#liferealization

[nealshustermanreal]

One quote in particular struck out to me when I was writing Challenger Deep. I'd love to hear which words spoke to you the most below!

[roniiee0]

I was deleting pictures in my gallery until I saw these. Nung nag rereview pa ako neto for LE. This was taken last September. Naalala ko 'tong araw na 'to, 'twas the day nung nag file ako ng application form sa PRC.

Before I get up from my bed I was giving a second thought kung itutuloy ko pa ba yung pag take ng exam. Ang dami kong ginawang excuse sa sarili ko; I was too brokenhearted that I couldn't concentrate with every readings that are piled up already in my study table, I am being told to start working on my papers for UAE at the same time, the drills were getting harder every day, I couldn't finish any resource that I have, I couldn't even read every slides of the ppt that I took a picture of, I couldn't get myself thinking that I will pass the exam. I JUST COULDN'T. I know sa sarili ko na hindi ko kakayanin. So ayoko nang ipagpilitan yung sarili ko na bumangon at pumunta sa PRC para mag file ng application.

Pero tumuloy parin ako. I went to PRC sa branch nila sa Robinson's Manila since dun ako malapit kasi katapat lang niya yung review center. I processed my papers together with my friends as usual. Gustong gusto kong paniwalain yung sarili ko na para ako sa Psychology, pero kapag naiisip kong malapit na yung LE, pakiramdam ko binabagsakan na ako ng langit at lupa sa sobrang kaba at sa pag oover think na HINDI AKO MAKAKAPASA kaya minamaliit ko yung kakayanan ko.

Hanggang sa nakauwi na ako. Since I lived alone, kung ano yung iniwan kong atmosphere sa bahay ganun pa din yung nauwian ko. Down na down yung pakiramdam ko. Kahit gusto kong matulog, hindi ako makatulog. Then nag visit yung pinsan ko.. she wanted us to have dinner together. Pero naramdaman niyo na ba yung feeling na halos hindi ka makakilos sa sobrang lungkot ng pakiramdam mo, ganun yung pakiramdam ko kaya I told her to convince me even more lol.

But intead she took my phone and use random apps in it and saw a newly downloaded film camera app and tried it on me while she tells me some old but golden jokes from our childhood.

Not to mention that I was convinced to have dinner with her. We talked about the thing that's bothering me. I was close to giving up. Then somewhere along our conversation, something came into my mind that hit me; "Ang daming tao lalo na ang mga kabataan na kailangan yung services na kaya kong iprovide. Hindi lang pala talaga pang sarili or para sa magulang ko yung pinag hahandaan ko. Para din pala sa ibang tao to."

And now as I look back, I wouldn't be where I am today If I gave up in the middle of that journey. All I needed was hope. I'm glad I took a leap of it. 💕 Happy Sunday Tumblr! 🧡

[sarahpalibino]

Ctto for the post in ig

26 August 2024

I suddenly cried for to this post thinking. If i will ever experience this, having too old parents and me at 35, single, no stability, in different country away from parents, no bf, no married and maybe soon maybe ill be menopausal without children.

I always think that am ready to die a maiden,

I am able to handle myself whatever happens but with these always hit me with so much craving of will i ever be experiencing of giving my parents a grandchildren from me.

Will i ever be walked down in the aisle by my parents.

So much uncertainty with my life and everything is volatile.

I have amazing parents, theyre not perfect but i am disappointed that i cant give anything in this world that they deserve.

[loyzzie]

Finifugal - an end

My heart has been filled with resentment for the last few years over the unfulfilled apologies I had hoped for. That may be the cause of my depression. I am defending myself against allegations that I caused the separation of a couple who were supposedly married. In fact, they had been separated for more than six months before I was involved. Moreover, there was another girl who was linked to him before me.

She created a fictitious Instagram account and stalked me. I discovered this by checking who was viewing my stories. I reached out to her to understand how she felt. However, the situation took a turn for the worse. At the time, she was dating someone else, and together they repeatedly stalked my account and made false accusations.

At first, I tried to ignore it, but it escalated to the point where they judged my appearance and made comments about my current relationship, which was unacceptable. She became even more furious when I posted about my relationship on Instagram. Using the fake account, she posted a story questioning why there was a need to make our relationship public.

This is my Instagram account, and I had already been posting about my relationship before she ever said anything about sharing it.

