warnings: implied prejudice? i made it as vague as possible
A/N; i was going to make this a drabble initially but it turned into a short scenario so i’m sorry if this isn’t long or short enough for you ;-;
Shownu walks into the bedroom, sliding his duffle bag off his shoulder and onto the floor next to the bed. He sighs as he falls back onto the bed, head rolling over to look at you sitting in front of your vanity mirror, making yourself look presentable.
“I told you making the dinner date with your parents on a day you have both dance practice and gym all day was a bad idea” You smile cheekily, looking at him through the mirror.
“I know, but it’s the only day they’re both free at a decent time” He exhales with a groan.
“Just don’t pass out at the dinner table, okay?” You giggle, loving how cute and sleepy he looks right now.
“I won’t, my mum would smack me” He exhales.
“Speaking of… I’m really nervous to meet her… and your dad too, of course” Your smile fades quickly, you stare at yourself in the mirror as you get lost in your nervous thoughts.
“Hey, don’t be nervous baby”, Hyunwoo sits up and walks over to you “I’m sure they’ll love you”.
“Well I hope so” You exhale, trying to calm yourself. Hyunwoo squeezes your shoulders as his hands slide down and wrap themselves around you. You lean back into him, smiling up at him. He pecks your lips as he strokes your cheek lovingly.
“You really need to shower, stinkyhead”, You snicker cheekily “and be quick, I’m almost ready and only need to get dressed”. He chuckles at you, shaking his head.
“I won’t be long”.
You’re sitting across from Shownu’s mother as he sits next to you across from his dad. It’s a bit of an awkward silence at first, everyone wanting to end their hunger and digging in ASAP.
“Thank you so much for having me here tonight, this food is amazing!” You break the silence, smiling brightly and nodding towards Hyunwoo’s mother.
“It’s no problem at all, I wanted to cook all my best dishes for tonight and give you a proper introduction” His mother smiles back just as brightly, making you feel warm inside.
“So, you met Hyunwoo through work?” His dad asks, his seriousness feeling a little daunting.
“Yes! I was on the video team for one of Monsta X’s reality shows and I was assigned to video Hyunwoo”, you start to blush a little as you remember how you fell for him “getting to follow him around all day and film him being his goofy self really made me fall for him so fast”. You can feel a warmth rising throughout your body as you can feel Shownu looking at you with nothing but love and adoration. He reaches over and gives your hand a squeeze before eating another scoop of his Kimchi Stew.
“I’m glad we finally get to meet you after 7 months, Hyunwoo’s father and I have been pestering him to meet you when it was only 4” His mother laughs. You laugh along with her as you look at Shownu with an eye-smile, he returns it.
“Yeah, to be honest we didn’t even think you’d last past 2 months”, his dad laughs “what with you two being complete opposites of each other; culture and personality wise”.
You suddenly feel a nervous pang in your stomach as you nervously laugh to try and save the awkwardness. You can practically feel the cold radiating off Shownu as he freezes in place, already knowing where this is going.
“W-what?” You stutter, trying to process and understand if his dad meant what you thought he did (and was hoping he didn’t)
“Oh you know, people from your country and of your culture tend to be really wild and crazy”, his dad puts his fork down to properly explain “whereas here we are more reserved and responsible, especially people like Hyunwoo”.
You’re baffled, not even knowing what to reply or do. You look over at Shownu and his jaw is tense and he’s gripping his cutlery so tightly his knuckles are white.
“He doesn’t mean it that way”, Shownu’s mother tries to step in “we know you’re not like that now, meeting you and hearing how Hyunwoo talks about you, we know you’re different and committed”.
“Yeah, when Hyunwoo first told us about you we really had our doubts because as I said; wild and crazy, which means commitment issues”, his dad doesn’t bat an eye as he continues his problematic explanation “but you’ve definitely proven us wrong and shown us you’re not like them”.
“Sorry…them?” Your brain butts in before you can decide whether to retaliate or not.
“You know, the rest of- “
“Dad, enough!” Shownu cuts his dad off, slamming his cutlery against the table. His parents jump in shock.
“Just stop, you wonder why it took me so long to introduce my partner to you yet say stuff like this right to their face? How can you not put two and two together? As soon as I told you their race you started with those same assumptions and even though they were proven wrong so early on in the relationship you still held onto them, and still do clearly”, Shownu stands up as he rants on “and I love you guys, I really do, but when you do and say stuff like this it really hurts me, especially right in front of their face”.
You can do nothing but look forward into the abyss in shock as you listen to him.
“I plan to spend the rest of my life with this person, this beautiful person who I care about so deeply and while I usually would ask your approval, this time I won’t because I have everything I want and need in my life, this person right here has just completed that” Shownu grabs your hand tightly as he continues. Your cheeks go bright red as your heart soars; you really adore him.
“Now, I think we’re done here”, Shownu pulls your hand up “when you want to apologise you can call me”.
Shownu grabs your bag as he pulls you out of the door, his parents say nothing and just sit in shock as you two leave.
It’s quiet as you come out of the bathroom to Shownu sitting shirtless on the side of the bed as he gets ready for bed.
“Hyunwoo?” You say softly.
“Yes, baby?” He replies just as softly, looking up at you with his gentle eyes.
“You know you didn’t have to do that for me, right?” You walk towards him and sit on his lap and rest your head on his shoulder and link your arms with his.
“What do you mean?” He puts his phone away and focuses on you, holding your waist with one hand and holding your hand with the other.
“Snapping at your parents like that”, you pout “I’d hate for you to risk your relationships with your parents because of me”.
“Honey, no! Trust me I’m not risking anything”, Shownu reassures you “I couldn’t just let them be rude to you like that, they’re mature and will realise their wrongdoings and apologise in no time okay? Don’t stress”.
“Okay, I trust you”, you give him a smile with sparkly eyes “and I can’t lie and say that seeing you defend me like that wasn’t sexy and didn’t make my heart tingle”.
Shownu chuckles at that confession before cradling your cheek in his hand as he brings you in for a passionate & loving kiss. He pulls away delicately, keeping his face just centimetres away from you.
“I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you” He smiles; you swear you can see the entire universe in his eyes.
warnings: cursing, alcohol mentions, the smut is dirty af i can’t put it all in a warning oop
A/N: i made kihyun basically a bully and a giant asshole but ik he’s a soft baby and a lovely boy but i just have a lot of pent up feelings towards him, i can’t admit my feelings for him so i just use hatred as an excuse okay its a personal problem. pls dont hate me!!
You couldn’t get rid of him no matter how hard you tried. It was hard enough that he was involved in your close friend group and you had to see his face often, but he also genuinely enjoyed seeing you get so heated over the mere sight of him.
“For once, for once can he be working when we hang out or I don’t know… maybe just not be invited?” You groan, angrily looking out the window of Changkyun’s car with your arms firmly crossed.
