HEAVEN/HELL: I hate you, I love you
𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠: yoon jeonghan x f.reader, choi seungcheol x f.reader
things feel more complicated then ever, when love gets involved.
𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞(𝐬): roommates to fucking, angst, smut, romance, friends to lovers, love triangle
𝐚𝐮(𝐬): nonidol
𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 5.5k
𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: seungcheol is trying his best, fuckboy Seungcheol, jealous seungcheol, mentions of protective/jealous jeonghan, jeonghan is quite literally the best boy here, lots of hurt and emotions in this one. mc is extremely confused about her feelings, best boy roommate joshua.
𝐬𝐦𝐮𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: unprotected sex, soft sweet vanilla sex, heated make out session, oral (fem rec), body worship, marking, cum play, creampie, breast play, p in v intercourse, cock warming?, nicknames: baby, darling (hers), hannie, baby (his)
𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠: 18+ nsfw
𝐚𝐧: I’m sorry this took so long to post. I’ll try and have part four out quicker. Thank you @aeristudios for helping me with this one. Thank you @supi-wupi for beta reading. I wanna know what everyone thinks of each of the boys.
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𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐬.
They say all is fair in love and war. After Jeonghan’s not so pleasant conversation in the kitchen with Seungcheol, he’s made the decision that he doesn’t need to fight fair. He’s not going to outright tell you to pick him, but he’s going to fight like hell to prove he’s the one.
After Jeonghan's encounter with Seungcheol you immediately know something happened. Jeonghan is trying to act normal, but you can tell he seems to be overthinking everything. Hell, even Seungcheol is acting weird. It’s been a long day at school studying and you’re sitting in the kitchen with Jeonghan and Joshua working on some homework. Seungcheol comes into the kitchen and watches you guys for a minute. He’s standing holding two coffees.
Joshua looks up and gives Seungcheol a confused look. “What’s up Cheol?”
“I just came from class and stopped by a coffee shop to grab coffee. ____ I got you the banana latte I know you like.” You look up and knit your brows confused by his sudden nice gesture.
Jeonghan leans back and crosses his arms. It’s clear Seungcheol wasn’t lying, he planned on trying to win you over. Jeonghan looks at you, watching you study Seungcheol for a moment before finally speaking. “Thanks Cheol. You didn’t have to do that.”
“I kept thinking of you today, and I thought you might enjoy a surprise coffee.”
Jeonghan knew Seungcheol wasn’t going to make this easy. “I’m just stopping by, before heading to the gym for Jihoon. Maybe we can all order pizza tonight.” It’s been months since the entire apartment hung out together. Jeonghan is literally silent, unsure of even what he should say. You’re also quiet, this is all very unexpected.
“I planned on staying home. I think Kitten might come over.” Joshua’s other best friend coming over might make this whole situation a little less awkward.
“How does it sound like eight?” Seungcheol asked.
“That works.” You chime in.
Seungcheol heads off to the gym and shortly after Jeonghan excuses himself, leaving you alone with Joshua.
“I should go pick up Kitten. You should maybe talk to Jeonghan.”
Closing your laptop you look at Joshua for a moment. This whole apartment feels filled with tension. “Is Jeonghan mad at me?”
“No, you silly goose.” Joshua pats your head. “I think he is just under a lot of pressure at school and Cheol and him have been butting heads.” There is a nauseous feeling in your stomach at the thought that you’re the reason he and Seungcheol are butting heads. “Just go spend time with him before the movie. I’ll be back soon with Kitten.”
Walking into Jeonghan's room you shut and lock the door behind you. You find him sitting on his bed scrolling through his phone. “Hannie, are you okay?”
He looks up and gives you the best smile he can muster. “Yeah.”
“That doesn’t sound convincing.” Putting your knee on the bed you crawl towards him. You move so you’re sitting on his lap. He silently watches you as you push his hair away from his face. “Tell me what’s on your mind.”
