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[finalfantasyxivwritings]

Titillating Torture

AO3 Version

Relationship: WoL!Reader/Ardbert

Rating: Explicit

Summary: During the worst time possible, Ardbert decides to take advantage of the fact that nobody else but you can see him, hear him, or touch him—or more accurately, that he can touch you.

There comes a time in any fighter’s life when, if only a little, they might start having regrets about some of the things they’ve done—actions taken, people missed, those kinds of thing. You as the warrior of light are still no exception to this, though the things you tend to regret don’t often seem like things a person would dwell on; you regret helping with that godsdamn banquet, for one, and… well, you don’t regret meeting Ardbert, but there are a times when he makes you wonder if you should.

Though he is still a shade in all manners of conventional meaning, Ardbert and you have found a semblance of peace between the two of you now that you technically share the selfsame body—a consequence of what he did to help you defeat Hades, assuredly, and not an action you would ever wish away. But being the only creature who can see him coupled with the fact that you’re the only person he can touch and be touched by, it…leads to some unscrupulous activities.

It’s just past the eve of battle. A mission had tasked you to the cold climes of Ishgard where it seemed that several rogue spellcasters and ex-knights had banded together to try and summon voidsent to claim the countryside. It didn’t work, obviously, and while they could have simply left the job to several of Ishgard’s finer knights or perhaps to Estinien himself, you had enjoyed the opportunity to see old friends.

If only someone would have told you about the ceremony for the completion of the firmament.

Not that it was much of a surprise—you had lent you hand in some of the procuring and refinement of the supplies for the new housing wards—but you never expected to be plucked out individually to take part. Thank the gods above that Aymeric hadn’t forced you to stand on the stage above the crowd, to give a speech or thensome. You weren’t terribly great with words, and are certain that your current predicament would have been worse tenfold.

“Quite the spectacle,” a low voice hums from just behind your ear. The sound might have been a surprise if his hands weren’t already stroking along your body, inethreal hands easily skimming below the layers of your armor and clothes as if they were illusions. “I remember being part of some. Saving a village or fending off a group of thieves—when we started taking on harder jobs, the fanfare was… frightening, honestly.”

“Not a fan of crowds?” Your whisper in reply is so soft and careful. Though there are a number of people around all paying more attention to Aymeric than you, the last thing you need is for someone to hear you apparently talking to yourself.

“Yes and no,” Ardbert continues, sweeping his fingertips up the sides of your body, and then to the gentle swell of your breasts. They are bare to his touch, which in itself is eager to explore and peruse. He pinched one nipple between a forefinger and thumb—and you are forced to swallow the gasp that nearly falls from open lips. “But I have to say I’m quite fond of them right now.”

“I’m going to kill you.”

“Unfortunately I don’t think that’s possible anymore,” Ardbert huffs amusedly, then pinches your other nipple with unrelenting eagerness. Rolls them both between leather-covered fingertips until they’re brought to a pert hardness. “And you once said we can try to make the most of this, correct? Eager to change your mind on that?”

You want to bite his words, to shift your body away from his touch… but you also don’t want him to stop. Be it from a combination of touch and the rumbling timbre of his voice or simply one or the other, there’s no denying the blossom of heat between your legs. The shade smiles in a kiss against the side of your neck, hands completely busied in toying with your breasts in ways that make your nerves buzz and shiver. So instead you simply let his touch continue unabated, until your nipples are sore and aching, until your legs feel like jelly and your heart is lifting itself right out of your chest with how quickly it beats.

“B-bastard…!” You hiss.

“I’ll have you know my parents were happily wed.” Ardbert presses another careful kiss to your throat. At this, his hands move, sweeping the warm planes of his open palms across your abused nipples—pleasure and pain fill you in equal amounts, as if your skin isn’t quite sure how to register it anymore.

He’s pressed up against your back, eager to feel you but still with a semblance of care to how your body moves to balance with his—you are, after all, still very much in view of half the people of Ishgard. Though Aymeric seems to have moved onto letting the others in charge of the reconstruction say their various parts (and all to a bustling crowd) you still can’t help feeling watched. Eyes, hard upon you, curious and cautious and—

That’s when out of the corner of the stage your gaze finally catches onto the familiar shape of dragoon armor. Estinien is barely visible beyond all the decorations and stone pillars, but he’s still discernibly there. For security or simply to witness the event, it doesn’t much matter the reason when he’s yet watching you all the same with that sharp focus and brooding state of his all the same.

Your eyes catch his. He raises an eyebrow. You hope to all the gods above that he hadn’t caught a moment of broken composure from you, else you’d have to either avoid the man for an entire season; otherwise, you’ll have to come up with a reason why it looked like you were getting sexually accosted by unseen forces during arguably one of Ishgard’s most important commemorations to date.

Desperately trying to seem casual, you lift a hand up and wave it in his direction with a smile poised ever so perfectly upon your lips. Even as Ardbert sighs in your ear and gropes at your chest with an almost boyish eagerness, years of battle-hardened constitution wins out long enough that your expression holds out until Estinien finally glances away from you. Whether content in your facade or simply deciding it wasn’t his place to press, you’re grateful all the same. The same can’t sense of contentment can’t be used to describe the shade who so needily kneads at your chest.

“So it seems the warrior of light can keep a steady composure in the face of pleasure and pain alike,” he murmurs, lips brushing against the sensitive skin of your neck. If you didn’t know any better in the moment, you might even call his tone a tad possessive. “But we both know how much you adore having your nipples toyed with, yeah?”

“Don’t act like you’re not the one who has a thing for-“

And just to prove something of a point, he suddenly pinches them in a rough and quick motion—so much that the softest noise of shock and pleasure slip past your tongue. Though it is easy enough to hide behind a sudden cough, you can’t help but fear that someone nearby is going to catch on. Even if the layers of your outfit cover up the way Ardbert is all but torturing your chest, the same can’t be said about your knees as they threaten to knock together, or the building heat between your thighs.

Satisfied with the reaction, Ardbert continues, “Do you think I could make you climax right here?”

It’s as much threat as it is a question of permission.

Though the word ‘no’ would be simple and easy to say, even in your current state, it never reaches your tongue. Instead you risk a moment of selfish sentiment and reach a hand up towards your chest. To an unwary onlooker it would seem as if you’re lifting a hand up to toy with a piece of your armor—but your fingertips graze across Ardbert’s knuckles, pressing his touch ever so against your skin. He sighs in satisfaction—more from the subtle consent than the actual contact—and becomes ever more forceful in his ministrations. He rolls and pinches your hard nipples between his fingers with the same fervent passion as he would touch the rest of your body. The pleasure seems to connect all the way down your chest, belly, and straight between your legs. It’s a tension all of its own right, a pleasure quite like and unlike when he has his hand between your thighs.

“Almost a shame that there’s a crowd,” Ardbert growls, voice low enough that each word is a rumbling of syllables than anything else. Or perhaps your mind is barely able to comprehend them as more than that. “I don’t get to hear all those pretty sounds you make when you cum. But I can still feel you trembling. The powerful warrior of light—even the warrior of darkness—made to shake like a leaf while I play with your nipples ‘till they’re sore. Hopefully that dragoon friend of yours won’t notice at all.”

It’s hard to think. Hard to even breathe. All your mind can focus on is how eager Ardbert’s hands are upon you, pulling and tugging and twisting—you realize all too suddenly that you can cum like this. Your legs would be shaking if it weren’t for your incredible force of will, and that’s nothing compared to the fire rolling in the pit of your belly. By the touch of his hands and the growing sense of debauchery in Ardbert’s voice, you feel it creep closer. The edge. Pleasure wells up in your veins as each word and motion seems to push you closer to it. The world around you has become little more than a muffled layer of noise and shapes settled just beyond Ardbert’s presence.

And then it all comes crashing down. Head over heel over the edge of pleasure’s precipice. It’s sharp and hot and tight and nearly overwhelming as it crashes across your body starting from your belly and echoing out, all the way to your fingertips and toes—but especially where the man’s fingertips continue to tease and torture the hard buds between them. All that escapes from your lips is a shaking sigh, but he is standing close enough to be nearly against your body, and thus he feels the gentle trembles that slide down your spine when sweet orgasm seeps through your bones.

“Gods above,” he murmurs, pulling his touch so that his hands are skimming up and down your sides again. “If I were a weak man, I’d have you on the ground and myself betwixt your legs after a little show like that.”

The words are sweet and taunting, but you scarcely have the energy to come up with a retort, and especially not one quiet enough that half of the crowd wouldn’t hear—it’s hard enough to control your sudden need for air. But Ardbert doesn’t chase the topic or try to continue teasing you; instead he merely settles his palms over your hips, keeping you steady even when your legs feel as if they want to give out.

Luckiliy enough, the ceremony only lasted another quarter-bell.

[bokunowritingacademia]

Request:  If it's okay, can I request omegaverse, with alpha Hawks and Dabi (separately) trying to seduce a shy and/or prickly/fiery omega? Headcanons or a scenario, it doesn't matter to me. Whichever you'd like. thank you so much!!!!

It’s not your first heat. Despite all the nerves, the worry, the curiosity that burned through your thoughts, it simply wasn’t your first heat--you were quite comfortable in your body and sexual habits, in fact.

But that didn’t change how utterly alpha Hawks was and how you yearned for his touch the moment you caught his scent. It was so comforting and warm, something beyond description (as most scents were), but it certainly filled you with peace regardless, especially after the two of you became dedicated mates of one another.

It’s one of the reasons that spending time with him, a lazy Saturday afternoon on the couch playing video games, was a nice as it could be. The soft, almost luxurious touch of his feathers against your skin, wrapped around your body was nothing short of lovely. It was almost like he was holding you, cradling you against his body while your eyes rested idly upon the flashing television screen.

“Wanna have sex?”

The words struck you blind for a few slow, solid seconds. Your eyes blinked as you kept your gaze looking ahead--and Hawks himself merely continued to play through the rest of the level on his game, almost as if he hadn’t asked anything at all, let alone--well, let alone that.

“Ex-excuse me?” The words practically sputtered from your lips.

“You heard me,” Hawks said, just a touch of smug hanging onto his voice. “You’ve been smelling like that all morning--it’s irresistible.”

He finally reached an arm over, wrapping it around your shoulders and bringing you closer still against his warm body.

“Smelling like what?” you asked, half-amused.

The man hummed, tilting his head one way, then the other, but finally so that his chin pressed against the top of your head.

“Like you’re reeeally likin’ me right now, baby bird.” Hawks made an overly-dramatic gesture of dropping the controller before he wrapped his other arm around you. He snuggled you close, his wings moving to wrap around you as well, practically cocooning the two of you together on the soft, warm couch. “You smell so good, babe. Are you close to your heat or something?” 

You could feel the soft nuzzle of his face against your head, his breath hot and intimate. Hawks’ scent flared slightly, though whether it was from the physical proximity or the supposed early-onset of your heat pheromones, you couldn’t exactly pinpoint. The attention was delightful regardless, especially since recent months had him out and about for his hero work often--being the #2 pro hero has its perks, sure, but also some defined drawbacks--being away from home more often just happened to be one of them.

“I don’t....remember it being that close,” You murmur in only a half-hearted reply. You were almost certain that your heat was still a good month off--even a little fluctuation would put it several weeks away; it wasn’t hard to see (to smell) what Hawks was trying to accomplish.

And damn if it wasn’t working.

After all, it’s not very hard for him to seduce you--you are already head over heels for him, attracted to every little detail that made the man special. He could simply whisper in your ear and stroke his fingertips down your back and you’d be one breath away from falling into bed with him. But despite how easily your heart raced for him, the man didn’t hold back on his ever-constant attempts to woo you so completely that it’s hard to think he hadn’t fought the eyes of plenty other men and women alike in his life—

But he had eyes only for you. Sharp, golden eyes that felt akin to the predator of his heroic namesake. Eyes that made your breath go still and your heartbeat go into overdrive.

“Well, it sure smells like you’re gettin’ pretty close,” he murmurs into your cheek, body starting to rumble with a low noise that almost resembled a purr—instinctual as an alpha, and hardly a habit he tried to hide from you when he held you like that. “Haven’t noticed any missing feathers though. Not nesting yet?”