“Look we can’t just not invite him, he’s still our friend. It’s not our fault neither of you can stand each other, you’re lucky either of you get invited to these things do you really think any of us want to deal with the never ending bickering from you two?” Changkyun shook his head, dreading the thought of all the arguing he’s going to have to deal with tonight.
“He starts it! You really expect me to just take his little digs at me?” You huff.
“He only does it because he knows for sure you will fight back; I’ve told you this how many times? Hell, he’s told you that himself yet you still give him the reaction he wants, if you just ignored him he’d stop”
“I really doubt that” You mumble, staring at the road ahead. Changkyun never beats around the bush with you, but that is why he was your best friend, both as feisty and fiery as each other. It is probably a bad dynamic since you both just feed off each others intense vibes and don’t hold back with others who aren’t either of you, who often can’t handle such honesty and bluntness. Most times you love Kyun being honest with you, but times like this; when talking about the person who makes your blood boil more than anyone else, you really hated it. Maybe tonight you will take Kyun’s advice and ignore Kihyun, just to prove him wrong when Kihyun continues to terrorise you and he can finally get all the blame he deserves.
As soon as you got out of the car you could see your group of boys through the big window at the front of the restaurant, sitting on the table right next to the window as per usual. Thank god they were all talking and too preoccupied in looking at the menus arguing over what they were going to order to notice you and Kyun walking in. There is seriously only 1 whole brain cell in this goddamn group and it belongs to you. Without you they wouldn’t get anywhere. You hide behind Kyun as you enter, both so Kihyun won’t see you and pester you before you even get to the table and so you can see where he is sitting before you reach the table and plan how you will avoid him as much as you can. You and Kyun reach the table and stand there silent for at least 30 seconds before any of them notice you, they were really going at it between themselves. Sitting on the wall side was Minhyuk, Kihyun, Jooheon & Hyungwon. Facing the rest of the restaurant and their backs to you and Kyun right now was Shownu and Wonho, sitting on the side closest to the window with the two free seats for you and Kyun next to them at the end of the table. Finally, Hyungwon turns around from watching the other three boys argue next to him to see you and Kyun standing there, staring at them with the biggest look of disapproval on your faces. He smiles and nods, nobody else noticing you. Minhyuk, Kihyun & Jooheon were all arguing over what food they wanted to get and Shownu was asking them, practically begging them all to just settle on either one meal or one meat option each for the barbecue otherwise it would end up being too much money and not all of it would be eaten anyways. Wonho was just disassociating on his phone. Kyun clears his throat, still no response, so he just sighs and pulls out the seat next to Shownu, leaving you to sit on the end of the table across from Hyungwon. He knew you would appreciate that, wanting to be as far away from Kihyun as possible, but two people down from you on the other side was still too close. The other 3 boys on the other side all look up when they hear the chairs being pulled out, nod at you both and go back to their food issues.
“Look, you three need to shut up for a moment and we need to ask these two what they would like now. So you three need to settle your issues ASAP otherwise this will just end up like last time” Shownu demands, tone very clearly desperate.
“I’m okay with anything, I just want food” you say, which earns a smirk and a loud nose exhale from Kihyun, whatever that was meant to mean you had no idea and you didn’t really care to know. You didn’t even look his way, focusing on the menu Shownu handed to Kyun.
“Same for me, as long as you get some kind of beef for the barbecue I don’t care. Also as long as you three stop arguing so I can eat quicker” Kyun says, handing the menu back to Shownu. The other three pout and huff, settling on a meal and a barbecue option amongst each other. You’re rather shocked Kihyun hasn’t made a single dig at you yet, this is a new record for him, but you put it down to him being more concerned about his empty stomach for the time being. Hopefully when the food arrives he’s too busy scoffing food down his throat to be bothering you.
As per usual, Wonho ended up being the barbecue dad as he put the first load of meat onto the barbecue the sound of the satisfying sizzle filling your ears and everyone was happily digging into the dishes. The last dish arrives and you gasp in excitement and try to quickly finish your current food so you can grab some of the new one before all the boys finish it first with their bottomless stomachs.
“Woah, relax and stop acting like a pig. The food won’t go anywhere” Kihyun laughs, widening his eyes at you in a mocking way.
“Kihyun what the fuck? Mind your own business and back off, dude” Kyun snaps.
‘Ah, here we go’ you think to yourself. You feel that pang in your stomach, wanting so badly to snap back at him instantly but you remember the car ride and decide to stay quiet. For some reason what he said this time actually hurts you. Why? You’re not sure, you hate it, you feel weak. You feel like running to the bathroom to hide the hurt that you’re pretty sure is showing clearly on your face, especially since you usually snap back instantly. You ignore Kihyun, don’t even glance at him and just continue to grab yourself a nice amount of the new dish and place it into your little bowl, trying your best to eat it without looking too upset. A few seconds later, Wonho finishes cooking the beef and takes everyone’s bowls and gives them a fair amount of it before putting the next load of meat on.
“Are you okay?” Hyungwon asks you quietly, leaning across the table.
“Yeah I’m fine, just really tired from all my classes today” You give him a soft smile and a nod, appreciative that he actually checked up you even though you hate that it’s clear you are upset.
“Ah okay, I was worried that you we- “
“How has everyone’s week been?” Minhyuk yells from his end of the table, largely exaggerating the loudness of the restaurant chatter and music.
“We’re all University students, how interesting could any of our weeks have been?” Jooheon replies, beef stuffed in his mouth.
“Well I’m sorry I’m just trying to make fucking conversation since none of you have made an attempt to” Minhyuk snaps, gesturing his hands out to everyone around the table and then clasping them together.
“Jooheon are you trying to imply that you actually go to class and spend your time outside of class actually studying?” Wonho says, not even glancing up as he turns over all the meat. Everyone on the table cracks up laughing.
“Hey! I was not implying anything, even if when I don’t go to classes; which I do most of the time by the way, I just stay home which still isn’t interesting… and I do study!” Jooheon leans back against the wall, arms firmly crossed with a grumpy pout on his face.
“It’s okay Joo, I think staying home and watching Netflix… or studying and going to class like you apparently do, is a lot more interesting and entertaining than being one of those students that goes out all the time and constantly gets drunk, high and is basically brain-dead 24/7” You say, stuffing the meat in your mouth into your cheeks.
“You can’t really say that when you’ve never been to even ONE party since you’ve started at University, you wouldn’t have any idea of how it’s ‘not fun’ or what fun even is. You just go to class every day and study and then stay cooped up in your dorm every weekend like a complete loser,” Kihyun doesn’t even breathe once, “oh and please, don’t talk with your mouth full”. Minhyuk whacks the back of Kihyun’s head, looking at you with sorrow. You felt your blood pressure rising, wishing so badly you could split his chopsticks in half and shove them up his ass. However, you just sat there looking down at your now empty bowl trying to hide how red your face now was and your throat closing up, feeling like you were going to cry out of frustration. If he made one more mean comment you were certain you were going to snap, and by that you mean snapping those chopsticks in half and sticking them where the sun doesn’t shine; which is absolutely nowhere near Kihyun.
