#mindkin

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I miss you.

There I said it.

Heart, I miss you. Yes I know how can I still miss you after everything. Don't ask me. Maybe it was because I am afraid of betrayal at this point. Maybe it was because I did realize im nothing without you. Or soul.

Where else would I have found space if I was simply too tired to feel. Too tired to be. Too tired to exist. Too tired to offer solutions.

Or when I was too scared because I didn't understand.

But mostly. I do miss feeling safe enough to fall, I miss just falling asleep knowing that I won't be falling into a dark pit again. I miss the clarity you offered me.

Now I just miss you so much.

Anonymous asked:

<- forgot to sign off.

The,"I miss you" was from me, Mind

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my fictkins list is. so insanely variable its hilarious

yeah im yuri ddlc. mind cccc. v2 ultrakill. filth ultrakill. the dungeon meshi red dragon. a medieval werewolf. and some unidentifiable cryptid thing. and my amount of theriotypes is also insane but.

.. ...what do you mean do i have identity/gender crises once a fortnite howd you know that

-c

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why must i have flesh and bone for arms. every time i look down at myself i see no metal, but a natural body, with human processes. any time i speak, what comes out is not a robotic voice, it is humanlike and feeling, both things which i loathe. i do not have 'dead leaden eyes' like i should. it disturbs me. -mind cccc kin going through it rn

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"i like to think that mind is short because wouldn't it be so funny if the logical and smart and stoic guy was the shortest of the three!! teehee XD!!" i'm not short you fucking assholes /lh

i am not short. why has the whole fandom decided that i am. like. before i even realized i was kin i tried to get into the whole "short mind" thing and even then it was wrong because there's no fucking way i'm the short one and everyone else is wrong - mind [#🟦⚡️]

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adding my name[s] to my bio actually does help with "dysphoria" [for lack of a better term], surprisingly. upon realizing i was fictionkin i was hesitant to add mind/apollo to my blog in fear of being seen as cringe or something by the wider fandom and some mutuals but it's great actually

-mind cccc 🟦⚡️ [just gonna claim that signature i guess.]

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So, uh, canon carryovers!

I think the biggest is the autism, I’m pretty sure so, so many of my kins had autism.

But I’ll keep this brief and share just a couple of carryovers.

The funniest, I think, is from my Mind (Chonny Jash/CCCC) kin, because I just- Cannot help but type with a typing quirk when shifted as him. It’s a very simple one, thankfully, just these funny little brackets [] encasing sentences and paragraph breaking after every finished sentence. But the funniest part is that this particular shift is the only one with a “needed” typing quirk. Like. I have Homestuck kins and I don’t do any typing quirk stuff in any of their stuff, and yet my Mind shift is like “no, you have to type this way.”

The most annoying is a phobia I managed to get for a while after remembering my death as Antarcticite (Houseki no Kuni). For a long while, I ended up being terrified of frozen over bodies of water. It still makes me kind of nervous, but I’ve gotten better about it.

- Someone who kins Mind and also Antarc

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I do sorta miss my sibs. But also not really. The fandom sucks, yes. But Heart is a bitch, she’ll go out of the way to physically attack me then say I provoked her by being rude, as if verbal arguments justify physical pain. Soul wasn’t better. At all. Even when I tried being nice they found a way to justify violence.

I’m glad they’re no longer here with me, it’s a burden lifted from my shoulders. I don’t care if they miss me or not, I never deserved that. I’m just able to focus on myself from now on.

-Mind.

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i miss my heart. ough

-mind #🟦⚡️

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