astro observations pt 5
scorpio moon eyes look like there's hell burning behind them, a reddened appearance to them, reflective of the emotional weather behind them. like the fallen angel. which makes sense as the moon (the soul) is in exile in scorpio, just like lucifer was exiled from heaven. this painting (“Fallen Angel” by Alexandre Cabanel) is exactly what their eyes look like.
aquarius venus view beauty through a scientific lens due to an early experience of feeling othered/different. think of clavicular (an aquarius venus) and how he methodically and surgically altered his appearance in an exacting, precise, mathematical, clinical manner. for this reason, many aquarius venus go on to become doctors because of this detached, observational, outsider relationship to the body and beauty.
leo moons have a mother who they truly admired and saw as a figure worthy of veneration/popularity, but at the other end of this, the mother figure could be someone so much at the centre of the child's perspective/in the spotlight that she sucked all the emotion out of the atmosphere and dominated emotionally in a bad way eg was (clinically) hysterical. tense aspects would indicate the latter.
taurus suns have a father who was level-headed and concerned with solid, practical material security matters. on the extreme end he was completely unfazed by any disaster/chaos that was happening around him. the eye at the centre of the storm, carrying on about his own business. this is why the native grows up to be seen as very calm, serene and self-contained, as they emulate the father. he may have been very stingy/particular about money and only buying the best value things or trying to get discounts. the native grows up to appreciate things with real, timeless worth, not trendy things just because they have a brand label on them. the native has an eye for true value.
people say that mars square jupiter means big phallus. but it also applies for women! can have a large/very sensitive clitoris/extremely high sex drive. a woman with this aspect in her chart literally dreamt that she had a huge phallus. freud's concept of 'penis envy' could be seen with these natives.
this is taurus moon:
very shy, timid on the inside. very in tune with nature and their own rhythms, to the point where they can be very disconnected/unconcerned with the outside world/others' expectations/pace of life which makes them seem odd, by how much they are rooted in themselves and not swayed by other people. comfort creatures. taurus is a fixed sign after all.
pluto makes big things small and small things big as it is the most distant planetary object from the moon. with sun-pluto, the native saw the father as an avengers level threat. with moon-pluto, the native saw the mother as this. life is subjective and its all about how the native percieved them, so even if from an outsider's perspective, the mother and father were perfectly normal harmless people, to the native, this immanent threat to existence and safety was very much real, because pluto makes small things big. the parent dominated their inner world. when in fact, it is what that parent represents, not the parent itself which is supposed to teach the native about power, control and the nature of good and evil in the world, i.e. that we are made of both, and it isn't others that are the villains - we all are. human nature is universal. with mercury-pluto, it is language and information itself which is seen as a threat that must be tightly controlled, creating a native that speaks very little but notices everything, giving words power where it is not necessarily always due and can be to the native's detriment. whereas with sun/moon-pluto, it is the mother/father which must be kept private/secret from the outside world's intrusions, due to the chokehold their all-consuming gravitational pull has on them. there is something taboo about their very existence. there may be sexual/incestuous undertones in the relationship with the mother/father. creates an intense and influential person whom others never view indifferently. have a lot of personal power which commands reverence.
sun conjunct chiron creates the epitome of a wounded, broken person. they feel weak/not up to the mark due to the relationship with the father, which wounded their sense of self. while on the negative side it can create a villain of a person who causes devastation, they also go on to become healers eg medical doctor as they have a naturally healing presence/touch/gift.
chiron in 8th house native experienced a primitive, primordial violation of their soul which created a hole in the fabric of reality, so now existence itself doesn't feel natural. they feel out of place in the universe, like this home doesn't really belong to them and they aren't welcome here. the advantage to experiencing this crack in the universe is that it gives them the vantage point to be able to empathise with and eventually heal people who perceive themselves as having soul-shattering experiences eg rape, because the world as the native knew it and their sense of security in it has already been shattered from a young age. they are exiled from the fundamental entitlement to feel at home in the world. they feel like an outside observer.
pisces suns have rainbow eyes! like their eyes have a multicolour shift to them.
part 6