You guys had finished all the food and were now having a nice catch up, telling each other the funny happenings that had occurred within the last month and a bit that you hadn’t met up properly as a whole group. The conversation though, had drifted to Changkyun, Wonho & Minhyuk ganging up on Jooheon and telling you all stories about the embarrassing things Joo did in high school.
“I cannot believe you did that!! When you were Vice Captain?! In front of the entire school board?!” You screamed.
“Don’t forget that it was a whole school assembly, too! He really just whipped out a little impromptu ‘hip hop dance routine’ in front of the whole school and the school board, you should’ve seen the look of pure horror on the Vice Principal’s face. He got in so much trouble for that and almost got his position taken away” Minhyuk said with a shit-eating grin.
“You’re the one that promised me if I did that you’d pay for my lunch everyday for the rest of the semester, it’s your fault!” Joo whines.
“And I did didn’t I? So why are you complaining?” Minhyuk sasses.
“BECAUSE YOU’RE SITTING HERE TELLING EVERYONE ABOUT AN EMBARRASSING THING I DID BUT IT WAS YOU WHO MADE ME DO IT MAKING ME LOOK LIKE I DID IT OUT OF MY OWN ACCORD!”
“Because it’s a funny story, and I didn’t force you to, you had the choice to say no”
“NO YOU DIDN’T GIVE ME A CHOICE STOP LY- “
“Okay enough you two children” Shownu interjects. If he didn’t stop them now this would continue for way too long, they’re worse than you and Kihyun.
“Oh my gosh wait, Wonho! What about that time you told Minhyuk you’d give him $50 if he licked the swing-set” Changkyun gasps with the sudden memory.
“Wow, yes! The chain handle part”, Wonho laughs “and he actually did it and ended up in the nurse’s office because he instantly got really sick and had to stay home for the rest of week!”. Everyone bursts into laughter.
“Hey I don’t regret a thing, that $50 was worth it. I bought some sick gym shoes with that money” Minhyuk smiles. You were in tears with laughter.
“Man I wish I knew you guys in high school, you seem like you were even funnier and dumber back then” You cry.
“Hey, me and Kyun weren’t and aren’t dumb it was and is just those two” Wonho acts offended. You really do wish you knew them back then; it would’ve definitely made your dull high school life a lot brighter. You’re grateful you know them now of course, they make your stressful, overwhelming University life a lot more bearable. You and Kyun were both Literature students, Minhyuk, Hyungwon & Shownu all Dance & Performance students and then Joo & Wonho were Music Production students, where they met Kihyun as he is a Music Performance student and they work together a lot. The boys that already knew each other from school brought along their friends that they met in class who didn’t have friends to hang out with yet, and then you all became a close nit group and all friends with each other separately… well, except for two of you.
“I don’t know Wonho, I’d say you’re also pretty dumb” You say slowly with a sneaky grin, “are we not going to address that very dumb, embarrassing thing you accidentally did in class no less than what, two weeks ago?”. He looks at you confused.
“Remember, Jooheon messaged the group chat instantly screaming out of secondhand embarrassment?” You push.
“Oh- OH GOD yeah we aren’t going to address it remember I asked specifically for nobody to ever talk about it again that’s why we haven’t spoke about it and won’t” Wonho blushes, “it was very traumatic for me and I removed it from my brain and now you’ve reminded me and now I’m going to cry myself to sleep tonight”.
“But you admit that you are pretty dumb, right? At least sometimes” You laugh.
“Are you serious? You’re straight making fun of him for something that he seems genuinely humiliated by and didn’t ever want to talk about again. That’s so rude why would you joke about something like that?” Kihyun snaps at you before Wonho can reply. You feel that pang in your stomach again, genuinely taken aback.
“Dude chill, I know she was just playing around. I was also joking, it’s not that deep” Wonho replies, glaring at Kihyun. You slam your hands on the table and stand up, staring at him like you’re about to stab him with the barbecue scissors. The rest of the boys stare at you in shock, expecting you to rip into him. Instead of doing that like you wanted to, you just turn around and walk out the door of the restaurant, quickly wiping away the tears that are falling out of your eyes.
You sat on the bench outside the restaurant, far away from the window where the boys sat so they couldn’t see you. Your elbows are propped up on your thighs, with with your face resting in your palms and you’re staring at the ground. Your tears are dried by this point but you know if you think too hard they will fall again; which your brain keeps trying to do but you refuse to let it, you will just think of nothing. Your phone keeps vibrating and you know its probably one of the boys - most likely Kyun, trying to text or call you but you really don’t want to talk to any of them right now. You’ll just get the bus or train home later. Suddenly, you feel someone’s hand on your back as you see them sit down next to you. It was Changkyun.
“Hey” He says quietly. You don’t reply.
“Just so you know, before you even got out the door we all let Kihyun have it. For real, none of us are okay with what he was doing tonight it was ridiculous and not okay at all” Kyun grabs your hand, intertwining his fingers with yours. You reciprocate.
“He was a straight bully tonight; it wasn’t even just the typical little petty digs they were actually mean, especially since you weren’t fighting back. I’m sorry for saying that he only does it because you react, you should’ve defended yourself” He rubs his thumb over the back of your hand.
“I- I tried to but, for some reason I just didn’t… I couldn’t. I wanted to tear him to shreds but my body just wouldn’t follow through” You choked out, tears welling up in your eyes again.
“It’s okay, just know that none of us boys are okay with what he did tonight and I mean you saw us defending you when you were there. We’ve made sure he knows that he won’t ever be allowed to come out with us again if he’s going to pull that again” Kyun looks into your eyes, making sure you know that he’s serious. You smile up at him, feeling so cared for and loved as a tear falls from your eye. It was a happy tear. Kyun wipes it off your cheek with his free hand.
“Come on, I’ll drive you home” Kyun stands up in front of you and helps you up.
“Thank you, Kyun”, You say, looking up at him for a few seconds before wrapping your arms around his torso “I know we joke around a lot and fight, and I know you find affection gross but, I really do love you a lot and I’m so grateful for you” you silently cry into his chest. Thank god he’s wearing black.
“It’s okay, I love you too. Also I don’t find it gross, alright, just too much of it but at times like this it’s nice” He says. You giggle as he softly pokes your cheek, keeping his hand locked with yours as he walks you to his car.
