Incel/femcel
I know I talk a lot about how stupid Incel and LM spaces are but it really is so easy to fall into that mindset. That you are the most disgusting thing to look at, no matter how nice you are to people it doesnt matter because you are UGLY.
It really doesnt help that I feel ugly because Im mixed, I feel not enough of either races and I really dont fit in either spaces, I really dont even fit in mixed spaces either. My eyes are weirdly shaped, i have a semi flat face, I dont fit in either beauty standards EITHER races have T_T
I genuinely feel like the ugliest person alive. Makeup is like putting lipstick on a pig, and I always feel like Im larping being one race or the other. I sit in front of the mirror and pick apart my appearance for HOURS, I’m too fat, too skinny, I eat too much, too little, my hair looks weird, my face is disproportional. Everything. I’ll spend days where I wont eat or when I do I’ll force myself to puke it all up and it never feels enough. The ‘average’ weight for someone my age and height feels too big, so I’ll sit there and lose weight and its still not enough. People will still play in my face after Ive refused to eat just to be enough, honestly I wish I was prettier. Because pretty privilege IS real.
