Summary: Reader has an anxiety attack because of college and Tom helps the reader through it.
Word Count: 1.3k -ish
Warnings: The reader has an anxiety attack
A/N: I finally finished this. Btw I don’t know how grading works, but I still hope this is correct.
You looked at you exam. “F”. 48/100. You closed your eyes and took a deep breath. Everything was going to be just fine, you told yourself. You were in your second year of college and things weren’t going as good as you planned them to be. All your life you were a A student. Always in the first place, but since you get to college everything changed. You knew it was going to be difficult. Damn, you’d seen a lot of memes about it, but somehow you managed to calm yourself. Now, this time was different. You felt all your insides burning and a horrible fear about what was going to happen was filling you. You couldn’t have those grades. If you kept failing exams, then everything your mother worked hard for would be in vain. You wouldn’t allowed that to happen, but it seemed impossible. You were doomed. There was nothing you could do to make it better. You felt dizzy and grab the kitchen table to hold yourself, still with the exam in your hand.
You heard the door opened “Hey, babe.” You heard your boyfriend said. You didn’t answer him. You couldn’t answer him. All your strength was gathered to help you not to cry. “Babe? What’s wrong?” he asked you. He closed the door and started to walk towards you.
He was near you when you turned to face him and he stopped. You were going to pretend that everything was fine. Everything was fine, you were going to fix it. You smiled at him “There’s nothing wrong. I was just thinking”
He looked at you for a moment unsure of what to do. He knew something was wrong and all he wanted to do was to help you, but you wouldn’t let him by not telling him. “Are you sure? Then what you were thinking about?”
“College” you answered quickly “Nothing important. Everything is fine. Everything is fine” your voice cracked in the last moment and you looked away from him. He was not going to believe you. He would insist and then he would realise how stupid was your problem.
“We both know that’s not true… What happened? Someone treated you bad?” You felt bad for yourself. You felt pity and disgusted. There was so many people that had real problems, not like yours. Yours was easy to fix, you told yourself. Everything was going to be fine. Everything was going to be fine.
“Nothing like that, Tom. It’s ok. I’m telling you” The hand that had your exam in, clenched while you were talking, it did not go unnoticed for Tom.
“What’s in your hand, y/n?” You knew there was no escaped now. You didn’t want him to know. He would think that you were exaggerating, but it was important for you. It was about your future. It was going to be fine. Everything was going to be fine…
You stood there, not moving. Tom looked at you. You loved him so much. Why couldn’t you just tell him? It wasn’t a big deal. It was just your future. Your future. Everything your mother wanted was for you to have a good future. And you were screwing things up. It was your fault. You couldn’t do anything right. You were screwed. He could see your eyes panicking a bit. You could see his expression softening. You had to tell him. He was going to help you, right? “It’s an exam” you said while your eyes started to get watered.
He got near you and took the exam from your hand. He looked back at you. You were his life. He loved you and seeing you like that, broke his heart. He knew how important was your study for you. “It’s ok, baby” his hands still holding the paper “It’s okay. Everything is going to be fine.”
Was it? Was it okay?
No, it wasn’t.
Suddenly you felt mad at yourself.
“NO. IT’S NOT” you shouted all of a sudden. You were still fighting to hold the tears, but there was no solution. You were going to fail everything and you were going to be unemployed and he was definitely going to leave you, because who would like to be with a loser like you? He was too much for you.
“Yes, it is, y/n. You’ll see”
“You don’t know that! I haven’t only fail this exam. I HAVE FAIL 4 OF THEM. THEY ARE IMPORTANT TO ME! IT’S ABOUT MY FUTURE!!”
