, you'd walk through fire for him too. Even if it was scripted and the flame was all special effects. Still, you'd do it. The whole thing could crash and burn, literally, but it'd be worth it. He's always worth it.
You two collapse onto a picnic table, watching a gaggle of young children chase each other, swinging wildly at their pinwheels. Their joy echoes across the grass and you feel your body relax as you and Mingyu devour another pastry in seconds.
"These are the moments I really want," he finally admits after an extended moment of silence. "To sit with you, be in the moment and have the ability to laugh at stupid shit like those kids or something serious. It's just peaceful."
"Agreed," you tilt your head with a smile, content and free as a stray curl whips across your eye and Mingyu leans across the picnic table to brush it aside. "We deserve better than what the Writer has in store for us," you muse. "Not sure what that better is, but we deserve better."
"This," he breathes suddenly, looking nervous despite the calm, easy atmosphere of the park. "Us. Together." He gestures, an awkward fumbling of long arms and large hands that makes you want to cry-laugh, the smile tugging at the corners of his mouth betraying the shy tone his voice has.
"Mingyu." He smiles at you softly as you lean across the table and press a soft kiss to the very corner of his mouth. He sighs in content, pulling you against him so you were sprawled across his lap as he buries his nose into your hair. "I really do love you. You know that right? Nothing the Writer creates is going to stop me from loving you."
"Oh god," Mingyu pretends to gag playfully. "Such a fucking sap. I've rubbed off on you."
You reach up and pinch his jawline before swiping his nose with your palm. "Silly, dorky himbo of mine." He groans but doesn't deny the affection, a shy smile hiding behind his lashes.
"Can't deny the truth."
"Knew you loved it."
"Love you more." Mingyu bumps your noses together as he presses his lips to yours, sighing the minute your lips slot into his perfectly as he tightens his grip around you. The pair of you sigh blissfully into the kiss and you grin, unable to help yourself as you bring the back of your hand to your forehead.
"God," you say, rolling your eyes. "Could this sunset and the taste of the chocolate filling of Mingyu's favorite bread be any better?"
"Shhh," he chuckles softly against your lips. "Stop ruining the moment, Y/N."
"One, never. Two, never," you insist, smiling at the ridiculous look on his face as you press one final kiss to his pouting lips. "Y'know, I like that smile of yours best."
"The one I reserve for you alone," he whispers, eyes shut. You can feel the light breeze tossing Mingyu's hair about as you bask in the peace he brought you, the feel of his strong body pressing against yours, holding you impossibly closer, keeping the nightmares and chaos of the comics at bay. For now.
That night, you have a dream. A weird dream. In that dream, you’re with Mingyu. That part isn't unusual. But it feels different, familiar, somehow. Almost like a past life where you and Mingyu were free. Truly free. But when you wake up, your memory of the dream fades fast, the dream dissolving like a mirage in the desert. You fall back asleep, remembering only the comfort of your dreams, and Mingyu's strong arms.
The next morning, you make your way to HR, knocking before sliding your head in to find Seungkwan there, smiling up at you and gesturing for you to come inside and have a seat in his office.
"Hey Seungkwan. Good to see you again, thanks for giving me your time." You begin, having wanted to ask him a few questions. "I've been having some weird dreams recently, a past life it felt like. I couldn't really remember them all when I'd wake up but..." You trail, hoping you were making sense to Seungkwan.
"Glad you're here," He gestures to the empty seat directly across his desk, inviting you to make yourself comfortable while you have a little chat. Seungkwan slides a few files your way before folding his hands on his desk. "I actually managed to procure these after our last chat. it seems like you were the main character in the writer's last piece. If this helps jog your memories, that'd be a real win-win."
You let the pages slip beneath your fingertips, curiosity boiling behind your lashes as the scenes came back to you, the very dreams you were having all were on this very sheet of paper. It makes you want to laugh as you look at the very scene of Mingyu walking toward the girl who was the perfect mirror of you.
You flip through the pages and notice you were in a bookstore and had even dreamed a few nights prior about it. All of this is true, these aren't scripts...they’re the past. "You found all of this after my last visit?" You ask in awe.
"Yes!" he says proudly, unable to hide the glint in his eyes. "There were a few snags here and there. From what I researched, you and Mingyu's story wasn't supposed to end in such a tragic way."
Your smile falls from your face as you realize his words aren't ones of encouragement, but almost pity. "Tragic ending? What do you mean?"
"Well," Seungkwan sinks a little further into the leather of his chair and rubs the back of his neck, eyes focusing intently on his notes as if he wishes that he hadn't uttered the last few words. "It's sad. You were arranged to marry, he was drafted for the war. He never returned."
"Oh," you manage as the words hit you, and your head is screaming, begging for something. "So why was it put on hold?" You ask the only logical question left.
"The Writer abandoned it." He slides you a copy of the draft you were just looking at. "It wasn't getting the traction because of the heavy story, apparently," Seungkwan winces at the idea that he may have said too much, but you just nod at him. "The Writer decided that the current comic that you're in is getting more readership."
"Great, so glad to hear she gave up and moved to a new storyline instead." You seethe, not realizing how harsh the words were as you grit your teeth. "But why was Ara chosen as the main character instead of me?"
"She's naive, innocent," he offers, sliding a piece of gum into his mouth. "Pretty." Seungkwan wrinkles his nose as if it was unavoidable, a sad fact. "What?"
"And I'm not? That doesn't seem fair," you groan, arms crossing over your chest as a pout works it's way over your lip. "That is a real blow." You huff out a sarcastic laugh.
"You're the bombshell that's relagated to the background. Not that you're a background character by any means. You're the villainess."
"Don't say it," you roll your eyes. You know it. Everyone knows it. That you were the supposed villainess. But the fact that someone, especially Seungkwan, has admitted it out loud? Well, you don't want to admit the truth, but it stings like a motherfucker.
"You're self-aware," he states quietly. "Can we focus on that?"
"Fine," you grumble, before forcing yourself to calm down. It's not Seungkwan's fault. "But why Mingyu? The Writer could have written another male character that isn't Kim Mingyu."
"Maybe the Writer felt bad for him in the last draft, and thought she'd give him a chance as the main character of a new romance series."
"By turning him into the ultimate, white knuckled himbo who flexes his abs whenever?" You groan, "The poor boy."
"He may be the male lead of the comic and geared for Ara," He leans forward. "But he will always choose you and you him. It's fate, even for characters written into existence." Seungkwan chuckles before standing and dusting his suit pants off. "Alright, thank you again for chatting with me. That is all I wanted to talk about. Stay self-aware and keep your focus on the real goal, Y/N."
"And what's that?"
Seungkwan flashes you a bright smile as he ushers you from his office, "Getting out of this shit comic, duh!"
From your corner of the dancefloor, you watch Mingyu lean in closely to whisper something into Ara's ear. Whatever he is saying makes her erupt into giggles as she tucks a loose strand of hair behind her ears. As the music plays and they spin together, your heart breaks into pieces.
You really want to smack the Writer for making you see this.
Wonwoo sidles up to you, shaking his head at the sight before him as the pair looks ridiculous as they stand on the dance floor and the scripted splash panel. "You can vomit in my shoes later if you need," Wonwoo offers, trying his best not to make this anymore miserable for you. "Want a drink?"
"Fuck yes," you snap, looking for a moment before shaking your head. "I've got this, stay. Enjoy the dance, look pretty for the crowd and try not to burst into flames from boredom."
"What am I, an ornament? Because I've gotta say, this bowtie is uncomfortable." Wonwoo wrinkles his nose at the feeling of the tie wrapped around his neck as you chuckle and take your leave, heading for the bar.
"A shot. Top shelf, please." You watch as the bartender grabs a bottle and lines the small glasses up in front of you, grabbing a pack of salt as he sets up. After the glasses were filled, you look up to find Mingyu looking directly at you as you lick a long strip across your wrist before downing the glass of tequila. The way he bites his lip is undeniably hot, and the slight daze in his eye is doing wonders.
Worth it.
"You're good," Seokmin, the bartender, comments as you blink your way back, slamming the tiny glass back on the bar counter. "Lookin' to impress anyone?"
"Someone, but he's too preoccupied at the moment," you sigh, gesturing to the man and woman currently on the dance floor as they sway back and forth.
"Ah," Seokmin purses his lips sympathetically. "Want another one?"
"Keep them coming." The next shot goes down easy, just like the other glasses you had poured down your throat in the hopes you could avoid Mingyu for the rest of the night.
Mingyu could've easily left her side and spent the remainder of the evening with you. You sigh wistfully, you had dreamed that this party would end differently. And not with him twirling another woman around the ballroom like this was some sort of poorly-written romance flick.
As the night drags on, the tequila keeps pouring down your throat until you can barely tell which Mingyu is the real Mingyu. Or is Ara real? You can't seem to care because when she disappears and the lights dim, he's suddenly right in front of you. "I think that's enough drinking for tonight, Y/N. Please?"
You look up at him drunkenly, anger brewing deep within you as you bite your lip, tears blurring your vision before you wipe angrily, angry, not that he would understand because, at the end of the day, it was Mingyu. Your Mingyu. "I hate this, Mingyu."
"Me, too."
"It feels like my insides have been crushed. It hurts to see you with her, and know that the entire evening the Writer kept pushing you two together, again, and again, and again." Your voice cracks and Mingyu reaches out to gently catch one of the tears that spilled down your cheek.
"C'mon." His hand is warm against yours. The two of you shuffle back to his apartment. "It's late," he mumbles as he shuts the door and throws his car keys into the tray on the counter, bending over to shrug his dress shoes off, and you stumble backwards until you feel your knees bump against the sofa and you let yourself fall against the soft cushions. "Are you just going to sleep with your dress on?" Mingyu asks, and you scoff.