You shake your head and use the motion to press closer to the curve of his throat. His scent is warm and inviting, like coffee and suede, making you feel so comfortable in how your bodies fit together that you might have fallen right asleep—if it wasn’t for everything else tickling against your interested nerves.

Hawks purr-hums again. He tugs his wings closer around the two of you, until you can deal soft feathertips brush against the back of your legs. Protective. Possessive. Though the man tried to keep his emotions and instincts in-check for the majority of the time, even he couldn’t resist giving in a little to the desire coursing through his veins—not when you can feel the thick layers of pheromones falling from your skin and scenting glands.

“One of these days you’re gonna forget about it while I’m out at work,” he says offhandedly. “And what are you gonna do about it then?”

“I’ll just come to your office.”

The words, though muffled against Hawks’ throat, are spoken purely in jest. It seems ridiculous that you would make it even halfway between the apartment and agency without losing your goddamn mind, but the words seem to fall firmly enough that he stiffens quite considerably beneath you. As if he hadn’t even entertained the thought.

“That’s a dangerous idea right there, baby bird.” He shifts, just enough so he can stroke his hands down between your shoulderblades and back. “You might catch me on the tail-end of a villain arrest. Maybe even got all that adrenaline still pumping in me—and then you show up looking like a damn feast? Are you wantin’ me to go a little feral on that sweet ass of yours?”

Heat fills your cheeks at both the accusation and the sound of his voice giving focused life to the thought; whether you intended for the fantasy to take a life of its own, you can’t quite deny the fact that it feels hot—hot enough that you have to rub your thighs together to relieve some of the tension between them.

But Hawks reads your silence with ease, hands roaming down to hips and holding on tight.

“Does my sweet baby bird got a dirty little fantasy? Don’t feel shy ‘bout it any, ‘cause I sure have plenty of them.”

“Y-you do?”

When you pull your face back to try and meet his gaze in search of jest or honesty, the eyes that meet yours are deep and dangerous, pupils blown wide with a lust Hawks doesn’t even attempt to hide. You can feel his wings press closer, feathers fluffing up according to instinct and desire.

“I might be more inclined to tell you all the filthy little details once you’re bouncing on my cock, baby bird,” his hands grab at your ass needily, pulling your hips down against his own so your bodies start to rhythmically grind together. “I’ll tell you one for every time I make you orgasm—“ his face moves closer to your ear, and his voice drops to a deep, husky rumble. “—and I got a lot of fantasies about you.”

If your heat hadn’t started before, it certainly kicked off from the sound of those words alone.

[yonaofthedawnwritings]

Moonlight Yearnings (1/2)

AO3 Version

Chapters: 1 | 2

Relationship: Reader/Jae-Ha

Wordcount: 2.0k

Tags: Reader is Yona AU, Mating Cycles/In Heat, Pining, Dirty Thoughts, Dirty Talk, Falling In Love, Breeding kink

Summary:  Jae-Ha thinks that he’s dying. He might not actually be dying, but who is to argue semantics when it feels as though fire itself licks hungrily at his skin with every moment of existence? When hot blades of steel sink through his mind with every inhale of air?

He’s as close to death as can be without literally taking his final breath, but he's about to realize who will quell his boiling blood--the very person that caused the reaction in the first place without anyone realizing it.

You.

-

Everything is on fire . From the air that he breathes to the very skin on his body, Jae-Ha feels as if he’s submerged into a pool of lava. It comes on too quickly to be a fever and it’s not nearly as debilitating–there’s no other symptoms that would lead him to thinking that he’s sick–but he would be an utter fool to consider himself entirely healthy.

Even Yoon can’t seem to find an answer, only offering the dragon a cursory look-over and a constant pinch of his brows tight over his eyes. It’s not a look that the green dragon trusted. If the young genius of a boy couldn’t gather the faintest idea of what ailed him, then did he truly have any chance to figure it out on his own?

Suffice to say, there was little else that Jae-Ha had than simply treating the symptoms that he could and ignoring the rest–and that alone was hell. 

Though he could treat the tension, the body aches and even the uncomfortable churning of his stomach, there was absolutely nothing to ease the heat burning him to the core. It clung to him like a heatwave–it felt worse than even the days he had spent out at sea with Gi-Gan and her crew, when the days were smoldering and sweat dripped down his skin. Even then he could seek comfort in the shade of the mast or even slip below deck if there was little to do.

But now?

Jae-Ha thinks that he’s dying. He might not actually be dying, but who is to argue semantics when it feels as though fire itself licks hungrily at his skin with every moment of existence? When hot blades of steel sink through his mind with every inhale of air?

So truly, he’s as close to death as can be without literally taking his final breath.

---

“I swear, Jae-Ha, I have no idea what’s causing this.”

Yoon sighs, rolling up the cloth mat of tools and herbs in a relinquishing of effort. He’s tried everything twice over in stubborn attempts to help bring the man any relief from his symptoms, but absolutely nothing seems to work. No tea, no supplement, no medicine of any type that does more than curtail what always comes back in a matter of hours.

“As far as I know you’re healthy, just…”

He trails off into silence. Jae-Ha sighs after a few moments and pinches his fingers over the bridge of his nose; at least he’s gotten better at hiding the little nuances of discomfort that plague his body. A few days ago had him seething at the end of his mental restraint, but now he’s able to take most waves of searing heat in stride even as it all but rolls through his body like scorching lava. 

“Don’t worry about it then,” he says at last, moving to his feet so sharply that he doesn’t miss the way Yuun flinches back from him. “Better to let it run its course than to keep using up what few medicinal resources we have right now.”

“But aren’t you in pain?”

Jae-Ha considers himself for a moment. Each breath is even, as easy to take in as any other, but yet each inhale feels like he’s pulling smoke into his lungs, the scent branding his thoughts so deeply that he can’t think about anything other than the sensations that plague his body. But where is it coming from?

“No,” he finally lies, brushing off both concern and a lock of hair that had fallen over his eyes.

It takes every ounce of his willpower to push down the ache that wrenches deep in his stomach, but the dragon warrior manages to hold a steady gaze as he turns back to Yuun. He offers the young man a simple wave in greatful farewell mere moments before his legs send him up into the sky above.

By the time Yuun can think to say anything, Jae-Ha is already too high up to hear him.

---

When something starts to seem off about Jae-Ha, you feel it more than you see it. The green dragon warrior was normally so casual and freespoken, but over the last few days you notice more and more that he’s distanced himself considerably from not only his fellow warriors, but also from Hak, Yuun, and even yourself. 

While the others didn’t seem to notice the subtle differences, you could feel it like a knife slicing across your consciousness. Something was different . Something was wrong . Instinct started as a little whisper in the back of your thoughts, but has grown into a dull roar, calling you to action to find out what was troubling your green dragon warrior so deeply. Could he be feeling burdened by joining you and the others, leaving behind all of those people in Awa that had been like family to him? 

Could he...even be feeling….hateful towards you?

No. Absolutely not. You had given great care to give each and every one of the warriors a choice. While each of them were compelled to follow you as heir to the Kouka kingdom, you did not want that to usurp their freedom as individuals.

But perhaps Jae-Ha did not feel the same, and his continued distance only furthered the worry gnawing at your mind until you simply couldn’t take it anymore--you had to talk to him. If he was truly feeling homesick and under the duress of his dragon blood forcing him alongside you, then you would do anything in your power to alleviate his woes and allow him safe return to the Water Clan’s territory.

With a mind made up and too stubborn for second thoughts, you decide to talk to the green dragon warrior the next chance that you get. 

---

The treeline seems to always be within reach for the green dragon warrior, an easy avenue of escape when things get to be too much for him to bear. 

Too much noise. Too many smells. Too many people.

Though he likes a bit of solid ground beneath his feet in some form, Jae-Ha always seems to find a suitable tree branch to sit himself upon with ease, high enough that he can’t be noticed from the ground, and out of the leaves enough so that he can stare up into the starlit night sky.

The stars, they looked especially beautiful above him. He might even describe them as peaceful, in any other circumstance. A sea of glittering dots within a sea of ever-expansive darkness, not quite unlike the lanterns of ships bedding down for the night as the last echoes of sunlight fade away on the horizon.

With the young Yuun’s words still bouncing around inside of his skull, Jae-Ha reserved himself to the unfamiliar waves of fire ravaging his body and soul alike. He certainly didn’t feel healthy, despite the boy’s assurance of the contrary. He knew no poison, drug or food that could cause such symptoms--if nothing else, they reminded him greatly of what one Awa pirate had described Nadai withdrawal to feel like.

Withdrawal.

Jae-Ha’s entire body shivered at the thought of the word. It’s implications meant more than he wanted to think about. Wanted to admit, even if it was to himself. After all, there was perhaps one important change in his life that could be the cause for the burning in his veins.

A certain person whose presence he can’t seem to get out of his thoughts no matter how hard he tries. A person who, whether he realized it or not, he had been avoiding since the waves of hot agony began.

You.

The person who had become his master, who had earned his trust and admiration, who had made his blood boil with the utmost sense of passion and loyalty and adoration-

And just like that, another wave overtakes the man without warning, always starting like a wildfire from the very center of his chest before wrapping itself around his limbs and mind. Hot. Smoldering. It’s every bit as agonizing as what he thinks withdrawal to be and every bit as yielding in how it can reach into the depth of his soul and rip out the most stupid things.

The way his heartbeat skips when he sees you smile. The way his lips tremble when he wonders what yours might feel like against his, pressing deep and passionate beneath the tender light of a full moon.

The fire continues to sink into Jae-Ha’s bones as he entertains the rampaging fantasy.

A night like this would really be a good one for that, wouldn’t it? A smile breaks across the man’s face as he, smothered in a cold sweat and his heart racing so fast that it hurts, stares up at the moon shining bright above his head. Mocking him? Enticing him? Jae-Ha can’t say for certain which, but there’s a certain masochism to the notion that every little perverse thought of you, that special person, seems only to kindle the fire ever hotter.

Would you want the green dragon to take you gently? Roughly? Would you tempt him openly with fluttering lashes and gentle words, or would you take your pleasure from him while he plays the ever-loyal servant? The thought of being made to serve anyone makes his stomach churn and his jaw clench, but you?

You’re the exception. To a lot of things.

Jae-Ha thinks about how he first met you in Awa. Though you were with so little experience outside of being the heir to the Kouka kingdom, you showcased an immeasurable amount of courage above and beyond what he would have ever expected to find in his would-be master. Years of tall tales and assumptions had built up a very distasteful and sturdy portrait for what the crimson dragon king would be like in his return--powerful and unyielding, forcing his will on the four dragon warriors without so much as a care for their use beyond tools for war and bloodshed.

And with one single glance of his eyes into yours, one touch of your gentle hand upon his fevered forehead after his dragon blood’s enticement, that very portrait shattered into a million imperceivable pieces.

He would follow no other person with as much loyalty as he would for you. He would fight for nobody else, protect nobody else, long for nobody else-

The breeze picks up, pulling Jae-Ha out of his thoughts and leading him to the sudden realization that he was...no longer in pain. While the heat still laced through every vein of his body, the warrior couldn't find anything more than a dull ache echoing from his chest and legs. It even seemed to grow smaller by the second, fading away until only the heat itself remained fervent, his blood still boiling with emotions that he only then became aware were buried by it the entire time--denied, rejected, ignored.

Lust swept over him, twisting around the fiery heat in a tightly-braided cord which bound his limbs frozen and kept him still where he sat, as if unable to even breathe for a few terrifying heartbeats. Before Jae-Ha could stop it, the duo of sensations welled within his belly, coming to blossom with one aching, terrifying gasp of air. 

Realization was all too quick to follow, now that he could recognize the emotions swirling around his soul. This heat, this agonizing torture that filled his veins in a way he could scarcely describe--was it a yearning to be with the new crimson ruler?

And not just to be with you, but to have you in ways that only instincts could understand, buried somewhere deep in Jae-Ha’s mind. Instincts to protect, to mark, to breed .

