#misery posting

[anasbap]

Grown up Lain desings I am making for a project

[awellreadmannequin]

they should grind me to paste and feed me to the wolves

[jarpout]

Aslan and Daisy

—Vasiliy, he/him

[chiotri-loves-davekat]

UGHhhhhhh ahghhhhh bluhhhhhh ughhhhhhh

[trixree]

My therapist told me that when I feel hopeless and defeated by my physical limitations that I should take a lot of care not to let that define me. Instead he says I should focus on my adaptability and strength for surviving despite them... But god is that so hard to do when I feel like literal dogshit and can't even get off the floor long enough to put clean sheets on my bed

[supplementaryselves]

[awellreadmannequin]

its hilarious how much longevity is a rich person’s dream. i’m poor, i’m closer to thirty than twenty and have no savings or meaningful career prospects, my parents are working class and will spend most of their wealth just living through retirement, i probably won’t be able to afford retirement at all, and i’m disabled. I absolutely do not want to live to be. what. 150? under this conditions. Hell, I don’t want to live to seventy under these conditions. as soon as my body starts to seriously degrade with age, all those factors above will compound to reduce my quality of life even further. why… why would i want… decades of that? what possible benefits could i, in my circumstances, get from two or three or however many decades those longevity assholes want? no, i think for my seventieth birthday (if i’m unfortunate enough to last that long) i want to be put down like a dog. gimme both barrels to the back of the head and tell my… well i probably can’t afford kids either so. uh. tell whoever cares i’m living on a farm in the countryside.

[awellreadmannequin]

my body: utterly wiped by whatever the fuck is happening to me, achingly tired, desperate to sleep

also my body: “hey kid, want the worst fucking sleep of your entire life?”