I was not comfortable with the situation because I had been cheated on in my previous relationship, but I never treated them the way she treated me. I was not part of their relationship and had never been involved in their separation, yet I was dragged into their issues.

I later discovered that my photo was being circulated in their group chat, accompanied by unreasonable and offensive comments about me. I stood up for myself, and more people became involved. Some of my friends sent me screenshots of a discussion on a post where she and her colleague labeled me as “the immature girl.”

That was not the worst of it. Her siblings began messaging me, saying they would file a case against me. Although she is currently outside the country, they claimed that I was the reason for their argument. They used words like “gago” and “papansin.” Those words deeply hurt someone who is still healing from a toxic relationship and trying to fix herself.

She also sent a message to my partner’s mother, claiming that her entire family was upset with me.

I developed anxiety and depression. A month after our last dispute, I found out that I was three weeks pregnant, and I burst into tears. After that, I stopped defending myself and blocked everyone who was causing me pain. I did not want to lose my child because of these circumstances.

I prayed to God to save me, and He answered my prayer with a child. From that moment on, I knew this child was the answer.

I know there is a purpose in why God placed me in this situation—vulnerable and lost, yet searching for peace of mind. I noticed myself becoming stronger with each step of that search. I believe I found the cure, but I failed to recognize it as the cure I was looking for. It was there in front of me, waiting for acknowledgment and acceptance.

I realize that I didn't actually need her apology nor to give her my forgiveness. It was acceptance that at some point of life we will meet people who will turn our life upside down. Life will continue each day until our last breath. Some people will move on, while others won't. It was now our decision to either be in vain or start anew. I know that all wounds heal with time, so I won't mind if we make amends in the future. I move on, and so does life. Right now, my priorities are my growing family.

[alissacorreadelrosario]

I see so much opportunities this time when I am single so I think I am still not ready to be in a relationship. I am really just enjoying my life and fixing my relationship with myself first. 

Here's to more growth and maturity during this season of my life. Thank You Lord for this blessing and for instilling my heart this realization.

Be okey with being alone and then when you know that you filled yourself with self love, that is the time that you will enter in a relationship again. 

Love lots, A💞

[alissacorreadelrosario]

2022 Highlights and Message

My life is like a movie. I know that I will be telling a different story very soon. A story filled with success and inspiration about how I overcame every battle and still came out on reaching my dreams.

Happy New Year everyone. 2023 is fast approaching. Thank You Lord for this year 2022. I am so thankful Lord for the gift of life and the gift to serve my dear patients. Thank You Lord for reminding me that this is the life that I’ve prayed for when I was in college. Let me enjoy this season by serving other people through my chosen career path. Lord please use my hand to alleviate the pain of people in their oral cavity, restore their smiles and help them to build their self-esteem through dental treatments that I can offer. Thank You Lord for letting me see the world in my naked eyes. The world is such a beautiful place to experience and I want to create so many memories all over the world.

Meanwhile, I’ve read this post while I was just scrolling in my facebook newsfeed. I think this is God’s message of affirmation to everyone, I would like to share this to you my dear readers: “God is so good to give us new days and years, since He knows we need so many times to start over”.  Indeed, we all need a fresh start and a new beginning.

Dear readers, let us TRUST the Lord in the next chapter of our life. Turn the page and don’t ever look back in the bad chapter. Always remember that the PAST DOESN’T DEFINE OUR FUTURE. It’s just like driving a four wheel vehicle: Kapag papunta sa lugar na pupuntahan natin, ang driver ay dapat sa harap nakatingin at hindi sa likuran, kasi kung sa likod nakatingin ang driver, mababangga at maaksidente tayo.    Focus in the present and just trust the Lord in our future. There are times that we will look in the rear view mirror of the car while driving but those times are just to remember the lesson that it taught us. We will never reach the destination God wants us if we will keep on going BACKWARDS.  

Allow God to write the story of our year 2023. Love yourself more because you cannot share the love if you don’t truly love yourself so I think first love is always the first step. I have so much realizations this year and I have no regrets with all of my experiences and decisions this year 2022

For now, let’s look back in my wonderful year of 2022. I’m welcoming 2023 with a grateful heart and just pure intentions.  

Dear reader, just click the keep reading link below if you want to continue reading because it’s gonna be a loooooooooooooooooong ride. Haha!

January

Almost everyday of duty in the  clinic is boring so I planned an out of town trip with my Uncle Edwin and his girlfriend. I’m the driver. We've visited the Highland Bali around Nueva Ecija.