Instincts of a dragon. Unmistakable.

And that is when Jae-Ha, in his moment of carnal paralysis, finally realized that he could hear your voice calling to him from far below the branches. Your sweet voice, soft and worried and edging on fearful, calling his name in such a beautiful, breathtaking way that could make the very moon above bristle with jealousy.

Calling for him.

Calling for the green dragon.

Jae-Ha, Jae-Ha, Jae-Ha.

It was an impossible cry for the man to ignore.

[finalfantasyxivwritings]

Tell Me to Stay (And I Will) (3/4)

AO3 Version

Relationship: WoL!Reader/Crystal Exarch

Rating: NC-17

Chapters: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4

Summary: After the events of Shadowbringers, the Exarch is excited to rekindle the friendship you and him once had together, though fate seems to have other plans for him. When your prolonged presence around him sets off a heat well over a century past-due, he’ll have to put those plans off until after his body is done with the feelings of yearning and lust that consume him.

When you learn of the man’s problem however, you’re far from wanting him to deal with it alone–so will this foreseen challenge break the fragments of your old friendship…

…or will it reforge them into something more?

-

Your senses are bombarded as soon as you enter the Ocular. Air is thick with the scent of arousal, hot with the feel of need, buzzing with the sound of desire–

Your desire to be specific, soft moans unbidden from behind eager lips pressing against G’raha’s own in sparse, messy kisses. It’s hard to give words to describe the simple moment of having him in your arms and feeling him yield beneath your affections, wanting and whining and absolutely burning to the touch. Words seem meaningless when compared to the great force that bubbles up from within your chest.

“Want you,”‌ the man murmurs, the words broken in between each press of lips. “I‌ want you so dearly, warrior-”

“Oh, so we’re using titles now, are we Exarch ?” You can’t help but chuckle even between each kiss, lips soon but pressing against the man’s warm cheeks and down across the gentle curve of his jaw. “I‌ certainly won’t mind if that’s what you’d like to call me while I‌ ravish you senseless.”

The man gapes for a moment, with words to say but hardly the willpower to say them, likely due to the fact that your hands have found interest in the quality of what few layers of clothes upon his body. You had grown used to seeing him wrapped in his robes of silk and adorned by gold and crystal both; it’s so intimate to see him in any less than that, like the sight itself and honor of being one to remove what last layers are upon him is something almost ceremonious in worth.

Though relinquished of his lavish layers and luxuries, you still feel a need to worship him all the same. To anoint him in your affection, crown him with kisses, embrace him against your chest as his lips shape words of pleasure against your skin. You want to treat him like a precious treasure; with how the brilliant blue crystal delicately meets with flesh across his body, you’re certain that the symbolism is far more accurate than mere words. 

It takes just a few gentle tugs of cloth and the loose ties holding it all together before the man is left bare. White cloth pools softly around his ankles, leaving him exposed enough that you can see his nakedness--and his eagerness --with one downward glance. It feels like unwrapping a present.

A very hard, flushed, delicious-looking present.

“Well,” you can’t help but purr, taking in the sight with no shortage of delight.. “Aren’t you a rather eager lad?”

“I’m hardly a lad anymore.” The Exarch’s face takes on a slightly darker shade of crimson, but he huffs all the same. “Several decades too old for that.”

His hands reach forward to grip and grasp desperately at your own clothes.

“Come on then,” the man murmurs, tugging at cloth and armor alike with a desperation edging on adorable. “Don’t leave me waiting any longer than I already have-”

You feel and see a shiver move through the Seeker’s body when he takes in a breath. Something about the touch, his touch, seems to awaken something new in the air between the two of you. It grows heavier with every moment, every heartbeat, and it leaves your brain whirling around itself to realize just how far gone the man has grown in his hormones and lust.

It certainly has an effect upon your mind and body both, exacerbating the already-great feelings of want that sit like lava in the pit of your stomach. You reach out hands to grab for G’raha’s wrists, feeling cool crystal and hot flesh beneath your fingertips that shimmer beneath the dim light of the Ocular.

The man merely lets out a soft whine instead of words, question obvious all the same when piercing ruby eyes meet with your own. But your grip doesn’t fade, and instead you use the confusion of the moment to press the man back a step, to pull his hands back around his body until you’re pressing chest-to-chest, and your lips are brushing across the tantalizing expanse of his crystal-marbled collarbone.

“I said I was going to ravish you senseless,” your words are but a gentle, warm breath over his skin. “And I mean it, Raha. Let me take care of you first.”

G’raha starts to sputter some nonsensical argument, but you silence it quickly with a kiss to his pulse that leaves your lips parted and teeth gently dragging across oddly malleable crystal. There is no taste to it against your tongue, but you can’t help but feel the faintest, aching pulse, echoing in tune to the heartbeat that you feel between your chests. 

He squirms, but doesn’t fight the restriction of your hands on his wrists. That perhaps is the most alluring of it all; feeling him willingly yield, a man of such power and prestige that many regard him akin to a king. To feel him, the Exarch, G’raha Tia, vulnerable to your will in his most carnal of moments. It sparks a burning flame between your legs, a hunger in your belly--you want more .

So more you take, your lips moving over the beautiful expanse of your new lover’s throat, until you’re gently mapping out the delicate network of gold streaking through the crystal. Each kiss gets a gasp in response, a tremble through G’raha’s body until he’s nearly starting to shake like a leaf against you.

When your lips finally lift, you can’t help but glance to his face. What you find is an expression of soft pleasure, cheeks nearly as red as his hair and eyes shut tight.

With a gentle hum, you get the man’s half-lidded attention and ask, “Too much?”

Beautiful ruby eyes look away after a few moments, falling instead gently to your lips, then off towards the floor. Somewhere in it all, however, you swear that his face seems to turn a deeper shade of red. 

Adorable .

“It-... it’s not too much,” he finally whispers, tipping his head forward until your foreheads touch. “I just… I never thought your mouth would feel so good.”

A smirk curls at the corners of your lips.

“My mouth can feel even better in other places, if you want.”

G’raha doesn’t immediately respond with words, but the sharp intake of air in his nose is hardly missed. It sends a tingle of excitement down your spine.

“Is that what you want, Raha?”

Your body presses harder against his. Lips tilt forward, ghosting once more over the delightfully, though surprisingly sensitive expanse of his throat as before. You can feel his wrists pressing against your grip, lost somewhere seemingly in the urge to move and the restraint to remain still and let you take your pleasure of him. What’s even more delightful is the ongoing shape of his cock yet pressed between your bodies, aching enough for you to feel even through your layers of clothes.

G’raha’s voice eventually breaks the hot, shaking silence.

“ Please.”

“Please what?”

Your fingers finally unwrap from his wrists, though the unspoken command leaves them bound by wavering self-restraint alone behind the small of his back. 

 Words, more beg than command, spill from his soft lips like sweet honey.

“Touch me,” he whispers, eyes finally matching with your own as another shiver moves down his form. “Put your mouth all over me.”

There was little shame in the man’s gaze from the first moment you stepped into both the Ocular and into his arms, but there is but none left now. Not an ounce of it, though that’s likely because it’s pooling in his cheeks and down his body, cock still so eager despite being so woefully neglected--is that the effect of the heat he’s enduring? Logic says it’s far from the first erection he’s had since the start of the affliction, and that train of thought in itself is rather dangerous. It makes you wonder how many times he’s found release by his own hands. 

Moreso, it makes you curious how many times you can make him find it with yours instead.

Curiosity aside, however, you’re not that sadistic as to leave the man completely untouched and ignored. You offer him a mischievous grin before wrapping your arms around him and letting the two of you unceremoniously tumble down to the ground together, a tangle of limbs until you find G’raha laying beneath you, your body hovering over his in a fantastic moment of excitement and lust--not only for the body and soul of the man himself, but also in the knowledge that you are but moments away from bringing him such great pleasures and heights of euphoria.

There is little warning and less grace to the motion as you drag yourself down the front of G’raha’s form, letting hungry lips kiss a winding road down past his chest and belly until coming to the joining of his thighs and the throbbing shape between them.

A breath escapes your parted lips, and only by the careful maneuvering of your hands to G’raha’s hips does it keep him from instinctively thrusting them forward and sinking himself into the welcoming heat of your mouth.

“You seem eager enough,” you say with amusement, moreso at how he so easily obeys the gentle restriction of your touch. “Very much like the lad you seem so keen to deny of yourself.”

For as many years of life as he’s experienced, you know well enough how strong the Exarch is--how powerful G’raha Tia has become. He could very well break your hold and send you across the room if he truly didn’t wish to be pinned, but he doesn’t . Knowing that fact alone is alluring, as there’s a beauty that comes with the unspoken words of submission. How he defers so easily to the restriction even as his flushed cock throbs, aching for attention and release.

“I am b-but an old man in comparison-” the Exarch yet manages from his trembling lips, hands free to reach and gently entwine with your hair, but restrained in doing little more than anchoring himself to you. “-and h-...hardly worthy of such selfless attention.”

You huff, and hide not the noise or stern expression that falls over your eyes.

“I respectfully disagree, all things considered.”

It doesn't take much to comfortably settle yourself between his legs--you may even go as far to say that you felt rather cozy with the man’s thighs framing either side of your face, warm thighs which tremble with such a scorching heat of arousal. Your lips even press close enough to brush down the length of his cock, each word a delicate kiss of hot breath against such sensitive nerves.

G’raha can’t help but sob .

By the time that you’ve carefully skimmed back up to the tip, the man is shaking, hands gripping with such a focused restraint in your hair that you can feel it. Arousal fills up from the depth of your belly at the notion, serving only to embolden the motions to repeat again, and then once more. You’ve traced up and down the underside of G’raha’s twitching cock several times over before his soft sobs finally start to form real words again. Words vaguely snatched from the edges of his mind, which you know is already in tatters.

“Gods above-” his hips press up, desperate for more, but you press back with careful hands to keep them pinned and motionless. “M-my warrior, p-...please… your mouth-”

The press of your tongue against the underside of G’raha’s cock serves well enough to pull the words apart into their raw syllables. A trace downward pulls them into fragmented letters, and a gentle nosing to the soft balls below render him utterly devoid of language itself.

He tastes like sweat and salt and arousal. You can feel his tail thrashing like a whip beneath him as you drag a flattened tongue back up his full, eager length. It throbs weakly against the gentle assault, but it isn’t until you decide to take the tip of G’raha between your lips that you realize just how close to the precipice he truly is--

He spills weakly into your mouth, the only warning being a tug of his hands and a messy jumble of words that you can barely hear past the blood rushing in your ears. It’s a symphony of sensations. The gentle pain of hands tugging sharply at your hair, the heat of his writhing body, the press of his soft thighs against your ears and even the bitter seed spilling onto your tongue--it’s a wondrous peak of euphoria in its own right, one which you swallow down nearly as greedily as what little liquid fills your mouth. 

But nothing is quite as beautiful as how G’raha moans your name. It sounds like a prayer, fervent and desperate in all the ways that leave your belly tight and heart thudding hard against your ribs. He continues to moan it, then whisper it, and then breathe it with heaving lungfuls of hot air as you finally release him from both mouth and hands. 

“I’m sorry,” you begin sheepishly, raising a hand to wipe off what you weren’t able to swallow from your lips and chin. “I didn’t realize you were already so close, I wouldn’t have-”

You’re hardly able to get the next word out before there’s a set of hands quite suddenly cupping your cheeks and a pair of lips so gently ghosting against your own. G’raha shifts only so that he’s sitting up, with you still settled between his spread thighs.

The man hides little mischief as his tongue darts out to lap up the half-smeared drops you were about to simply wipe away with the back of your hand. 

“Do not apologize,” he purrs, entire mouth rumbling. “That was not the first time I found my peak the last several suns, and it will be far from the last.”

The pass of his tongue across your lips feels insistent, gently so, seeking permission to slip between them. Your response comes as a gentle whisper of his name, which is so quickly swallowed by the kiss he presses against you. Hungry. Passionate. Needy. Though he’s just a handful of seconds from climaxing against your tongue, G’raha’s hunger for you is but vaguely sated; like tossing but a single bucket of water into a raging forest fire, you can still feel the surging blaze within him.

