The most important question
I find myself a bit emotional today. I was kicked out of a group for unknown reasons and the world lost a wonderful human being. So with the group, I was emotionally invested in it and the people. I had bonded with a few. Gained a valuable relationship with one in particular. So losing that raised the all important question of "why?". I always wonder about it, but especially of i saw no reason for such action. As a parent, I relate it to raising my children. I can't punish them for no reason, there's always a reason. But I want them to understand and learn from such experiences. To punish without reason just seems cruel. As adults, we understand cruelty, but hate to be wronged by it. But worse, now because of it, I feel like I've lost out on the people I bonded with over the course of months. One of the people I held dear to me seems to hold no more interest in my time or even existence. That hurts because I really hold that relationship dear to me, despite the short relative time of its existence. I thought we were better. But if time is what is needed, it's what I'll take from it. So with the celebrity we lost today, it's sad because Chester Bennington was the voice of Linkin Park. He wasn't the only part by any means, but he was pivotal to their overall sound and success. For me, he helped shape my high school years and brought me bonds with men I consider my brothers. I think of all the times listening to Linkin Park brought us closer. And before I truly understood music the way I do now, I remember his voice. It plays on repeat today as I remember him. But with his death, it leads us all to ask...why? I have no problem with finding the unknown. But in these cases, I hate not knowing.