“You, you’re always on my mind. Even before we could comfortably be intimate. You’re always on my mind. You’ll probably be on my mind forever.” Since he met you, he’s known he was going to fall head over heels in love with you.
“Are you upset with me?” You rest your hand gently on his cheek.
“No, I’m not upset with you.” He shakes his head gently.
“What’s wrong?” It’s clear you don’t plan on dropping this.
“Seungcheol pissed me off the other day.”
Your face falls instantly. Jeonghan hates that you immediately seem sad. “Hey, don’t worry about it—” he pauses. “Darling?”
“Yeah?”
“I just want you to know, I care about you so much. I like you, like I have never liked someone before.” He wants to tell you he loves you, but until he can figure out the Seungcheol situation he doesn’t want to confuse you more, by just blurting it out.
Leaning forward you rest your forehead against his. “Hannie—”
“You don’t have to say anything else. I just want you to know that I care about you.” He rubs his hand up and down your back. Leaning forward you press your lips to his for a gentle kiss.
“Darling, why don’t we just lay here for a little while?”
Pulling back you give him a small smile. You wanna cancel tonight. You just want to stay locked away in his bedroom, away from Seungcheol. “Can I sleep in here tonight?”
“Of course.”
Wrapping his arms around you, he moves you both so he’s laying down with you practically plastered on top of him. Your head rests on his chest. Mindlessly, he runs his hands up and down your back. Lifting your baggy sweater, he drags his hand across your bare skin.
“We have about two hours.” You sigh.
“Does that mean we can nap?”
Looking up at him you give him a mischievous smile. “All you want to do is nap?”
He captures his bottom lip between his teeth. “What are you suggesting?”
“I don’t know.” You rest your head back down on his chest.
“Baby look at me.”
Looking up at him through your lashes, you can't help but think he looks good. “Hannie, what should we do?” Shifting your leg you grind against his thigh. “Can you eat me out?”
“Take off your panties and leggings, baby.”
Rolling off him, you follow his request. You leave your sweater on, you’re sprawled out on his bed. Your feet rest on the grey cotton comforter, with your legs spread. He’s laying on his stomach. His face is buried in your wet core. Your fingers are tangled in his dark hair holding him against your core. He’s so good with his mouth. One arm is wrapped around your thigh, while the hand is busy teasing your wet entrance.
Biting your bottom lip you try your hardest not to scream. You moan his name like a prayer. “That’s it baby.” He moans, pulling away slightly.
“Fuck—” Every muscle in your body feels tense as you get close to the edge. “Please.” You’re practically begging for your release. Jeonghan adds another finger, pumping them in and out of your tight walls. “Han—nie.” You whine.
The noise he’s pulling from you, is enough to make him hard. He grinds against the bed hoping for some relief as he pushes you close and closer to the edge.
Your high hits you hard. Rolling your head back, you bite your bottom lip so hard you’re worried you might draw blood. Your walls flutter around his fingers. He slowly licks at your clit, helping you ride out your high.
Pulling back, he’s wearing a grin. He puts his fingers in his mouth licking your release. “You taste so sweet.”
He pushes himself up sitting on his knees between your spread legs. His erection is straining against his lounge pants.
“Do you want me blow you, or do you want to fuck me?” You push your sweater up just below your bra.
“Baby what do you want?”
“I want you to fuck me.”
“As you wish.”
He gets off the bed long enough to remove his clothes. He pumps his length slowly watching you. His length is leaking precum, he’s clearly ready to go. Crawling back on to the bed, he sits on his knees between your spread legs.
He takes his cock in hand and runs it through your wet folds. Earning a moan as he nudges your sensitive clit. Pushing into you slowly, a gasp passes your lips as he bottoms out.
“I want you close.” You want to feel him as physically close as possible.
He moves so he is practically resting on top of you. Your fingers tangle in his dark hair. He’s staring at you, as if you’re the only person in the entire world.
He moves at a slow and deep pace rolling his hips into you. One of your legs wrap around his waist. Your foot rests just above his butt, pulling him closer to you.