“...You are still far too dressed,” the man murmurs after the kiss breaks, leaving you in his arms and settled so comfortably between his legs. 

“Would you like to remove some layers yourself?”

For but a breath, you are sure that ruby eyes look sharper than just a moment before you had spoken. Like something instinctual and feral. So when G’raha’s lips curl just far enough to see the gentle gleam of fangs in his smile, nothing can stop your heart from nearly skipping a beat.

“If I remove something of my own accord, dearest warrior, I’m afraid you would be rather unable to put it back on.”

The seeker leans forward to nuzzle into the crook of your neck, “You tempt me so. But I can be restrained enough to help you properly, if you would like.”

The grin softens after a few moments, but his words strike deep within the ever-present haze of lust and need that surrounds you, wafting from the exarch like a thick, lazy cloud of hormones. You have a feeling that the orgasm may have something to do with it, but say nothing in favor of getting started in stripping yourself down.

Since you aren’t dressed for battle, there is luckily far fewer layers to remove. G’raha seems pleased enough to watch, though there’s something about his eyes that keep your heart racing every time you catch even a glance at his face. Hair mussed, cheeks flushed, completely naked and cock half-hard between his crossed legs. How a man could look so debauched and yet retain even a miniscule amount of composure was beyond your mind’s ability to consider, especially when you so wanted to ruin whatever composure he had left.

Your upper garments come off with relative ease, leaving you free to ask, “How long have you been like this?”

“In heat?” G’raha clarifies gently, waiting only until you nod before continuing. “I would say at least three days, though unfortunately time is hard to keep track of in this state.”

“I think I can understand as much,” you murmur, carefully slipping off your pants, pausing only when the gentle click of something falling from one of your pockets catches your ears.

It catches the exarch’s attention as well, and both of you glance towards the floor to find a small, nondescript vial of clear liquid rolling to a stop between the two of you. It takes a few moments before you recognize it as the very same vial that the Mystel merchant Keel-Sai had given you but hours before.

Oh.

You had nearly forgotten about that.

G’raha’s attention is hardly missed as you lean down to gently pick it up, examining the vial genuinely for the first time since it was handed to you, though you’re yet without an answer for its contents. Though curious, you were content to tuck it back into the pocket of your pants and continue on with the sweet debauchery between the exarch and yourself,

And yet,

When you look up to meet G’raha’s eyes,

You find them wide, awe-struck, and unblinking.

Shock and surprise leaks through the heat across his face, as if he’s just heard the words of Hydaelyn herself whispered into his attentive, forward-facing ears. Like he’s hunting something.

Like he’s ready to pounce upon you.

“Where did you… get that?” he asks at last, voice quiet and body oddly still. “That vial in your hands.”

You look between the exarch and the vial in question for a few moments, trying desperately to connect the dots of the enigma for what it contains in the first place, and if perhaps taking it from the merchant had been a mistake all along. 

“Someone gave it to me,” you relent after realizing that there’s no good way to try and spin the truth otherwise. “When I learned of your… issue. A mystel merchant told me it might be useful to have.”

G’raha is peculiarly silent for a few seconds.

The silence is a little unnerving, so you apt to fill it with the noise of your words instead, hopefully to further clarify the situation. 

“She said it would help you… ‘enjoy it proper’ I believe?” the memory of the words just several hours ago sound as clear as can be. “I’m not sure what it was when she gave it to me, but I assumed it was something that could help alleviate some discomfort in your heat.”

A few more moments of silence, but shorter than before, leaving you only enough time to lift a brow in question before G’raha finally decides to unveil the secret with a growing, mischievous grin on his lips.

“It’s a vial of pheromones, rendered into a drinkable elixir of sorts.”

You blink, but G’raha seems to grow only more amused by it, tail flicking playfully behind him in a way that makes him look all-too young and alike the very man you had seen step into the Crystal Tower but months prior to your summoning to the First. 

“It’s not very common in the Source, if I recall correctly,” he continues, bringing up a hand to his chin as if lost so genuinely in memory. “But it’s surprisingly more common here in the First--I dare say it’s because many Mystel don’t naturally have regular heats in this realm from the greatly unbalanced aether. I didn’t expect you to have the pretense to obtain it, given how I tried to hide my heat so dearly.”

After a moment, the exarch tilts his head so slightly to the side, almost imperceptible if you weren’t so acutely aware of him. Of his eyes. They peer at you like a beast, hungry and so finely aware at the same time; a mixture of the young G’raha you knew and the raw, carnal instincts that wrap tight around the man who’d lived decades to see your face again.

“And it’s not for me, so to speak . ”

Your heart races on, thumping hard against the inside of your ribcage. The words, hot and haunting, echo between your ears until all you can do is gently part your lips, letting the question flow like a trickle of water though the answer is already clear in your mind.

“Who is it for then?”

G’raha smiles wide, familiar and sweet and filled with playful mystery.

“My warrior,” his words are soaked with honest adoration, the sound of reverence echoing from how his soft lips had curled around your name in the throes of pleasure. “That elixir is to help induce a heat in my would-be mate for this season. And that very mate, whom I shall ravish and wreck until we’re exhausted-”

The exarch licks the tip of his tongue over his lips.

"-with your permission, that mate would be you.”

[finalfantasyxivwritings]

Tell Me to Stay (And I Will) [2/4]

AO3 Version

Relationship: WoL!Reader/Crystal Exarch

Rating: NC-17

Chapters: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4

Summary: After the events of Shadowbringers, the Exarch is excited to rekindle the friendship you and him once had together, though fate seems to have other plans for him. When your prolonged presence around him sets off a heat well over a century past-due, he'll have to put those plans off until after his body is done with the feelings of yearning and lust that consume him.

When you learn of the man's problem however, you're far from wanting him to deal with it alone--so will this foreseen challenge break the fragments of your old friendship...

...or will it reforge them into something more?

-

It doesn’t take too terribly long to find your way to the Dossal Gate.

With the occasional point in the right direction from a Crystarium resident it’s only a matter of getting your sense of direction again, though you can’t help but worry about what each passerby must think when you rush off without so much as a breath to spare them.

They seem either amused or sympathetic to you, though you don’t have enough time to discern which is the truth.

Do any of them have even the slightest idea what lay within your mind? Do they have a desire to know, or have they simply come to accept that you are little more than the same enigma that the Exarch himself has become in their hearts?

Do they question why you seek him out with all the same breathless desire of a lost lover returning home?

Or do they expect as much?

The thoughts can’t keep up with you for long as you hurry through the Crystarium, eventually finding your way to the steps leading up a grand staircase. At the top lay a familiar set of doors, the same doors that had once closed and locked away the very same man you seek.

A strange sense of irony comes over you as you look up at them.

Though you’re not entirely sure what you’ll find beyond, your legs begin to move you forwards. One step after another. You’re still caught in the entrapment of worry by the time the guard set outside the doors acknowledges your approach, and it’s only the sound of his voice that pulls you out of heavy thoughts.

“Here to see the Exarch?” he asks, having lost the wary tone to his question many suns before.

All you can do is nod wordlessly for fear how your voice might sound otherwise. The guard pauses for a moment, then nods in return and steps over to the doors to attune his aether against the magical locks keeping them sealed tight from the outside.

It’s a familiar ritual, one of which you know little of the details. Though the Crystal Tower is but the very same you’d explored many moons before, much of its working seems to have changed in the timeline from whence this one hails. Obviously the Exarch has made it very much his home, having attuned to it in more ways than the physical imprint it’s left upon his body.

It’s difficult to see the century of time beyond your own that lays upon the structure–at least from the outside.

Only when you’re let past the doors do decades of added history become apparent; once-forgotten rooms are now clean and pristine, filled with a sense of life despite being otherwise empty of anything beyond piles of books and idle trinkets. Where halls were once desolate they are now lavish and bright, with gentle aetherical lights along the walls and guiding the way towards the Ocular itself.

You wonder idly if the Exarch had done all of the decorating himself over the slow expanse of years, needing something to fill his time with.

Did he collect all the books that your eyes find? The trinkets?

Many of the items are wholly unfamiliar to you from the last you’d set foot in the Crystal Tower of your own world, leading you to only guess at their origin. Surely there are stories behind each item; you hope to ask the Exarch of each one day, if the chance ever presents itself.

As you follow the gentle pulse of the lights along the hallway, your eyes catch sight of many twists and turns leading deeper into the tower where time has truly set its course. The Exarch has settled in only but a small section of the greater part to the tower, and you know intimately well how much there is truly to explore.

Though you cannot deny a mild, nostalgic curiosity for where they lead, all of them are blocked with a barrier similar to what keeps the Dossal Gate sealed. You know as much only because your earliest visits to the Ocular were always done in-step with a guard, if only to assure you didn’t attempt to wander off too far.

More for your own safety than for security’s sake, they had told you. Apparently, a number of creatures had long-since settled within the tower’s innermost spaces, and the Exarch had not the time to spare clearing them out in many decades.

Yet another thing to speak to him about when the time comes.

But you’re alone, having walked the path to the Ocular more times than you can count on both your hands and without the need for a guide nor protector. It’s a mercy to be without another person beside you, as you would have no words to properly explain your hurried need to speak to the Exarch nor the mind to speak them without a break to your voice.

After what feels like an eternity you finally come upon the door to the Ocular itself. It’s ornate as everything else in the tower, decorated with gold and jewels you can scarcely identify. A veil of nervousness works over your mind as you continue to stare, at last overtaking the rushed sense of responsibility that has powered you through every motion until now.

A sense of unknown lays beyond the door.

To some degree, you know what you’ll find; an old friend, caught in the center of hormones he’s likely not felt for decades if the response of Lyna and the apothecary was any indication. You’re hardly sure how it’s possible as much as you’re unsure how it’s impossible, leaving you at an impasse of thoughts that seem to all lead to the same ending.

The Exarch. G’raha Tia.

For as full of shameless enthusiasm as you had been, you’re now caught in a stillness that can’t be broken. You feel frozen to the spot, unable to move and less able to speak as a chilling question at last bubbles up past everything else:

What would he think?

So caught up in your own feelings, your own feverish excitement that yet simmers at the pit of your stomach, you but barely gave caution to the fact that such things may not be mutual. G’raha was a friend to you, one of the dearest, but you can hardly find anything to indicate if he had ever wanted to be more than that. There were idle glances, fanciful words and the occasional brush of skin, yes, but in between all the chaos of exploring the Crystal Tower it wasn’t exactly something you had the chance to extrapolate on with him–not in a way that was truly meaningful, at least.

What if he doesn’t want you with him?

Your mind plays the question over again, allowing the worry to run its course through until you can look at the situation as easily as any other: your intention is simply to aid him, your friend–if that involves leaving him alone, then so be it, you will take your leave without argument.

But if he desires your company…

If he asks for your touch…

You promise yourself that it’s a logical set of answers to a complicated, emotion-laden problem, knowing that there is truly no great way to answer it.

And so, with that in mind, you reach your hand out to knock on the door.

It’s a wonder that the Exarch can even hear the sound. Through the thick haze that fills his mind, the sharp knocks permeate the air and pull him out of his stupor to feel a wave of worry and calm both.

“Lyna?” He calls, confused why she wouldn’t announce herself.

Even in matters dealing little in his dignity she’s come to offer him warning, which the man appreciates greatly in moments when he is so greatly indisposed.

Like now.

Because he can’t stop himself.

He can’t stop the way he needs to take himself in-hand every quarter bell, or how his body yearns to be rid of the but few layers of clothing still on his body. Though clad in but a simple robe of soft linen, the Exarch still feels too hot and confined–his body yearns for the freedom of nothing suffocating his skin. It’s all he can do to stay sane while keeping a semblance of shame, even though he is the only one in the Ocular.

The fact that the Exarch’s voice does not break is a wonder, especially as a stroke of his hand but once more over a throbbing cock brings the man once more over the crest of orgasm. It’s hardly satisfying, especially not when it’s left him to but rut uselessly into his own touch, cock twitching but with nothing to spill.