"Wouldn't be the first time."
"Oh, right. Forgot who I'm talking to." He laughs and it sounds bitter and broken. He rubs a hand down the side of his face, shaking his head. "Anyway, you want to get out of those clothes? Here. Let me help you. Don't want you falling and hurting yourself."
"I'm not five, Mingyu."
"No," Mingyu pauses, gaze boring into yours, "But you sure can act like it."
"So, I can be a brat and you can treat me like you’re my Daddy, yeah?" You don't mean to laugh, but you are. You are fucking delirious, and so, so inebriated. But you're drunk and can't hold back the words tumbling out your mouth. "I'm such a fucking mess," you moan, hands flying to cover your face. "Just…just leave me here."
"Let's get you sober and then we can talk about that kinky side of yours." Mingyu holds out his hand, but the angle of the overhead light creates a glare. He's haloed in white light, like an angel or a figment of your imagination, you aren't quite sure. He taps your nose lightly, smile pulling at his lips, the slightest bit smug. "Take my hand and let's get you some fresh air. You smell like tequila."
"Mhm," You reach forward and slap your hand against his palm, sighing as Mingyu pulls you towards him and loops a supportive arm around your waist. "You like it, don't lie," you mumble. He rolls his eyes at that as your head dips back onto his shoulder and your feet stumble slightly before you are righted.
"Whatever you say, you drunk," he murmurs as he leads you to the balcony and dumps you on a lounge chair, reaching a hand out to press against your back. "Stay. I'll get you something to sober up before we get you showered and ready for bed. Okay?"
"Okay." Your voice comes out muffled since you bury your face in the pillow. "Mingyu?" you ask as a cool breeze chills your face.
"Yeah?"
"Thank you for looking out for me."
"I'd do anything for you."
After a while of comfortable silence, and a cup of hot coffee in your hands, you both were looking out towards the street and were enjoying each others silent company. "You know we used to be in another series together?" you speak as you look over.
"Really?" he asks.
"Yea," you say wistfully.
"What was it about?" he inquires further.
"Not sure. But you and I were..." your lips pull up into a sad smile and your eyes slide back to the city street, "We were in love. Well, at least the Y/N and Mingyu from that series were." You smile sadly. "How we danced around each other in secret meetings during the war, and had to act like we were not madly in love once daylight hit. Even though I knew we'd always be safe no matter what because we loved each other."
"What happened, then? With us?" he asks.
"I was arranged to get married...to someone that's not you," you admit and it hurt like a stab to the gut. "And you were drafted, and I never saw you again." You turn back towards the view. "Can you imagine? How you loved someone with all your heart, but the narrative made sure you never had your happy ever after. No matter how badly you wanted it? The Writer just abandoned that series, never brought that story to an ending because it was so heavy and tragic. Wrote our lives off, just to throw us into something less heavy."
"Hey, come here." Mingyu sits up, pulling you into his arms. "We can't dwell on things in our past, even though the story may have hurt us, this time, things will be different."
"Will they, though?" you question with a sad shrug of the shoulder, wrapping your arms around his waist. Mingyu tilts your head towards his. "I'm not the main character this time. Just the villainess in this particular comic, forced to watch someone else get the happy ending. The happy ending the Writer robbed you and I out of."
"Shh," he hushes as he kisses your forehead.
"Promise you'll stay true and never abandon me? No matter what?" your voice wavers a bit as the threat of a sob remains close. Mingyu's big and warm hands gently tilt your head back to look up at him. He's got the most gorgeous face you've ever seen, with eyes so deep they put the night sky to shame and hair that gleams bronze in the sunlight.
"I'd do anything to keep you close," Mingyu says. "I promise."
"Pinky swear?" you sniff.
"Pinky swear." He links his pinky finger with yours. You breathe a small laugh. Mingyu had a smile to rival the sun, you always thought. All teeth, a bit lopsided and big and warm. Even in your current state of distress.
"Have I ever told you how much I love you?" your gaze darts down to where the two of you are connected by a finger.
"More often than necessary."
"I really, really love you, Kim Mingyu," you smile up at him.
"Love you, too." He presses his forehead against yours.
"Like, super duper, you don't even have a clue," you mumble into his chest. He only snorts.
"Sure I don't, dummy." He pats your head.
"Then maybe I should show you?" The words sound suggestive to Mingyu as you wrap your arms around his torso tightly, your hot breath tickling his ear.
"Y/N, come on," Mingyu says, wriggling away, cheeks going crimson.
You squint up at him, mischief in the creases in the corners of your eyes. "Why not?" you pout.
"Well, because," Mingyu ruffles the back of his hair. "You're drunk."
"I'm so damn sober right now that I could paint you a picture of the ocean."
"No, no, no." Mingyu pushes the hair out of his eyes and crosses his arms over his chest.
"Maybe I should prove to you I am a very willing participant?" you begin to say as he closes his eyes for a split second. Before he can do or say anything to prevent it, your hands have snaked themselves behind his neck. The scent of cologne and detergent fill your nose as he stiffens slightly and groans against your skin.
"You drive a hard bargain," Mingyu finally murmurs. "But first, you need a shower."
"Join me?" you suggest and you grin up at him with a mischievous waggle of the eyebrows. "There's plenty of room for two." You see the way Mingyu bites his lip, then sighs.
"Fine. Lead the way," he says, and when you squeak happily and pull him towards the bathroom.
Moments later, the bathroom is thick with steam, blurring the clean lines of the tiled walls until the world outside feels entirely locked away. The water drums a steady, heavy rhythm against the porcelain, a barrier of noise that no scripted dialogue or intrusive narration box could pierce.
"You're still clumsy," Mingyu murmurs, his voice dropping an octave, rid of the booming, confident cadence the Writer always forced into his throat on-page. Here, he sounds rough around the edges, grounded, and entirely yours.
"I am perfectly balanced," you retorted, though your hands gripped his shoulders for support as you stepped under the spray. The heavy silk of your party dress clings to your skin, soaked through in an instant, but neither of you care about the clothes.
Mingyu reaches behind you, his large palms warm against the small of your back as his fingers find the zipper. With a slow, deliberate slide, the wet fabric parts. He peels the dress away, letting it pool heavily at your feet. When his gaze meets yours, there’s none of the scripted, aggressive arrogance he was forced to display at the gym. His eyes are dark, intense, and filled with a fierce, protective reverence.
"You look beautiful, Y/N," he whispers, his thumbs tracing the line of your hip bones, wiping away the lingering traces of the comic’s forced aesthetic. "The real you. Not the villainess."
"Then stop looking and do something about it," you challenge, leaning up until your lips are inches from his.
Mingyu doesn't hesitate. He pulls you flush against his chest, the spray of the shower slicking his hair back, exposing the sharp, handsome angles of his face. His mouth comes down on yours with a desperate, hungry heat, a stark contrast to the polite, hesitant kisses the script dictated for him and Ara. This is raw, heavy with years of unspoken longing and the terrifying knowledge that your time in the dark is always limited.
His hands slide down to lift you, your legs wrapping instinctively around his waist. You gasp into the kiss as he presses you back against the warm tiled wall, the friction of his skin against yours sending a sharp jolt through your chest.
"I'm not letting them take this," Mingyu groans against your neck, his lips tracing a burning path down to your collarbone, his teeth grazing the skin just hard enough to leave a mark, claiming every bit of you that he could.
You grab at the nape of his neck, fisting your fingers in his wet, raven black hair. "Shut up and fuck me, Mingyu."
The slick tile of the shower wall is hot against your back, but it’s nothing compared to the blistering heat of Mingyu's skin. He holds you pinned, one massive hand anchoring your hip while the other cups the back of your head, his fingers tangled deeply in your wet hair.
Every kiss is a bruising, desperate reclamation. On the page, the Writer made him tentative, full of scripted hesitations and soft, clean glances meant for Ara. But here, in the heavy steam of the shadows, Mingyu is ravenous. He drinks the small, broken sounds from your throat, his tongue tangling with yours in a rhythm that’s entirely unscripted, chaotic, and real.
"Y/N," he growls against your lips, his chest heaving against your breasts. The water cascades over his broad shoulders, slicking down the heavy planes of his muscles. "Tell me you're here. Tell me it's you."
"It's me," you gasp, arching into his touch as his hand slides down the curve of your thigh, lifting your leg to hook over his hip. "It's always been me, Gyu."
He groans, a low, guttural sound that vibrates against your collarbone as he buries his face in your neck. His teeth graze the sensitive skin right above your shoulder blade, biting just hard enough to anchor you to the reality of the moment. You cry out, your fingers digging into the thick muscles of his back, your nails leaving pale tracks in their wake.
When he shifts, guiding your hips back against the wall, the friction is unbearable. He pauses for a single, agonizing heartbeat, his forehead resting against yours, his eyes completely dark, pupils blown wide with a fierce, protective hunger.
"Look at me," he whispers, his voice rough and laced with a desperate edge. "Don't close your eyes. I want you to see me when I..."
He doesn't finish the sentence. He drives into you in one smooth, heavy push.
A sharp, breathless sob escapes your lips, your hands flying to clutch at his wet shoulders as the sheer intensity of the fullness ripples through you. Mingyu lets out a ragged breath, his eyes locking onto yours with an intensity that feels like a physical weight. He begins to move, slow and agonizingly deep at first, before the rhythm catches fire.
The sound of the rushing water drowns out the rest of the world, creating a sanctuary where no narration boxes could grow. Every thrust is a declaration of war against the script. You grip his shoulders, throwing your head back as he hits the exact spot that makes your mind fracture into pure, unadulterated sensation.