Maybe, someday, I can also visit Bali, Indonesia.

February

This month goes to another adventure . It was a very loooong journey and a lot of zigzag roads upon reaching Buscalan. Nakakahilo 'yung byahe! Ayoko na bumalik dun! Haha. It was actually nice to finally meet the living legend, Apo Whang Od. I don’t want to have a tattoo in my body. I just want to meet Apo Whang Od in person and have a photo opportunity with her.

I've joined the group tour named Juan Explorer together with my Uncle Edwin, Ate Honey and Ate Ann and we've gained new friends in this trip.

To be honest, climbing the top of Buscalan needs a lot of patience. I am not into climbing mountains. I got so tired during the trip and I need to stop for a bit a little while because I feel shortness of breath during the climb. Thank you to all who gave me moral support that I can reach the top.

We spent our night in Buscalan Homestay. Sabi ko ayoko na umulit haha. The trip was so memorable and it was indeed fulfilling but I have to admit that I need to have a good stamina in my next mountain climb. Sabi beginners lang daw 'yun Buscalan, e bakit ganun hirap na hirap ako haha. Pagbaba nga ng bundok nagbayad na lang ako sa magdadala ng bag ko haha

Actually, I want to climb Mt. Pulag. E paano ako aakyat ng Mt. Pulag kung sa Buscalan pa lang na beginners pasuko na ako?! ahaha

I want to reach the summit of Mt. Pulag. I added that already in my bucket list but I have fear of heights.

March

This month is when I have a scheduled removal of Torus Palatinus under intravenous sedation in the clinic! I am the oral surgeon in the said case. I have to schedule an appointment with Nurse Jeff and the anesthesiologist, Dr. Tecson. If the patient wants to have an anesthesiologist so that he or she will feel more relax during the oral surgery, I usually suggest it but the patient will pay additional fee for that.

Thank you to my dear patient for trusting my hands in doing the procedure. Still, God is the best surgeon and I always ask for the Lord's guidance everytime I do complicated surgical cases.

After 1 week, I've asked the patient to visit the clinic again for suture removal and recall. Thankful that my patient is satisfied with the oral surgery procedure that I've done when I asked her and I've also asked her consent if we can take pictures for some documentations

Next, I went to Dingalan Aurora with my friends: Jasmine and Daniella. It was fun to get some Vitamin Sea after all the stressful work.

Dingalan is so beautiful. It was like a paradise on earth.

April

It was just a month full of clinic duty. I need to work hard to save for my future trips next month. I will be out of the country for the month of May for two reasons: my birthday celebration and I need to study abroad. It was self-funded so I really need to work hard. I have to pay all the bills--- my tuition fee, my allowance, plane tickets and hotel bookings for the Advance Course in Aesthetic Restorative Dentistry (ACARD) at Phomn Penh, Cambodia. All of the countries in South East Asia are already advanced when it comes to dental technology. Napag iiwanan na ang Pinas! According to my colleagues, dental practice in Cambodia is rising because of the advanced technologies.

May

It’s my birth month and my only wish is to be able to travel internationally again. I am so glad that the travel and aviation industry is back after almost two years. To be honest, I really want to fly internationally since the pandemic started but there are so many restrictions so I am so glad that SIngapore is open for international travel with no hassle.  There’s no quarantine and it is very convenient for a travel for leisure. I’ve celebrated my birthday in Singapore with my dentist friend, Doc Kathreen and it was fun!

As I grow older, I also learned to invest in those that will increase value in the future like land properties and gold investments. So, here's a little gift for myself during my SG trip.

First time flying business class! A gift for myself for working so hard, a business class flight from SG to Cambodia via Singapore Airlines.

I need to fly to Cambodia for my further studies in dentistry. I believe that an investment in knowledge so that I could treat my patients BETTER is a good investment.

I've stayed in Sunway Hotel Phomn Penh together with Doc Stephanie as my roommate. I have a roommate so that I could save a little money from the trip. I would join someone in a room as long as she is female. :) I am so conservative and old fashioned by the way. I don't regret it at all.

After studying the intensive course, I am so lucky that I got my certificate. It was my first international studies certificate to be honest. Looking forward for more international post graduate studies in the future that was sponsored by myself or maybe if I am lucky, somebody will sponsor my tuition fee. Haha!