He grabs one of your hands, holding it above your head. His fingers are laced with yours. He continues thrusting into you with deep thrust. He starts picking up the pace.
“Fuck—” You moan against his lips.
“You’re so good.” He groans.
He grabs your other hand, pinning it above your head. His nose rests against yours. Desperately you want to kiss him.
“Hannie—”
“Close.” Your body feels like a live wire.
“Cum for me baby.” He crashes his lips against yours. He kisses you like he needs you to breathe. The world feels as if it’s stopped moving and all that matters is you and Jeonghan. Your walls contract around him as your release crashes over you.
Logically he should pull out, but all the logical parts of his brain have shut off. He picks up his paces, chasing his own high.
He falls apart moaning against your lips. His milky release fills you to the brim. He still for a long moment. He releases your hands. Reaching up he pushes your hair away from your face. Closing your eyes you give him a dazed smile.
“My pretty girl.”
Gently he pulls out, watching as his release starts to drip. Without thinking, he runs his finger through your wet folds, pushing his cum back inside you. There is this dirty little voice in the back of his head that’s happy about the fact that even though Seungcheol wants you, you’re filled with his cum. He hates that he has that possessive thought.
“I need to clean you up.” He hops off the bed and grabs his lounge pants. He throws them on before jogging off to the bathroom to grab a wet cloth. Crawling back on the bed he sits between your legs, and gently wipes away the mess he’s made.
“Thank you.” You sound dazed.
“You don’t need to thank me.” He rubs your thigh.
“You made me feel good though.” You sigh.
“My one goal is to make you always feel good.”
“Can you lay down with me?” You pat the bed next to you. Without saying a word he lays down next to you. You reach over lacing your fingers with his. “I know Cheol is upsetting you. I just want you to know, I want you.”
You saying that should ease his mind, but he’s so scared he’s going to lose you. He’s not sure he can handle the heartbreak of watching you slip through his fingers. “I want you too.”
There is a long beat of silence. “Why don’t we take a nap before movie night starts.” You cuddle close to him.
-
Joshua and Kitten have arrived back at the apartment. The first thing you notice on the side of Kitten’s neck is two hickeys. You saw her yesterday, and she definitely didn’t have them. You’ve had a sneaking suspicion for a while something was going on with her and Joshua. And by the way she’s watching him set the pizza up at the table, you’re starting to think your suspicions are right.
Realizing you can’t find your phone you head off to Jeonghan’s room to find it. You quickly find your phone sitting on his nightstand. Walking out of the room you’re greeted to the sight of Seungcheol exiting his room right across the hall.
“How was your coffee?” He asked, leaning against his door.
“It was good. Thank you for thinking of me.”
“Contrary to popular belief, I actually think about you all the time.” He has a good idea what unfolded between you and Jeonghan while he went to the gym. Jeonghan isn’t going to make this easy, so there is no point in Seungcheol trying to be subtle.
“Cheol.”
“I meant it when I said I was sorry. I also meant what I said about wishing I would have acted on my feelings.” He steps closer to you.
“I have something really good with Jeonghan, and you’re complicating it.”
“I’m sorry.”
“I don’t think you’re sorry.” You tilt your head studying him.
”I just want to prove to you I can be a good guy.” He reaches out slowly, testing the waters. His hand lingers against your cheek as he pushes the hair away from your face.
“Darling, can you grab my spare phone charger?” Jeonghan shouts from the living room. Pulling away from Seungcheol you snap out of it.
“Sure.” You yell back.
You step back from Seungcheol and rush off to Jeonghan room. Stepping inside you take a deep breath. Being that close to Seungcheol makes your head spin.
Walking towards Jeonghan you hand him his phone charger. He gives you a smile before leaning in and kissing the side of your mouth. You don't need to turn around to know that Seungcheol is watching you closely.
Everyone quickly devours the pizza. The boys take this time to pick something to watch. You could careless what you watch. You're honestly too distracted by Seungcheol.