It aches almost as bad as the fire itself that still smolders on in his belly, but it brings at least a vague sense of clarity to his thoughts. It’s not enough for his skin to stop crawling and his tail to mute its thrashing behind himself, but the Exarch can at least gather up himself enough to approach the door and open it.

When it does, the man looks out expecting to see the face of the militia captain to greet him–hopefully with a vial of liquid held in her hands.

But that’s not who he sees.

The Exarch all but freezes in place as his eyes take in the person before him. Though he can see perfectly fine, it’s the scent of you that hits his brain first; the sudden hammer of instinct twisting up his thoughts into a furious whirlwind that he hadn’t prepared himself for.

It’s you.

The air outside of the Ocular is thick with your delicious scent. It’s sweet and warm and a million other things that he could scarcely describe in a sober state of mind let alone right now, when his heart is beating so fast that the sound of blood in his ears is little more than a constant rush of noise, so loud that it leaves his thoughts quiet in comparison.

And, just as it had before, the man is almost overtaken by the sudden impulse to have you, to be had by you, to matematemate until he can’t even think beyond where his body begins and yours ends.

But despite the sudden weight of emotions that fall over him, the Exarch forces himself to close the door and lean his body against it, staring into the space of the Ocular with eyes blown wide with seething lust only barely contained.

How?

How?!

Though his body croons and yearns for your touch, the better part of the man’s mind can but tense with worry for what you’ll think of him if you knew–if you learn about his shame, about how many times he’s already cum with your name spilling on his lips with your relationship but barely rekindled.

“I-I’m but a little ill at the m-moment, my warrior!” the Exarch says, forcing all of his willpower into keeping his words steady. “It would n-not be wise for me to entertain y-your c-…company.”

He hopes dearly that such a weak excuse would be enough to persuade you to leave him be, to simmer in his own shame and sordid pleasures until it can all be forgotten and shoved into a forgotten corner of his memories.

Oh, he hopes.

You blink, eyes settled upon the door in front of you. For a moment you wonder if you merely imagined it, the soft peak of a familiar face from within the room–perhaps your nervousness had finally taken a turn for the insanity, pulling your mind so far down that you but thought to have seen it open and a pair of familiar ruby eyes peek out.

But when his voice echoes out from within the room, you’re assured otherwise.

“I-I’m but a little ill at the m-moment, my warrior!” you hear, voice sounding strained and shaky. “It would n-not be wise for me to entertain y-your c-…company.”

There’s a part of you that feels bad for the Exarch–for G’raha. Not only has the man yet been through so much already in his century of life in the First, but he has to deal with your renewed friendship and all of the awkwardness it may come with from his attempt to conceal his identity (though you’ve accepted since that it was necessary, grateful only in the fact you were able to save him).

After all of that, he is being forced to deal with a problem so intimate that he feels ashamed about it?

Your stomach twists in sympathy as much as it does an embarrassing amount of arousal.

“It’s okay,” you say at last, stepping close to the door in the hopes it would allow G’raha to hear you clearly. “I…know what’s really going on.”

Nothing but cold silence comes from the other side of the door.

You swallow down what feels like a small rock in your throat. Despite being able to sound so assuring and confident in moments of battle and stress, you can hardly feel like you sound the same in moments when it truly counts. “I ran into Lyna in the market. You’re…going into season right? Going into heat?”

More silence. It lingers until the air feels heavy with it, a lack of response that in turn leaves you feeling even more nervous than before.

For a few moments you even wonder if G’raha can even hear you, but his voice at last rings out softly through less than a fulm of crystal, “I…am sorry that you’ve to see me like this. P-please, I would be left alone for several days t-to take care of this issue on my own.”

“Is that what you really want?”

“…”

You step closer still to the door, until all you can do is rest your hands upon the cold crystal surface, almost willing for him to be able to feel even an onz of your warmth through it. A gentle trickle of adoring sympathy begins to press into your chest, as if you can think of naught else but taking the man in your arms and helping him through this.

To kiss him softly, to assure him that it’s okay.

That you want him.

“Please let me help you,” your words finally escape from your mind in but a soft murmur. “I can help you–this isn’t something you have to endure alone.”

There’s almost a growing desperation blooming within your chest, an ache in knowing that your old friend was suffering in a form. In truth, it was but even a longing for him, an echo of desire you could almost seem to feel in the space between your bodies, separated only by the door.

The man doesn’t respond to you, leaving you to wonder if he truly means what he says–if he doesn’t want anyone else to be with him in his vulnerable state, to which you can understand if that is the honest truth. You will respect that.

But, after a breath, a set of words linger behind your lips, a final assurance for you to turn around and hope that he will get through the coming days without an excess of discomfort. Fingers curl against the cold crystal door, until they pull into fists that tense with all the same emotions deep in your belly.

“I want to help you,” you say, the space around you suddenly feeling as if frozen in time even as you speak. “Please, G’raha, I want to help you right now–I want–…I want you, G’raha.”

Everything stops.

The air. The sound. Your heart.

Your thoughts.

For what feels like an eternity, every single thing is as if nonexistent and intense in the same breath. You can’t properly describe how you suddenly feel as if a million sets of eyes lay upon you, the star itself stopping its constant motion through the universe to turn a heavy gaze onto where you stand.

It’s unclear how many moments pass before something breaks the frozen silence. Seconds, minutes, bells–it could have even been an entire eternity, for it felt like such before you hear the gentle creak of noise that alerts you to motion.

Your hands feel the door shift, slightly, and you allow them only to drop back to your sides as the Ocular at last comes into view beyond the open entrance-

G’raha Tia stands within it, and only now are you able to get a proper look at him.

He looks, for lack of a better term, utterly debauched.

His eyes are bright, looking almost wet, echoing in color to a flush that lay thick across his cheeks.

Red hair lays loose over his shoulders, which themselves are but barely covered by what you’d hardly call clothing–it’s barely little more than a wrapping of linen around his body, hanging around his form and cinched somewhere at the waist.

It looks like something he would wear beneath the rest of his clothes you’ve grown used to seeing him wear–if you’d have enough time to stare, you might’ve even been able to pick out the subtle curves of his chest and nipples beneath the nearly-sheer fabric, shamefully pert.

He appears all manner of aroused you prepared yourself for, but it’s the scent that puts everything into desperate clarity.

The smell of sex and need, undeniable, and it hits you with all the ferocity of a punch to the gut. If you had even the strongest doubts as to what the man has likely been doing the last several days, then one breath of the mesmerizing, hot scent would put it away with the quickness a lightning strike.

G’raha looks at you from where he stands in the doorway, his body half-hidden behind the door. After a few moment of silence, his eyes begin to drift downward, as if unable to meet your gaze for longer than a breath.

Embarrassed.

Ashamed.

You feel a tug at your chest with the simple motion, a sudden influx of feelings that almost threaten to swallow you up whole. You want to reach out and touch him, hold him, kiss away the tears of frustration that threaten yet to fall down the soft curves of his cheeks.

But you restrain yourself on but a thread, jaw tight and body tense.

“Will you let me help you?”

G’raha is silent for a few moments more, and you’re scared that he might close the door again. You’re actually scared of the moment being cut short, if only now because you can see how desperately far-gone the man is in an instinctual lust he can’t stop from experiencing.

He takes in a breath–you notice how he shivers from that–and finally lifts his eyes back up to meet your gaze.

“I deserve not y-your kindness after keeping myself hidden f-….from you, my dear friend,” he sounds as if barely able to keep his words coherent and strung-together in sentence form. “I hope y-you do not…think less of me as I stand here in this sorry state, b-but….”

His lips finally twitch, slowly, into a smile almost reminiscent of the one he offered to you but suns ago–the one that freed you at last from the light coiling within your body, the one where you saved him from Emet-Selch.

The smile makes your soul feel soft and warm and everything in-between.

G’raha’s smile lingers as he murmurs, still strained, “…I would want n-nothing….more than your company right now.”

Before you can say anything, before you can even think, impulse and instinct override it all and send you at last surging forward-

Until you can grasp the man and tug him into your arms, until you can lean your face and press your lips against his own, already soft and warm and swollen from having been bitten between his own teeth.

G’raha but melts against you, placid and warm, his lips eager and hands grasping needily at your body.

“Please,” he murmurs into your mouth, his tail twisting around your hip as if to pull you closer. “Been waiting for so long for this. For you.”

Heat blossoms in your chest and belly alike, words affirming and pure in meaning more than your mind can hope to comprehend in the moment.

“You have me,” you clutch him closer, until there is no space left between your bodies. “And I’ll never let you go.”

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Tell Me to Stay (And I Will) [1/4]

AO3 Version

Relationship: WoL!Reader/Crystal Exarch

Rating: NC-17

Chapters: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4

Summary: After the events of Shadowbringers, the Exarch is excited to rekindle the friendship you and him once had together, though fate seems to have other plans for him. When your prolonged presence around him sets off a heat well over a century past-due, he'll have to put those plans off until after his body is done with the feelings of yearning and lust that consume him.

When you learn of the man's problem however, you're far from wanting him to deal with it alone--so will this foreseen challenge break the fragments of your old friendship...

...or will it reforge them into something more?

-

There is a yearning that finds itself within the man’s chest as he looks upon you.

It is more than the sweet, boundless joy he expected when he fantasized about being able to speak to you as himself, even knowing his plan of action to save you and the First would lead to his demise–one that he was saved from in the end of course, through no shortage of luck and perseverance he did not at all deserve.

Regardless of how fate had chosen to unravel around the two of you, G’raha is left with a yearning far deeper than anything he prepared himself for. It sits deep within him, mind and body both, and blossoms like a crimson rose.

Burning. Searing. Agonizing.

The sensations hit the Seeker so hard that it’s hard for him to even think. So many years he had prepared himself for your arrival, so many years thinking and pondering and planning–how could he fall apart so easily?

It takes many days for the answer to come to the man, from memories long-past of issues he never thought he’d deal with again; the boiling in his belly, the fire between his legs, the ache in his chest that he felt with every glance in your direction and breath that he took into his lungs with the succor of your scent upon it.

A heat.

The realization blindsided the man almost as much as the physical sensations themselves–after he had merged his being with the Crystal Tower, G’raha simply assumed much of his bodily functions would alter or outright cease–and he had been correct to some extent, despite knowing precious little of what other effects the union may have on his physical form.

But he never once considered that he would feel such a burning need once more in his belly as he does for you. The raging fire of hormones that leave him wondering if he is literally dying despite all the effort you put in to save him–but he’s not, thank the goddess, and so he’s left to try and deal with himself with no shortage of confusion and long-numbed memories of what it was like to be a young Seeker taking care of his own heats.

He is grateful for the privacy of the Ocular.

As G’raha takes himself in-hand, he is so grateful that the walls are thick to deaden the noises that come within. He is grateful for that of your scent lingering in the air from your many visits in the past several days. He is so very grateful that he can but feel your touch upon his skin when he closes his eyes and thinks about it–your arms around him tight, hugging the Seeker close against you when you were finally able to have a reunion without the fear of losing one another.

Oh yes, G’raha was so grateful for it all. The man could but clutch to the thoughts as tightly as his fingers wrap around his cock, fist stroking himself over at a feverish pace to pull one orgasm after another, his lips constantly shaping around the sound of your name in a moan no less than reverent.

“My warrior,” the Exarch, the man once known only as G’raha Tia, moans shamelessly into the air of the Ocular. “My dearest warrior, I yearn for you so. Need you. Want you.”

His words sound as soft as a prayer.

As the man draws yet another messy, hot orgasm from his body, he can’t help but feel a distinct shiver run down his spine, wondering what sort of mess he would make if you were the one to help guide him through the blistering heat rather than his own hand.

For the rest of the day and into the evening, the Exarch can merely entertain himself on idle fancies and filthy thoughts, his fingers scarcely enough to satisfy the craving that lay deep in the pit of his stomach. Where he desires warm hands and wet lips, he can but barely get a fraction of the pleasure with the friction of his own hands, palms soon slick with sweat and precum, stroking himself over until he feels raw and yet needing of more.