Changkyun had actually convinced you to come to a party, you don’t know why he wanted you to go, but he did. All the boys were going to be there why did he need you there? He said it was just to get you out of the house so you can clear your mind and forget about your worries for a bit, but you weren’t convinced that was the only reason why, but it was all he would tell you when you would press for an answer. It’s not that you didn’t like parties - you did, it was more the people that were going to be there, doing drugs and all the guys that will try and get in your pants just for the sake of it rather than actually being interested in you in any way. Anyways, you decided to go for the reason he said, just to get yourself out of the house and you hadn’t had a good party in a while and a reason to get all dressed up (totally nothing to do with the reason that you knew Kihyun would be there and you wanted to prove to him that you can have a fun time). You planned your outfit in your head for days in advance, and you were so happy when it actually looked great on you and by some miracle your makeup cooperated with you and came out beautifully, too. You look hot, you’d 100% fuck yourself if you were someone else. You actually feel good about yourself and excited for this party, it really is a miracle. You weren’t going to let anything… or anyone ruin your night. You’re spritzing yourself with perfume when you here the beep of a car outside, you immediately know it’s Changkyun. You grab your bag and do one last look over of yourself in the mirror; taking a quick selfie or two, or three, and then quickly running out of the door while Changkyun beeps at you to hurry up. You run outside and while you’re trying to lock your door properly Jooheon starts beeping the car horn repeatedly, you flip him off as you watch him start laughing his ass off in the front seat. Once you lock your door you quickly walk to the back door, hearing Jooheon still laughing before you even open the door. Shownu gets out of the car so you can sit in the middle.
“You’re such a child! it really isn’t that funny” You frown, climbing into the middle seat. Jooheon lets out a ‘hoo’ as he wipes a tear away.
“I think it was hilarious” Jooheon breathes, relaxing back into the passenger seat.
“She’s right, it really wasn’t” Shownu agrees as he gets back in the seat next to you and shuts the door. Wonho and Changkyun both agree with you and Shownu.
“Fuck you guys” Jooheon pouts. Changkyun turns up the radio and reverses out of your driveway. You were really excited for this party.
The music was blasting; you could feel every part of your body vibrate with the bass. It had been about 2 hours since you arrived and you were pretty tipsy, borderline drunk. You had lost sight of any of your friends, the boys, classmates or friends you made literally 5 minutes ago at this party. You’re lost in the music and the tingly, happy feeling that was overtaking your body, you’re dancing the night away, along with any worry you had about anything in your life prior to coming to this party. At least you were, until you feel someone tap you on your shoulder; which you ignored because you thought you were imagining it, and if it was real you wanted them to leave you alone because you were having fun. Unfortunately, it is real and they keep persisting so you turn around angrily. You immediately scrunch your face up in disgust. It’s Kihyun.
“I need to talk to you” He slurs, grabbing onto your shoulder for support as he almost trips onto you.
“No you don’t! Fuck off” You say in a matter-of-fact tone, immediately smack his hand off you. You storm off, Kihyun following behind you.
“Please! It’s important, please just let me do it I can’t wait until next month when I next see you to talk to you, please” He begs, yelling in your ear over the music.
“Then don’t. Simple” You snap back. You walk fast, pushing through the crowd of people struggling to make it through them without tripping over, the effects of your last drink starting to push you past tipsy. You’re looking for even one of the boys or just anyone to help get Kihyun away from you, which is really hard in this state and with Kihyun hot on your trail trying to plead with you. You see Minhyuk watching a game of beer pong; cheering and being even more loud than usual. You quickly run up to him and pull on his sleeve.
“Minhyuk please help me”, you look at him with big puppy eyes “Kihyun keeps saying he needs to talk to me, he won’t leave me alone and is practically harassing me, please help”.
He looks down at you, then behind you to Kihyun, then back to you.
“Oh yeah, we all told him he should talk to you”, your face changes to one of utter confusion “you should listen to him, he wants to apologise because he genuinely feels horrible. You don’t have to accept it but I think just listening to him would be good for the both of you”. You look offended, how could the boys just do that to you? After Kihyun did that to you and made you feel like complete and utter shit? Why would you ever want to listen to him or talk to him again?
“You know that I’m always honest with you, I understand why you don’t want to talk to him or listen to him – I wouldn’t want to either if I were you, but I really think it would be good for both of you to talk out your differences and it would be better for all of us, too. As someone who loves drama, I really want the both of you to just talk shit out and at least be civil. You don’t have to forgive him but just listen to what he has to say, please” Minhyuk slurs, looking you dead in the eyes. The fact he was being so wise in this intoxicated was really saying something. You sighed, he was right. Even if you just ended up hating him more, maybe he was actually genuinely sorry and would stop being an asshole from now on. You may not forgive him, not for a while, but at least you could possibly work towards being… friends?? You turn to Kihyun, seeing him looking pretty pathetic looking at you with such pleading eyes. You take his hand and guide him through the crowd in attempt to find any kind of empty room further away from the pounding music. You doubted you would have any luck though.
Even a wardrobe would suffice but you were really struggling to find an empty room of some sort. If there wasn’t already someone passed out on the bed, throwing up in the bathroom there was a couple (or more) getting up to frisky business – and obviously you couldn’t ignore any of those situations to talk to Kihyun without disturbing what was going on in the room… or disturbing yourself with the latter. You go upstairs and most of the rooms are again, taken, but you finally come across one at the end of the hall that isn’t. You half sigh, half yell a ‘finally’ and drag him in the room, locking the door behind you. You’re so relieved to be able to finally let go of Kihyun’s hand, turning to stand in front of him with your arms crossed over your chest.
“Well?” You gesture for him to start; he just looks at you with a very vacant expression on his face and you sigh in annoyance.
“Are you going to tell me what you begged me to listen to you for? This is your only chance and I suggest you don’t waste it” You tap your foot, already getting impatient. He perks up like a little puppy, suddenly remembering what he was here for.
“Oh, right. I-uh, just wanted to apologise for the other night. I was a real asshole and there’s no excuse for the things I said and did, it wasn’t even banter or petty things like it usually is it was straight bullying and I feel horrible when I remember it. I don’t even know why I kept going after you didn’t react or respond the first time, but it doesn’t matter; point is, I’m sorry. I’m really, really, sorry” Kihyun rambles, slurring and struggling to find the right words.
“Okay. Are you happy now? That I listened to… that? Will you stop harassing me? Can I leave now?” You say barely even acknowledging his apology, you really did find it pathetic and couldn’t bare to be alone in a room with him any longer. You started to walk towards the door but Kihyun stopped you.
“Are you kidding me?” He questions angrily, grabbing your arm to stop you from leaving. You frown and smack his hand off you.
“What?” You snap.
“That’s it? You can’t even acknowledge anything I said?” He says, seeming actually hurt.
“Well I for sure am not forgiving you, what else do you want me to do, Kihyun? Because I really can’t even stand being alone in this room with you right now” You try to push past him but he won’t budge.
“You don’t have to forgive me; I just want to know you actually listened to me” He says surprisingly calm. He looks like a kicked puppy and you feel so fucking strange seeing Kihyun look anything but cocky and angry for once in his life.
