Eva's frantic and unbridled quest for meaning that has her throwing herself at people and pulling them in trying to see if they can fill the void until one day it's not enough and she kills herself VS Lara's frantic and unbridled quest for meaning that has her throwing herself into service-to-the-people and dissolving herself into the anonymous mass of others in need of help to see if that can fill the void until one day it's not enough and she kills someone else... oh my god... they should be smoking generous blounts together...
hi huge fan of your works # forever and i gotta say. i gotta sayyy. your kcd piece finally got me to play it… (remembers my priorities) peterstakh. pathologic 2/3 peterstakh even. how do stakhs friends react to his Very Normal and Not Concerning relationship with pyotr… do they know. are they even aware. will they ever find out. if they do find out does lara kill him in 20 different ways. do they kill grief in 20 different ways so the word doesn’t get out
hi sweet pea. thank you seven million years for your patience as i answer this a month and 20 days later. first of all Let's check out KCD. together. i still can't play games so i'm back to my usual of hogging playthroughs like they're my personal jesters amusing me. fool, fool, more moving pictures. show me the pebble at once. anyways let's focus on the important peterstakh matters. the importanrstakhers.
my first Dis Claimer is that i still haven't been able to go through all of P3. my first mitigation to that is It prolly doesn't matter since they literally haven't spoken to each other in any of the previous games so i am doubtful they'll start doing so now. except if my tasty peterstakh cellar stocks are being reheated in-game like was reheated my sigil placement on burakh 🤨 i fully jest.
okay so i'm going to put it under a read more because i just realized it's seven million years long. okay. happy peterstakh dimanche everyone
anyways Stakh's friends are aware. they are because it's not like he's particularly secretive about it. he doesn't go around screaming it on the rooftops, but he doesn't live in a terrible sexual shame at being with a man (he was in the army [p1 lore that i abide by]. he's way past hating himself for being into men Unlike Someone Unrelated), or terrible personal shame at being with that one in particular. he's already got so many targets painted on his back, you know? the town has not reached "i can excuse sodomy, but i draw the line at desecration of a corpse" level, but it's coming close. what's anyone gonna do? he's 206cm. he's 6'9" (the crowd giggles). he's not very muscular, but he's mildly intimidating-looking. he's killed people. he's interweaved in a web of violence and hurt that his association with peter Does Not Help Untangle, but barely tangles further too.
when shit starts hitting the fan with the twins, and everything spirals around their deeds, he gets pulled into the turmoil through this association, but not any more than would be, for example, Dankovsky, who has an ideological affiliation with the twins, whereas Stakh does not, and it is this great ideological divide that gets peter hot under the already-opened collar. stakh can, fully and honestly, say he has no attachment to the Tower, glass rose in the sky over Valdrada, it molded like a lead cap over the Bridge Square, and his only attachment is to the man who's created her, whereas Dankovsky cannot, cannot lie his away into detachment from the marvel, the miracle, the everything-thing, the dreamed realized and actualized and lived, the evil bloodmare, the infected splinter.
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Lara is the first one to know. i don't see why she would attempt on either of their lives. by all means she's not. particularly Thrilled because petr's Not So Spotless Reputation Precedes Him. because stakh is associating with a man hunted down for murder, and by proxy with another one, meaner and nastier and who is seen wielding weapons and dealing pisstaste samogon and hashish and evil weed that makes you scared. so she's like "Are you sure are you fucking certain". but then he's like "... yes... (blushes)" and she's like Oh my god so it is true that the portraits these two guys paint steal the soul of whoever is painted because they replaced stakh's brain with a sweetiepie. but she comes to realize it's Him, despite everything, it's still [him], and she's like okay.......
she knew about the liking guys thing because She was still in the town all this time while burakh was seven gazillion kilometers away for all these years, so when stakh came back from the war with a bayonet scar on the forehead and the back of his neck and a blade-shock that made him stare into the distance, and he told her You Know I Found Out Something About Men In The Army she was like "huh. oh yeah my father told me about that. jokingly and praiselessly and with a hint of disgust. but i've heard of it."
she's most willing to keep her mouth about it, as with that earlier knowledge she has the context that Maybe Don't Go Screaming That Around. but also Stakh proves again and again he does not need her protection for that in particular. but for seven millions other problems yes.
so she personally Is at the I can excuse sodomy, but do not bring his bad vibes into my house level. i'll tell you something. lara has so much hurt and anger and hatred and grief inside of her heart. it's all-consuming. so i think the fact that stakh is with somewhat of an evil guy she's like I've Known Worse Evils.