Sitting on the living room couch, cuddled close to Jeonghan. Joshua is sitting on the couch next to you with Kitten sitting on the floor between his legs. Your eyes keep flicking over and watching him mindlessly play with her hair. Seungcheol is sitting in the chair next to the couch. You can feel his eyes burning into you. After way too much arguing between the boys, they decided to turn on some action movie. Personally, you aren’t paying attention, you’re focused on Jeonghan’s arm that is thrown over your shoulder. His hand resting by your shoulder is toying with your sweater.
The longer the movie plays the harder it is for you to stay awake. The movie ends and Joshua takes Kitten home. You're left on the couch as Seungcheol and Jeonghan silently clean up. You're in a twilight sleep, barely awake.
Jeonghan is try to focus on making the apartment look decent so he can escape Seungcheol and take you to bed. At this moment all he wants to do is hold you.
Jeonghan is washing a few of the dishes that were used while Seungcheol is putting away left overs.
"Jeonghan?" Seungcheol closes the fridge.
"What Cheol?" He continues washing the last dish.
"Do you want me to carry her to bed?" Seungcheol already knows Jeonghan is going to say no, but he can't stop himself from asking.
"No."
"She's tired."
Jeonghan shuts off the sink and lets out a heavy sigh. "I'm aware. I'll get her into my bed. Just leave her alone." He wipes his hands dry on the towel hanging near him.
"Are you really that territorial of her?"
"Fuck off Cheol. I'm too tired for your bullshit."
Seungcheol lets out a bitter laugh, "You act like I asked if I can take her to my bed."
"I'm not playing this game. I'm going to bed."
He walks out of the kitchen and heads straight to the couch, where you're sound asleep. He pushes your hair away from your face. Seungcheol stands in the door way watching both of you.
"Baby, let's go to bed." Jeonghan calling you ‘baby’ feels like a stab to Seungcheol’s gut.
Your eyes flutter open. You had barely fallen asleep. You slowly blink at Jeonghan. A silent yawn passes your lips. You stand up with Jeonghan's help.
Looking over by the kitchen you find Seungcheol watching you both with a hurt look on his face. Lacing your fingers with Jeonghan he leads you off to his room.
Stripping down to your panties and shirt you've left in his room. You crawl under the covers.
Laying on your side you watch Jeonghan start getting ready for bed. He seems tense.
"Hannie?"
"I'll be there in a minute, darling."
"I like when you call me baby."
He turns around, tension slowly dissipates from his body. "Okay, baby." You've always loved that he's called you darling since you met, but now that things have shifted between you, you've grown fond of him calling you baby.
He pulls back the cover crawling into bed next to you. Pulling your body close, he pushes your hair away from your face.
A quiet yawn passes your lips. He can help but smile at how cute you look.
"Someone is ready for bed."
He lays on his back, pulling you close to him. Your bodys as close to eachother as possible. Your head is resting on his chest, as your leg is thrown over his stomach. It doesn't take long before you're sound asleep in his arms.
Jeonghan lays there hold you. He hopes no matter what happens he never loses you.
-
This morning is off to a terrible start. You forgot to set your alarm, and normally Jeonghan would wake you up, but he's has a super early class in the morning.
You start throwing on any clothes you can grab that make you look at least decently nice.
Rushing out into the kitchen you're praying Joshua is home so he can take you to work. Instead you're greeted to the sight of Seungcheol making a cup of coffee.
"Fuck." You say under your breath.
Seungcheol glances up from his coffee. "What's wrong?"
"I'm definitely going to be late for work. I overslept. Jeonghan is at class and I was hoping Shua was home."
"I can take you. I don't have class today. I was just going to go to the gym in an hour."
"It's fine." You turn on your heels.
"It's clearly not fine. Let's go, I'll drive you." He sits his coffee on the counter.
This is probably a terrible idea, but you can't say no. You can't be late for work, and Seungcheol is your only option.