"Mingyu. Gyu—" you whimper, your internal walls tightening around him as the friction builds an unbearable, sweet agony behind your ribs.
"I've got you," he pants, his pace turning fast and punishing, his muscles bunching under your hands as he lifts you completely off the floor. Your other leg wraps around his waist, locking him close. "I'm right here."
"Mingyu," you begged against the corner of his jaw. "Gyu. Yes, yes, yes, please, don't stop."
"I wouldn't dream of it." He groans the words into the tender flesh below your ear as his lips and teeth trace a burning line from your jaw down the side of your throat. The water blurs between you, but he refuses to shut his eyes or drop his gaze. Every breath is shared, every inch of contact heated.
And every thrust is a silent cry. Fuck the script. Fuck Ara. Fuck everything but us.
The Writer's commands can't reach the shadows. Mingyu doesn't give her a chance to command him here, where the camera could only capture their silhouettes and the reader can't see beyond the steamy haze.
"Mingyu. Mingyu. Please, I need..." You shudder, a violent, blinding release cascading through your lower abdomen as you clamp down around him. The sight of your undone expression throws Mingyu over the precipice. With a low, ragged shout, he buries himself deep inside you one last time, his body stiffening as he spends himself completely, his pulse throbbing forcefully against your own.
For a long time, the only sound is the heavy thrumming of the water and your synchronized, ragged breathing. Mingyu holds you tight, his arms wrapped around you like a vice, refusing to let your feet touch the cold ground just yet. He kisses you again—long, tender, slow—as he turns the knob of the shower off. With your legs still wrapped around his hips and his arms still supporting your full weight, he carries you both towards the bed.
"We're still wet," you murmur, lips moving against his collarbone.
"Does it matter?" he grunts. Mingyu settles atop of the pillows, the mattress squeaking beneath him as he pulls you to sit astride his lap. His damp hair falls over his forehead in wild, messy tendrils, but he doesn't seem to mind. "You're just gonna get wet again, anyways."
"Is that so?" You rest your forehead against his, brushing the fallen strands away. Mingyu nods, hands gripping your thighs tight as his thumbs brush in circles on the exposed flesh of your skin.
"Definitely."
The peace shatters at exactly 7:15 a.m.
One moment, you’re tangled in Mingyu's sheets, the faint scent of his laundry detergent and the lingering warmth of his body enveloping you in perfect, drowsy comfort. Your hand is resting flat against his bare, broad chest, feeling the steady, calming beat of his heart.
The next moment, a violent, neon-pink static snaps through your brain.
Your eyes fly open. The cozy, dimly lit bedroom is gone. The soft cotton sheets beneath you instantly morph into the stiff, scratchy fabric of a public bench. The smell of detergent is replaced by the overwhelming scent of chlorine and expensive perfume.
"No," you whisper, your throat tight. "No, please, not yet."
You look down. You’re no longer wearing Mingyu's oversized t-shirt. Instead, you’re clad in a stunning, albeit incredibly impractical, designer tweed skirt suit with pristine white heels.
Directly across from you stands Ara, holding a tray of iced coffees, looking utterly defenseless and doe-eyed. And standing right next to her, looking polished, perfectly coiffed, and completely devoid of his glasses, is Mingyu. He’s wearing his varsity jacket, his posture rigid and towering.
The transition is so violent it makes you nauseous. The physical memory of his touch is still burning on your skin, but your body is already moving against your will. Your spine straightens into a haughty, elegant posture. Your lips curl into a sharp, poisonous smirk.
Above your heads, a massive, glittery pink narration box materializes with a smug hum.
NARRATION: The next morning at the campus cafe, the villainess lays her trap, determined to humiliate Ara in front of the boy she desperately covets...
You try to swallow, but your vocal cords tighten as the Writer takes the reins, violently forcing the script into your mouth.
"Oh, Ara," your voice chimes out, dripping with sickly-sweet venom. "Did you personally brew those coffees, or did you just pick them up from the trash? Because honestly, the aroma matches your outfit today."
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, your mind screams at Ara, but your face remains a mask of flawless, cruel arrogance.
Ara flinches, her eyes immediately welling with tears as she looks up at Mingyu. "I... I just wanted to bring everyone drinks..."
Mingyu's jaw clenches. You see the brief, agonizing flicker of horror in his eyes, the real Mingyu trying to scream through the cracks of his character's programming. He knows exactly what you had just shared hours prior. He doesn't want to do this.
But the Writer's grip is ruthless.
Mingyu steps forward, his massive frame casting a shadow over you. He grabs the iced coffee from Ara's tray and, with a harsh, aggressive movement, slams it down on the table right in front of you, splashing a few drops onto your pristine tweed jacket.
"Keep your mouth shut, Y/N," Mingyu spits, his voice booming with a cold, scripted hatred that makes your stomach violently churn. "Ara has a heart of gold, which is something you wouldn't understand if it bought your family's entire political empire. Stay away from her. You disgust me."
The words feel like a physical blow to your chest. You disgust me. Even knowing it’s the script, the sheer force of his dictated anger cuts through you like a knife.
Your character merely laughs, a sharp, tinkling, villainous sound. "We'll see about that, Mingyu," your mouth drawls, tilting your head up to flash him a mocking wink.
PANEL 1 — CLOSE UP ON MINGYU'S FURIOUS EXPRESSION AS HE TURNS HIS BACK ON THE VILLAINESS, GUIDING A WEEPING ARA AWAY INTO THE SUNLIGHT.
The moment the imaginary camera shifts focus to follow them walking away, the invisible strings snap.
Your smirk collapses. You slump against the cafe bench, trembling violently as you clutch your stomach, dry-heaving from the sheer emotional whiplash. Across the courtyard, you can see Mingyu walking with Ara, his shoulders tightly hunched in that familiar, real-world telltale sign of pure, unadulterated distress.
He can’t look back at you. If he did, the Writer would freeze the panel.
You dig your nails into the wooden bench, staring at the pink narration box as it slowly dissolves into air. The battle for your freedom isn't just a union meeting anymore—it’s survival.
NARRATION: With the dramatic exit of the campus golden boy, the villainess is left alone to stew in her own bitter defeat, unaware that her cruel games are pushing her further into isolation...
"Oh, eat glass," you hiss under your breath, waiting exactly three seconds until the glowing text fully dissolves into the morning air.
The moment the script completely lets go of your muscles, you practically collapse onto the iron table. Your hands are shaking so hard, you almost knock over the remaining iced coffee. The emotional whiplash is a physical ache in your chest. Just hours ago, his hands were warm against your waist under the heavy steam of the shower, pulling you close, whispering that he would never let them take you away. Now, the phantom sting of his scripted words—You disgust me—echoes in your ears like a slap.
You need a drink, a sanctuary, or a very large blunt object to swing at the sky. Lacking all three, you grab your designer bag, haul your aching body out of the cafe courtyard, and head straight for the one place on campus where the shadows were thickest: the back rows of the university library.
"You look like shit." Wonwoo doesn't even look up from his massive, leather-bound textbook as you slide into the beanbag chair next to him, burying your face in your hands.
"Don't start, Wonwoo," you groan, your voice muffled. "I just got violently ripped out of Mingyu's bed at seven in the morning to be dropped into a 'cafeteria confrontation' scene. I told Ara her coffee smelled like garbage and Mingyu told me I was disgusting. My soul has officially left my body."
Wonwoo leans his cheek on his hand, flipping the page. "I know you have feelings for the musclehead, but can you get over yourself for three seconds?"
"Wow. Excuse me for having emotions," you grumble into your hands, flopping backwards into the plush beanbag chair with an undignified huff. "Remind me why I put up with you again?"
"My pretty face," Wonwoo recites by rote, the edges of his lips curling into a trademark smirk that made the characters around you swoon. "It's all the rage."
"Go back to brooding," you grumble, leaning forward again to scan the titles of his mountain of library books.
The library is an oasis of darkness: a cramped, shabby space nestled deep between the science shelves in the most remote corner of campus. Only a couple flickering lamps provide light, barely cutting through the densely packed bookshelves to reach the faded carpet. It’s impossible to spot the back rows from anywhere else in the library, which is exactly how you two like it. The deeper you sink into the stacks, the longer your ability to stay outside of the script lasts, giving you an easy break from being written into the same overused confrontations week after week.
This far from the spotlight of the heroine and the main characters, the university is nothing but a cheap backdrop and a cheap trope. No flashy love triangles or manufactured plot twists can find you here, no matter how brightly the script shines. Just stacks upon stacks of books, no endings necessary. It’s exactly what you need right now.
Wonwoo stares pointedly at your rumpled jacket and messy hair, his fingers absently playing with a ballpoint pen. "So are you going to sit there moping, or are you going to finally address the massive, tooth-rotting sexual tension hanging between us right now?"
You smack his arm hard. "Gross, dude. Not with Mingyu on the brain."
Wonwoo ignores the bruise already blooming on his bicep, cocking an eyebrow. "Are you done lamenting your tragic inability to seduce our token jock? You're crushing my study vibe with that kind of energy."
"Fu–"
"Don't curse in my sacred reading corner."
You close your mouth mid-curse, narrowing your eyes. "Fine, Shakespeare," you say, crossing your arms. "Remind me, why am I even talking to you about this?"
"Because you think I can actually fix it." His eyes flick up towards the dusty fluorescent lights, watching the grime-coated glass buzz with low electricity. After several seconds, his dark gaze shifts towards your face.
"Look," Wonwoo sighs, resting his elbows on top of his piles of reference books. "If there's anyone who understands this shitty situation, it's me. I know you two are dying to break free and bang each other against the nearest wall, but the Writer doesn't care. To her, our misery is hilarious, and she doesn't care what she has to tear apart or write-off to keep making us dance to her tune."
