Daily #2,527! I'd always been the type of person who would get depressed over angry, so anger was not an emotion I felt very familiar dealing with. And it also wasn't something I expected to feel so much after being a parent. But some days the exhaustion, overwhelm, and frustration really get me. It's the part about needing a minute (or more!) and not always feeling you can get it at times that makes me feel like a shaken bottle about to explode.
I don't want to take my feelings out on anyone, especially not my very own child. (Been there, done that when I was a child myself.) So learning how to regulate my emotions and keep calm has been one of my biggest challenges. It's one of the things I've worked on through books and therapy. Sometimes I still mess up. But I apologize. And always try to do better next time.