He grabs his keys sitting on the table next to the door. You silently you follow him. Arriving at his car, you're reminded of what unfolded between the two of you in the back seat.
Hopping into the passenger seat, you push away the vivid memories of his hands all over your body. Staring out the window you focus on the road.
The drive is filled with silence. The radio lightly plays giving a little bit of background noise, slightly cutting the awkward tension. Seungcheol loosely grips the steering wheel as he strums his fingers. Leaning your head against the window, you try to focus on anything other then him. This day is terrible and it just started. You somehow forgot to set your alarm. It's also Jeonghan’s long day at school, so there is a good chance he can't pick you up. Maybe Joshua can pick you up after work.
Seungcheol clears his throat catching your attention.
"What time are you off?" He asks breaking the awkward silence.
"At five."
"Jeonghan has school until seven, and Joshua mentioned something about dinner with Kitten's parents." You might not realize it, but Seungcheol is actually very observant. He tends to always know what is happening in the apartment.
"I know about Jeonghan's schedule, and I assumed Shua was probably busy." It looks like you're taking the bus home from work.
"I can pick you up. I don't want you walking home or taking the bus." He pulls into the parking lot of you work.
Unbuckling your seatbelt you glance at him, knitting your brows together. In the last two days, Seungcheol has been going out of his way to be nice to you.
"It's okay, you're busy, I can take the bus."
"I would prefer I pick you up." He turns the car off.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, I'll see you right here at five."
Work was quite uneventful to say the least. On your break you were checking in with Jeonghan, trying to see if he wanted to do something for dinner. You weren't expecting him to tell you he's going to be at school even later then normal.
When work finally ends you find Seungcheol leaning against his car outside. The worst part is he looks incredibly good. He's dressed in jeans and a shirt that shows off all his muscles. Staring at him for probably too long, you're reminded of your stupid crush on him. Closing your eyes, you take a deep breath.
"How was work?" He ask as soon as you get close enough.
"Uneventful."
You open the passenger door and get into the car. Seungcheol hops in and watches as you buckle your seatbelt.
"Do you have dinner plans?" He asks.
"I was trying to have dinner with Hannie, but he's stuck at school." You let out a sigh.
"Joshua said he's at Kitten's place tonight." You're hit with the realization that it's really just you and Seungcheol tonight. "Did you maybe want to grab something on the way home?"
"I'm not sitting down in a restaurant with you." That would feel too much like a date, and you refuse to do that to Jeonghan.
He holds his hands up surrendering. "I was thinking we could grab take out. Hell we can even pick food up for Jeonghan."
Your brows knit together trying to think of what to say. This entire situation feels weird.
"Sure."
"Did you want to stop by that Thai food place I know you like?" You realize that Seungcheol pays attention to you more than you thought he did.
"You know which Thai food place I like?"
"Yeah, it's the one off third street. I always see the menu in our kitchen." He gives you a gentle smile.
"Oh."
Seungcheol buckles up and starts driving towards the restaurant. You send Jeonghan a text letting him know you'll have dinner for him once he's finally home from school.
Arriving at the restaurant, you both head inside together. You order pad the Thai and tom yum soup that you and Jeonghan both like, and before you can pay, Seungcheol jumps in and adds to the order. He hands over his credit card before you can even process what's happening.
"You didn't have to do that." You say as you walk over towards little table to wait for your food.
"I know but I wanted to."
The wait for the food only takes about ten minutes. Seungcheol grabs the bag and you both head out to the car.
Arriving home you follow Seungcheol into the kitchen. He sets the bag down and starts grabbing bowls and plates. You work on dishing yourself and saving Jeonghan's food for him. You set it aside and join Seungcheol at the table.
This is definitely and odd experience, in the whole time you've lived with Seungcheol, you don't think you've ever had dinner just the two of you.
You eat in silence for a few moments before Seungcheol finally speaks. "This place is really good. I can see why you and Jeonghan like it."