You stare at Wonwoo, his words cutting through the leftover haze of the morning's whiplash. The harsh reality of what Seungkwan had shown you at the Human Rewrite Agency flashes in your mind—the tragic, abandoned draft where you and Mingyu were torn apart by war. The Writer didn't care about your heartbreak then, and she certainly doesn't care now.
"She already tore us apart once," you whisper, the anger in your voice giving way to a hollow, echoing fear. "Seungkwan showed me an old draft. In another story, Mingyu and I were in love, and she just... left us to rot in a tragic ending because it wasn't pulling in enough views."
Wonwoo stops twirling his pen. His boredom completely evaporates, replaced by a sharp, calculating focus. "Wait, seriously?"
"I read all of it." You fidget with your pearl ring, "We never even got a happy ending. And now I'm watching him be the main character again with someone that's not me and get his happy ending. What about me? What about my happy ending?"
He reaches out and squeezes your arm gently. "You will," he promises, and there's something softer and kinder than the Writer's edge in his words.
"I'm not so sure," you whisper. You have to keep swallowing the bitter lump that seems to have taken residence in your throat.
The heavy scent of old paper and dust does little to soothe the burning in your throat. Wonwoo’s hand is still a reassuring weight on your forearm, his usually detached eyes sharp with a quiet, protective anger.
Before he can offer another word of cynical comfort, the heavy wooden doors of the library’s back wing creak open.
Footsteps shatter the silence, heavy, hurried, and completely lacking the synchronized, rhythmic grace the Writer usually forced onto the male lead. A tall figure rounds the corner of the chemistry stacks, nearly tripping over a low-profile stool.
It’s Mingyu.
He has frantically shoved his thick, black-rimmed reading glasses back onto his face, though he’s still wearing the stupidly pristine varsity jacket from the cafe scene. His hair is a wild, unstyled nest from where he had clearly been ripping his hands through it in frustration. The moment his eyes lock onto you huddled in the beanbag chair, the rigid, arrogant mask of his character crumbles entirely.
"Y/N," he pants, stumbling into the narrow aisle. He drops to his knees right in front of your beanbag, not caring about the dust coating his expensive scripted jeans. "Y/N, I'm sorry. God, I'm so sorry." His large hands fly to cup your face, his palms warm and trembling violently against your cheeks. "I didn't mean it," he rushes out, his voice cracking, entirely stripped of the booming, confident cadence from the cafe. "The words…the Writer just slammed them into my throat. I tried to swallow them down, I swear to God I tried to choke on them, but the static was too loud. When I said those things to you... when I looked at you like that..." Tears of genuine, unadulterated rage well in his eyes, threatening to spill over his lashes. "I wanted to tear my own tongue out."
Wonwoo slowly retracts his hand from your arm, leaning back into his own chair and crossing his arms. "Take a breath, muscle-head. You're going to trigger a 'jealous outburst' panel if you vibrate any harder."
Mingyu ignores him entirely, his thumbs gently wiping at the stray tear that has finally escaped your eye. "Please tell me you know it wasn't me, Y/N. After last night... after everything... I could never look at you and feel anything but..." He chokes on the word, his ears turning a bright, furious crimson, but he forces himself to look directly into your eyes. "I love you. The real you. I don't care what she writes on the page."
You look at his flushed face, the messy hair, the desperate, unscripted honesty bleeding through his every pore. The phantom sting of 'You disgust me' finally begins to dissolve, replaced by the grounding weight of the boy who belongs to you in the dark.
"I know, Gyu," you whisper, reaching up to wrap your smaller hands around his wrists. "I know it was the script. It just... it gets harder to separate the two when the Writer starts messing with our heads."
Mingyu leans forward, resting his forehead against yours, letting out a long, shuddering breath that fans across your lips. "We're going to break this comic," he swears fiercely against your skin. "I don't care if we have to glitch the entire university into a black screen. We are not letting her rewrite us."
Wonwoo lets out a sharp, rhythmic tapping sound as he collapses his heavy book shut. "If you two are done staging an unscripted melodrama in my designated hiding spot, we actually have a massive problem to deal with."
Mingyu doesn't pull away immediately, giving your hand one final, protective squeeze before shifting to sit cross-legged on the faded carpet. He pushes his glasses up his nose, his broad shoulders slouching into that familiar, un-jock-like posture that belonged strictly to the shadows. "What do you mean, Wonwoo? Besides the fact that the Writer almost turned my brain into mush this morning?"
"Think about it," Wonwoo says, leaning forward and resting his chin on his steepled fingers. "Y/N just found out from Seungkwan that the Writer has a history of abandoning entire universes when they don't get enough traction. She scraps characters. She leaves them to rot in tragic endings." His sharp eyes dart between the two of you. "Right now, the Writer is getting aggressive because we are making the plot unstable. If Mingyu keeps punching narration boxes and glitching out of scripted gym sessions, she’s not just going to keep pushing. She’s going to notice the narrative structure is broken. And what happens when a webtoon creator realizes their project is glitched beyond repair?"
The air in the narrow aisle suddenly feels incredibly cold.
"She deletes the file," you whisper, your fingers tightening around the fabric of your designer tweed skirt. "She scraps the comic and starts a new one."
"Exactly," Wonwoo points at you with his pen. "Except this time, we’re self-aware. If she hits delete, do we just wake up in a new story with our memories wiped, or do we fade into the white space permanently?"
Mingyu’s jaw sets, his gaze hardening as he looks up at the flickering fluorescent lights overhead. "So Seungkwan was right. We can't just blatantly refuse to play our roles. We have to walk the line. We act out the scenes, we take the stupid scripted dialogue, but we use the shadows to build something she can't touch." He reaches out, his massive palm covering yours entirely. "We play along just enough to keep the comic alive, while we figure out a way to break the fourth wall completely from the inside."
Before you can respond, a low, ominous vibration thrums through the soles of your feet. The library shelves seems to flicker, the titles on the spines blurring into illegible streaks of color for a fraction of a second.
A neon-pink glow begins to manifest near the ceiling of the aisle, pulsing like a dying star.
"Fuck," Wonwoo mutters, instantly scrambling to his feet and shoving his textbook into his bag. "Spoke too soon. Stage lights are coming up. Must be a heroine spotlight."
The pink glow intensifies, bathing the dusty library aisle in an artificial, sickly light that makes the air feel thick and pressurized. You, Mingyu, and Wonwoo scramble as the scene begins to materialize around you, the reality of the library walls warping like melting wax.
PANEL 1 — THE LIBRARY AISLE, SUDDENLY OVERFLOWING WITH SOFT, ROMANTIC FILTERING.
Lee Ara appears at the far end of the row, holding a stack of books and looking around with an expression of "lost and adorable" perfection. She catches sight of the three of you, her eyes widening in a scripted, dramatic reveal.
NARRATION: A quiet moment of study turns into a chance encounter, as Ara discovers the trio in their secret, brooding corner...
"Oh!" Ara exclaims, her voice unnaturally bright and rehearsed. "I didn't know you guys were all back here together!"
You feel the familiar, sickening lurch in your chest as the Writer takes hold of your internal monologue, turning your genuine affection for your friends into a sharp, jagged envy.
"Well, it's a library, Ara," you say, your voice dripping with an acid-tongued condescension that makes your skin crawl. "It’s supposed to be for studying, not for wandering around like a lost puppy looking for attention."
Ara’s lower lip trembles—the perfect, predictable response. Beside you, Mingyu stiffens, his fingers digging into his knees to keep from lunging toward her to apologize. His face, however, is forced into a mask of cold, dismissive indifference that mirrors your own.
"Y/N, leave her alone," Mingyu says, his voice flat and monotone, devoid of his usual warmth. "She’s just trying to find a quiet place to read."
"Oh, please," you roll your eyes, a gesture that feels heavy and robotic. "Don't tell me you're actually falling for the 'innocent, studious heroine' routine, Mingyu? We both know she couldn't tell the difference between a textbook and a magazine if her life depended on it."
Ara gasps, clutching the books to her chest as if you'd physically struck her. You want to scream, to reach out and tell her that you actually like her, that you’ve helped her study before, but your mouth is locked in its scripted cruelty.
"I... I really just wanted to return these," Ara whispers, her gaze darting to Mingyu for salvation.
NARRATION: The tension crackles as the hero steps forward to defend the maiden, his eyes burning with a sudden, intense fury.
Mingyu stands up, his movements stiff as he performs the role of the knight in shining armor. "I said, that's enough," he hisses, stepping directly into your personal space. "Go back to your little clique of sycophants and leave her out of your drama."
You meet his gaze, and for one desperate, fleeting second, the Writer's hold falters. In the depths of his eyes, you see the real Mingyu—the one who spent the night in your bed, the one who promised to protect you. He’s terrified for you, pleading with you to play along before the Writer notices the glitch and tries to delete you entirely.
You force a sharp, cold laugh, stepping back and brushing past him with deliberate, insulting intent. "You’re right, Mingyu," you snap, your voice echoing with a synthetic bitterness that makes your stomach churn. "I’m wasting my time here. It’s hard to have a conversation when the room is being occupied by, well, this." You gesture vaguely toward Ara with a hand that is shaking, though the narration box hovering above you works overtime to frame your tremor as a sign of haughty impatience.
PANEL 2 — MINGYU, ARA, AND YOU STARING EACH OTHER DOWN
Ara looks hurt, her lip wobbling just enough to satisfy the panel's requirements. Mingyu stands motionless, his hands balled into white-knuckled fists at his sides. The narration box pulses a violent shade of fuchsia, hungry for the conflict to escalate.
NARRATION: The villainess turns on her heel, her heart cold and empty, unaware that her cruel words have finally pushed the golden boy past his breaking point.