“I know they are important to you, y/n!” He said, raising his voice. “I know it, and I believe in you! EVERYTHING WILL BE JUST FINE. I’M HERE FOR YOU”
“MAYBE YOU WON’T! MAYBE YOU’LL LEAVE BECAUSE I’M A LOSER THAT CAN’T DO ANYTHING RIGHT AND THAT WON’T GET A JOB” You were feeling all your insecurities came out, all your worries about the future and you felt like drowning in them. You loved Tom and in that moment you were happy, but what would happen if he would get tired of you, for not doing anything right. He would leave you for another and it was not like it was hard for him. He was famous, handsome and so charming. You didn’t want to think anything of that, but you couldn’t help it. You tried to calm yourself, but it was too late, you felt your whole body shaking.
He was tortured to see you that way. Defenseless. You became friends while he was working in the Spiderman movie. He soon discovered you had anxiety, when you accidentally messed up one of the props and started to freak out, and learned how to deal with it so he could help you, and thanks to him, you had improved a lot since the first time you had an attack. By the time he gathered enough courage to ask you out, it had only happened a considerable less amount of times. After then, it had happened almost never.
“EVERYTHING IS WRONG. EVERYTHING. I’M SO TIRED.” You had tears all over your face and your breathing started to increase.
He didn’t say anything, he just stood looking at you crying, letting all your feelings out for a second and then he pull you closer to a hug. His hands caress your hair in a slow way, saying soft things into your ear in an effort to trying to comfort you and it was working. Your heavy and fast breaths turned into calm ones. He kept doing it until you stopped completely.
“Everything is right. Everything is fine. I will always be here for you.”
“Will you?”
“Yes. I love you, y/n, and nothing is going to separate us” You nodded, still in his arms. You love him so much. Tom was everything for you and you were everything for him.
You felt how he started to pull apart a little and frowned. You still needed him close. He get the message and pull you even closer than before. His hands were in your shoulder, you figured maybe he was uncomfortable in that position, but didn’t want you to know so you tried to move. He forced (?) you to stay in your place and started humming your favourite song.
You laughed a little. He reached for your hand and put the other one on your waist. He started to swing a bit, still so close that your face was leaning on his shoulder. You could still listen to him humming. He pull you apart and look in your eyes. He started to dance at the rhythm of what he was humming and you started to follow him.
You found yourself singing with him while dancing. You were still looking at his eyes. Everything around disappeared when you look at him. It was just you and him. He was right, it didn’t matter what would happen you were always going to be together. And if you were together then everything was going to be just fine.
Summary: Reader breaks up with Tom and time passes and has a relationship with Dylan, reader thinks Tom is part of the past, but is that true?
Word Count: 3k -ish
Warnings: None
A/N: This is my first request and was so much fun to write! (Requested by: @imaginesyes) Hope you enjoy and please feel free to send some requests! Btw, I was going to post this the day after you send me your request, but the internet in my house didn’t work so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ... Oh, and I’m doing a second part.
Request: I just dumped by my bfriend for 3 years and I really need an imagine with tom holland x famous!reader :( maybe they dated for 3 months and they decided to broke up mutually but after sometime reader starts dating with dylan o'brien (bc he's my second fav) tom realises he actually still loves her when he sees them so happy at a premiere or an after party?? ending is totally up to you thank you so much darling <3
You looked at the door that was in front of you. You weren’t sure if you wanted to enter, even though it was for the best. After thinking it for some time, you decided to knock the door. It passed 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 seconds before he opened the door. You looked at him. Tom had a sad smile on his face. He stepped aside and let you in. You entered his house and stood there unsure of what to do. You knew why he called you here. And you knew he was right, but it didn’t make it better.
“Please, y/n, take a seat.” You moved towards the couch on which you had watched a lot of movies together. “Well, uhm… y/n. I- I called you, because I-”
“I know what you want to do.”
“What?”
“I know why you called me, Tom” You and Tom had been dating for 4 months now. You met him 6 months ago in a premiere you were invited and you got along really well. You became friends quickly and started to hang out a lot. Feelings started to develop and you decided to go out and start dating. Everything would be fine, if it wasn’t because feelings haven’t grown. You still cared about the other deeply, but there was no love. “You want to break up with me.”