"He actually found it. He took me there one night to get me to stop studying. I had given myself a headache from studying nonstop and he begged me to take a break. He bribed me by telling me he found the place with the best pad Thai around." You remember that night fondly. You were well aware of your feelings for Jeonghan long before then, but you realized that night you fallen so hard for your best friend/roommate.
"Jeonghan has always been really good to you." He sounds sad as he says it.
"He is."
"I wish I had treated you better." He wishes he could go back and change things.
"I didn't need you to treat me better." You sit your spoon down. "I know you regret things Cheol, but maybe it's best you didn't complicate things back then."
"Back then?" He raises his brow.
"You're complicating things now." You don't want to have this conversation. You don't want him to know that he does nothing but confuse you.
"I am?"
You pick up your chopsticks and take another bite of your food. Seungcheol carefully watches each of your moves.
"What do you mean?" He asks.
"Things should be easy for me and Hannie, but you've managed to make things complicated." You let out a sigh, putting your chopsticks back down.
"Are they not easy?"
"No, because you're confusing me. I'm doing nothing but hurting Hannie because I'm so fucking confused."
"How am I confusing you?" He respones.
"Because for some reason I don't just have feelings for him." It hurts to say it out loud. You don't want Seungcheol to know you feel something for him.
"Do you like me?"
"No." You stand up quickly.
"Liar." He follows you and stands up.
"I don't want to like you. I want love only Jeonghan." You point your finger at him.
You saying you love Jeonghan feels like a bucket of ice cold water being poured in him.
"You love Jeonghan?"
"Yes. I haven't been able to say it out loud to him yet because I'm scared I'm going to hurt him."
You turn on your heels desperately needing to escape this conversation. Seungcheol grabs your hand stopping you from leaving. "Why would you hurt him?"
"Because I can’t shut off my feelings for you." You practically seethe. He drops your hand and stares at you completely shocked.
"Darling."
You shake your head. "Don't call me that."
Seungcheol stomach is twisting at the thought of you being so upset. He doesn't mind pushing Jeonghan's buttons while fighting for you, but the thought of you being upset at the idea of having feelings for both of them hurts. Seungcheol never wanted to do anything to upset you.
"I'm sorry." That the only thing he can think to say.
"I think dinner is over." You pull your hand away and instead of going to your room, you go off to Jeonghan's to wait for him.
It's close to ten at night with Jeonghan finally walks into the apartment. He finds Seungcheol sitting on the couch looking extra pouty.
Jeonghan knits his brows and debates on even interacting with him.
"What's wrong Cheol?"
Seungcheol glances up. "I just had a bad night. I'm going to stay with Jihoon tonight. You two can have the apartment to yourself."
Jeonghan instantly knows something happened between the two of you.
"She's in your room." Seungcheol says before heading out.
Jeonghan walks into his room and finds you laying on his bed. You're dressed in a baggy shirt that you've definitely stolen from his closet and a pair of panties. You instantly light up at the site of him.
"Hi, Hannie."
He walks over and presses his lips to yours for a quick kiss.
"Cheol, said we have the place to ourselves tonight."
"Oh." He was expecting more of a response then that.
"Is everything okay?" He starts to remove his clothes he's worn today, and gets dressed in just a pair of sweatpants.
"Seungcheol was just annoying me. Nothing new really." He can tell there is more to the story, but if you don't want to talk about it he won't push you.
"I have Thai food waiting to you."
You both head out into the kitchen. You get Jeonghan food and place it on the table. You both sit there chatting as he eat a very late dinner.
"With tomorrow being Saturday, why don't we spend the day together?" Jeonghan asks between bites.
"That would be great." Desperately need some alone time with Jeonghan, especially after today.
"Maybe we could take a trip to the aquarium. I know you mentioned wanting to see the jellyfish."
"I would love that."
Jeonghan takes a couple more bites of his food. "Darling, what actually happened with Seungcheol?"
You let out a heavy sigh and look down at the table. “We kinda got into a fight, or I guess you could say I just yelled at him." You feel embarrassed thinking back to it.