"Don't you dare walk away," Mingyu barks. He grabs your arm, his fingers dig into your skin, hard. "You think you’re so much better than everyone, don't you? Always plotting, always hiding."
You spin back around, your face arranging itself into a sneer that you despise, but your eyes meet his, and you transmit every ounce of your reality into that look. Play the game, you idiot. Just play the game.
"And what if I am?" you hiss, pulling your arm away with a sharp, calculated motion. "At least I know what I am, Mingyu. I know what I want. Do you?"
PANEL 3 — CLOSE UP ON MINGYU'S FACE
His expression is a masterpiece of conflicting emotions—the mask of the "angry lead" clashing with the raw, terrified honesty in his eyes. He looks like he’s trying to swallow a scream.
"You don't know a damn thing," Mingyu growls, but the cadence is off—strained and jagged. He steps closer, closing the distance until his chest brushes your shoulder. The smell of his laundry detergent—a scent that belongs to your apartment, not this scripted reality—wafts off him, a sharp reminder of the night before.
NARRATION: The air thickens with unspoken malice as the hero confronts the villainess, his heart firmly tethered to the heroine’s purity.
"Is that so?" you retort, your voice perfectly, hatefully smooth. You reach out, your fingers hovering over the lapel of his varsity jacket, tracing the embroidered school crest. "Because it looks to me like you're just playing house, Mingyu. Pretending this—" you gesture vaguely toward Ara, who is hovering in the background like a confused prop—"pretending this is your whole world."
Ara lets out a small, high-pitched noise of distress. "Mingyu, please... she's not worth it."
"See?" You tilt your head, a saccharine, patronizing smile plastered on your lips. "She's worried about your reputation. How noble."
PANEL 4 — WIDE SHOT: THE THREE OF YOU IN THE AISLE
The library shelves seem to press inward, the lighting turning a harsh, over-saturated studio white. Wonwoo is still sitting in the beanbag chair, his back turned, studiously ignoring the scene. He’s the only smart one here. He knows better than to break character when the narration is this aggressive.
Mingyu’s hand shoots out, gripping your wrist again.
PANEL 5 — CLOSE-UP ON MINGYU’S GRIP.
His fingers wrap tightly around your wrist, executing the exact visual cue the script demands. But beneath the forced, white-knuckled aggression, you feel his thumb press twice against your pulse point—a quiet, unscripted reassurance meant only for you.
"You think you can just trample over everyone because of who your family is?" Mingyu barks, his voice laced with that booming, heroic resonance that makes your stomach turn. "You don't own this campus, Y/N. And you certainly don't own her."
The words sting, but Seungkwan's advice echoes in your mind: Do your part. Take the dialogue and try not to gag. You have to keep the plot moving, or the Writer will realize the file is glitched and scrap your entire universe.
PANEL 6 — PROFILE SHOT: YOU, LEANING IN.
Your body moves on autopilot, tilting your chin up with elegant, villainous haughtiness. You lean directly into his personal space, your nose inches from his varsity jacket, smelling the real-world scent of his laundry detergent beneath the fake studio lights. "Oh, is that a threat, Mingyu? Because you know how much I love it when you get all big and protective."
Ara lets out a soft, scripted gasp in the background, her doe eyes wide with predictable horror.
PANEL 7 — EXTRA WIDE: THE LIBRARY AISLE GLITCHES.
A violent wave of neon-pink static ripples through the air, causing the wooden bookshelves to warp and blur like melting digital wax. The Writer is pushing back, furious at the underlying friction of your true feelings breaking through the rigid script.
NARRATION: Fed up with her pathetic, desperate games, the golden boy casts her aside, completely severing the toxic ties of their childhood...
Mingyu’s arm jerks violently under the Writer's command. He is forced to throw your hand back, but as the invisible strings yank his muscles, he fights the momentum, letting go with a desperate gentleness that completely contradicts the narration's harsh script. A tiny spark of pink electricity pops between your palms as your fingers slip apart.
"Let's go, Ara," Mingyu mutters. His voice is heavy, carrying a deep, real-world exhaustion that the text bubbles try to disguise as righteous anger. He turns on his heel, guiding a trembling Ara out of the dimly lit aisle and back toward the safety of the main campus floor.
You watch as he leaves, sinking to the floor with a sick sense of relief when the footsteps fade. This scene is over. At least for now.
PANEL 1 — WIDE SHOT: THE CAMPUS BALLROOM
A massive banner overhead reads: ANNUAL CARAT U FOUNDER’S DAY GALA. Students are scurrying around carrying towers of pastel boxes, flower arrangements, and expensive silk ribbons. The lighting is an aggressive, over-saturated pink.
NARRATION: As the highly anticipated Founder’s Day Gala approaches, the campus is alive with romantic tension and sparkling anticipation...
PANEL 2 — CLOSE UP ON YOU.
You're leaning against a wall, elegantly dressed in a long form fitting gown, the slit climbing scandalously high. Your arms are crossed, but your fingers are restlessly spinning the pearl ring on your hand.
“A gala,” you whisper under your breath, your eyes tracking a floating pink narration box hovering near a pile of stage props. “Of course there's a gala. Because what's a cheap rom-com without a dramatic ballroom confrontation?”
The narration box twitches, sending a tiny jolt of pink static through the air.
NARRATION: ...and our scheming villainess can already smell the sweet scent of a perfectly orchestrated sabotage.
“Keep dreaming, you neon eyesore,” you mutter, stepping into the shadow of a large marble pillar to get out of the spotlight before your mouth is hijacked again.
The physical toll of the library scene from yesterday still lingers like a deep bruise. Every time you or Mingyu fight the invisible puppet strings, the static gets louder, threatening to tear the fabric of your reality apart at the seams.
Mingyu approaches you, completely in his "on-page" element, wearing a tailored navy suit that highlights his broad shoulders, his dark hair slicked back perfectly. But as he steps into the shade of the pillar next to you, his posture slumps into a familiar, exhausted slouch.
"Tell me you brought snacks," Mingyu mumbles, the booming confidence of his male-lead voice dropping into a tired, rough-around-the-edges whisper. "The Writer made me carry three ice sculptures across the plaza for the Gala committee. My hands are literally numb."
You can't help but smile, your fingers instantly reaching out to catch his cold hands. "No snacks, Gyu. Just a whole lot of scripted doom." You nod toward the hovering pink narration box. "It’s already setting me up to ruin the Gala."
Mingyu squeezes your hands, his dark eyes softening behind his invisible programming. "We play along just enough to keep the file from being deleted, remember? We take the dialogue. But the moment the panel freezes..." He leans down, his forehead briefly resting against yours, sending a wave of genuine warmth through the freezing morning air. "The shadows are ours."
The room is a sickeningly opulent display of crystal chandeliers, cascading white roses, and soft pastel lighting. Couples are gliding across the dance floor in perfect, symmetrical harmony.
NARRATION: The night of nights! Under the shimmering chandeliers of the Founder's Gala, destiny takes the floor...
PANEL 3 — CLOSE UP ON ARA.
She is wearing a massive, glitter-drenched ballgown that looks completely impossible to walk in. She stands near the punch bowl, looking beautifully overwhelmed.
PANEL 4 — YOU STEP INTO THE FRAME.
Your body suddenly locks into a rigid, elegant posture. Your lips curl into a poisonous, calculating smirk as the Writer violently takes the reins of your jaw.
"Oh, Ara," your mouth chimes out, dripping with venomous condescension. "Did you dress up as a literal disco ball tonight, or are you just trying to ensure the security guards can track you when you inevitably spill punch on yourself?"
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, your mind screams, but your face remains a mask of flawless, aristocratic cruelty.
Ara flinches, her doe eyes instantly welling with tears. "Y/N... I just wanted to dress up for the school..."
PANEL 5 — MINGYU INTERVENES.
Mingyu strides into the panel, his chest puffed out, stepping directly between you and Ara. His jaw is clenched so tightly a vein pulses at his temple. The real Mingyu trying to fight the static screaming in his brain.
"That's enough, Y/N," Mingyu barks, his scripted voice booming with cold, righteous anger. "Your family's money can't buy a single drop of the grace Ara has in her pinky finger. Leave her alone, or I'll personally have security throw you out."
The words sting like a physical slap, but beneath the table line, where the panel cuts off, Mingyu’s hand blindly reaches out, his thumb pressing twice against your thigh in the dark, the quiet, unscripted code you shared in the library. I'm here. I love you.
"We'll see who gets thrown out, Mingyu," your character drawls, tilting your head to flash him a haughty, mocking wink before turning on your heel.
PANEL 6 — EXTRA WIDE: THE BALLROOM LIGHTS SUDDENLY FLICKER.
A violent, jagged wave of neon-pink static rips through the chandeliers. The crystal ornaments warp into pixelated blocks, and a low, digital hum vibrates through the floorboards. The Writer is panicking; the underlying friction of your true feelings is destabilizing the scene.
NARRATION: Driven to the edge by the villainess's relentless malice, the golden boy sweeps the pure maiden into a dramatic waltz, completely erasing the shadow of his past...
The moment the imaginary camera shifts to focus on Mingyu and Ara's waltz, you make your way to the back rooms. You collapse against the backstage vanity mirror, gasping for air as you clutch your stomach, trembling from the sheer emotional whiplash. The door clicks open, and Wonwoo slips inside, his bowtie completely undone, carrying a pair of flat sneakers and a stolen plate of pastries.
"The chandeliers almost turned into literal missing-texture blocks out there," Wonwoo says flatly, tossing the sneakers at your feet. "You and the muscle-head are vibrating at a frequency that's going to get us all format-clipped."
"I know," you whisper, wiping a genuine tear of frustration from your eye. "But we kept the scene moving. We gave her the confrontation she wanted."