“You’re being ridiculous, Kihyun. Of course I listened to you why would I bring you all this way, struggle to find a room for us to use for 5 seconds to not listen to you at all? Especially if seeing you so desperate to apologise to me brings me such joy?” You say it as if you were explaining it to a child, dragging out that last sentence especially longer. You see Kihyun’s expression changing to the usual one of anger, god you’re getting so much enjoyment of having the higher ground right now.
“Not to mention”, you walk closer to his face “that ‘apology’ was nothing short of just, plain pathetic”. Using your finger to put the quotations around ‘apology’, you have the biggest smirk on your face. Kihyun runs his tongue over his cheeks as he steps closer to you, inches from your face. You don’t cower one bit, in fact you look him dead in the eyes as you chuckle.
“Pathetic?” He questions, looking down at you.
“Hopeless, pitiful, miserable, plain fucking shit or whatever you wish to call it, really” You reply, not even trying to hide your enjoyment. You barely finished your sentence before Kihyun turns you around and slams you into the wall, arms either side of your head. He did it so quickly you’re actually shocked, especially since he’s drunk and his reaction times are meant to be slower.
“You’re really, really fucking pushing it” He whispers, spacing out his words to make sure you’re perfectly understanding how angry you’re making him.
“And? As if you’re going to do anything about it” You scoff, arms crossed over your chest. You refuse to show any sign of intimidation, though you actually are quite shocked right now. His gaze doesn’t move from your face, he’s breathing heavily and you hate this tension surrounding you both right now, its silent apart from the screaming of everyone outside and the muffle of the music downstairs. You see Kihyun’s gaze fall to your lips for a second, so brief that you wondered if it was even real or if you were making it up.
“See, I knew it. You’re not going to do anything because you’re just as pathetic as that apology wa-” Before you can even finish your sentence Kihyun slams his lips into yours. Your eyes are wide, part of you wants to push him away but an even bigger part of you refuses to back down. You slide on your hands to his hair, entangling your fingers in it and pulling harshly, he moans in response. He deepens the kiss, a hand on your neck and a hand on your back, pulling you closer to him. You slide your tongue against his lip and he responds by sliding his tongue in your mouth, refusing to let you take even the tiniest bit of dominance. You bite and pull on his lip as you pull away, breathless. You lean your head back on the wall as he starts leaving kisses along your jaw, moving down to your neck. Your hand is still pulling on his hair and your other one is latched onto his shoulder. His hands move down to your ass, squeezing it.
“You better not leave hickeys, we’re not high schoolers” You whisper. He lets out a scoff as he moves his hands down to your thighs, signalling for you to wrap your legs around him. You do so, kissing down his neck to his collarbones as he moves you to the bed. He throws you onto the sheets, you open your legs as he slides his body in between them. You start making out, even more heated than before, your lips and tongues moving in sync. Kihyun moves his hand up to your hair, pulling on it as you whine and press your hips up into his, he grinds down against you in response. You slide your hands under his shirt, digging your nails into his chest and he groans as he continues grinding into you harshly. His hand that is on your hip slides down your thigh, moving it up and around his back as he pulls away from the kiss, breathless and he sits up to slide his shirt off. For fucks sake, why does he have to be so attractive yet so annoying.
“Are you going to actually do anything or just continue to play around?” You pant, staring up at him. Before he can answer or do anything in response you flip the both of you over so you’re now straddling him. You roll your hips over his crotch a few times, feeling his bulge very prominently through your panties under your skirt. He tries to flip you back over but you put your hands on his shoulders and give him a look that makes him fall back and give up. You slide your shirt off, revealing your cute, lacy bra that you always wore to these kind of occasions in case you did get some action and would look at that? This time you actually did. You give Kihyun a passionate kiss on the lips and pull away quickly to start kissing down his jaw agonisingly slow, he accidentally lets a little whimper slip as his eyes flutter shut which makes you giggle softly, he’s actually cute when he’s needy. You then move to his neck, then his chest, then his stomach all the way down past his belly button and stop at the hem of his jeans. He snaps his eyes open as he looks down at you with dark eyes and you just bite your lip and give a bratty smile in response. You don’t break eye contact as you undo his belt, pulling it out and throwing it on the ground to then unzip his jeans and yank them off. You walk your fingers up his thigh, stopping just before you reach his bulge.
“Stop teasing or I swear to go-” He growls, you started palming him through his boxers before he even finished his sentence and he ended it in the cutest whine you’ve ever heard. You smile as his hips snap up instinctively at even the tiniest bit of friction as you slowly palm him, curling your fingers to fit around his shaft. He has one hand gripping the sheets and another around the headboard, he’s trying to keep his hips still but is really struggling to not roll against your hand. You decide he’s had enough teasing for now and stop palming him to pull down the waistband of his boxers, pulling them all the way off. His dick snaps up as soon as the boxers are off it, hitting his stomach and he grunts at the sudden contact of air against his throbbing cock. Once his boxers are discarded, you wrap your hand around the bottom of his shaft and start to pump him, flicking your wrist as your hand moves up and down. Kihyun immediately snaps his hips up, breathing out a ‘fuck’ as he watches you through half close eyelids. You hate to admit it but, he looks so pretty right now. Precum is already starting to leak out of his tip, so you bring your mouth to it and slowly lick it off with the tip of your tongue. Kihyun throws his head back with a choked moan as you slowly circle your tongue around his tip, you place your lips around and suck harshly, never stopping the movement of your hand. His hand gripping the sheet starts feeling around for your head, gripping onto your hair and trying to push you down so you’d take him in your mouth.
“Keep being pushy and I will stop everything and walk out of this room” You snap. He immediately loosens his grip on your hair and you go back to sucking on his tip again, flattening your tongue as you slowly take him in your mouth. Kihyun grunts and bites his lip hard, trying to stop any kind of moan from slipping out. He looks down at you as you’re bobbing your head up and down, bringing your hand up to meet your lips as you pump him at the same time.
“You know, if you weren’t so annoying I’d say you look so hot right now” He says, struggling to speak without it coming out in a moan. You roll your eyes, he was very dumb to say that because you are literally sucking his dick and could bite it off at any moment… but he also implied that you look hot, which sent tingles right down to your clit. You removed your hands and moved your mouth all the way down to the bottom of his shaft, almost gagging as he hit the back of your throat. His grip on your hair tightens again and he guides your head up and down, your grip hard on his thighs as you try not to gag. You’ve hollowed out your cheeks and flattened out your tongue as you suck along with your head movements.
“I’m so close” Kihyun breathes, the muscles in his lower stomach visibly tightening. You remove his hand from your hair so that you can fasten your pace, bringing your hand back in to pump him again. He throws his back, cursing repeatedly and you feel his dick twitch in your mouth. Right as he reaches the peak of his high you take him out of your mouth and remove your hand, sitting up on his leg to watch and relish in his agony. His head snaps up as his face darkens immediately.