The man has counted four orgasms by the time the fire in his stomach has finally died into a dull smolder of heat–a fifth, perhaps, if one would count the very last, with his hips too weak to thrust and his pleasure dry and cock aching even as it barely throbbed against his hand. He can spill not even a drop more of warm seed–though the Exarch has already made a sufficient mess of himself from the many wet climaxes prior, and the dry climax is a mild blessing, if not physically infuriating in how little it quells the fire.

So the Exarch sits in the ocular, in his private quarters and among the towers of books he’s read a dozen times over each. He sits on the ground, body strained and mind a whirlwind of thoughts and emotions, leaning his head back until it hits the wall behind him.

There’s no noise in the ocular save for his gasping breaths and rapidly beating heart.

He is grateful for a lack of reflective surfaces. The Exarch can but feel how much of a debauched mess he is without needing a visual aid; hood fallen, robe open, legs splayed and a cooling stickiness coating across his lower stomach, dripping down his inner thighs. His face feels as hot as stoking coals and his fingers yet twitch, as if his body yearns for but one more orgasm, one more blissful moment of euphoria, just one more-

But he can’t. Even the raging fire of his belated heat can’t win against exhaustion, and he was caught vastly unprepared for the level of arousal that would be raging through his body. With neither the resources or lovers to take, the Exarch knew he would have but himself to deal with the issue for the time being.

In the old, distant memories he could still fathom with some stunning clarity, he recalled having to deal with the rare heat every other season. Most of the times they lasted but a single sun, mayhap two if he was particularly unlucky with his hormones. He never quite knew why he had them, only in that some Seeker males could get them even if they did not fill the role as a tribe’s nuhn. It was an issue that the Exarch–G’raha Tia–never cared enough about to bother researching.

After all, how could he find issue with feigning a terrible sickness and having a day to himself, excused in all of his shame to take himself in hand and jack off to all manner of thoughts he’d dare not to speak about otherwise?

But he was a young man then, as G’raha Tia. Now he is a leader, a man of responsibility, and he cannot afford to lock himself away for however long his body deigns to keep him locked in the hot embrace of boiling need that seems to color every thought in his mind. He can’t afford to let it linger–and there’s not telling how long this heat may last.

There was one time that the Exarch had ever managed to mute his heat, or conceal it enough that it only vaguely hindered his ability to function. He had been tired, irritable and overstimulated at every turn, but he at least did not feel utterly compelled to fuck the nearest consenting adult who would allow him the pleasure in their touch.

Or well, he still did, just….

It had been sometime after he met you. When he was still a young man with too many opinions and nowhere to set them, no shortage of goals and hardly enough time to figure them out. He wanted for knowledge obsessively, and rolled his eyes at any challenge that came between him and his exploration.

In fact, his heat was triggered in much the same way as this one–the lingering, beautiful scent that hugged you tight, the sight of you caught betwixt battles, the way you held yourself above all others. It takes so desperately little before the Seeker is left at the mercy of his raging hormones, body filled with the carnal need to mate mate mate until he can barely keep a cohesive train of thought.

Luckily, by the time you came to Mor Dhona and met with him officially, he’d already taken precautions; a well-informed Rambroes (who was the only one aware of his seasonal afflictions), a very expensive tincture from a traveling alchemist, and several hours of private time to work out enough pleasure so that the tincture could take effect.

It was not pleasant by any means. The Exarch can still recall the way his body hated him dearly for suppressing it, how he felt itchy all over and craved nothing more than to swim in the nearest body of icewater. If you had thought anything of the man in your first couple days of friendship, then the man had been blessed to be totally unaware of it–and even if you did, he hopes dearly that you’ve long-forgotten it.

But this is no Mor Dhona, and there is not a young Seeker happy to enjoy the bubbling hormones of his body. There is but an old soul who wants the mercy of peace from his traitorous emotions, if only so that he can enjoy a proper reunion with you without sullying it with what filth his mind has conjured up in multitudes.

In the brief few bells of sobriety from arousal, the Exarch is at least able to clean himself up proper and hail for Lyna. Though he is begrudged to call for anyone in such a state, he trusts her more than enough to heed his words without imploring too deeply into the details.

Because if the first day of this new heat was this bad, only the mercy of the heavens would get the Exarch through the rest–that and a tincture, if there was but even one soul who could procure it for him.

---

No matter how long you wander, the Crystarium is but a maze. There’s likely a semblance of logic to be found in the grand city’s layout, though you’ve yet to understand even an onz of it. Even Ul’dah, with all of it’s back alleys and twists in directions, made more sense to you than the sprawling settlement of the First.

It’s not without some charm though, as you’ve come to enjoy. Where you may be left wanting for a more logical sense of direction in its amenities, there’s no shortage of kind folk who are happy to set you on your way without fuss or issue. In your simple journey to the marketplace you’ve gotten turned around at least three times, and have had just as many nameless Crystarium residents help you find your way.

You step into the open room (if one can even call it that for how large it is) and begin your errands without much thought.

First, your armor and weapon need mending. The lack of attention over the last several battles had left more scuffs and scratches than you’d care to let linger, and the repairs would take no more than a small sum of gil and several bells worth of time. You get that out of the way first with no issue; the mender offers you a smile and a promise to have your items ready later in the afternoon, so you give him the same smile and move on to your next idle chore.

Restocking your potions is a more expensive task, but a necessary one. Too many times were you on the receiving end of near live-threatening attacks to be saved but by the magical effects of a well-timed potion; it’s become vital to have at least a few on your person, even if they are wholly unneeded in one form or another. The last thing you needed, of all people, would be for word to get back to the Scions that you got into a messy situation with little preparation.

You had grown familiar with the alchemists and potion masters of the Source among the many larger cities–in the First however, you’re yet to remember faces beyond the very few you’ve interacted with extensively. The constant barrage of duties left your mind in a whirlwind, so you were lucky to have even the mildest sense of direction while in the marketplace itself.

With enough gil in your pocket to by at least a few of the highest-quality health potions, you make your way over to the vendor you recall as having sold them to you before.

The market is bustling, thanks to the return of the sky’s natural state allowing merchants of all sorts to travel between Norvrandt’s cities. You can’t find a reason to be annoyed even as you try to press through the shifting crowd, a word of apology falling from your lips every few moments when you inevitably cross paths with another. By the time you come to the apothecary's stand however, you’re but mildly irritated to see that there’s someone already at the counter.

That is, until you see precisely who it is speaking to the merchant. Between her uniform and the shape of the tall, fluffy ears extending from the top of her head, you recognize Lyna with ease. You are mildly surprised to see her at the marketplace, considering that all of the resources procured for the Crystarium’s militia were sourced without her direct involvement.

You step close just in time to catch a portion of the conversation.

“You don’t understand Keel-Sai, I need this tincture,” she says, tone almost exasperated. “I have been given very strict orders to obtain it.”

“Captain, I understand that you may need it dearly, but I simply cannot make such a formula on such short notice.”

The apothecary, a middle-aged Miqo’te woman–Mystel, you remind yourself–looks genuinely apologetic. She lifts her hands in a motion to calm the unnerved Vii, though it’s obvious that Lyna cannot be soothed by mere motions and apologies.

“Please,” she says, leaning her hands onto the countertop. Her voice falls low, but you’re yet close enough to still catch the words- “…..Exarch himself asked for it….personal issues…illness….”

The sound of the man’s title catches your attention instantly, causing you to step closer and gain both women’s attention without so much as a moment for your mind to think if it was the right action to take.

“Did you say there was something wrong with the Exarch? Is he sick?”

For a moment, both of them are silent, merely staring at you as if you’d grown a second head. Lyna fumbles over some words, but it’s the apothecary who reacts first, letting out an almost jovial chuckle as she reaches up a hand and runs it through her hair, ears flicking.

“With the kind o’ tincture the captain’s askin’ for, I don’t think he’s all that ill, though I bet he’s not feeling the most comfortable right now.”

She laughs for a few moments longer before Lyna seems able to collect herself, expression somewhere between embarrassed and annoyed, though unsure whom to toss the emotions at.

“Please keep your voice down!” she exclaims, quick to throw one of her hands over her own mouth when her own words come out a touch too loud. After a moment the Vii narrows her eyes and, begrudgingly, beckons you closer.

You do so without a word, unsure whether you should be more curious, concerned or amused by the turn of events.

Nevertheless, once close enough, the captain seems content to start speaking again–her voice is hushed and soft, and you can’t help but join with Keel-Sai to lean in to listen to her.

“Listen,” she murmurs, brow drawn in worry. “I was simply informed by the Exarch that he is ill and requires this tincture; he offered no further explanation and I am not one to question him, especially in a matter obviously private.”

“Well,” Keel-Sai says, caring little to match the hushed tone of Lyna’s voice with a half-cocked smirk on her lips. “I suppose private is one way to describe what he’s likely goin’ through right now. Never thought the Exarch was able to have issues like that anymore, considerin’ his age and, well….” she makes a vague gesture with her arms upwards, and with but a moment of thought you realize she’s gesturing towards the Crystal Tower.

“What is he going through?” Lyna’s eyes narrow with the question.

“Oh honey, you don’t know what this tincture is even for?”

The Vii shakes her head after a moment, the motion as wary as the expression on her face. The Mystel apothecary looks something between amused and sympathetic as she glances towards the captain, and then finally towards you.

“…he’s a Mystel himself, am I right?”

Before Lyna can say something to avoid the question, you merely (stupidly) start to nod. Though much of the man’s personal details were lost to the entirety of the Crystarium, you knew him well–you knew G’raha Tia better than anyone else on the First, you’d even bet. If there is something ailing him, then you would rather deal with the consequences after he got the care that he needs.

Lyna is a breath away from saying something to you, but yet again the apothecary speaks before the Vii has the chance.

“Aye, then I certainly don’t have the time to make what he’ll need to quell it–even if I begun gathering the ingredients now, he’ll be as high as a Eulmore resident by the time I’ll have it done.”

When all you and Lyna can offer is a stare in Keel-Sai’s direction, the Mystel woman merely blinks.

“…traditionally, we Mystel would take this tincture in order to avoid going into season.”

Lyna blinks, staring blankly as if the words hold little meaning to her, which is a rather strange expression to see upon the face of the captain of a militia. Nevertheless, it’s a genuine look of confusion.

Keel-Sai looks as if she’s not sure whether to sigh or laugh–she eventually gives into the former.

“Honey,” she starts, speaking gently. “The ol’ Exarch himself is comin’ into season. Into his heat.”

When you glance over to the Vii, you see that her eyes are as wide as gil coins. She looks as surprised as you feel, thoughts rolling over the information you’ve taken in over the course of just a few minutes–where you had been worried about the Exarch being half-dead, you are quick to realize that the issue is far more intimate than that.

Keel-Sai seems to find the situation amusing, as she chuckles once more.

“If he’s anything like the males I’ve been with,” she quirks a brow, hands perched upon her hips. “-then he’s probably mewling away like a kit, especially if he’s got nothing to do but use his-”

“I don’t need to hear anymore about it, thank you very much!”

Lyna waves her hands rapidly in front of herself, looking far more unnerved than you’ve ever seen her in even the thickest of battles.

“I have heard quite enough to get the point–the man is like my grandfather, seven hells Keel-Sai.”

The Mystel only offers a shrug of her shoulders in apology, the smile never leaving her face for a moment. It leaves you a free moment to think about the situation at-hand. Of the Exarch–of G’raha–dealing with a heat.

And, oddly enough, the realization makes your stomach flip.

There’s something about the thought of your old friend lost in the need of carnal pleasure that sends your heart beating twice as fast as before, your chest feeling tight and the sound of blood rushing in your ears. You wonder if he’s in his room, if he’s found a comfortable place to lay himself–would he have already started trying to quell the fire between his legs? Would he have himself in hand and someone’s name upon his lips?

Is that name yours?

Hopefully you don’t look the part, because you can’t help but look to Lyna with what is hopefully an expression of concern and comfort.

“…if nothing else can be done in terms of potion, I can visit him to see if there is naught I can offer to help. Mayhap even the company of an old friend would sooth his nerves?”

