Bad Luck
Sitting in the disproportionate
Waves of grief you left me
To deal with darkness dimming
Every last ounce of purity
Straight from my chest
While the monsters creep
Up my spine
They are tearing it out in front
While you cross your arms and watch
I almost won my battle
Wanted to be strong
But the truth is I'm the pretender
I was the scared one all along.
Couldn't get through to you
Really tried my best
But in the game of life
I don't resurface
Not even float to second best
Watch them kick me down
You can see it on a screen
I made mistakes
Playinging in your land
Of made up make believe
Your war goes on forever
Contining the loop
If you'd learn to jump for me
I'd be the parachute
Your circle cuts the rope around my neck like a noose
Ready to pin you at the end while they can all play pretend
That they aren't the ones who lit the match to run their roost
But maybe when I'm gone
The world will finally see
How hard I went to try and save them
Just by being me
But I was all alone
Love refused to hear me scream
Cut off connection like opposite ET.
You want to know why its sinking, the sailing ship you made
Because in place of a heart you took the accolades
When you took the wheels of the track
There was no real way to get it back
You're midnight to daylight
Lost in a daydream
Lied to on lillies with sweet salted cream
Being distracted by falsity sweet sugars, blueberries supreme
Eating in numbers, count calories
If you don't remember
Wake up in time
Everyone will see them
Take the light from your life
You wanted a circus
I'm a sideshow at best
You were a clown false made king
Who does nothing but hate
You wanted to see me hurt
Watch me suffer in pain
Are you laughing now seeing me
Wither slowly away
Is this what you wanted?
Just another pawn to discard
Used and abused waiting for solace gullible to play in rain
You pray I don't know pain
Honey you're holding the mirror
Cut me with the shards but still your vision isn't any clearer
You think I want your money
I really have to laugh
Who wants cursed gold
Ripped from pirates chests
So instead you strap me down
Cannon to my breast
When you get red angry
Its just a cut above the rest
You threw me in the ocean
Left me there to drown
While you're the one who walked away
Never to turn around
You'll never know truth
What I would miss
The thing I was craving
Would be....
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-G