He looked taken aback for a moment, before nodding. “I’m so sorry” You felt sad, you really had feelings for him, even though they were not strong as you thought they would be at that point, but they were strong. You convince yourself it was going to work out just fine with time, but you couldn’t force something that is not in there, at least, not in him. “I really like spending time with you, but I just don’t….”
“…love me.” You finished for him “I am not mad. I understand, Tom. Look, I really like you, but I don’t love you either and we both know it’s not okay to be with someone that don’t have feelings for you.”
You locked eyes and silence filled the room. It wasn’t awkward. It was the kind of silence that gives people a time for themselves, before reality comes back in. You were going to miss all of him. His laughs, his smile.
“You want me to give you your things?” You quickly nodded and he stood up and walk to his room. You sat there, wondering if you should follow him. You finally decided to go, so you stood up, but immediately sat down as Tom appeared again, carrying a small box full of your things. He looked at you funny, before letting out a small laugh. “You could walk with me, you know. Just because we are not longer together romantically, doesn’t mean we can’t be friends like before, right?” He said with a smile.
You thought about that, you knew it was the right thing to do, but it didn’t make it less painful. You cared about him, so much than, you thought, he cared and would care about you. It was no love, yet, but you knew you would get to that, he, on the other hand, didn’t think that was possible. So maybe friends was ok, but right after it… you weren’t sure. “Are you sure, Tom? I mean, we will always be friends, that’s for sure, but I think maybe it’s fine if we have some time for ourselves.”
As soon as those words came out of your mouth his smile dropped, making the sad-yet-comfortable atmosphere turned into a tense one. You both stayed in silence for a moment, before he suddenly moved towards you, placing the small box next to you. “You are right” He said, looking down at the floor. “I’m sorry if I sound like I didn’t care about you”
“Oh, no, Tom. It wasn’t that! I know you care about me, that’s why this is happening now and not two months later, when things would go far worse.” You add teasingly “You are a gentleman.”
He looked up at you with a small smile in his face “Yeah, that’s me. Always caring” he said shrugging.
“Even though, most of the time you are a prick” You spoke quietly.
“What?”
“Nothing” You answered quickly.
“I heard you” he said, crossing his arms. You laughed at what he did, and soon enough, laughs were filling the room again. You were being so loud, you didn’t hear the door opening, so when Tessa came running to you, moving her tail, she made you fall.
“Oh, Tessa! How are you, baby? Who is a good girl? Who is a good girl? You are! Oh! I’m gonna miss you so much, so so much.”
“Where are you going?” You realised someone else was in the room and looked around. You found Haz with Tessa’s collar still in his hand. You didn’t answer his question. “y/n? why you didn’t tell us you are going to travel?”
You stayed in silence for a few seconds, the only sound in the room was Tessa’s paws running through the house. You stood up, before answering “ I’m not. I just won’t be around here for a couple of weeks”
Even though Haz’s face showed nothing, his eyes narrow in confusion. “Why?”
“Because we just broke up” Tom’s words stay in your mind like an echo.
“Yeah, we just broke up” Haz just look at both of you for a moment. You could tell he was uncomfortable and if you didn’t say anything, there would be tension again. “But don’t worry, everything is fine”
“Well, I’ll miss you” he finally said.
“Me too, but you won’t get rid of me that easily. It’s just for a few weeks” You said, grabbing the box and walking to the door which was still open.
“Everything will be the same then?” Haz asked. You knew he was having a hard time. You and he were also friends and this was complicated situation for him. “Promise?”
“Promise” You both answered.
You read somewhere that promises were meant to be broken, you didn’t believe in that, but apparently, Tom did. You and he hadn’t talk to each other in 6 months. It wasn’t like you didn’t try to reach for him, because you did, but he never returned your calls or text you back. Even when you asked Haz about him, he just would change the subject quickly. You didn’t know why, and despite being a bit resentful, you didn’t kept thinking about it. You were happy and you didn’t need anything to be worry about.