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Burakh finds out a bit later. this is because he's a bit thick in the head re:relationships and while he knows of the concept of homosexuality it didn't hit him that it could land on people he's very close to (and then, yknow. the specter of homosexuality after him like the plague alongside it whispering the same sweetnesses in his ears too). i go back and forth on whether i go with the burakh war medic lore but when i do He's Heard Of What Soldiers Go About With Each Other. so when he asks stakh "how did you... huh... figure that out" and stakh replies "i was in the army" deadpan he's like oooh right makes sense. but also burakh Was out of town for all these years, he left stakh long-haired and as far as he knew straight and he comes back he's gay and bald. the latter being possibly more shocking than the former.
burakh cannot tell him shit about fuck about being with that guy in particular. first of all because his... Associate is as close to peter as one can be without crossing The Last Frontier which is stakh's deal, so he can't fault stakh for his association, because he himself is associated by proxy. the barrier between himself and peter is one dude (dankovsky), and the barrier between stakh and peter is. technically and quite often also one dude but that's because he's been peter only friend since they were in the womb and he hasn't updated his world concept model to account for peter forging new kinds of affections for new people. no but for real the burakh -> peter interface is the living person of dankovsky, and the stakh -> peter interface is skin, and even that, because peter can And Will infuse dreams in which stakh can put his hand in the hollow between the meat his lungs #aww #couplegoals (the real ones know)
Burakh can ESPECIALLY not tell him shit about fuck because 1) as far as Bad Things A Man Can Do um. well Burakh is partaking in the ritualistic killing of women (p1 day 5 "Quivering Heart" quest, p2 day 9), killing of Kin people (p1 day 5 "Quivering Heart" quest other option), or killing regardless (any and all self-defense optional kills) so. possibly worse than romantically and sexually associating with that dude even if that dude is fuckeddd in the head 2) he and stakh are both aiming for gold in the Suicidalest Boyfriend Competition. and let's just say stakh is VERY competitive
burakh is like. "so are you happier [implied: with him]...?" and rubin is like "what? fucker i'm miserable, you're miserable, peter's miserable, dankovsky's miserable, andrey, bad grief, lara, we're all fucking miserable. what the fuck do you think is going on. have you looked around you the past 3 days. ... (blushes) but he makes me a bit less miserable." and burakh is like Oh my god please never blush again that's so fucking scary.
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funnily enough i think bad Grief is the one who'd have more a problem with it. again he is on the "i can excuse sodomy" level he excuses sodomy. have i ever said on here i think bad Grief's bisexual? anyways bad Grief is bisexual to me. so he's fine with stakh's man-loving. he's fine with peter's man-loving. the fact that the man peter loves is an old friend of his is still a bit harder to swallow. not because he had any feelings to stakh but because he. okay so have i ever said on him i see he and andrey entangled in a sort of turf war over twyrine and drugs and weapons. andrey does not deal in weapons, bad grief does, but andrey knows his way around killing as much as bad Grief and his suite do. also Grief sells twyrine, and you know else who does? that's damn right, andrey. you know who praises Grief's twyrine? that's damn right, peter. peter, who andrey has all sorts of terrible feelings about being the primary supplier of his addiction material, but also his very protective behavior morphs terribly and uglily and selfishly into wanting to be the only one to get his brother his twyrine, because it gives him the illusion of mitigation of his brother's sinking. and another thing, you know how bad Grief's russian name, Гриф, means "vulture". and you know who i see as associated with vultures/bird of preys. that's fucking right, the twins in general, but andrey more in particular. anyways i think Grief and andrey have like. a thing..... of undistinguished nature. mostly andrey is like That Bitch Owes Me Moneyyyy and chases after him. they're wielding knives on each other and shittt. so when stakh comes out with Yeah this is the long-haired wizard who's cursed my cold hardened heart, Grief is like. there was not another dude you could fall for you moron. because now there's Double stamatins he has to deal with. and even if it's andrey who's after his ass [metaphorically](?) he's not too happy seeing peter there. like they have mirrored moles on the face and mirrored lateral incisor unilateral agenesis what's not to say andrey could not pass himself off as peter to come closer to Grief if stakh comes to visit to beat his ass by surprise. and stakh can be like Andrey would rather pull all of his teeth out than be in my company like that. and Grief is like Maybe that's what he wants to make you think☝
and even if through Grief The Rumor Come Out that stakh is with that guy what can anyone do. what could happen. the whole town knows andrey's bi, so i think people finding out peter is too is not surprising. it might heighten their disgust or mistrust or [...] of him, but for most, even Grief's suite, i think it'd be like. Huh well that would have been weirder if he wasn't. he and his brother, again, have mirrored this and that and the other, are almost perfectly same height and almost perfectly same weight, so i think people would be like "Yeah man i'd have guessed that myself. also bossman we kill people". same for stakh, where the combination of him towering over anyone so can barely be intimidated, his War Stare and his seven million other shit going on make people Least Interested in his sexual affairs. when shit starts hitting the fan with the twins, he's pulled into the turmoil through this association, but so is anyone else who knows them.
