Sharing Space & Taking Time: Reflections on Conference Going in 2023
My friend, the brilliant Stephanie T. Jones, said something casually insightful on Friday night, at the social event marking the first day of the Learning Sciences Graduate Student Conference (LSGSC). We were talking about how the pandemic completely upended our programs and how we are learning how to work as scholars when they said:
"As an adult, the end of the world is a recurring event."
Our table of other grad students in LS laughed at first, until the truth of her statement set in. She was right! And while shared within a light-hearted, getting-to-know-everyone context, the weight of it is something I'm carrying with me.
Part of why her comment stuck with me was that she used the word "recurring," which for me conjured imagery of adding "end of world" into a google calendar invite that gets set as an event that takes place every week. Advisor meeting, co-writing, end of the world, flexibility class. And sometimes, to break up the routine, we have conference travel.
Yet, I had the nagging feeling: should we really even be here? I ask now this in light of the ongoing colonization of Palestine, which is experiencing a surge of violence leaving millions displaced, and thousands physically harmed or dead.
Of course, this wasn't the first time I've asked myself this question. In 2020, it was pandemic-induced lockdown. Between now and then, this question has rung in my ears as I consider my own individual actions. I have accepted that institutions will not make my decisions easy either. The conference must go on, the class must be in person. "We" (read: able-bodied people with the means to get around) "have to" (read: there is money involved) "move on" (read: start subscribing to magical thinking). But "moving on" is getting harder and harder, and is already impossible for some.
My friend's wisdom did not end with her quip. Contemplating, I shared my question: should this conference have even happened? Or framing it another way, should we have still made the decision to be here?
In her consideration, she offered me this: people coming together is always an opportunity. In a venue like LSGSC, we have the opportunity to be in dialog, to change things up, to really take seriously the work of reimagining, in a space that is constantly becoming something new. The AERAs, the CHIs, even the ISLSs of the world that obliquely shape my academic life do not have the ability to turn as quickly, which makes this space even more valuable as a site for growing something new.
So, moving forward I am holding myself accountable for doing my part to hold space for difficult, emotional, or precarious conversations. I'm figuring out where I can take action and change my personal decision-making. And I'm also asking that organizations and organizers do the same.
The Revolution Will Not Be a Re(oc)curring Event: some concluding thoughts on what conferences can be:
What would it look like to plan for the seen, unseen, and unforeseen world events that differentially impact members of our communities? What are ways we can hold space for the events that we cannot put on our calendar?
In a post-academic twitter world, where and how can we hold space as scholars invested in examining power, politicization, and presence?
What are we willing to ask of each other when we come together physically? In a world where COVID-19 is far from over, where collective immunity to other diseases is questionable, and where disabled people have long been relegated to the margins, we need to start taking collective responsibility for the conditions of participation. Masking up, hybrid options, and testing are small ways we can do this.
These questions came up for me because I had the opportunity to listen to my wonderful mentor give a keynote talk, and because Stephanie and I co-faciitated a space on public pedagogy in the learning sciences. Being in conversation with others has had an immesurable impact on my development as a scholar and person. In sharing my reflections, I hope that it can be a point of consideration as we come up with new ways of being together.