“Oh baby, you are going to regret that” Kihyun coos, the way ‘baby’ rolls off his tongue unsettles you and causes a very hot feeling in your core.
“Don’t call me baby” You command, returning his dark gaze. He sits up and pushes you down on the bed, your head hanging off the end of the bed. He reaches his hand down under your skirt, pressing his index finger hard along your slit; applying the most pressure where your clit is. You bite your lip, whining a little.
“Wow you’re already so wet and I’ve done absolutely nothing” He says cockily.
“If you’re really going to be this cocky already you better be bloody good” You snap, rolling your hips against his finger. He chuckles and nods, fair argument. He starts to rub your clit through your panties, making you gasp at the sudden movement. He uses his other hand to unclasp your bra and slide it off your arms, he throws it to the side and immediately starts to kiss and suck on your tits. You run your hands through his hair as he assaults your chest and clit at the same time. He moves your panties to the side and slides his index and middle finger into your hole, moving his thumb to your clit. You let a loud moan slip, his fingers curling right up to your sweet spot. After he’s pleased with the pretty bruises he’s left all over your tits he slides his lips down your body until he’s at the hem of your skirt. You lift your head up to watch him, he smirks up at you as he slides his other hand under your skirt to the hem of your panties, pulling them down your thighs slowly. Knowing what was about to come gave you such a restless rush in your core. You kicked your legs, ushering him to hurry up and he smiles at your desperateness, he pulls them off one leg and holds your other leg up and slides them off. Once discarded, he bends your leg over his shoulder and he lays back down on his stomach, lining his head in between your legs. He starts to kiss up your thigh, stopping for a split second as he reaches your heat before lifting your skirt over his head. He then uses his fingers to part your lips as he licks a stripe up your slit. You arch your back, both hands moving to his hair immediately. He doesn’t waste a second before he starts kissing and sucking on your clit and his fingers return to pumping themselves in and out of your entrance. All the pleasure from when he was only fingering you before returns and intensifies, not having to catch back up to where it was before. At this rate you will be coming within seconds. You pull on Kihyun’s hair as you push your hips down to his face, begging for more. He flicks his tongue against your clit rapidly as he curls his two fingers up into your g-spot at the same pace, making you scream. You have to swing one hand over to the sheets to grip tightly otherwise you were afraid you’d explode. You hated that you were about to come this quick, but you just put it down to waiting for your turn for what felt like hours. You don’t tell Kihyun that you’re close because you already know what he will do, so you just don’t say anything and hope you come before he can stop. He starts sucking on your clit and feels it throb as your walls tighten around his fingers, he decides to let you build it up even more before he stops. You start panting and whining, curses falling from your lips as your eyes squeeze shut. He feels your thighs and muscles tightening around his head and once your hips start to rise more against his face, he stops and pulls his head back out from under your skirt. You don’t realise for a few seconds but once you do you immediately sit up and try to kick him, but he just smirks and slides you over to the top of the bed on the pillows. He wastes no time in pumping himself and lining himself up in front of your entrance, you look down, wide eyed. You didn’t expect this, but you hate how much you want it. He slides himself in with a groan, and you wrap your legs around his hips. He snaps his hips into yours and leans his head into your shoulder as he starts thrusting. The thrusts are deep and at a moderate pace, not wanting to go too fast just yet. Your high already starts building up again, your nails are digging into his shoulders, but with the sweat and movement of his body with his thrusts they start slipping and leaving deep scratch marks down his back. He hissed at the stinging sensation of the scratches coming into contact with the air and saltiness of his sweat, he loved the light pain of it. You couldn’t even moan as you felt like you were about to burst, just whine and whimper, trying to grab back onto Kihyun’s shoulder when your nails reach the end of his back. You tighten your thighs around his hips as your walls tighten around his cock thrusting into your g-spot. Your back arches as you start panting and whimpering, Kihyun holding onto the headboard to be able to reach you deeper. He has his forehead against yours, eyes shut tight as he tries so hard to maintain. You finally come undone as your walls throb around him, pushing him closer to his high. You’re moaning what sounds like his name amongst other things, which is secretly driving him crazy in the best way possible. While you’re still in the middle of your orgasm Kihyun flips you over, shoving your face into the pillow which catches you by surprise. He pulls your hips up with him as he gets up on his knees and starts to thrust faster, hitting you from a new angle but still so deep and so sweet. Your walls are still clenched tightly around him, not coming down from your high but rather building a new one from where you were just at which you really aren’t sure if you can handle. Kihyun licks his fingers and starts to rub your clit with his four fingers, sending unfathomable pleasure straight to the deepest part of your core. You push your hips back against him as you shove your face deeper into the pillow and grip the pillow until your knuckles turn white, about to cry from the pleasure you’re feeling everywhere. You’re sure you’re about to explode for real this time. You let out a muffled scream into the pillow as you come again, your body shakes as it rocks through your whole body. Kihyun’s thrust become sloppy as he feels your walls throbbing against him and sees your juices dripping down your thighs and it pushes him over the edge, he rubs your clit a few more times as he reaches the peak of his high. Before he ejaculates he flips you back over so he can come all over your chest as he pumps himself empty. He’s letting out low moans as he looks down at your face, loving how fucked out and flushed you look. Once he’s all empty he falls back onto the bed next to you.
“I think I win that one” He sighs, breathless. You just turn to look at him, your expression unreadable. You struggle to get yourself up, going blind as you try not to fall on the floor after getting up and hold onto the bed for balance. You walk to the bathroom to clean yourself up, using toilet paper to clean up your chest, noticing all the hickeys but not complaining about them. You brush your hair out neatly with your fingers and wipe off your smudged lipstick and use another bit of toilet paper to dab some sweat off your forehead and face. Once you’re satisfied you walk back out into the bedroom to see Kihyun hasn’t moved, you start to get dressed back into your clothes. Kihyun watches you, not saying anything and you’re glad he isn’t. As you walk past him to leave the room he stops you and grabs your wrist.