"About what?"
"Just about how he's interfering with what's going on with us."
Jeonghan puts his chopsticks down and reaches across the table. He takes your hand and gently squeezes it. "Baby, he's not messing up what we have."
"I feel like I'm just hurting you, because I can't turn off my feelings for him."
"It's okay. As long as your like me that's all that matters. It doesn't matter that you like him too." Jeonghan has told himself that if he loves you and you like him nothing else matters. He knows what you have together will be nothing compared to Seungcheol.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes."
"Okay."
He gives your hand another squeeze. "Baby stop stressing about Cheol. Just let yourself enjoy what we have. We can figure out the whole Cheol situation later."
You both clean up the kitchen before heading off to Jeonghan's room. You're curled up in bed next to him. He's scrolling through his phone as your head is resting on his chest.
"Hannie, thank you for being patient with me."
He leans down and kisses the top of your head. "I'm just glad I finally get to be with you." He wants to tell you he loves you, but he knows right now isn't the time. He's just happy he gets to go to bed holding you every night right now.
Early in the morning Jeonghan wakes up and makes you both a cup of coffee. He left you in his room sound asleep.
Can't help but let out a little laugh at the sight of Joshua slowly sneaking back into the apartment looking disheveled.
"Must have been one hell of a sleepover." Jeonghan says startling him.
Joshua stops and looks at his roommate. "Nothing happened."
"The three hickies on your neck says otherwise." Joshua can pretend all he wants that him and Kitten are being sneaky, but it's very obvious to everyone that lives in this apartment what is going on.
"We're not discussing this." Joshua lets out a sigh and walks towards Jeonghan.
Jeonghan rolls his eyes and sits down at the kitchen table. "Fine we don't have to discuss it."
Joshua walks over and steals the coffee that was intended for you. "So what's going on with you and darling?"
Jeonghan takes another sip of his coffee. "We're definitely together. We haven't labeled it officially, but to me she's my girlfriend."
"Why haven't you labeled it?"
Jeonghan isn't sure how much Joshua knows. In this apartment, there aren't many things that are kept a secret.
"Cheol has complicated things."
"Is it because they slept together?" Joshua is a smart man, and he was clearly able to put two and two together.
"You know about that?"
"She hinted about it one day, and after she was covered in hickies a while back I just assumed that's when it happened."
"I don't care that they slept together. Things are just complicated."
Joshua has been one of Jeonghan's best friends for a while now. If anyone could give him advice, it would be him.
"How are the complicated?"
"Darling likes me a lot, and I love her. The problem is she has feelings for Seungcheol too. She said they're not as strong as what she feels for me. She just said she can't seem to shut off what she feels for him."
"Does it matter to you?" Joshua asks, before taking another sip of his coffee.
"Honestly no. As long as she likes me, it doesn't matter. I just want to be with her. I don't think one day she'll decide she wants to leave me for him."
"Then I say tell her that. Tell her you love her."
Jeonghan lets out a little chuckle. "How did you know that I havent told her I love her?"
"Because I know you."
"I need to tell her."
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Standing in the middle of the big glass that looks out in the sea of jellyfish Jeonghan pulls out his phone to snap some photos of you. He doesn't want to forget this moment ever. You turn around and signal for him to join you.
Walking over, he stands right next to you. You reach out lacing your fingers with his.
"Thank you for bringing me here." You glance over at him.
"Anything for you darling." He looks out at the dark water, watching as the fluorescent jellyfish move around.
He glances at you watching as you smile. You look so incredibly happy, to the point you're practically glowing.
"Can I say something?"
You glance over at him. "Of course."
"I love you." Instantly a weight feels as if it's been lifted off his shoulders as those three little letters finally leave his lips.
You turn to face him. A smile tugs at your lips. "I love you too." There was this little voice inside his head telling him you didn't feel the same way. Hearing you say it back makes his heart flutter. He knows things aren't going to be easy and even though you both love each other, there’s still a certain someone complicating things between you.
