#mi:jun

[asyhana]

♙ - Jun

Thoughts/opinions on....

♙ - Their first sexual experience

He cringed, lips pursing. “Ah, whaddya have to ask about that for?” he complained as he scratched his scalp. “It was.... awkward.... It was in high school, with my then girlfriend, and let’s just keep in mind that I was still under the impression that I had all my working parts, okay? And I was freaking out because like.... I really liked her and she wanted to be with me like that and I was so out of it from excitement and anxiety and.... it was just bad. I don’t even wanna go into it really but we ended up like..... not going very far and there was a lot of embarrassed laughing......”

He sighed and smacked his face, closing his eyes. “It was a weird time. But with Minj-” He quickly shut up. “......I’m not talking about my future wife with you. That’s private.”

[asyhana]

1, 5, 8, 10, 15

1: Happiest memory?

H: Sweets in Belgium!

J: You saying you’d be my girlfriend.

5: Greatest hopes/aspirations/dreams? 

H: Getting out of here? Maybe reopening momma and daddy’s businesses again? If I still own them by then...... Maybe.....

J: Starting a family with you?

8: How do you deal with stressful situations?

H: I... don’t really. I usually end up getting triggered and switching with an alter.

J: Think pretty pink and blue thoughts? Or find you and snuggle quietly? Or go for a walk? Any of those.

10: What is it that you fear most?

H: Losing myself completely.

J: Poofing. Just poofing. It’s like being dead, right?

15: You just found out that you're pregnant, what do you do?

H + J: Freak the fuck out.

[asyhana]

Jun - age 19. What things give you the most inspiration? Zinger - age 19. Any plans for your life at all? Koei - age 35. What's going through your mind right now?

Jun (19; ‘09-’10): Dude, what inspiration? I’m just trying to live life for now. I guess that’s inspiring. Getting the most out of each day.

Zinger (19; ‘05-’06): Plans for my life? You ask that like I’m about to become a responsible adult! Ha! So silly. I don’t make plans. Keeping Hana from knocking herself off is a good start tho.

Koei (35; ‘04-’05): My wife.

[asyhana]

HEADCANONS PLEASE. FROM EACH ALTER.

Athenais

When Athenais and Zinger were children, they would play this game. Athenais would sing Le Lion est Mort Ce Soir (The Lion Sleeps Tonight) and she’d have Zinger act it all out. But she knew that Zinger hated it only played along because she didn’t want to upset her.

Zinger

The whole reason Zinger initially ventured into drug sales was because of Hana’s pill addiction. Instead of Hana having to go off and get drugs from someone sketchy and end up having to owe them in some perverse way or something, she kept her supply pretty full so she never had to actually deal with drug dealers. Hana didn’t realize it since she was too out of it during that time because of school, her addiction, her abuse, and her trainee admittance to really care.

Koei

Koei avoids dealing with Athenais because the moment she appeared the second time around (after Hana’s second suicide attempt around age 15) his wife, Nabi, disappeared as an alter. He holds to this day that she had something to do with the alter’s disappearance and if is worried that if he is around her, he might harm her in some way and as this life is one of atonement, he would not allow himself to behave in such a manner.

Jun

After Jun and Minji’s fun with his real body, Jun got really into researching about what girl’s do for sex since he needed to know how to work with Hana’s body and he doesn’t want to end up disappointing Minji in any way even though she knows even less than him about it and honestly doesn’t care. But because of his little dive into research, Zinger got him a strap-on. But he refuses to wear, use, or look at it. Because the dildo attached is bigger than he is. And he feels like if he used it, it would be a total double lie (First lie, not his dick. Second lie, not his size). And Minji would know it.

Tiger Lily

Tiger Lily’s gender fluidity has more to do with the feelings that Hana had as a child while being abused than anything else. Hana would often wonder if she had been a boy instead of a girl if the painful stuff would have still happened and so when Tiger Lily was ultimately born and triggered, they didn’t have a set gender and would go back forth, a sort of subconscious experiment to determine of being a girl or a boy would have any affect on anything. But seeing how by this time the abuse had stopped, there was no way of knowing but Tiger Lily’s fluidity remained.

[asyhana]

Okay. Okay. I see what you did their. Okay. At least I've got Hana and Hanbyul already down. Now, I'm asking the alters. Regrets and resolutions?

The way you word things is very important to the mun. Remember that! ^^

Athenais

“Regrets and resolutions? C’est impossible. My regrets and my resolutions on mine alone to know, petit. But I commend you for trying!”

Zinger

“You know it’s kinda hard to regret something when everything you do is on purpose and even if regret was something I could express, I doubt I’d have them. What’s the point of regrets? To look back and go, ‘Man, I royally fucked that up. I wish I had done it differently.’ and then continue to whine and bitch and moan about that chance you never took. You know why I don’t regets? I’m a manic psychopath. All I do is take chances other bitches wouldn’t. And as for resolutions, I don’t have time for those. I make up shit as I go along. No need for a plan.”

Koei

“There are many things I regret in this life and my past life. My past life is full of things I now wish I had never done, never entertained. The life I lead now is the punishment for that life and those regrets. My resolution is to live this life I was sentenced to, to fulfill my atonement and, hopefully, be given the chance to walk freely in my next life to do things a better way.”

Jun

“I don’t think I have any regrets, you know? I don’t think I’ve done anything that I’d go, ‘Dude, that was messed up’ to. I know I don’t really think about the things I do but I give them a cursory, ‘Huh. This might have consequences.’ But, I can say I’ve recently resolved to be the best boyfriend I can, to help and be there for Minji any way I can. I don’t know how much time I’ll have with her or if there’s a chance I’d get to stay with her forever. But! And it’s a big ‘but’, I don’t want her to ever think I don’t love and care for her. There’s not much else I can do but be there for her and Hana. I’m not like the others, you know? I’m not special and I can’t defend them to the death and I’m kinda stupid if you haven’t noticed but that’s what I can do. Be there. So, I’m gonna do it.”

Tiger Lily

“We don’t know what a ‘regret’ is. That’s a new word!! Can you tell us? Please, please, please, please, pleaaaaaaaaase?!”

[asyhana]

Headcanon;

Jun has his phone set in Chinese, since the others don't speak it. Hana is the only one who would understand it but he doesn't know that and her Chinese is rusty and very basic.

[asyhana]

This ask from Minzy made me think of something so random Headcanon:

While Zinger broke Hana out, she got each of the alters their own phones, just so they weren't all using Hana's and confusing the shit out her. She let them all choose their own phones in a moment of civility since they were going to be stuck with them for a while. So, on the bedside table in Hana's room, there's a line of phones, each different and used by Hana or her alters.

Hana's: Samsung Galaxy S4

Zinger: Samsung Galaxy S5 mini (Gold)

Jun: Iphone 6 (Grey)

Koei: HTC ONE M7 (Zinger wouldn't allow him to get a brick and Jun had to teach him how to use it.)

Athenais: LG G3

[asyhana]

Jun - Name one thing (besides your false bravado and your girlfriend) that helps give you confidence.

My clothes! If I know I look good (which, come on, is always) then my confidence is pretty high.