You try desperately not to pay much attention to the look that Keel-Sai gives you. You can feel the gentle quirk of the woman’s lips though, allowing you some grace, she pretends to shuffle off to attend something else at her stall and leaving you and Lyna to speak with a vague sense of privacy.

The Vii holds you with a firm look. Her brow is drawn tight over her eyes, ears drawn low and, for lack of a better term, the captain seems genuinely nervous.

“…you are an old friend of his,” she says eventually, more to herself than to you. “If there is but anyone who can offer him comfort, then I suppose you are the one to do so. Just…please, take…care of him?”

You look at her for a moment, feeling as awkward as she looks.

“I mean-” the Vii stumbles over her words. “Obviously you don’t have to take care of him, but if there’s no other way than to like, take care of him then-”

She stops speaking, closing her eyes tight and raising both hands up to cover her face. With this, the woman lets out a dull groan.

“You know what I mean.”

For lack of a better response, you simply nod, trying desperately not to think about the way your stomach twists and heart flutters at the filthy thoughts of the Exarch–of G’raha–with splayed legs and flushed face and throbbing–

“Yeah, I’ll make sure he’s okay. I’ve actually been with him during one of his ah….heats.”

Lyna finally lowers her hands to eye you, expression something between confused and wary. You but lift your hands and gesture gently to save what little dignity is left within you.

“I mean, I know how he deals with them. Shortly after we met long ago, he went through one and…Likely he’ll be the same way as then.” You lower your hands, vaguely recalling the old memories of when the Exarch was simply G’raha Tia. When he spent the first few days after meeting you reclused and irritable–if he was merely the same, then you had little to worry for. “…It might be less weird for me to show up than for you without the tincture.”

A moment passes. Whether it’s your logic that wins out or the fact that Lyna likely doesn’t want to confront the man herself–the man she was nearly raised by–she nods solemnly regardless.

“Then I will allow you to the Ocular without argument,” she says at last, straightening her posture. “And will act as if I never told you this information at all, warrior. What you choose to do with this knowledge is…above my ability to stop.”

It sounds more as if she’s convincing herself of something, but you don’t have the moment to ask for certain before the captain is already walking away from you at a brisk pace, too quick for you to catch without turning heads.

You stare off into the crowd for a few moments before the noise of someone clearing their throat catches your attention back towards the stall behind you. Keel-Sai stands there, one hand pressed to the counter and the other holding something. A small glass bottle, a clear liquid visible within.

“I’m not a woman to spread no secrets or rumors,” she says, tone soft and assuring. "But I am also not one to keep my nose out of someone's business if I can all help them."

You take her words with comfort, but eventually glancing towards what is held in her hand. She smiles, holding it out to you with a certain twinkle of amusement you can’t read. Though you’re wont to take the random liquid from folks, especially in your many misadventures in the one-off tainted drink, you feel enough trust to at least hold out your hands to take what she’s offering.

“You might need this,” the Mystel says, laying the bottle in your hands and closing your fingers around its body. “If the Exarch can’t stop himself from goin’ into season, the man at least deserves to enjoy it proper.”

For a moment you think to question the woman and her mysterious gift, but Keel-Sai silences it with a wink.

So instead all you do is thank her, the words as rushed and broken as the thoughts whirling around your head, and scurry off back into the crowd as you try desperately to remember what direction you are supposed to go.

[finalfantasyxivwritings]

Submitted by @owlespresso

Relationship: Wol!Reader/Thancred

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Deciding to take the advice of a dear friend, the Warrior of Light adventures across Norvrandt to explore the land with new eyes. Il Mheg is one such beautiful place you yearn to see, though equally dangerous in more ways than one would expect: beware of the pixies pranks and, more than anything else, don’t eat anything that they offer you.

You unfortunately fail in the second part of that warning.

-

Il Mheg is a wonder in its own right, a splendid land dotted with vibrant color that extended to not only the flowers, but those who lived there. 

You consider it a great honor to be able to traverse the land among the native people, the fae who generously allow them to pass through and visit. You were immediately curious about their culture, including the wide variety of colorful foods.

It became abundantly clear that they used flowers in several of their staple dishes, obvious from the way vendors flaunted them on the road and in the streets. 

The sun shone bright over Il Mheg as you wandered about, entranced by the quaint mushroom houses and bustling foot traffic. It was only a half-hour until noon, when you’d planned to rendezvous with Thancred in the center of the settlement, which left plenty of time for you to explore and indulge in some of the local treats!

Gil ready in hand, you trotted up to one of the fae vendors. The brief conversation you had passed by in an admittedly pleasant blur. They spoke so quickly that it was difficult to keep track of what they were saying, but you could only assume they were glad to see a paying customer.

The pastry that was shoved into your hands moments later was a visual feast of color. Pink pastry dough lovingly fashioned into several flowers was nestled against dollops of mint green-tinged whipped cream, and the entire thing was covered in crystalized sugar. All of it was wrapped up in a fluffy, cone-shaped crepe.

It was quite a sight to see, so glamorous that you almost didn’t want to eat.

Then, your stomach rumbled. 

Needless to say, the succulent pastry was scarfed down in about five seconds. Chomping down the last bite of the delicious treat left you wanting for more, but you restrained yourself in favor of minding the time. You didn’t want to be late for your meeting with Thancred. It had been awhile since you’d last seen him, and your concern for his well-being and eagerness to see him far outweigh your need for another crepe.

And that’s how you landed here.

While making haste to the Aetheryte, you were unable to stop marveling at your surroundings.

It seems as though you’re were early, though. Thancred’s nowhere in sight, leaving to your own devices. Well, at least there’s plenty to look! Your gaze flutters around the arera, taking in the pure mystique of it, catching bits and pieces of passing conversations. 

In the middle of hearing a fae’s qualms about the recent rains, something peculiar begins to rise within you. A steady, building heat that causes sweat to gather on your brow. Maybe it had just gotten hotter out? But that did little to explain the mounting arousal between your thighs. Your absentmindedly rub your thighs together, frowning when it did little to alleviate the tension.

Your lower stomach begins to tingle, a warmth bubbling in your body and making your cheeks much too hot.

This is unlike you. You know your body, and you know that this isn’t normal. 

Panic begins to set its claws into you as you desperately try to figure out what’s wrong, bouncing on your heels to the side of the clearing, unseeing gaze fixed on the gleaming Aetheryte.

Should you try to find a healer? Maybe ask around—gods no, you’d die of embarrassment!

Heading back to your inn room seemed ideal. Teleporting shouldn’t take too much out of you, but Thancred—

The sound of your name brings your thoughts to a cold, dead stop.

“There you are,” Thancred says, unmistakably happy to see you. Your heart jumps in your chest, the steady rhythm pounding in tandem with the thrum of arousal in between your legs. The afternoon sunlight catches on his stark, white hair and your pulse jumps, sings in relief at the sight of him, “My apologies. I mixed up where we were supposed to meet–was wandering around downtown like a lost fool.”

“Oh, it’s fine!” you assure him hastily, and it’s impossible to stop your gaze from running over his face. There’s the ever beguiling angle of his jaw, the curve of his lips–where your attention lingers for much too long before flickering downwards, “I wasn’t waiting for too long!” You get to the firm shape of his chest, outlined lovingly by his tight armor, before getting ahold of yourself and looking him in the eyes.

Which, is a bad decision, because oh gods, he’s looking at you and you suddenly feel like some hapless, giddy school child experiencing puppy love for the first time–besides the mounting, insistent need coiling inside of you.

“How blessed I am to be forgiven so easily,” the lavish croon of his voice makes your spine prickle, “Come along, we have all of Il Mehg to explore. We’ll have plenty of time to catch up on the way, I’m sure.” 

He gives your shoulder a firm pat, and even with the frustrating barrier of cloth between you, you feel another shock of need.

“Y-Yep! That sounds fi-fine,” you jump from your standing position and begin to scurry in the direction of the western exit, which leads out to a large, welcoming field of flowers with a few large, scattered trees. 

There’s the thumping of Thancred’s boots behind you, and you don’t need to look at him to know he’s eyeing you with contemplative concern. 

You’re more interested in the idea of being chased–Thancred chasing you, being down on you from behind, pinning you to the ground–

No, no, bad. If you keep thinking like that, you’ll lose your wits and actually do something you might regret!

“Are you feeling alright?” he inquires as he matches your pace. You are very decidedly not alright, caught between cancelling this entire outing entirely, asking him to fuck you senseless behind one of those trees, or continuing to weather the strange, mounting symptoms until the day’s end. The latter option sounds the most unappealing. “You’re usually not so…”

“I’m fine,” you say, too quickly, too firmly. There’s a nervous bounce in your step as the both of you pass underneath the pearly gate and into the wilderness. Distantly, you wonder if one of the flowers from that delectable pastry is responsible for this, and if so, wonder which kind it is, “Just, uhm, feeling a little off today, is all. It’s nothing I c-can’t sleep off.”

“If you say so,” he says slowly, skepticism clear as day in his voice, “So! Where would you like to head first? There’s Longmirror Lake–I hear the massive ruins of an ancient city lay underneath it! Of course, there’s also the impossible to miss castle in the middle of Longmirror…”

He goes onto list several possible spots you could visit, outlining the best parts of each, but you have a hard time parsing his words when you’re so focused on the rhythmic sound of his voice, coupled with whatever ailment insists on ruining your day. Had it stayed to a minimal level, you likely would have been able to ignore it–but your knees are getting weak and the subtle movement of your clothes against your skin is suddenly more grating than ever before. The overwhelming scent from your floral surroundings only contributes to your dizziness.

Thancred says your name a second time, and shakes his hand in front of your face, jolting you from a daze you didn’t even know you’d been in. 

“Any of those are fine–whichever you want,” you bring a hand up to rub at the bridge of your nose. Your tongue feels like cotton in your mouth. 

“Alright, we’ll head to the lake, then. It’s the closest one,” fortunately, he has no qualms about making the decision. You’re hyper conscious of the air against your skin, your clothes weighing down your body, clinging with sweat. The scent of the flowers, Thancred’s warm presence beside you. Your fingers curl into tight fists, palms much too hot and slick.

“Okay,” you say and your voice is strained.

It’s eating at you. It’s eating at you and you can’t stand it. With every step, you feel the moisture that’s gathered on your undergarments rub back against your cunt. Your gaze flicks to look at him, fixing on the angle of his jawline, on the elegant shape of his nose.

“Is there something I can help you with?” he turns to look at you, lips upturned in a slight, amused grin. Prick, stupid prick and his perfect face–you’re suddenly stuck by the idea of your thighs clenched on either side of his head, his tongue dragging up and down your clit, lips working relentlessly at your cunt while his hands grip you tight. You take a sudden, deep inhale and you realize that you’ve stopped in place.

He repeats your name and suddenly, he’s much closer, leaning into your space and narrowing his eyes. You wish you were anywhere but here, right now, because all you can do is stare at his lips with wide, hungry eyes and hold your breath.

“Pardon my assumption, but you certainly don’t look alright to me. You’re not acting like yourself and your pupils are the size of dinner plates,” he says. He leans in and presses his forehead against your own to check your temperature, and his innocent concern seals both your fates.

Your mind gives out.

Whatever you’d been poisoned with possesses you for that one moment and before you could even realize it, you seal your lips against his own.

Oh gods, oh gods– Your brain ceases to work as panic wars with your ailment, and your body all but crumples into his arms, face pressed to his chest. He catches you, of course he does, because he’s Thancred. He’s Thancred, your Thancred–

“Oh, my god,” your voice is a mere whisper against his chest. Your left hand presses against his abdomen and the thundering, agonizing arousal reacts instantly, “I’m–I’m so sorry!”

You push away from him. Stupid, stupid, stupid! You’d ruined everything! You should have just said you weren’t feeling well You aim to take a step back, but the ankle where you put your weight slips on the dirt and. Panic and dizziness wind together and jumble your senses, your vibrant floral surroundings passing you in a blur as you start to fall. This is it, you sob internally, I’m going to die after looking like an idiot and kissing him out of nowhere–

Then there’s a firm grip on your wrist and you’re yanked to your feet. The momentum from the tug carries you forward and into his chest. Your face presses into his armor. He smells good, cologne and gunpowder and spice. You don’t want to move, not even to quell your feverish, unrelenting symptoms.

