#magic transformation spell

[sorryicantquitequeeryou]

Me: *constantly being confused about the lines and boundaries between platonic and romantic relationships while knowing that each relationship and its boundaries are defined by those in said relationship.*

Me: *Unsure about what "romance" feels like or is outside of a category similar to how "green" is a category. The same with the term "sexy".*

Me: *daydreaming of existing in a closed polycule full of love, acceptance, safety, and adoration for one another* Me: *spending hours trying to figure out how to look androgynous and feminine at once without triggering dysphoria*

That's all. Just me being queer.

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Me as a tiny child: *Repulsed by same sex couples*

Also me as a tiny child: *kisses girl while I (afab enby in the making) is playing house as "realistically as possible" on my suggestion*

Me now: "G I R L S and cute E N B Y S. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh~!"

Young me watching YouTuber come out as Non-binary and getting top surgery: "not boy or girl???? What??? Why destroy your body like that???"

Me now: "I know I just came out as non-binary but can I get rid of the chest lumps please?"

A slightly younger me: *confuzled on how someone can just not feel sexual attraction or romantic attraction.* *Additionally confused on what those attractions are, what the difference is and what they entail*

Me now: *learned about the different types of attraction and that I don't feel sexual or romantic attraction in the same way as others* "What do you mean you look at someone and feel like banging them? I just like to stare- maybe talk."

Me my whole life: *subconsciously ignoring/avoiding the concept of polyamorous relationships*

Me now: *realized that periodically throughout my life I've become curious about polyamory and that I would probably do well in a polycule as I become obsessed with the webtoon Boyfriends* "Huh."

All I'm saying is there's a pattern here.

If you read all this- high five!

If you can't high five then let's do it mentally!

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A brief list of anime I can't seem to get out of my head:

Plus what first comes to mind when writing the title down-

Mushoku Tensei: Jobless Reincarnation

Why do I kin a pervert- Rudy, such good characters, pretty art, fantastic story telling, delightful world building

Case Study of Vanitas

Pretty boys, pretty girls, pretty they/them, pretty art, vampires, trauma, possible BL, friendships

Given

BL without so much toxicity, soft and pretty art, trauma, MUSIC, reality, healing, I kin mafuyu

Smile Down the Runway

Determination duo, unlikely friends, pure souls, pretty art, fashion is so cool, Ikuto is relatable and such a good boy

Horimiya

I kin Miyamura Izumi hardcore, relatable and real, fun concept, school life, pretty characters

Children of the Whales

I'm adopting everyone and kin Suou, murderous pink haired child is my favorite, gorgeous art, amazing story and concepts

Stars Align

Soft tennis club to cleanse the soul of family drama and trauma, they/them character, representation, season two may never come :(

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Rudeus Greyrat - Rudy

A new and extremely unexpected kin.

A grown perverted adult mind from our world shoved into a child of a fantasy world- and I kin him.

Because he's smart. Because he tries. Because he has heart. Because he is the realest person I've seen in an anime like this in a long time.

Anime is in my top 5 now and is my new comfort anime. All thanks to Rudy.

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Just finished watching the newly released Netflix original in Brazilian Portuguese: Back to 15

It is amazing. It fun, unique, uplifting, real... It stole my heart. It has amazing LGBTQIA+ representation, in my opinion. It has character redemption. It has character growth and development!

I love the cast!

The episode titles are text emojis like: (≧▽≦)

But its only 6 episodes, each only about 30 minutes or so long... And it leaves you on a cliff hanger.

I hope it gets a second season!!! This just came to Netflix a few days ago (in my area at least). It's gonna be a long while before the next season ....waiting is such sweet agony

( ；∀；)

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If you combine Princess Bubblegum and Marceline Abadeer you get... Me.

Which is a slight issue. Because Marceline and Bonnie have each other but I don't have anyone as I am not a fusion of the two but a mix of their essence~

Possible solution (?): Find someone who is a mix of Adora and Catra from She-Ra OR Amity Blight and Luz Noceda to fall in love with- what combination would be better suited to my bubbline self?

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You ever get that feeling of "I don't belong" but in the sense that it's literally the world around you that you don't belong in?

I have no idea what world/reality/dimension I am supposed to be in but this one isn't it.

I feel home sick for a place I've never been and can't even start to imagine.

On another note- this would make a great song.

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It's not fair it's not fair it's not fair it's not fair!!

It has been AGES since I've been so utterly in love with a character without actually feeling attracted to them in any way shape or form.

Just binged half of the anime HoriMiya and Miyamura Izumi has my FULL heart.

[a bunch of pictures of Miyamura Izumi Kun with different expressions and hairstyles]

Love, obsession, infatuation... Those words don't describe how I feel about this character. All I can say is I'm in love with him, but I'm not.

The feeling is love, admiration, but not in any of the traditional senses.

I want to BE him. SO BADLY. OH MY GOOD GORD.