“I really am sorry, though” He smiles softly. You snap your hand away harshly.
hyungwon would be caring, helping his partner get to the bathroom, but also would let himself & his partner clean themselves up, unless they asked for help or just wanted more attention afterwards. either way, he’d definitely snuggle up in bed with his partner afterwards, bringing them snacks and water, whatever they wanted.
b = body part
his favourite body part on himself, as we all know, is his lips 100% we don’t even need to discuss the unholy things he could with them. just his mouth in general, godly. he’d also like his fingers, so long and slender and like his mouth, able to do so much with them with such little effort. on his partner, he’d love their hips; especially when they roll up to meet his, he’d also love their back; feels so nice and smooth against his hands & their eyes; the way they beg and plead without needing to say anything.
c = cum
i feel like hyungwon would be a messy cummer, not because of how or where he cums, just that there is a lot of it. he prefers to cum inside of his partner though, whether it be their mouth, their pussy, their ass, he doesn’t care. he also loves to lick it off and lap up their cum, if it’s been squirted up out of their cock onto their stomach, or is dripping down their legs from their pussy, he will go lick it up. and when it comes to cumming in his partner’s mouth, he will pull out and messily cum around it, so it goes onto their chin and around their lips messily, so he can watch in awe as they have to lick it off.
d = dirty secret
he loves when his partner teases him, or more tries to. he doesn’t give in and his partner is more only just riling themselves up trying to get hyungwon riled up, so they just give up in the end and beg him to give them what they want, and he can just his sweet, sweet revenge.
e = experience
he’s just as experienced as the average person, not a virgin but not anymore experienced past that. he’s done all the basic stuff, oral, fingering/handjobs, sex but nothing more than that, and it was all vanilla at that.
f = favourite position
he’d LOVE when his partner rides him, no matter if they’re facing backwards, forwards or another kind of variation; doing this means he has to do next to no work and he can just watch as his partner gets themselves off on him, bouncing up and down on his dick or rolling their hips while he does nothing except hold their hips on top of him. what would make him love this position so much is when his partner gets so close to their climax and can’t move themselves on him anymore and he has to help them by guiding their hips or even thrusting into them a little bit. its a thing that can get both of them off and again; he has to do next to no work. in fact any position where he can watch as his partner fucks themselves on him is a favourite of his.
g = goofy
i mean it’s hyungwon, he would be try to be serious but accidentally give a funny look and it would send both his partner and him into a giggling fit. or he’d say something that wasn’t meant to be funny, but would come across as that anyways.
h = hair
hmmm i don’t really think he’d care much about if him or his partner had a lot of hair down there. he’d probs like to keep his trimmed and short for the most part, or even shaved if he was seeing someone new for the first few times, but if it was more serious or had been going on for while he’d probs stop after the first few encounters.
i = intimacy
unless it was a special occasion like him & his partner’s anniversary, his partner’s birthday or valentine’s day etc. he wouldn’t really feel the need to set up anything romantic, or unless he had come back from being away for a long time. but that wouldn’t mean it’s any less special when him and his partner had sex, he would always be really caring and make sure they’re okay and be affectionate before, during and after. he just wouldn’t feel the need to jazz it up unless it was a special day, because to him it’s always meaningful anyways.
j = jack off
i don’t think he’d feel the need to jack off, unless he was really horny in the moment and wasn’t going to be able to do anything with his partner within the next hour or so. but even then he wouldn’t really get to that point very often. or unless it was phone sex while he was away, he just wouldn’t see the need to masturbate when he has someone available that he can have help him with his needs.
k= kink
i don’t think he’d have many kinks he’d actually partake in, or at least many favourites. he’s in the middle of the kinky-vanilla spectrum, but slightly closer to the vanilla side. one kink i for sure know he would love, however, is kind of a power play thing?? but not completely that. he’d just love to see his partner so weak, pleading and begging for more from him, especially when he is doing barely anything. just seeing them so needy for him and only him.
l = location
he’d prefer it the most to do it in the privacy of his or his partner’s own homes, where they can do it however and whenever they want to. but he also wouldn’t be against doing it in the practice rooms right on the floor or against the mirror, he’d just be sure they wouldn’t be caught. same goes for the studio.
m = motivation
just knowing that his partner is feeling horny & needy would get him going, really wouldn’t take much. there wouldn’t be anything in particular that would get him going apart from that, he’s a pretty easy going dude and if his partner wanted to do it then he would do it. in fact 90% of the time his partner would be the one to initiate it.
n = NO
while i said he is pretty vanilla, i feel like there isn’t things in particular that he’d be completely against, unless he found it gross or it would potentially endanger him or his partner. i feel like there would just be a lot that he doesn’t actually know about, and his partner would have to bring it up or suggest it and he would try it but he would be very picky about what he does and doesn’t like.
o = oral
100% prefers giving and is 100% a certified oral master. he wouldn’t even have to learn how to do it he would just know and with lips like that he’d only have to press them against his partner’s crotch and it’d feel heavenly. he loves receiving too and wouldn’t ever complain about it, but seeing his partner squirm against his face and grind down onto his tongue really sends his hormones into overdrive.
p = pace
hyungwon would be in the middle, not too fast and rough but not too slow and sensual, he’d have just the perfect amount of both. he’d sometimes be either one or the other depending on his or his partner’s moods/wants/needs but no matter the pace or how deep he’s hitting, it is amazing.
q = quickie
he wouldn’t mind them or be against them, he would definitely prefer a proper sesh but sometimes he would have days where he is busy or out but he gets the urge and wouldn’t mind sneaking away into a closet or bathroom to have a quick fuck. but yeah not an occurrence too common for hyungwon.
r = risk
he is 100% game to experiment, but taking risks in the bedroom is sometimes a bit too much for him depending on what it is. but he would definitely be fine with experimenting with different people and genders, unless in a relationship, then that would definitely be a no go for him.
s = stamina
i feel like hyungwon can last quite a while to be honest, before he even breaks a sweat. but because of this, sadly, he can usually only do the one round. it is not at all a bad thing though, since he makes the one round he does very long and special, making sure his partner cums at least thrice.
t = toy
unless his partner had toys, i don’t really think he’d ever think about buying them or using them, he just wouldn’t see the need. but if his partner wanted to use them or buy some then he’d be up for it, he would definitely love more ways to tease and make his partner squirm.
u = unfair
he would love to tease, not until in the bedroom though. beforehand, or outside of the bedroom, he would appear fine and collected as his partner teases him but then as soon as they get home he’d make them work hard to be able to cum and would keep pushing and pushing just that little bit more.
v = volume
definitely not loud, only really pants and lets out some groans. his pants could get pretty loud when he’s close though, and the groans he’d let out then too,,,,, whew i’m sweating
w = wild card
before when i said,,, about fucking against the mirror in the practice room,,,, making his partner watch in the mirror as he fucks them,,,, he’d get such an ego boost out of that,,,,
x = x-ray
definitely long, but more on the skinnier side, not completely noodle-like, still a nice amount of thickness but just longer in comparison.
y = yearning
i think his sex drive would be reasonable, not too much but not too little. just like any average person, he’d have periods where he’s horny most of the time but then other periods when he isn’t really interested in sex as much. there wouldn’t really be any reason as to why, just would be that way.
z = zzz
hyungwon could either knock out pretty quickly or go about doing housework afterwards or going and doing idol related things for the rest of the day, just depends on the time of day and if he has time for a nap/sleep after. but most of the time he’d have sex with his partner only when he able to fall asleep afterwards bc he is v sleepy boy.
63 & 67 with shownu ^^ love your writing style so much!
omg thank u bby, this made my day!! i hope this little drabble is what u were hoping for ♡
63. “I’m in love with you and it sucks because you’ll never love me the way I want you to.”
