Let me just put this here for all of the haters calling you white- DON'T YOU FUCKERS KNOW SHE'S MIXED?! She's not doing this for ally cookies or to fight your fight for you. She's doing it because what goes on in this theatre department is wrong and apparently, she's one of the only people who cares about it.
When I told my mom I was dating another white boy, the FIRST thing she said to me was "does he know you're part black? White people don't like to be surprised by blackness."
When I was looking to apply to schools, she would throw away any pamphlets that "didn't even try to pretend they were diverse by putting a brown face on the front cover."
My mama's told me that when she retires, she wants to go somewhere like Panama, somewhere "with a lot of other brown people so I won't stick out so much." I almost started crying when she said that to me.
This isn't for you, white people.
And for the children whose mamas and papas had to warn them that they will be treated differently because of the way they look, the children who grew up to be intelligent, wonderful people who can't escape the daily bullshit of living in a fucked up, racist society.
This is for anybody who's ever had to hold their tongue when another bullshit microaggression fucked up their day because they don't have the energy to fight every single daily battle.
This is for anybody struggling to accept themselves because they have so much internalized racism that is only perpetuated by the inability of others to stand up for what's right.
This is for anybody who came to the arts because it was a place of liberation and celebration of diversity and experience and found themselves sold short.
This is for everybody who's told me that they wish that they could say something, but they don't want to be ostracized like I have been.
But it's not for the white people.
And if you don't want me to speak on your behalf, then I don't. I don't claim to represent anybody who hasn't given me their support or left me their comments about their own experiences and outrage, which have always been my primary source behind this.
I don't want it to be about me. But I don't want to force anybody else trying to navigate this fucked up world to have to add one more goddamn thing to their list if I can prevent it.
If I ever get out of line, or get bigheaded, PLEASE call me out on it. Because I am trying so hard to show that this is not about me. Just as long as you know that if you're anonymous, I don't know whether to consider you honestly or if you're just another troll trying to discourage me.
Thanks to everybody who's supported me so far, thanks to everybody who's helped me connect with other organizations and departments on campus, thanks to everybody who's watching and waiting and hoping for genuine change, and thanks to my mama and papa for teaching me that some things are worth sticking your neck out for.
I promise I won't let you down.