“y/n, love? Are you ready?” You turned and look at Dylan. “Whoa, you look amazing”
“Shut up… but thanks” You answered a bit blushed. You had been dating for two months and yes, you had more fights with him than you had had with Tom, but they were insignificant, because you always solved them quickly. “You don’t look bad yourself” you replied.
“I know, but thanks.” He quickly ran to where you stood and gave you a kiss. “Tonight is going to be amazing. You deserve it.”
“I hope so.”
Today was the premier of your new movie. You had been cast in other movies before, but none of them were nearly as important as this one. This one was Oscar material. Everyone said you were going to be nominated even though they had only seen the trailer.
“Anyway, have you seen my tie?” Your boyfriend asked.
“It’s in the drawer inside the closet, next to all the rest of your ties” He rolled his eyes, before walking to the closet. You tried not to laugh. You kept wondering what would had happened if you hadn’t gone out that night. You and Dylan were already friends for years and one month after you broke up with Tom, you went to a party to have fun. One drink after another and you were already wasted. Dylan found you near the bathroom, trying not to puke. He took you home and took care of you. The next morning you found yourself in your bed with a terrible headache. You both talked and spend some quality time; 3 months later, you were dating and laughing. He told you he loved you in the first month. You didn’t answer him, because you didn’t felt that way, but now you were almost sure you loved him back. “Did you find it? Dylan?” You walked to the closet and get inside. There you found Dylan, his back turned to you, with his tie in a hand, looking at something. “Dylan? What happened?”
“Who is this from?” He turned and showed you a coat. You recognized it. It was Tom’s. It was one of the reasons you had been calling him. “y/n?”
“It’s Tom’s” you answered. He looked at you with a puzzled look in his face. You didn’t told him you dated him. No one in the press knew. No one knew. You never told anyone, because it was only 4 months and none of you were sure about your relationship. Just Haz and it was because he was always with Tom.
“Did you cheated on me?” His eyes started to get red.
“What?! NO! I-” You couldn’t explain. You started to stutter and looked away. “I-I just-“
“You just what?”
You took a deep breath, you needed to tell him “I dated him before and I wanted to give it back to him, but I couldn’t because he is ignoring my texts and calls” you said as fast as you could before you started to stutter again.
“Wait, you dated him? When?” You turned your gaze to him and found him with a shocked expression in his face
“We broke up 4 months before we started dating” You answered him. You didn’t want to start a fight. Not today. “No one knew, just Haz who is Tom’s friend.”
“Why you didn’t tell me?” He said “You thought I was going to get jealous or something?” A little laugh escaped from his lips and you got startled “Love, I’m not jealous. I’m relieve you didn’t cheat on me.”
“I could never cheat on you” you said quickly
“I know. Me neither, but I am mad you didn’t tell me. I understand the press, but I’m your boyfriend and I even though I don’t need to know every person who had been with, I would like to know if there is something of that person in our house.”
“I’m sorry”
“Don’t be, love.” He got closer to you and wrapped his arms around you “Hey, Isn’t Tom going to be today at the premiere. You could take his coat and give it to him there”
“Yeah, you are right.” He leaned in and started to kiss you slowly and passionate. You pull apart and he looked offended for a second “We are late. Let’s go”
You arrived at the premier next to Dylan. Everyone was already there taking pictures. You walked with your arm still laced with his and waved at everyone. Everything was chaos. The next half an hour were a blur in your head and you didn’t realised it was slightly raining, until your co-star Natalie Portman asked you why you didn’t have something to cover you. You went to find Dylan to give you your blazer, but then you both realised you had forgotten about it. Your only option left was Tom’s coat; you hadn’t seen him so you thought he wouldn’t mind. You put it on. It still smelled like him. His perfume flooded your nostrils and your heart started to ache. You shook your head and started to walk so you could find the rest of the cast.