“Alright,” his voice rumbles deep in his chest and you can feel it, “It’s incredibly clear that something’s amiss. It would be in your best interests to come clean,” his arm tucks around your waist, pulling you tighter against him and your knees just about give out. He curses, letting go of your wrist and wrapping his other arm around you in a clumsy hold against his body, “Twelve, we should get you to a healer.”

Your hard nipples press tight against the constraining fabric of your cloak and it takes every ounce of your restraint to not start grinding up against him. Your body cries out for it, weeps for it, begs, but Thancred is your friend. Thancred is your friend and he deserves to know what’s going on.

“I ate a pastry back in town and I think it made me sick!” you urgently inform him, “I was just fine before that!”

“That explains it,” Thancred says with a sigh, his lips so close to your face, “Most of the plants here have… special side effects. The fae have lived here so long that they’ve developed immunities to most, if not all of them. It seems that the vendor who sold you that treat left out that particular detail,” you just about collapse with relief. Thancred knows what’s happening. Smart Thancred, strong Thancred–

Breed, breed, fuck, mate–

“That being said, it’s not a good idea for you to be out and about like this. We should get you somewhere safe,” Oh no. Does that mean he’s going to drop you off somewhere and leave? No, no, that’s the worst thing that could happen right now! Especially after going so long without seeing him, especially when you need him now more than ever.

“Don’t go!” the desperation in your voice comes as a surprise to even yourself, “I don’t–I want–”

Your frustrations mount as you try to articulate what you want, what you need.

“You want me to help you,” he spells your thoughts out and you nod, relieved that you don’t have to articulate them yourself. Thancred will take care of it for you. 

He doesn’t say anything else after that, likely deep in thought or in conflict.

“I trust you,” you whimper, “I’ve always trusted you, Thancred,” it pains you to tear your face away from his chest, but you tilt your head to look up at him and don’t regret it. His eyes are wide, lips slightly parted.

It’s so much, so much, so much and the pure amount of sensory assault makes you begin to tear up. You tilt your head back down to hide your face, hands balling in the fabric of his jacket. Your knees start to tremble again, cunt sopping and body screaming out for his hands on your chest, ass, back, anywhere!

“Shh, it’s alright,” Thancred hushes, and the bestial part of your brain coos in content, so delighted he’s here and that he’s taking care of you, “I have my reservations about this. Are you sure?”

“Yes!” you say, leaving not even a second of silence, “Please, I need you! I’ve wanted you even before this!” your voice trembles with the weight of what you’d just said and pitches with desperation. Throwing caution to the wind, you continue,  “Thancred, please. I wouldn’t ask this of anyone else,” if you’re going to confess your carefully guarded feelings, you might as well go all-out. Consequences be damned! You can deal with them when you can actually think straight, “I”

He ducks down and cuts you off with a kiss.

It starts off as only a slight, gentle press, merely testing the waters, before he tilts his head for a deeper angle. Your eyes slide shut and your entire body loosens in a show of submission, more than happy to let him lead the way. His fingers curl into your hair, holding you where he wants you. His tongue rubs against your lips and for a moment, you don’t respond, too pleasure hazed. 

He gives your hip a light slap and you gasp, giving his tongue ample room to feel every inch of your mouth and tongue in a dexterous dance that makes you glad he’s there to hold you up.

Your shaking hands reach up to clutch his shoulders, feeling the broad muscle underneath his form-fitting armor. Your bodies press tight together, and you cling to him even when the need for air forces you apart. You gasp for it, dizzy and surrounded by him, him, him. His firm grip around your waist, his broad chest nuzzled tight to you, his scent. He’s perfect and he’s the only thing keeping you on your feet.

A thrill rolls up your spine at the knowledge that he can manhandle you so easily.

“Come this way, dear,” he murmurs, and his face moves away. Your protesting whine is met by a low chuckle as he carries you from the road and into a nearby grove of trees, with thick shrubbery and branches. He’s talking, but you’re not listening, eyes lowered as you press your face into his shoulder again and take a deep inhale.

It’s impossible to keep track of where he’s bringing you, but in only a few moments you feel your back settle against a tree trunk. Vivid, pink leaves loom above your heads, the sweet smell of the blooms more overwhelming than ever.

He presses you in tight, weight covering you entirely. Satisfying, deep, contact, contact, contact. You feel the swell of his chest, the press of his clothed cock against your sopping core.

One of his hands cradles your cheek and you automatically tilt your head into it, exposing as much of your neck as possible. The roughened material of his glove grates slightly against your skin. You want them off, but your coherency sizzles away when his lips dance over the skin of your neck. He plants a vast array of fluttering kisses over the unmarked flesh, making you squirm and whine. He shushes you again, tongue laving over the crook of your neck, before he nips there.

You buckle again, falling onto the knee he manages to shove between your legs just in time.

“Fuck!” you cry, eyes screwing shut at the oversensitivity. Sweat slicks your forehead and you feebly flop back against the trunk. Your grip on his shoulders tightens as he palms a breast, reminding you that there’s still an awful, cloth barrier preventing you from feeling every inch of him.

“Can you come just from this?” he inquires, much to unaffected. His knee begins to grind back and forth against you and you ride it, pressure and friction so good, too good against your sopping folds.

“Thancred,” you breathe, burying your face into his shoulder. It’s all sweet ambrosia, a devilish, intoxicating cocktail of sensations that numbs your mind to everything but the here and now, whittles your world down to only him.

His hand strays from the back of your head and grabs at your shirt, deftly undoing the buttons. You help him, throwing i haphazardly to the ground.

Your hips roll and buck desperately against his built thigh, head tilting back, back arching as he squeezes a tit. His fingers grasp the edge of your bra and yank it down to free your breasts. The material of his glove is still coarse against your hardened nipple, but it’s contact and that’s all that matters.

Then he ducks down, starting to lavish your chest in attention. Your dragged back under the mindless, euphoric haze. His tongue rolls around your untouched nipple.

“Thancred,” his name emerges from your lips as a warbled moan, and he hums in response, wrapping his lips around the perked nub and giving a firm suck. “Ah!” you downright squeal, panting as his fingers drip to your trousers, toying with the waistband,.

Your hands scramble and claw against his armor, suddenly possessed by the urge to see him just as bare as you are, to press against his firm torso. 

“Off,” the demand comes out as a weak whimper, but he obliges. One of his hands reaches and starts to undo the numerous straps over his chest, while his mouth stays busy. His lips pop from your nipple with a lewd, wet noise but he only moves to the next, devoting his free hand to tugging your trousers down. 

Your movements are hurried and manic as you help him, shoving both your bottoms and undergarments off at once.

“Oh,” he says, your eagerness seeming to surprise him. From there, your hands fly to his chest, helping him out of that tight, but agonizingly complex armor, “My, aren’t you eager?”

“Wear something that’s easier to take off,” you grumble. The thrall of the heat still has you in its firm grip, loosening your verbal filter and clouding your decisions. Off, off, off, is all you want. It doesn’t matter that you’re out in the open, that anyone could stumble upon your tryst at any moment. There’s no Eorzea, no missions, there’s nothing that needs to be done besides him.

“I’ll make sure to give that a try,” Thancred draws, and the top piece of his armor falls to the ground, revealing… another, admittedly tight-fitting shirt. You give a hiss of annoyance and he chuckles, grabbing the hem and taking it over his head, gently depositing it next to his armor. While he does that, you kneel, fingers greedily grabbing at his best, “Twelve, you really work fast when you want to.”

You don’t honor him with a reply as you finally undo his best, and grab his trousers, yanking them to the ground. The sight of his still-clothed bulge greets you, and you’re immensely pleased to know he’s as invested in this encounter as you are.

Unabashedly, you press your face against him, nuzzle your cheek into it. His breath hitches and you feel a rush of satisfaction, until his hands grab your shoulders. You allow him to tug you upwards, giving a startled squeak when he envelops you in a passionate kiss, the kind that makes your knees weak and your lower stomach feel gooey, hot want.

His cock presses against your stomach and you can’t help but wonder how it’ll feel inside of you. 

“Follow my lead,” he breathes against your neck and you shudder merely at the feel of it. His calloused, still gloved hands grab at your thighs, twining them around his hips, “My, my, you’re already so excited,” he purrs as his cock dips against your soaked cunt. You just about sob, eyes shut tight, head tilting back against the trunk. He’s so close, so agonizingly close to where you need him the most!

“Just fuck me already,” you beg, plead, on the verge of tears.

He hums in affirmation, bringing his weeping cock close to your entrance. The slow slide inside you burns with both pain and pleasure, leaving you a heady, listless mess. Your hips roll into him, a feeble attempt to get as much pleasure as possible out of it.

Whatever concoction you’d ingested made you wet enough for this to work without proper lubricant, thank twelve. You wouldn’t have been able to wait for him to procure some.

Your trembling hands grab at his shoulders, tighter and tighter until he finally hilts within you, pelvises nestled together. A low moan unfurls in his chest and the desire in you lights anew, because finally, finally, he’s going to be just as affected and lost to ecstasy as you are.

“You can move!” you assure him, hips already beginning to twitch.

“Twelve, you feel good,” he says and swallows, throat bobbing. You follow the motion of it with keen concentration, leaning up to kiss his hot skin.

Then, he starts to move. His hips draw back and shutter forward, and you experimentally roll to meet him, mouthing absentmindedly at his chest. Your lips press against a nipple, tongue rolling over the hardening bud.

The pace picks up, and each time he slides back inside, his pelvis bumps your clit. You bite your lip as your nerves fray, a hand reaching down to rub at the bundle of nerves while the other wraps around his neck and clings.

“Make noise for me,” he says, “No one else is around to hear,” and that encouragement is all you need. 

He coaxes moan after moan, whimper and whimper out of you, muffling them with his own lips as he kisses you over and over. His tongue laves against your own, swallowing your pathetic little sounds. Your back slams against the trunk with each thrust, and the violence of it somehow sends your further into the brink.

Your eyelids flutter spasmodically and your heartbeat thunders in your ears, cunt throbbing with oversensitivity. Something molten hot and delightful blooms inside of you and you’re over the edge, cumming around his cock with little more than a minute of encouragement. 

Your juices spill around him and onto the grass beneath. You distantly hope none of it gets on his boots, which he hadn’t bothered to take off. 

You’re limp in his arms while he continues to fuck you, simply chasing his own orgasm. The idea of becoming little more than a sex toy for him is more arousing than it should be, but you don’t get to think further on it between his erratic, urgent thrusting.

“Fuck–” he snarls, low and deep as he pulls out of you. Cum shoots onto your stomach, warm and sticky and utterly fucking blessed.

Arms still around you, he staggers back and drops to his bottom, likely smooshing a few flowers in the process. He brings you with him, still seated on his cock even as he flops onto his back. Your face presses into his sweat-slicked chest and you wrinkle your nose, moving onto his side. His cock, still half hard, twitches inside of you and your breath hitches and the feeling.

The air is still, quiet with the exception of the chirping, vibrant wildlife.

“Thancred,” you murmur after several long moments, “We’re probably squishing the flowers–and we still have to see the castle! Gods, I’m so sorry,” With your problem taken care of, the reality of what’s just happened finally returns, as does your coherency. Gods above, you can’t believe you’ve done this!

Your brace one of your hands against the ground and you attempt to shift off of him–only to be tugged back down by an insistent arm around your waist. His cock has grown soft inside of you, but the fact that it still lingers makes you tingle with something warm and heady.

“No, stay here,” he grumbles, “The flowers will regrow. The castle will be there for the next millennia or longer.”

“But–”

“You’ve exhausted me, utterly and completely,” he teases, turning his head to kiss your forehead, “So indulge me.”

“Okay,” relief is palpable in your voice as you relent, settling against his side. Your eyelids lower, gaze absentmindedly sweeping over your surroundings, taking in the vivid blooms, the rich brown trunks, and… 

“Thancred, where have our clothes gone?”