After the program, my dear colleagues stayed for more days in Cambodia so that we could travel and explore the city. Doc Stephanie and I booked a night sleeper bus from Phnom Penh to Siem Reap. It was actually 5 hour long drive. I just sleep the whole trip and thankful that we are safe.

Siem Reap is where we can visit the famous Angkor Wat. Ang init! Kumbaga natusta ako dun! haha

Sawadee Ka, Thailand! From Cambodia, I took a solo flight to Bangkok, Thailand. I need to unwind and pray because there are so many things that are happening in my life despite the fact that it is my birth month. My mom is a little worried because I don't have a companion in Bangkok, Thailand. I told her that it was just a very very short trip and I am very adventurous, I don't think that I will get lost.

I love the airplane's window seat and I always request that seat as much as possible. The world is a beautiful place to explore and see and I can't help falling in love with the view in the airplane window seat.

June

This is a month of full of life learnings and life realization, plus a month of discovering more of myself and life's purpose.

July

This is a month of moving forward, never digging and looking back in the past. I went to Pampanga and booked a solo room for myself in Hilton Clark. After all, solo adventure sounds fun right! Haha

On the last week of July, my brother and I visited Qatar and UAE.  It was my brother’s vacation and we only have a very little time before his class resume on the first week of August 2022. Thankful that we got to travel internationally after all. It was siblings bonding time.

Welcome to Doha, Qatar! So I've learned that the Qatar is the host for the FIFA World Cup 2022. Thank You Lord for this breakthrough moment of my life.

Then, my brother and I catch a flight from Qatar to UAE. Hello, Dubai after more than an one hour travel time.

Dubai, UAE is so underrated. Thank You so much Dubai for helping me to become a better person. I release all my stress in this Dubai trip by taking once in a lifetime adventures like:

HeliDubai (First time riding a helicopter. I saw how beautiful is Dubai aloft!)

Desert Safari (It was so hot in the desert but I am glad to experience dune buggy and camel ride with my brother.) P.S. Ang mahal ng binayaran ko sa DUNE BUGGY, request kasi ng magaling kong kapatid na magdrive daw sya sa Sharjah. Haha. Super enjoy pero butas bulsa. Haha

Flyboard Experience (Another adventure! I've rented Jet Ski and Flyboard in Nemo Water Sports Complex during our Dubai vacay. My Ethiopian instructor is so patient to teach me. Haha, puro ako failed 'di ko naman maperform ng mabuti yun flyboard.)

Ski Dubai (One of the best experiences because I got to see actual penguins in person. They are so cute. I want to take them home. Too bad, the Philippines is a tropical country so the penguins will die here in my country. I love the penguins. Also, I love the thrilling adventure that I've experience in Ski Dubai. Who would have thought that we could experience a touch of frost even in the desert, right?!)

I drink a girly drink during my Dubai trip. I've ordered one mojito because I think I need to change my lifestyle and try new activities to forget. I honestly want to have amnesia during this trip. I promise to myself that I will never look back.

August

From Dubai, my brother and I took a flight to Turkey. We've visited Istanbul, Turkey this month. Actually, it was only a glimpse of Turkey.

Loving also the quote that I saw in Istanbul, it says that "Behind every cloud, there is happiness".

I hope and I pray I will visit Cappadocia in God’s time. (Or, maybe if it is God’s will, I want to visit Cappadocia and ride the hot air balloon there with my future man after our wedding… hehehe)

I am full of dreams!!!

September

This is the first time in our parish to celebrate the Feast Day of the blessed Mary Untier of Knots that I've owned and being taken care of. Thank You so much Mama Mary. After I’ve finished the blessed image of Mary Untier of Knots this year, it seems that God use the image to remove all my problems and my stress. September 28 is the Feast Day of Mary Untier of Knots.

Alam nyo pangarap ko lang dati noong college na magkaroon ako ng isang malaking blessed image na pwedeng pangprusisyon na Mama Mary since Marian Devotee ako. Kaya naman sobrang laking pasasalamat ko sa Panginoon dahil eto na 'yun katuparan ng pangarap ko na iyon.

Looking back this is one of God's answered prayer in my life.

Meanwhile, I also got the result of my Schengen visa application during the last week of this month. Truly, the Divine providence is easing all my worries and fears away. I got a short term Multiple Entry Visa from the German Embassy.

Did you know that the original image or painting of Mary Untier of Knots is in Augsburg, Germany? I truly believe that this was God's answer to my prayers. For me, it seems that all my stress are gone when I saw my visa. Salamat po Panginoon. Napakabuti po Ninyo. Nakakaiyak sa tuwa!

