The experience of I am pragmatic enough to not be an absolute pacifist but also just passing by a statue of a soldier makes me physically sick because it's such a cruel thing to give someone a gun, force them to die and kill, and then build a statue to present them as a brave hero instead of the victim they were. The experience of I understand why countries have borders and armies and it is not because humans are evil by nature but also fuck exactly because I don't believe we are evil by nature the thought that people are forced to kill other people deeply unsettles me. The whole ''veterans are heroes'' ''no, veterans are evil war criminals'' makes me sick because no, veterans are victims and the world made them participate in something terrible for themselves and others but also I get why we glorify veterans, it is necessary for morale it is just disgusting to me personally and also I get why some people shame and call them awful, the murder happened. And idk none of this makes sense btw this is not an argument it is just a rant. Militaristic culture is so fascinating and interesting but also so seriously depressing and disturbing to me.