tldr: stakh tasting the saliva off that long-haired man's canines is the least of the vast majority of people's problems, because he's on that Evil Shadow Skull Shit regardless of whether he tastes the saliva off the teeth of a man, and opposite him are other people on that Evil Shadow Skull shit who are not tasting the saliva off that long-haired man's teeth specifically. but they might another.
this is probably a very niche thing, but do you have any hand headcanons about pathologic characters? as in, who's right-handed or who's left-handed... or both.
YESSSSS OMG #YASSSSSSSS I DO! I DO IN FACT! IT'S NEVER TOO NICHE FOR ME HONEY #THOUGHTSHAVER
since most of the population is right-handed, imagine that if i'm not mentioning anyone they're either right-handed OR i don't have any particular headcanons. + you get some handwriting headcanons as well, a "buy one get one free" deal
Dankovsky: right-handed, relatively neat writing when he wants, otherwise you're getting that Doctor's Handwriting
Burakh: naturally right-handed, but he trained himself to be able to write with his left hand when he sprained his wrist age 14. his left-handed writing is kinda fucked up and it's obvious that's not his natural dominant hand, but if you squint and focus it's readable
Clara: ambidextrous, but she has very rarely written in her life so she doesn't even notice.
Andrey: naturally ambidextrous, has a left-handedness dominance
Peter: naturally ambidextrous, has a right-handedness dominance
(fun fact about ^ i headcanon that they always had to be sat together at school and for a while the teacher didn't understand why they didn't get any work done and then realized that's because the way they had them (peter on the left and andrey on the right) their elbows keep bumping in each other's so they just switched them around and it was fine)
Rubin: naturally left-handed but trained himself to be able to write/do other stuff with his right hand in case (it was for him a thing of like Discipline)
Lara: right-handed, relatively clean handwriting unless she starts losing it and scribbling
Grief: left-handed
Eva: right-handed, neat handwriting, likes to either embellish her lettering a lot or have very "dry", austere, almost worryingly simple shapes
Yulia: right-handed, a nervoussss writer, very tense grip on the pen, very low and slanted letters
Nina and Victoria: both ambidextrous
Katerina: naturally ambidextrous, her proficiency in both hands has been coming and going, and her morphine addiction has made her lose her grip and stability on her writing to the point it looks like chicken-scratch now
Capella: naturally ambidextrous, she uses mostly her right hand so far but will learn to use the left one more as well as she grows up + trains with stuff like sewing, embroidering, playing instruments,...
Khan: right-handed, relatively clean handwriting. it gets cleaner and more precise as he grows up because he goes on to go to college and learn languages, so he takes pride and effort into materializing the letters of languages other than his own like greek, arabic, any using the latin alphabet, etc.
Notkin: left-handed. he's barely literate because of his Shit Life Syndrome making his writing, when he tries, somewhat unintelligible. since he barely ever writes he has no muscle memory of how to hold his pen so his left hand doesn't smear the ink all over.
Catnip: right handed, clean and pretty handwriting, her grammar is kinda shit but she has an excuse. she's an orphan.
Dandy: left-handed, messyyyy handwriting, but his grasp on grammar's preddy good. paired with his sister ^ they make for Notkin's Redaction and Deciphering Team.