10 minutes later, you gave up. It was too crowded. You turned around looking for Dylan and your eyes met a pair of brown ones. He was there. You waved at Tom and started to walk towards him. As you were walking you realised he looked awful. His face looked tired and pale. You concern grew as you realised he had eye bags not even make up could cover.
“Hey, y/n” He said “Whoa, you look amazing. Truly. So beautiful as always.”
“Thanks, Tom.” You blushed at his words. He seemed to still have that power on you. You were feelings nervous around him. Like the first time you met him. You brushed it off. “I would like to say the same, but…” you move your arms pointing at his whole body and he laughed.
“Yeah” He said, looking down, and awkward silence took place “I am sorry I didn’t answer any of your calls or texts. I want to explain you why.”
“You don’t have to, Tom. We agree we needed time, and it was okay” It’s not okay. You said you wanted to be friends, so even if that hurt I agreed. You could at least let Harrison tell me about you, you thought.
“No. I want to tell you. It’s difficult, y/n. I felt so bad and-” he stopped talking as he saw someone approaching behind you.
“Hey, love. You are here.” You felt an arm fall into your shoulders as you heard the voice of you boyfriend. “Hi, Tom. I’m y/n’s boyfriend” He said remarking the last word.
You looked at Tom and found yourself wanting to see how he would react at the news. This was the first public appearance you had with Dylan, even though you had been dropping hints about it since you started dating. You saw him simply nodding and saying “Hi, nice to meet you.” You were sadly surprised until you heard him add “I’m y/n’s ex.” You felt Dylan’s body tensed up and quickly look at him so he wouldn’t do anything.
Your boyfriend just laugh bitterly before looking at you “Love, remember, you were going to give him back his coat. If you need something to cover you I can give you my jacket”
“Oh, right.” You had completely forgot about it “Sorry”
“It’s okay. You can keep it, y/n”
“No, I insist” Dylan said. “But if you are doing it because of me don’t worry. After all of this finishes, y/n can give it back to you. Now, if you excuse I’m going to talk to Martin Freeman who is right there.” He gave you a quick kiss and run.
Tom looked at you, while you were watching Dylan. He was heartbroken. He still had feelings for you, more stronger and deadly than ever. It took him 2 months to figure it out. He loved you. He wanted to be with you, but you looked so happy with Dylan. He screwed it. He had you, and now you were gone, unless…
“I love you, y/n”
You turned your head to him. Your eyes were wide and you could felt your heart pounding inside you about to explode. A warm energy started to fill your body. “What?”
“I love you. Please, listen to me. I had always loved you, but I didn’t know that was what I was feeling, I didn’t know how to differentiate it, but with the help of Haz now I do! Y/n, you don’t know how bad I was after you left. I was so lonely. I didn’t want anyone with me, but I long for someone to be next to me and I didn’t know why I was feeling like that, and then I decided to go out and every time I looked somewhere, you were there. I was remind of you no matter what I saw, I even looked at some dog’s poop and remembered the day I stepped on it and you laughed at me, I remembered the way you laughed, with your head tilted back and your eyes shining, and I felt my heart ache and filling with warmth inside.” You listened to everything he was saying. You knew the feeling. It was the same one you felt when you met him. The same you felt when you held his hand. The same you felt when you put on his coat that same day. “I told Haz about it and he told me that I…”
“…love me” You finished for him. He nodded. You looked at him. His eyes were bright and his face, that was pale when you approached to him, was now pink.
“I know that you are with Dylan now and I can tell you are happy, but you’ll never be as happy as you would be with me. You know that, you can feel it. I can see you still have some feelings for me even if you don’t. Please, y/n, give me another opportunity.”
“You are right, I am happy with Dylan. He helped me. He cares about me. I don’t think I-… I’m not sure if…” You didn’t know how to answer. Did you still have feelings for Tom? Apparently, yes, but would it possible for you to leave Dylan and be with Tom?
