Knock knock. Heeeey where did you go? Are you healthy? Have you been getting vitamin D?
Perfect gif if you had a ring doorbell camera.
I am healthy and have been getting enough vitamin D - I actually ended up tan this year which I haven't done in ages but apparently that IS a thing I can do! I turned so brown everyone around me has commented on it, even my MIL who swore she's never seen me this brown lol. As for the *other* vitamin D...hehehe 😉
To be more serious - this year has been a doozy. Even after - or maybe because of - the year that was 2020. First off I can't believe we're close to the end of July? I - ?
But I've gone through a lot of strange things that have just made being here harder for me. My muses dried up as I struggled with life, and I allowed them because I hate forcing writing. I feel like it makes it worse on the reader too if they can tell the writer's heart isn't in it. I also just allowed the muses to dry up because I was finally in a position to take care of myself - I've entered therapy and been focusing on figuring out my mental health, which hasn't meant quite as much obsessive escapism into fic writing or tumblr. As much as I've missed writing, I've been so happy to actually have the time (including not moving around for a bit) to really figure myself out. I figure through the process and on the other side I'll find the inspiration to write but right now it's just been about my MH journey.
I don't talk about therapy here in this answer for sympathy points - more like I think more people should be like "yeah I go to therapy, so what?" Therapy is for everyone. It really, really is. I'm insanely lucky that I'm at a place/point/etc. that I've been able to make this happen for me. Therapy works and is amazing and isn't anything to be ashamed of.
I can tell my muses are still there - I want to work on Lost on You, and After Rain, and Lovers & Dreamers, and my Vampyr fic, and Skyrim, and Mass Effect, and even my SDV fic. But I'm allowing myself time.
Also because right now the muse when it's there has been pulling toward my novel - it's 3/4 of the way done. I am S T O K E D.
Anyway I'm sorry this was a long-winded way of saying yes I'm alright! Possibly better than I've been lol. That has been a journey all on its own, realizing I can be better. It's a lot I'll be honest. Writing will happen but also time for myself has been...refreshing. And wonderful.
Thank you for checking in darling, I hope you've been well! I do tend to check DMs occasionally in case anyone needs me. 😘