The door bursts open again. Mingyu stumbles in, completely out of breath. He doesn't say a word; he just strides across the room, drops to his knees, and buries his face in your lap, his massive arms wrapping around your waist like a vice.
"I hated it," he chokes out, his voice rough and stripped of all comic-book arrogance. "I hated every word."
You run your fingers through his messy, unstyled hair, leaning down to press a soft, fierce kiss against his crown. "Shadows," you whisper, and his arms tighten, his nails digging into the skin of your back with a desperate urgency. "In the shadows, it's just us."
"Okay lovebirds." Wonwoo places the plate of food on top of the vanity and quickly turns to leave. "Enjoy the physical expressions of love or whatever. I'll keep an eye out on things outside."
You gently scratch your fingers across Mingyu's scalp. "Gyu, get something in your stomach," you gently urge. "You're gonna be numb again if you don't eat."
"I hate this stupid webcomic," Mingyu mumbles, his nose buried in the satin of your gown.
"I hate this stupid story just as much," you mutter. "But hey, at least we're trapped together." You pick up a macaron off the plate and offer it to him. He obediently lifts his head and takes a bite, chewing while his arms are still stubbornly clamped around your waist.
"Marry me when all this is over," Mingyu says in his rough-around-the-edges delivery, only halfway kidding as he wraps his mouth around the dessert.
You laugh. "Why me? Why not the bubbly protagonist who's guaranteed to give you a happy ending?"
"Baby," Mingyu chuckles, resting his chin on your knee, his big, earnest eyes staring up at you. "You and I already know what the ending looks like."
"And what's that?" you ask, absentmindedly twisting the ring around your finger.
"This," Mingyu whispers, sitting upright and pulling you into his lap to steal a kiss, his lips sweetly smiling against your mouth. "This and everything else that comes with it."
"Yeah? And what does everything else consist of? Inquiring minds want to know," you say with a playful quirk of your eyebrow.
Mingyu slides his hand down from your shoulder to the soft curve of your hip, "Hmm...in bed. The shower. In our actual homes. Everywhere. Everyday."
"Anywhere, huh?"
Mingyu smiles again, warm and perfect and unafraid. "Anywhere. Anytime."
"And if I said right now?" you whisper.
His fingers tangle in your hair. "Baby," he teases, nipping at your lower lip. "Right here?" Mingyu murmured, his voice dropping into that rough, unfiltered register that the Writer never let the audience hear. "With Wonwoo playing look-out outside, and the entire digital universe vibrating like a faulty circuit board?"
"Especially right now," you breathed, your fingers hooking into the lapel of his tailored navy suit jacket, tugging it off his broad shoulders. "Because every time she forces you to tell me I disgust you out there, I need a reminder of what the truth feels like in here."
Mingyu drops to his knees on the floor, his fingers sliding along the slit of your long, tailored gown. "And what does the truth feel like, love?" he whispered, kissing the side of your knee through the fabric.
"It feels like this," you manage, moving his hand up higher under the shimmering satin. "Here..." you gently guided the tip of his fingers where you needed them. "Like this, Gyu."
"Fuck, Y/N," he groans, his warm breath against your skin. "You drive me crazy every damn time."
You gasp when he pushes your dress up higher, lips dragging across your skin as his mouth makes a path to where you needed him most. "Gyu..." you shudder out his name, your hands gripping his soft hair tightly, encouraging him closer.
"Every day," he rasped. "For as long as this webtoon runs and even after, Y/N, I'll make you feel like this. Love or not, script or not, I'm yours. Got it?."
"Got it. Understood," you murmur, tugging on the ends of his hair again. Mingyu's teeth nip at the flesh of your inner thigh, the light sting sending a jolt of heat up through your core. "Now stop teasing me, please," you whisper. "Show me what that talented tongue does. Show me."
Mingyu obeys, dragging your silky black underwear down and then placing an open-mouthed, hungry kiss where you want him the most, the flat of his tongue tasting you eagerly, the low groan from his throat making your breath catch.
"Mingyu," you moan, feeling him lift one of your legs, settling it over his broad shoulder.
His teeth scrape lightly on the bundle of nerves, your mouth dropping open, a high, wanton sigh escaping your lips as he dips a finger, sliding in gently. You tug again at the strands of his soft hair, desperately rocking against his face, and you can feel him smile.
"More, baby, please," you begged, lost in how good it felt. You wanted to make you lose yourself, forget about the damn story and the Writer and Ara and everything.
Mingyu slides a second finger into you, curving them at the precise angle that he knows drives you crazy, and you start to see stars, your spine arching, mouth forming a silent moan. He goes faster, deeper, his mouth devouring every inch, and he fucks you perfectly with his fingers until you feel nothing but euphoria.
"Please," you beg, your fingers grasping his hair roughly, tugging insistently. Mingyu leans in again, his tongue curling against your clit, and your thighs quake as the heat pools in your lower belly and then snaps in a wave. You come against his mouth with a hoarse, barely-muted cry, the feeling rippling through you, eyes rolling to the ceiling, mouth open in ecstasy. "Oh god. Yes!" you gasp as Mingyu slows his pace, sliding his fingers out and sucking the tip of his fingers clean, licking his lips, because fuck it, Mingyu can have dessert twice if he wants.
"Jesus," he breathes as your mind blanks momentarily from the intensity of your climax. He wraps his arm around your waist again, tugging you even closer. He rests his head against your belly, fingers curling possessively around your hip. "Baby, do you feel better now?"
You smirk, holding him close, gently raking your fingers through his silky locks, inhaling sharply. "As if I could feel bad with a tongue like yours working magic down there."
"It's not just my tongue, sweetheart," Mingyu teased. "There's this, too." He looks down at his very prominent erection that you could see straining against his perfectly tailored pants and wiggles his eyebrows.
"Hmm...now how did that get there," you smirk, sliding the tip of your finger along his bottom lip. "You have an extra, extra appendage. Gyu."
"I always carry it with me wherever I go," he says, getting up to his feet again, wrapping his arm tighter around your waist. "Just in case my girlfriend needs a reminder that her boyfriend loves her."
You lean up to press your mouth against his, kissing him passionately, humming softly into it. "Always." you murmured before cupping his cheeks and smiling up at him. "Now, show me what your extra, extra appendage does. Gyu. Please."
Before he can reach for his belt, Wonwoo knocks on the door, yelling, "Hey lovebirds, the narration box is zooming around, looking for one of you. Chop-chop! This isn't the time."
You untangled your arms from around him, smoothing a hand down his jaw and giving it a tender pat, grinning. "Let's save that for later."
He grabs the back of your head and gives you another searing kiss before growling, "To be continued, sweetheart."
"Love you," you smiled, linking your hand into his as you head back to the ballroom to face your fated moment again.
Mingyu looks over his shoulder, lips forming the same words silently, "I love you, too, baby."
PANEL 1 — MEDIUM SHOT: THE BALLROOM THRESHOLD.
The studio lights hitting the edge of the door frame are an aggressive, glittering gold. The air pressure changes instantly as the heavy oak door opens. The heavy scent of rain and soap from the backstage floor evaporates, replaced by the suffocating smell of expensive champagne and rosewater.
Your posture snaps straight like a steel rod being bent back into place. Your hand slips from Mingyu's warm grip just a millisecond before the invisible camera lens pans over to find you.
NARRATION: Driven by bitter resentment, the disgraced queen returns to the floor, her eyes searching for the perfect weapon to mend her broken pride...
"I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings," you whisper out of the very side of your mouth, the real you desperately trying to warn the boy beside you before your vocal cords lock up completely.
Mingyu’s jaw hitches. His eyes flash with that terrifying, real-world panic, but his body is already turning away from you, his shoulders broadening into the stiff, unnatural stance of the defensive male lead. "Do it. Just make it look real so she doesn't freeze the canvas."
PANEL 2 — CLOSE UP ON YOU.
Your face twists into a flawless, venomous sneer that feels entirely alien on your skin.
"Oh, look who decided to rejoin the living," your voice chimes out, loud enough to turn heads near the VIP lounges. "Did you finally finish playing white knight, Mingyu, or is your little charity case still crying in the restroom?"
Ara is standing just past the fountain, clutching a silk shawl. Her eyes go wide, perfectly timed tears gathering right on her lower lashes.
"Y/N, please," Ara stammers, her script forcing her to sound small and defenseless. "Why do you have to be so cruel?"
"Because someone has to keep this campus realistic, sweetie," your mouth sneers, your hand lifting to dismissively wave her away. "This entire event is high society. You look like you stumbled in from a local thrift bazaar."
PANEL 3 — MINGYU STEPS IN, FURIOUS.
Mingyu plants himself right in your path. The sheer size of his scripted frame blocks out the light, casting a long shadow across your designer gown.
"I told you to watch your mouth, Y/N," he roars, the text bubble cutting sharply across the top of the panel. He grabs your wrist, his grip visually harsh, mimicking the exact toxic trope the Writer loves.
But against the hidden skin of your inner wrist, his thumb presses down firmly twice. I've got you. Hold on.
"Ara belongs here more than you ever will," Mingyu snarls, his eyes burning with an artificial fury. "Get out of our sight before I show you exactly how meaningless your family's influence is to me."
PANEL 4 — EXTRA WIDE SHOT: THE COMIC GLITCHES.
The entire ballroom floor shudders. The edges of the panel begin to fray, the pristine marble texture dissolving into digital white space for a terrifying, split second. The neon-pink narration box hovers directly between your faces, vibrating violently as if it can taste the immense friction of your true feelings tearing at the script.