October

I've booked a tri-country trip and the last week of October 2022 is the departure date. This month, I will be back in UAE not to forget but to celebrate because I am stress free and happy. My friends saw how I am glowing when I visited UAE again together with the two Eurasia countries: Georgia and Armenia. Sairah is my travel buddy in this trip and we enjoyed it so much.

We've visited so many beautiful place around Georgia like Gudauri and Tbilisi. If I were to choose between Gudauri or Tbilisi, I would pick Gudauri. Gudauri is truly a food for the soul. It has breathtaking view and the people are so nice like Japan. Tbilisi is also good but I feel safer and I find Guduari much more peaceful than Tbilisi, the capital of Georgia. The only thing that I don't like about Gudauri is the sheep, cows and other animals are causing too much traffic around the paradise called Gudauri.

November

New month and I am not physically present to celebrate the All Souls and Saint's day in the Philippines but I offer a lot of prayers during my trip. Traveling is my therapy.

Sairah and I were still in Eurasia during the first week of the month. To be honest, it was a very long drive from Georgia to the Armenia border but it was worth it. After immigration and passport control, welcome to the beautiful country of Armenia. I like Yerevan the most and the Tumanyan's crepe is one of the best crepes that I've ever tasted. We also visited provinces in Armenia like Ararat, Dilijan, Goght, Tsaghkadzor and so much more.

I am also very fond of eating ice cream despite the cold weather.

I'll try to blog in detail my Eurasia experience in the future once I have time.

I also have 11 hours layover around Dubai on November 6 before going back to my country. I got 30 days multiple entry UAE visa because I want to try doing skydive during my layover but the Klook cancelled my booking because they want me to be in the skydiving area around 8am. I showed them my tickets that I will be arriving 10 am from my Tbilisi flight. Good thing is I got my money back since the Klook team was the one who cancelled the said activity. Maybe, someday I can experience skydiving.

I've spent those long layover hours by taking a trip outside the airport and by doing food trip around UAE. I love kebabs and shawarma. I have to admit I love the dates flavored gelato in the Gold Souk area. Dubai is known to have good deals when it comes to gold and they have also rare and unique piece so I bought some because I truly believe in the value of fine jewelries. I think buying gold jewelries is better than buying a latest gadget. Likewise, there's a discount there and tax refund for tourist if you are planning to buy gold. Good deal, right? :)

November 18 to 29, 2022 is truly remarkable for me because I got to achieve my European dream. I wanted to visit this beautiful continent. I look back at my life and know that I am living a manifestation of God's unconditional love and faithfulness. 

Back then, I always had plans and I got disappointed everytime my plans did not take place.  After my Japan trip on 2019, I want to go to Europe on 2020. My original plan is to visit Europe during autumn season on 2020 but this European dream did not happen because of the COVID-19 pandemic. There are so many restrictions and I don't think that it is a good idea to travel that year. 

 The year 2022 is the year God answered one of my prayer requests ---my EUROPEAN DREAM since there are no more restrictions  for leisure travel. When I was in Europe on November 2022, I have a simple prayer in my heart that I can go back to the Philippines safely after this trip. Truly everything is God's grace. 

Thankful also that I've meet this wonderful people.

I am the only solo traveler but I've gained so many new friends. We've visited 7 countries to be exact in the Schengen region:

Italy

Switzerland

Germany

Luxembourg

Netherlands

Belgium

France

I'll try to summarize my Europe experience.

I love Italy because of its Milan Cathedral. It was my first time visiting there and as usual I light a candle and pray there. One euro is the price for one candle. Can you imagine the price difference of the candle in Italy and the candle in the Philippines? Haha. Another thing is I've read in blog that when you are in Italy, you should try their gelato, so I just ticked off that bucket list---to be able to eat a genuine Italian gelato.

Next, Switzerland, my fave place here on earth. For me, there is no place like Switzerland.

Freiburg, Germany is a must see place. I got 30 percent off in Drubba. It seems that I just went to Germany just for a shopping experience. LOL

I love the Christmas market of Luxembourg. Someday, in God's time, maybe I can also visit European Christmas market together with my family.

So much fun and once in a lifetime experience during the night life in Amsterdam. You should try this when you visit Netherlands.

In Belguim, I got to try eating authentic Belgian waffles and it was so tasty.