“THE MOVIE WILL START IN 10 MINUTES” You heard your producer announced to the stars. You and Tom started to walk.
“You don’t need to answer me now. I want you to think about it, okay?” He told you as you get inside the theater. “If you want to stay with Dylan and be happy, don’t do anything, but if you want to be with me, and be truly happy then go to the park where was our first date on Sunday. Congratulations for your movie.” You watched him turn and go away. You stood there, thinking. Would you go to the meeting? You shouldn’t, you were with Dylan now, he was making you happy and that was it.
“y/n, we need to get inside. Your movie is about to start.” You turned to look at Dylan. You stared at him while his eyes got wide and full of concern. “y/n, love, is something wrong? You are pale.”
He cared about you, he loved you.
And you were happy
“Yeah, it’s nothing. Don’t worry.” He gave you an insecure look before giving you a quick kiss and leading you inside.
Summary: Reader gets the role of a new important movie, but she is nervous. Then Chris, as a wonderful boyfriend help her.
A/N: This is literally the first time i wrote smt so is kind of horrible
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“y/n!, your phone is ringing!!” Chris yelled from the other side of the house. You jumped from your bed and start running. You were waiting a call from your producer to know if you’ve got the part for a new movie they’ll start filming. It was a big opportunity and you wanted the part really bad.
“Hello?” you asked when you reached for your phone.
“Hi, y/n. I figured you want to hear the news?”
“Yes, please I want to know”
“Hahaha, ok relax” There was silence for a moment and you could feel your heart beating really fast.
“You got it.”
“Oh my god. Thank you so much” You said before hanging up.
You walked to the kitchen still shaking. Saying you were happy it’s nothing, but you were also nervous. This was a very big deal, everyone was waiting for this movie to come out and everyone wanted it to be perfect. Perfect director, perfect cast, perfect scenes. You entered the kitchen and you saw Chris looking at you. He walked towards you and put his hands on your waist.
“And?” He asked. The looking in his eyes were full of hope.
“I got it.” You answered.
He pulled you into a hug and put his hand on your neck.
“Congratulations.” He pulled apart and locked eyes with you. And, as always, you could feel that he could read your mind and that mean he would ask you what was worrying you.
“Is there a problem?” He asked right in time. He looked worried for you. Your heart melted. Every since you met him, he’d be concerned with everything about you. At first, it was a bit strange, because you just met him, but, as time passed and feelings grew, it became completely normal for you. It’d been 2 years since you two were together and in all that time, beautiful memories have been treasured.
“I’m scared.” You confessed. He narrowed his eyes.
“Why?”
“This is a very important role. What happens if they don’t like the movie or just me in the movie?”
Chris looked at you before taking you by your hand and leading outside the kitchen to sit in the couch. You sat and he sat next to you, still holding your hand.
“They will love you, y/n l/n. I know this is a big deal and I truly know how you feel. I felt the same when they told me I’d be playing Captain America. I was scared about the fans not liking me or just the critic. But you have to remember that you are a great actress, that’s why they choose you.”
You squeezed his hand and then hug him. Chris pulled you closer to him and whispered in your ear.
“And if someone says something bad about you, they’ll have to fight me.”
You laughed a little and pulled apart.
“I know you would, but that won’t be necessary”
“Why?”
“Because I will knock them out with my brilliant performance”
He laughed and kissed you in your lips. It was a short, sweet, but passionately kiss. The kind of kiss that make you desire more.
“Thanks for everything” You said “I love you”
“I love you too” He answered. It passed a moment before he took out his phone and looked at you.
“How about I order some food and then watch a movie?”
“It works for me”
“Maybe, chinese food…” He said “and some netflix and chill?” He added smirking.
“You’ve read my mind” You said while cuddling next to him.
You were not longer nervous about the movie. Chris was right. They chose you because you were a great actress and if someone had a problem with that, they’d have to fight him.