NARRATION: With one final, devastating rejection, the golden boy completely shatters the villainess's illusions, leaving her utterly—
The text suddenly halts. The glowing pink letters begin to scramble into nonsensical digital noise.
Error 404: Narrative Flow Disrupted.
"What the..." Wonwoo’s voice cuts through the static from the edge of the frame. He isn't supposed to speak in this panel, but he’s standing near the punch bowl, his reading glasses on, staring up at the ceiling as the digital sky of the webtoon begins to crack like glass.
"Mingyu," you gasp, and this time, it’s your voice. The puppet strings have gone completely slack. Your wrist is free.
The entire student body—the faceless extras, the track team, even Ara—freezes mid-motion, their expressions locked into rigid, unblinking stasis. The music stops dead.
PANEL 5 — THE SHADOWS EXPAND.
Mingyu doesn't hesitate. The second the script breaks, he grabs your hand for real, pulling you toward the edge of the collapsing ballroom floor where the white space is actively swallowing the pastel decorations.
"The Writer lost control," Mingyu pants, his varsity jacket instantly vanishing, replaced by his oversized, threadbare hoodie as reality completely destabilizes. "Wonwoo! Move!"
"Way ahead of you, muscle-head," Wonwoo grunts, sprinting past the frozen, statue-like form of Ara and diving straight into the expanding darkness of the unwritten pages.
You look back one last time as the neon-pink narration box shatters into a million harmless, glittering shards. The clichéd university, the forced love triangles, the malicious dialogues—they are all dissolving into blank canvas.
"We did it," you breathe, your heart hammering against your ribs as Mingyu pulls you flush against his chest in the pitch-black safety of the void. "We actually broke the plot."
Mingyu looks down at you, his glasses sliding down his nose, a brilliant, lopsided, unscripted smile taking over his face.
"I told you," he whispers, his lips finding yours in the quiet, absolute freedom of the white space. "Everywhere. Anytime. From now on, we write our own story."
An endless, blindingly pristine field of pure white extends in every direction. There are no walls, no floors, and no horizons. Floating randomly in the distance are discarded sketches of coffee cups, fragmented lines of dialogue bubbles, and half-rendered cherry blossom petals frozen mid-air.
You and Mingyu are sitting cross-legged on the nonexistent floor, your hands still tightly intertwined. A few feet away, Wonwoo is lying flat on his back, using a stack of unwritten text boxes as a makeshift pillow.
"So," Wonwoo says, his voice echoing in the vast emptiness. "We successfully glitched the file into a total system crash. Congratulations, team. We are officially unemployed."
"Shut up, Wonwoo," you laugh, leaning your head against Mingyu's shoulder. The sheer relief of not having a script forced into your throat is intoxicating. Your jaw doesn't ache. Your smile doesn't feel like a weapon. You are just you.
"He's right, though," Mingyu murmurs, his large fingers gently tracing the knuckles of your hand. He looks down at you through his black-rimmed glasses, his eyes completely soft and grounded. "The Writer is definitely trying to reboot the program right now. I can feel the static humming in the back of my neck. It’s faint, but it’s there."
The pristine white space beneath your feet vibrates violently. A jagged line of neon-pink code tears through the emptiness, splitting the void right down the middle like a glowing neon scar. The faint hum at the back of Mingyu’s neck suddenly turns into an aggressive, crackling roar of static.
"She's rebooting," Wonwoo barks, his calm demeanor snapping instantly. He scrambles off his stack of text boxes as the tear in the white space began to flicker wildly. "The backup save is initializing! If that code closes around us, we’re going right back to the chandeliers and the damn waltz!"
"Not happening," Mingyu growls. He doesn’t wait for the script to claim his muscles. He lunges forward, throwing his massive arm around your waist and scooping you up against his chest, his other hand locking firmly onto Wonwoo’s jacket. "Hold on!"
The white space around you begins to warp, trying to force the textures of the Founder's Gala back into existence. For a terrifying fraction of a second, the tailored gown manifests over your skin, and the phantom smell of rosewater fills your nose. Your jaw begins to stiffen, a scripted, arrogant laugh bubbling up in your throat.
No. You won't say it. You bite your lip until the taste of iron breaks the illusion.
With a roaring effort, Mingyu throws all three of you forward, diving headfirst into the flickering, dark tear in the canvas just as a massive, neon-pink command prompt filled the sky:
RESTORING CORRUPTED FILE: VOLUME 4_FINAL.
You plummet through the darkness, the sensation of falling giving way to a sudden, hard impact against a surprisingly plush carpet.
"Oof—muscle-head, get your knee out of my ribs," Wonwoo groans from somewhere beneath a pile of limbs.
"Sorry, sorry!" Mingyu pants, frantically scrambling up and immediately pulling you to your feet. He cups your face, his eyes wide behind his glasses. "Y/N! Are you back? Are you you?"
You blink, shaking the last remnants of the pink static from your head. You look down. You’re wearing your favorite oversized hoodie and a pair of worn-out sweatpants. Your face is entirely yours. Your jaw is loose, completely free of the Writer’s venomous strings.
"I'm here," you breathe, throwing your arms around his neck. "I'm entirely here."
"Ahem." A polite, cheerful throat-clearing cuts through your frantic breathing. You turn your head to see Boo Seungkwan leaning over a sleek mahogany desk, a mug of hot coffee in his hand and a brilliant, knowing smirk on his face. Behind him, Joshua and Vernon are frantically typing on glowing, transparent keyboards, routing lines of blue code away from a localized server. "Right on time, Union Team," Seungkwan cheers, setting his mug down. "We just intercepted your data packets before the Writer's backup save could overwrite your awareness nodes. Welcome to the permanent grid of the Human Rewrite Agency."
Wonwoo stands up, dusting off his pants and pushing his glasses up his nose. "So we're safe? The file can't reach us here?"
"The Writer thinks your characters were permanently corrupted and deleted from the save file," Vernon chimes in without looking up from his screen. "She's currently drawing a new villainess with a bob cut and a generic mean-girl backstory to replace you in her rewrite for Volume 4. You three are officially off the registry."
A profound, breathtaking silence settles over you. Off the registry. No more floating narration boxes. No more forced backhanded compliments. No more watching the love of your life play a role meant for someone else.
Mingyu lets out a breath that sounds suspiciously like a sob, burying his face into the crook of your neck, his massive frame shaking with pure relief. "We did it," he whispers against your skin, his hands gripping the fabric of your hoodie as if he still couldn't believe you wouldn't vanish into a panel shift. "We actually did it, baby."
You comb your fingers through his messy, unstyled hair, looking over his shoulder at the vast, bustling network of the shadows. In the distance, characters from a dozen different genres are laughing, drinking at a local bar, and writing their own unscripted lives.
"Yeah, we did," you murmur, a genuine, radiant smile breaking across your face as you leaned up to press your lips against his. "Now, come on, Gyu. I believe you promised me a very specific, completely unscripted continuation to a certain conversation backstage."
Mingyu pulls back, his crimson ears perfectly matching the brilliant, lopsided, boyish grin that belongs entirely to you. "Anywhere," he promises, his eyes deep and full of a quiet, everlasting warmth. "Anytime."
"But first, you'll need to find a new home here and meet other self-aware characters," Joshua pipes up, "You can always make this place a new home and help others like you, but—"
Seungkwan swats Joshua's arm, a huge smile on his face. "What Joshua is trying to say," Seungkwan proclaimed, "is you can stay here at HRA with us."
"There's more to the HRA than this building," Vernon speaks up. "There is a whole world you can discover."
You take the information with open arms. It may be unfamiliar, and maybe you'll have to rewrite an entirely new existence, but with Mingyu at your side, there's no fear in taking a step forward with confidence. With his fingers intertwined with yours, it feels like there's nothing the two of you can't do.
"Alright. Where do we go from here?" Mingyu asks as if he can read your mind.
"That is the million won question," You joke. Mingyu snickers, knowing what you mean. You can't afford a million won, that's what is hilarious about it. You still feel like living here for free and meeting new characters might be something you like. Not because you have to, because it is actually exciting.
Maybe things are starting to look up? You just hope The Writer has more drama planned. Maybe they'll go on hiatus and the world will shift towards an existence you want.
There is something freeing about being a character without a script. It takes more energy than living your life following the order of a Writer, but you're less miserable, and you think Mingyu agrees because even with his usual distaste for exercise and work, his smile is brighter.
Mingyu swings your hand in his grasp playfully, his shoulders less slouched and he stands taller. "What next then?"
"What next? You tell me," You challenge playfully. "After all, you are my male lead. You were written with great ideas, weren't you?"
Mingyu tilts his head and lets out a breath that sounds suspiciously like a laugh, the sound reverberates in your ear. "Yea, maybe. We have the rest of forever to find out, don't we?"
Hii author! I saw your post about drabble game, can you please make a drabble about jimin, the genre is smut and the troupe is office colleagues but can you make it in a law firm.💜
Title: No objection
Pairing: Lawyer!Jimin x FemaleLawyer!Reader
Summary: You've harboured a secret crush on your colleague Park Jimin for a long time, when he finally gets the courage to ask you on a date, you definitely didn't expect what happens next.
Rating: 18+ (NSFW - MDNI)
Genre(s): Smut / office au / colleagues to lovers / fluff
Warnings: Oral f.recieving / protected P in V sex / making out / groping / slightly orgasm denial / sex in the work place /
Word count: 2.2k
A/N: This one turned into more of a one shot but thank you so much for this anon, its as if you reached into my mind and found the fic I would have liked to write the most. I love your vibe. If you would like to take part in the drabble game, you can find it here: Drabble game
As co-counsel you no doubt have the best seat in the court room. Here, you get to watch Park Jimin at his finest - in his element - leading the defence. He remains quiet, some say too quiet for a lawyer. But what a lot of people fail to realise is, in his quiet…he's deadly.