I cannot described that wonderful feeling the first time I saw the Eiffel Tower. It was really magical and surreal feeling. I love you so much Eiffel Tower! You were just a dream that I once knew... Ooopsss sorry naLSS lang sa kanta.

I want to be back. I want to visit Vatican City, the heart of the Catholic church. I have so many plans to be honest. I will blog and tell you in detail my European experience once I have a time in the future. Haha.

December

Oh, I love attending weddings. I've attended 2 weddings this month and I am so happy for the couple. My prayer is a long and lasting love for them that the couple will be strong enough to fight for their love inspite of difficult times. I think that’s important when it comes to marriage. I pray that God will be the center of their relationship. I hope that respect, trust, love and faithfulness will always be present in their relationship.

Someday, I will also experience the joy of finding my genuine love like my friends. I just want to love ONE man for the rest of my life ---through the good and bad times. Simple lang pangarap ko. Gusto kong maabot mga pangarap naming dalawa ng magkasama at gusto ko syang makasamang tumanda.

For now, I am definitely investing in self-love and never ending spiritual, and emotional maturity for myself.  I think if I love myself, I could love my future partner and bring the BEST in our future relationship. To my future love, hang in there, because I am trying my best to be the BEST version of myself so when God will collide our paths, I could offer you a LOVE THAT WILL LAST A LIFETIME. I can’t wait to see you whoever you are because I’ve been praying for you since I was a kid.

Trust that everything that is happening and all the people that are entering and exiting our life is a part of God’s plan. Give thanks to the Lord. Thank you for reading. I wish and I pray you all a peaceful heart and mind this 2023.

Hello 2023! Off to more adventures pleaseee!

Love lots, A 💞

[yourladyinblueblog]

QuaranTHINGS

These past few days have been a tough battle for me. Struggling to find ways to make quarantine day spend in much more valuable things, but I end up spending my time on social media and I know that is not healthy.

So I decided to take a break just for one day with all my social networking sites just for me to cleanse myself from all the negativity, pressure, and expectations that brought by the external forces. I know to myself that it will not enough to find what things that make my heart confused and my mind to think that what I’m doing right now is not enough.

I started that day on a simple prayer which before I got my job, prayer was my best friend. It gives me comfort knowing that in everything that I do, it gives honor to the Lord. To tell you all, I don’t know what’s the next thing to do, I just did my usual routine which is to clean the house and take care of my nephew. Probably, I spent my whole day watching videos about this famous girl, who eventually free herself to her true identity. Many people said that she just ruined her career because she changed herself, some said that she is indeed a good person because she exchanged her fame to free herself from the person she’s not happy.

Then I realized that money can’t buy us the happiness we wanted, though some people would not agree with this because they find their happiness through buying things. Well, all of us want money, and if only this money can use to make us our lives easier we should be starting to strive hard for our good, as long as it considered respectful and  we are not stepping on others’ happiness through the things we do, our happiness is valid.

Another thing I discover with myself in doing this cleansing is my passion to push through with free education and access to basic health. I watched these several documentaries that tackle the poor system of education most especially in the rural areas. It gives me a vision of what’s the reality for these children who cannot access the basic needs which are education and health.

The situation that they were in can be able to change once they have the proper education and if their family has given enough equal opportunity to have decent work, but then, their only source of income is only come on what nature gives them and it’s really sad and heartbreaking. Most of these children were forced to leave the school just so they can help their parents to make for their living, some need to leave the school because of their sick parents, even though they wanted to push through with their education it was being held back because of the poverty and probably lack of child support.

During this quarantine, I had realized my opportunities and how lucky I am because I had the proper education to pursue my dreams and was able to have a decent job, I have a roof to shelter us during this pandemic. I can be able to access pharmacy and hospital when I feel sick, I can have the best doctors to help me heal with all these pains I’m feeling.

I know that these past days have been a roller coaster ride to me, my emotion has not been stable, and I realized that it is okay to feel those emotions, because I am human and human is changing. I just need to constantly remind myself that expectations, negativity, and pressure that comes from the society are always there but the only thing we need to keep in ourselves that we are surviving, and as long as we live for another day we can do better things, we can push through to our passion, to what things we believe in and to free ourselves on the things that stop us from striving to make ourselves better.

If we could only teach people to be grateful for the things we have and be more responsible for the things we are taking for granted, we could be able to make this world easier and forgiving.