#missing rachel

[raceysummers]

Hey guys

Its monday. A holiday actually, because its patriots day. Plus there was an event tonight, ill probs post pics tomorrow. 

I have been in a weird mood lately. Idk if im lonely, if im tired, idk whats up. Maybe I wanna break up with Pick. I love being with him but I want something new. I want a cute someone to love me and to make me feel appreciated. Idk. I just feel like something is missing right now. i have so many plans and stuff going out in being in the summer and I am super exhausted and I just want something new to happen. I just feel like there is no excitement or something. 

Is it bad that I want something new? I want something new, anything new. I want something to go right. Idk what even happening with me. I wish I had someone to talk to and to make me feel better. Hell sometimes i even wish I could date Evan again. He just makes me feel so good about myself and I wish that I could have a real shot at dating someone somewhat athletic and someone with as much passion as me. 

im being craz.y Im gonna sleep. Ill talk to you guys on wednesday.

-K

[sobathecat]

All Hail Adorable Max

[raceysummers]

Hey guys

its wednesday

and its been long. Pick misses me a lot apparently, and I miss him too, but he’s getting a little too cutesy for me. But I can get around that. And tomorrow I am going to Evan’s house for new years, with the whole old squad from high school. So that is actually going to be pretty fun honestly, but idk how much I can take. I might go insane. Idk how much I am going to drink. Probably not a lot, but enough to really make me feel better. I know that sounds like i am an alcoholic but god do i need it. 

But guys, ive been so sick. So fucking sick. Like, I think its allergies because its all congestion, which makes me super nauseous and then my tummy hurts and yeah. But i did get my humidifier! So hopefully it will all end up being ok. 

I really miss Rachel already. I know she is super close and not far at all but its far away enough from me and I MISS HER SO MUCH. I just want Rachel to come home with me. And then we can just hang out forever. 

Okay, I really need to go to sleep. I really gotta get some exercise tomorrow, like a run or something, cause I haven’t done it in a while. And that is kinda hard. I keep meaning too but ya know when you wake up feeling like crap and its just like ugh. 

also I have a funeral for my friends dad on saturday, and that is also going to be hard. I feel so bad for her. I don’t know how to help her or the rest of her family. But I care about her! I coached with her all summer! And I wish I could do something. But I cant. 

Enough dwelling on the negatives. I am going to go to sleep. Ill check in with you guys on friday!! Have a happy new year and stay safe okay? watch out for drunk drivers!

-K

[raceysummers]

Hey guys!

Monday here!

holy shit has it been a busy weekend. And last night, i couldnt fall asleep till two. and I got up at four forty. fml. running on so little sleep

i gotta sleep asap. but first, let me fill you in

HAPPY MONDAY! but also this weekend I went to an event (which was a bit of a disaster) and i had to sit in a boat and cox for like FIVE HOURS. SO. FUCKING. LONG. HOLY. SHIT. DO YOU KNOW HOW LONG THAT IS WITH BEGINNERS. SO LONG. BUT I SURVIVED. 

but im also running a coxswain clinic sort of thing for mommys little novices and that is super hard. they are so freaking hard to deal with. they dont know how to be serious or how to listen or anything. Im doing my best, but its kinda like super freaking hard. 

but i started practicing and working out for the spartan race and its super hard. maybe cause i had no sleep but thats not really it. it was a hard workout and im super sore. so tomorrow, obviously, i gotta do it again. except longer and harder. AND TOMORROW IM GETTNG MY HAIR CUT.

and wednesday to friday, im babysitting three boys from 8 am to about 4:30pm. HOLY SHIT THATS LONG. with no breaks but hopefully i will be okay. im really hoping. i just gotta go tob ed. like right now. night guys.

-K

[raceysummers]

Hey guys So I wrote a really really really long post about how cuch I miss matt and our last day together but then I moved or something and it all deleted. So imma try doing it again. Basically, it was my last day with matt today. We went to bay street and walked around and acted adorable and then we went to a movie and it was so freaking good. The movie was amazing and because I am silly and hormonal I cried like three times and it sucked but matt didn't notice I think cause I hid it by reaching for snacks. So I think he didn't notice. Yay. Also after we went out to sushi. Which was sweet and cute and romantic and I loved it so much. We also went to ice cream and then up to grizzly peak to watch the sun go down. It was foggy so we mostly watched the lights come on in oakland while we kissed and cuddled and had an adorable night together. I really do wish that could have lasted forever. I was so happy there, just in his arms being held and snuggled and loved. Yes, saying good bye was hard but I'm mostly hoping he doesn't find an adorable boy who wants to like him and love him and so he forgets about me. I don't think I could handle that. I already miss him. I really do. I'm sad. Okay I'm gonna stop so I don't get all depressing. Sorry! -K

[raceysummers]

Hey y'all! I miss rachel. She's gone and I want her home. Asap. She's cute and sweet and I absolutely love snuggling you. I really wanna tell her how much I love her but she is so far away and I feel really alone. I know its stupid but I do. She's one of my absolute best friends and I wish she was here to watch stupid movies with me and let me tell her how much she means to me. Cause she really means so much. She means more then anything to me. I want her back. Now. I want snuggles and love. -K

[singularlywords]

freakin missing kissing