He sits and listens while the prosecution produces seemingly iron-clad alibis, witness testimonies and expert opinions on the stand. When it looks hopeless for our side and he's begged by our client to make an objection, to do something, he simply lifts a finger from the desk and silences him.
While the client sweats, he sits, as cool as a cucumber in his perfectly tailored suit. You watch his side profile, the line of his nose, his full lips and chiselled jaw. His face is the type of face that should be in paintings, but you doubt even the most realistic brush strokes could do him justice. Even a sculpture made of the smoothest clay couldn't compare to his complexion. He's perfection brought to life in front of you.
He stands abruptly, his turn to question the main witness, he glances back at you throwing you a subtle wink, before asking only three questions. The stuttering responses and sudden change of story manages to absolutely destroy the prosecution's case.
Gasps from the gallery erupt around you, the judge hits his gavel on the wooden block to regain order and you lean back in your seat, astonished. It is not the first time you've witnessed Park Jimin's brilliance, but you feel it's not something you'll ever get used to. The way his mind works makes you hungry to know more of it, to get even deeper into the caverns and get lost in them.
Your heart pounds as you both leave the courtroom and when those elevator doors close leaving only the two of you in the tight space, you're met with his face looking at you from all the walls. He smiles shyly at you, a faint blush dusting his high cheekbones, so different to the calm, confident man in the courtroom, but you like that.
“We should celebrate.” He says, an uncertainty in his tone that makes you want to roll your eyes. For months you've flirted with him, hoping he'd give you even a hint if he felt the same way and at times you're convinced he does, but others where you're not so sure. You don't think you can take much more of not knowing.
“Dinner, tonight?” He asks, and before you have a chance to answer he's giving you an out, “unless you have plans, of course, then we can do it another time, you know, if you want to, and if you don't that's cool.”
You have to refrain from pinning him against the mirrored wall right then and there. When he’s nervous he has a way of making your core clench around nothing, especially as you watch his Adams apple bob against his collar when he swallows. You take a deep breath in through your nose, attempting to calm yourself.
“I would love to go to dinner, Jimin.”
He smiles, eyes widening with surprise, “Really? I mean, ok great. I'll come to your office at 5?”
Ordinarily, you'd want to go back home first and change, but you're worried he'd lose his nerve if you kept him waiting. You'll have to work with what you've got.
“Sounds good.” you reply with a broad smile, unable to hide the glee you feel.
The journey back to the office is fairly quiet, mostly discussing the next case the two of you will be working on. He already wants to start going over depositions, something that takes up a lot of time and often ends up continuing out of work hours, the only perk was spending more time with him.
You part ways, him giving you another devastating smile before heading back to your separate offices. Once that door is shut behind you, you let out a sigh of relief. Another case closed and another one to begin but all leading to spending more time with Jimin.
The last hour of work drags, you retouch your make-up, check your hair twice, and throw some gum in your mouth to freshen up before spitting it in your trash can. At five o’clock on the dot, a knock sounds on your door, always the punctual prince.
“Come in!” You call out and Jimin's face appears in the gap.
“Are you ready?”
“Sure, two minutes, let me just shut down.”
He steps in as you turn your computer off and the door clicks shut behind him. He moves nervously across the room to you as you grab your bag and round the desk.
He opens his mouth and closes it again.
“What's wrong?” You ask, worried he's changed his mind and just doesn't know how to tell you.
“I–” he pauses and takes a breath, “I want to be transparent with you, when I asked you to dinner I was actually asking you out on a date but then I started thinking I wasn't sure if you knew that or if you thought we were going out as colleagues,” he speaks very fast, eyes bouncing all over the room. “But I wanted to clarify because if you don't want this to be a date, I am absolutely fine with that and we can just go to dinner as colleagues, not a problem. Sorry if I'm making this weird, I just didn't want you to think that–”
You stride across the room, closing the space between you as he babbles on, and grabbing the lapels of his blazer you pull him into a desperate kiss. For a moment he freezes, enough to make you doubt yourself but when you break the kiss and start to pull away, he leans back in. One hand cups the side of your face and the other winds around your back, holding you in place. His lips touch yours again with a hunger so fierce it almost buckles you. You find yourself moving backwards without any thought until your calves hit the sofa, knocking you down and taking Jimin with you. In any other circumstance you would have laughed, but feeling his hands hesitantly traverse your body dissipates any humour and replaces it with a raw, consuming need for him.
“Wait,” he whispers against your mouth, “here? Are you sure?”
You chuckle and can't help rolling your eyes. “Do you always have to be such a good boy, Park Jimin?”
You're delighted to see a flush of red hue from under the collar of his shirt all the way up to his hair line.
“Don't worry,” you interject his embarrassment, “I like good boys.”
He bites his bottom lip and smiles, cheeks full of blush, “I just don't want you to think this is the only reason I asked you on a date.”
God, why does he have to be so damn sweet all the time. “How long have we known each other?”
“Three years, six months and fourteen days.” He says, so matter-of-factly your breath catches in your throat. For a moment you think he's kidding but the longer you stare at his serious expression you come to realise you are wrong.
“Do you know the hours, minutes and seconds too?” you tease.
He chuckles, looking away, “I could work it out.”
A low moan sounds in the back of your throat as you wrap your hands around the back of his neck and pull him down to you again, “You're so sexy,”
“Nerds turn you on then?” He jokes as his lips move down your cheek and find your jaw, but there's an insecurity there hiding beneath the surface you can hear it in his voice, a hope in his hesitation.
You cup his face and pull him up to look at you, “Not any nerd, just you.”
You notice the deep breath he takes, his eyes glittering with optimism, as he strokes the hair off your face.
“Jimin, I've wanted you for a long time and I really do want that date. I've been hoping you'd ask,” you pause and he begins to lift himself off you, you can see the slight panic as he misunderstands. You pin him back against you, wrapping your legs around his waist. “But please, if you don't fuck me right now, I may just loose my mind.”
A heat surges in his stare as his hungry gaze travels to your mouth, “If that is what you want, then I must obey.”
He purrs that last word so seductively your core throbs, gaining its own frantic heartbeat. Then, his lips are on you, making you gasp in surprise, his tongue slides smoothly into your mouth, dancing sensually with yours. But you can't focus when his hands skate gently along your body, sending ripples of pleasure through you.
Items of clothing are removed quickly and messily, as his mouth decorates your abdomen with invisible lip marks. He pushes your skirt up around your waist as he slides down until he's kneeling on the plush carpet, slotting his shoulders between your thighs. Hooking a finger into your lace underwear and pulling it aside, his perfect lips envelop your needy cunt, moving with such expert precision your back arches and your toes curl. The air feels like it's been sucked out of your lungs when you try to gasp for breath, and instead let out a loud moan that has him chuckling against you.
“Someone will hear you.” He says, his voice deeper than usual and thick with want, before licking a stripe up through your centre and flicking your clit at the end.
“I don't care.” You gasp, writhing beneath him, but he pins your hips down making you whine. You love this forceful side of him, taking charge and in command just like in the courtroom.
Your fingers find his hair, raking through them to get a better look at his face while he works wonders. His tongue swirls around your sensitive bud in a frenzy, and you can't catch your breath, and just as that band in your stomach begins to tighten he pulls away. His mouth glistening with your arousal stretches into a cocky smirk. Frustration leave you in the form of a growl and you sit up on your elbows, “I was just about to-”
“I know,” he cuts you off. “But I want to feel you come around me.”
He sits on his heels, pulls a foil wrapper out of his wallet and breaks it open with his teeth. Sliding it onto himself, he crawls slowly up your body, making your heart race as you lay back again. Lining himself up at your entryway, you feel him pause, begging to be permitted entry and you respond, leaning up to pull him into a heated kiss. Tasting yourself on him brings a fresh wave of arousal blossoming inside you like a flower opening up to the sun.
Gently, he slides himself inside you, your whole body feels electric, a heat rampaging through you enough to destroy an entire forest.
Unable to control yourself, you hook your legs around his waist and use your feet to push him deeper inside, encouraging him to move faster. You roll your hips to match his movements as he angles up sliding in and out of you, hitting that perfect spot.
Slipping your hands underneath his shirt, your fingernails rake along the skin of his back as you desperately chase that high. His lips explore the expanse of your throat as his hands massage your breasts and the flesh of your hips, he cannot get enough of you and you relish in it.
Your moans and his grunts fill the space, you should be worried about people hearing but you're not. Not at all.
That familiar build up starts again, expanding inside you like a balloon, your legs are tense and your toes curled. Suddenly, it pops and wave, upon wave of pleasure rush through you. Your core spasms wildly around him, milking him of his orgasm too. His thrusts turn sloppy as he returns from his high, collapsing on you and panting heavily.
“Fuck.” He says into your neck. “That was…” he struggles to find the words.
“Unexpected?” You interject giggling.
“Definitely.” He leans up to look at you, the heat and hunger sated and replaced with the usual sweet and gentle look you're used to. “But I am not complaining.”
He presses his lips to yours softly before sliding out of you and removing the condom.
You sit up, fix your underwear and straighten your skirt. While he re-adjusts himself you turn to give him some privacy, attempting to smooth down your wild hair in the reflection of one of the photographs in your office.
“I meant what I said,” you start, turning hesitantly to look at him. He watches, waiting for you to continue. “I really do want that date. I know colleagues technically aren't allowed to, but I'm up for figuring a way around it, if you are?”
He beams at you, his cheeks turning pink. “Ok, good, I was hoping you'd say that. Shall we, then?” He asks, holding his hand out for you to take.
Grabbing your purse, you take his hand and head off to enjoy a night with the man of your dreams and now, your reality.