#lower surgery

[turgidscum]

your favorite trash poster is starting electrolysis for phalloplasty tomorrow. gonna be a small little test, only 15 minutes, but we're gonna see what she has to say.

it's a little nerve wracking, honestly. i'm very excited, but there's a finality in it that puts me a bit on edge. there will be a period of months or years where there's a hairless patch of skin on my otherwise hairy leg that will one day be my penis.

i've never been the kind of person to like transitionary periods. i have too much anxiety that i don't look perfect during in-betweens (don't get me started on haircuts), but i know that this is just the start of my long journey.

my arms are ineligible for phallo, which is more than fine with me, but that means i'll have another surgery on top of the 3 with rff. hell, it might be 5 in total, if you consider the delayed flap and debulking stage.

i feel my anxiety is founded, however. it's not because i'm afraid i'm going to regret it (which i think everyone getting lower surgery fears to some extent), but rather because this process is going to take four years in total, from tomorrow's first appointment until my penis is has a pump and head and all thr fun stuff.

that's a long time. a very long time. all of this while working, allocating funds, potentially going to law school, etc. lots of shit.

in short, i'm glad that i'm finally moving in the right direction. i wish my previous consultation had given me more information, or that i had started electrolysis earlier. who knows.

[dogspouse]

a cut-and-paste ode to lower surgery created from a bible verse. also there's a drawing of leather boots for some reason.

[journallingftmsurgery]

5 Weeks Post Op (lower surgery)

I don't feel like there has been a whole lot of progress in the last week.

The drain site is still leaking, but it has slowed down significantly, and it's more of a sticky, clear-ish, mucous-y fluid now. I can get away without having gauze in my pants all the time now.

I have noticed maybe 2 stitches coming out in the shower over the last few days, but that still leaves absolutely loads.

My lower abdomen is still very bruised/tender feeling from the hysto, and is my main source of discomfort now. Regular underwear is still too tight at the waist band.

My balls are slightly tender when I poke them, or if I'm sat down for too long. I can manage about 45 mins at a time, and that's with the donut cushion.

Walking is getting easier, but where my knees used to brush together with each stride, I'm now conscious of not having my legs that close together. I can feel my balls rubbing against each other as I move. I don't know if that is something that will continue to change, or something I will simply get used to.

I'm happy with the size of my penis (almost 2"/5cm) but it is still very much pointing downwards and kinda twisted to the left. The stitches on the underside are almost visible from the left. The meatus seems rather large, too, like maybe the join didn't heal all the way to the tip.

I'm standing to pee in the shower only, and gradually trying to point/position my stream with the hope that I will eventually be able to use a urinal, but I'm not in any rush.

Jerking off is very satisfying, and I hope could be stimulating blood flow to the area and encouraging faster healing, although I'm only doing it once a day.

I can sort of sleep on my side now, but I have to angle my legs so I'm not crushing my balls.

[jamlocked]

Got my first consultation for lower surgery tomorrow and I’m so nervous/excited it’s hard to breathe.

[transpantastic]

A podcast about gender, identity, orientation and all the life that happens around them, by an FtM transgender dad and his pansexual genderq

Episode #398!

As George continued recovering from Sepsis and the most recent stage of his lower surgery, we continued to support the other elements of his physical and mental health.

[transpantastic]

A podcast about gender, identity, orientation and all the life that happens around them, by an FtM transgender dad and his pansexual genderq

Episode #397! When one of George's incisions from (what we had hoped would be) the last stage of his metoidioplasty got infected, it quickly became a bigger problem than expected.

[hestiasroom]

[transpantastic]

A podcast about gender, identity, orientation and all the life that happens around them, by an FtM transgender dad and his pansexual genderq

Episode #394!

When George was preparing for his first stage of surgery, he was contacted by someone whose professional title with the hospital is "Gender Navigator". Over the course of the surgical process, he has appreciated that person's presence, so when they asked for his input and feedback about his process and interactions with the hospital, he was happy to answer questions and offer his thoughts.