I had found out awhile ago that I've actually been microdosing on T this whole time (the past 6 years) which explains why it took me maybe 4 or 5-ish years to be satisfied with my transition. And even then, I sorta had to talk myself into being satisfied with it and regularly practice coping mechanisms and self acceptance.
In an irl lgbt group I was in, I met a nonbinary trans masc whose voice was far deeper than mine and passed a lot better than me despite only being on T for 9 months. I brought out my coping skills and did a really good job at not insulting myself a bunch, but I still walked away from that meeting feeling like I must just be very unlucky and felt kind of embarrassed. But uh, nope. Turns out I've just been microdosing this whole time.
0.8 thingies of testosterone once every second week. When my doctor moved me up a dose, my hair started falling out and my cholesteral went bonkers so I went back down to that amount. My friend who's also on T said he does about double that amount once a week.
No wonder I couldn't relate to the other trans men celebrating their transitions 😭😭 my 6 years on T is closer to the average 3 years on T! Damn!
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Edit: the dosage on the box says 0.8 mg of T once every two weeks
