#learninglove

[paytonlee333]

[diimen]

Learning love

I definitely do not want to be with a person who aims to get me upset. Or a person who purposely ignores me. That does nothing for me and it does not assist with growth of a relationship; it is beyond childish.

I cannot be with a person who thinks their needs are much more important than mine. Not saying my needs are more important, but their needs cannot be the priority every single day.

These are the things that I have learned and relearned over the last years/months.

[shineypoetry]

learning real love part 5

I didn’t want to care because at the time not only had my dad left, my mom was broken, my best friend slowly started to not care about me and abandoned me for his girlfriend and the man who was supposed to be my boyfriend was gone and I just didn’t see a point in anything anymore.

Almost a month and a half went by and at that point everyone was telling me to give up and move on from him but I didn’t want too, my mind and my heart wanted him. I just thought there was something just so different about him, something that was worth not giving up on, 

I know this is going to sound cheesy but someone could of given me a million reasons to give up on him and I still would of found the one reason why I should never give up and I guess you can say I held on that reason through everything.

[shineypoetry]

you just can't make this stuff up - Chapter 2 (on Wattpad) https://my.w.tt/UiNb/nRiqWhwB2N my guide to my messed up life

[shineypoetry]

learning real love part four

fell off the face of the planet just like everyone else in my life he got what he wanted and left, I felt like he didn’t care, I felt that no one cared and because in my mind no one did and at the time it broke my heart more than it already was

but I didn’t expect anything different to be honest, I thought I deserved it, I  thought it was a punishment for something that I did and I took that punishment and became careless with myself, 

careless with my actions. I started drinking a little more every night and hanging out with the wrong people and going places with those people that I shouldn’t have been and didn’t belong but I didn’t care,

[shineypoetry]

learning real love part three

Anyway I meant him on a dating site and we talked until 4am in the morning the very first night we talked. We had our first date at the beginning of September of 2015 and I didn’t know what would be in store all I know is I fell way too fast and way too hard for someone

for two people who were so broken and had no idea what love is but I guess that is what broken people do they fall in love with people who they think make them feel just a little less broken.

Well little did I know at the time he was falling in love with me just as fast and I guess that scared me and I guess just like anyone who gets scared he ran, he ran from me.

[shineypoetry]

learning real love part one

My mom and dad got divorced when I was 19 and that broke me because the only love I knew for 19 years was gone, done, shattered but you know what broke me even more? 

was if it was love, if it was real, true, meant to be, God sending love it wouldn’t of shattered so easily after 19 years and then some it wouldn’t of shattered so easily. 

so I couldn’t help but to wonder what that meant for my future relationships and wonder just what love was between a man and a woman what love really meant because for 19 years

of what I thought was love obviously was not and on top of all that the man I was with at the time I broke up with because how could I love him or at the time say I love him when every single idea of love was gone if it even was there in the first place. 

[sarahrahmasari]

Life learning-1

Bagi beberapa butir beras dalam karung. Ternyata guru terbaik adalah pengalaman. Terlepas dari itu pengalaman baik atau kurang baik. (nyambung ya ehee_) Sebelum seseorang bisa begitu menghargai karya orang lain, terbayang? Mengapa dia bisa begitu? Sebelum seseorang bisa begitu mengerti akan bagaimana memperlakukan seseorang sebaik mungkin, terbayang? Mengapa dia bisa begitu? Sebelum sadar, terbayang? Mengapa dia bisa begitu? Pengalaman yang penting bagi hyuman itu pengalaman apa ya? Boleh lah berbagi pemikiran kalian.. Tapi sedikit berpendapat. Pengalaman pahit kehidupan, bagi seseorang itu bisa jadi amat luar biasa. Pernah mendengar tentang seorang pemimpin (sebut saja mawar), yang amat baik dari caranya memimpin. Disukai, karena keluwesannya memperlakukan dan memperhatikan para rakyatnya yang cilik-cilik sampai yang intelek. Begitu dekat dan akhirnya pas dihati banyak orang, ternyata, keyakinannya sebelum menentukan sikap dan kebijakan, wajib bagi beliau untuk tau bagaimana keadaan dan perasaan rakyatnya secara langsung. Harus tahu tentang pahit nya, manis nya bagaimana bila kita menjadi dia. Sejenis bukan? Pengalaman pahit itu menjanjikan cita-cita manis. Entah itu untuk diri kita sendiri atau orang disekitar kita. Maka, terimalah segala pengalaman pahit mu , jika dibarengi yang namanya bijaksana pasti itu pertanda baik! 😊 Sund-July-Bekasi