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[lobotomy-man]

Dead man

yup

[bbgrlkatsuki]

after watching the episode learning that the kiss was all Akk's imagination makes it so much better.

Akk having Ayan so close, in his space - some part of him was screaming to finally act on those desires, to finally free himself from all these thoughts, these "why you?".

yet comforting Ayan was so natural - the worry in his eyes when he first turns to see Ayan's furrowed brows and his distress noises, closing the space between them to embrace him, to comfort him. he wasn't as scared anymore, all he could see was this boy. this boy that made him feel things he didn't want to feel, this boy that he couldn't help but care for deep inside. this boy that's been the center of his attention the last few weeks. almost close to him and yet so far. so many unanswered questions.

but there he was. an arm's length away, churning and turning and whining. a secret that hurt so bad that even the comfort of the darkness couldnt keep it sealed. Ayan was right there, and all Akk could do was embrace the boy.

imagining kissing him though. that's like running towards a road he's always been scared to cross before. he is letting himself run wild. imagining the cheek kiss was something, but having Ayan kiss him? twice? initiating both kisses? you can see how Akk melts into the first kiss too. all he wants is for Ayan to lead, to show himself back, to be close, to finally, finally have him, even if just for a night, in the dark, in the comfort of his bed.

because in the end, that's all he wants.

him. he wants him. he is yearning, pining, craving him. having him this close, this warm, this vulnerable.

to show such a raw part of Akk's desires, of how he imagined it'd be like to not be scared, to have Ayan lead him to finally give in to those feelings - to me that just shows Akk's innor turmoils, the whys, the hows. he needs, he wants this boy, and yet everything else in his life is screaming at him in the opposite direction.

[bbgrlkatsuki]

i know we all know how much pat considers pran's feelings and needs with their new relationship.

but the first thing i noticed when the curtain dropped and they had to face everyone in the theatre is that once pat processed what was happening, the first thing he did was to look at pran to see how HE was processing it all.

his first thought was to know how pran was feeling, how he is reacting so that he'd be able to know how to act himself.

i love that throughout the entire episode, we saw once more how this is a give and take relationship from both sides. they're both fairly new at this yet they try to understand the other, prioritize the other, they COMMUNICATE.

pat knows how much more difficult it is for pran to process their relationship (mostly because of their families and friends) although pran wants it as much as pat does.

i just thought it was a really nice detail that just showed once more how much of a walking green flag pat is and mostly how important pran's feelings are to him.

[bbgrlkatsuki]

currently working on my patpran soulmates au and i'm 1.5k in and it's JUST the first scene, and it's a flashback, the story hasn't started. this is going to be 50k im not kidding

[bbgrlkatsuki]

question to fic readers:

do you prefer reading a wip fic or a completed one?

currently writing my patpran soulmates AU and I could start posting what I've written so far, but would it be better for me instead to finish it all and post it as a oneshot?

taking any advice/ preferences :) thank you !!

(i could also include a snippet of it if you want to)

[bbgrlkatsuki]

i just want to say i am currently writing a patpran soulmates au because we deserve more of these soulmates. cant promise it’ll be good but it’s officially a wip.

[bbgrlkatsuki]

if i listened to myself i would literally write thousands of words on the breakup scene simply because it was so beautifully made and even though not one single word of breakup, of seperation was mentioned – they knew.

we as viewers all knew as well. it was so nicely conveyed. even though the meaning of the scene itself hurts, their emotions, their words, them holding each other's napes and smiling brightly at each other like they always do.

I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO SAY HELP ME-

[bbgrlkatsuki]

i just wanna read so many patpran soulmates!AU it's unhealthy. good lovely writers please step up before I do my own 😭😭😭