67. “Do you think I’m careless?”
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It was one of those days. You just felt so down, you felt hopeless and pathetic. Shownu had come over to comfort you like always, but this time it was different. His presence wasn’t helping, in fact it was making it worse.
“Nunu?” You whispered, looking up at him from his chest. He just answered with a ‘mm?’, he was clearly almost asleep.
“Why do you do this? Why do we do this?” You asked, voice breaking as tears welled up in your eyes. He knew immediately what you were referring to.
“Why are you asking again? We’ve spoken about this so many times already” He said, eyes snapping open as he removed his hand on your waist to lift himself off your bed. You sat up as he rested himself back on his elbows.
“Because you never me a solid answer and I need to know, please Hyunwoo. Otherwise, I don’t know how much longer I can keep doing this” You say softly, tears starting to fall out of your eyes.
“What? You’re the one who suggested we do this” He starts to look angry.
“I know but I didn’t expect it’d end up like this, with me feeling the way I feel. I’ve told you yet you still continue to do these things to me and with me, despite our promise. You’re the one whose meant to help me since I can’t help myself and still want to be with you. I love you and you know it, so why keep making me suffer?” You start to sob, and he doesn’t try to comfort you.
“Do you think I’m careless? That I’m doing this to make you suffer? What do you take me for? I clearly want to do this too and be with you, it’s also my decision you know. I know what our promise was but I can’t just leave you and ghost you and stop everything, I don’t want you gone from my life” He says, sitting up fully now. He’s looking at you with a look on his face that is mixed with hurt, frustration and sadness. It’s killing you to see it.
“You don’t get it Nu, I’m in love with you and it sucks because you’ll never love me the way I want you to. It hurts so bad, I physically feel my chest ache whenever I think about you. Looking at you right now is breaking my heart into a million pieces” You heave, grabbing his face in your hands as you look into his eyes, trying to make him understand. He doesn’t answer, he just looks at you with the same look. He knows what he has to do, but part of him really doesn’t want to do it. He places one last, soft kiss on your lips and holds it for a bit too long. Then, he slowly gets up from the bed, grabs his things and leaves. You hear the door close, and your heart shatters as you fall back into your pillow and sob harder than before, trying to feel where he was just a second ago and hold onto it as long as you could. Because you were never going to feel it again.
3 and 62 with monsta x hyungwon for the drabble game?
3. “What an awkward situation.”
62. “Are we gonna kiss? because we should kiss.”
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It was your friend’s party, that wasn’t really a party and more a social gathering of sorts. You were standing behind their kitchen bench, having a nice conversation and sipping on your drinks. However, your eyes kept glancing to him, on the other side of the room playing Uno at the coffee table. Your friend notices your eyes drifting away from them and how you don’t seem to be paying attention at all.
“Go talk to him” Your friend says, grabbing your attention back immediately.
“WHAT?!” You yell, wide eyed and panicked. Everyone goes quiet after hearing you yell. You go bright red as even he stares at you and you make eye contact, he smiles at you and you internally squeal and look away.
“Go talk to him! For more than 10 seconds, I promise you it really isn’t that hard. You’re both interested in each other and it kills me and everyone else to see you two be so oblivious” You friend ushers you.
“You don’t know that” You mumble.
“Yes I do. Everyone knows but you two and one of you needs to make a move before I drag you two into a room together and force you to SOMETHING”. You look at them with wide eyes, looking like a deer in headlights. You sigh, put your drink down and walk over to where his little group is, just as they finished another round of Uno and sit on the couch next to him. He looks at you looking really shocked.
“Hi” You say.
“O-oh? Hi” He replies, trying to smile without it looking awkward. You rack your brain for things to say that can save this very awkward tension filled air.
“Look, I’m tipsy right now and I can’t think of anything to say that can save this from being anymore awkward than it already is and I hate how it’s like this every time we try to talk so I’m just gonna come out with it, I think you’re cute as hell, Hyungwon and I have a crush on you” You blurt out without stuttering or stopping once. Hyungwon just stares at you, stunned. The realisation of what you just confessed hits you and you start to internally cringe. You get up and walk back over to you friend who is facepalming.
“What an awkward situation, but you did confess which is probably better than anything else you were going to say” They sigh, patting you on the shoulder. You want to die, you want to disintegrate like kinetic sand onto the floor and then be sucked up by a black hole. Suddenly, your friend is looking behind you and you just know who it is.
“I… have to use the bathroom, be right back” And you know they’re not going to be back, at all. You turn around and can’t even look him in the face because if you do you will cry. He lifts your chin up with his thumb so you are forced to look at him.
“I’m so sorry for being awkward, for always being awkward. Luckily, I am also tipsy so am brave enough right now to say; I like you too and also think you are cute… as hell” He smiles genuinely, you giggle at the little end part and internally scream once again because god he is the cutest boy you’ve ever met.
“So…. Are we gonna kiss? because we should kiss” Hyungwon blurts out, trying to keep the convo going but feeling immediate regret. You see the nervousness on his face as he turns red, even redder than his face already was from the alcohol, so you grab his cheeks and pull him down as you place a soft kiss on his lips. You hear everyone in the room cheering and yelling ‘finally!’,’about time’ and you both blush as you pull away, not realising that everyone was watching you two since Hyungwon first went up to you. He holds your hand as you go to sit on the couch together and he puts his arm around your waist, your heart is going to burst out of your chest and you don’t know why you didn’t confess sooner. You’re friend was right, it wasn’t that hard at all.
28 and 39 for monsta x hyungwon please :) thank you in advance for writing for us!!
no problem bby!! it makes me happy (even if its angsty af n painful like this one)
28. “I do love you”
39. “I walk out that door, it’s over”
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“Why are you doing this?! Why do you hate me?!” You scream, tears streaming down your face as you walk from the kitchen into the living room.
“Stop saying that! You know I don’t hate you stop being an idiot!” Hyungwon says, trying to calm you down as he follows you. He grabs your arm to stop you from walking, he knows if he doesn’t you will just walk around the flat in circles.
“Even if you don’t… Just…. Why Hyungwon, why does this keep happening? I’m so sick of fighting, but more than that I’m sick of feeling like a last priority for you. I know you’re busy, of course I do and I know you can’t help when you’re promoting and have a hectic schedule, but what you can help is when you’re no longer promoting or just have spare time and a break from schedules you don’t spend time with me. You don’t call or text me like you promise, and when I call or text first you don’t return them or reply until the next day or even later than that! You only come see me when you’re lonely and want to have sex or just want to lead me on more and give me just enough to make sure I stay”, you say without sobbing once “so I don’t know Hyungwon, you may not hate me but you sure as hell don’t love me”.
“I do love you” He says lowly, unable to make eye contact as he just stares at your hands holding.
“Psh, you can’t even look me in the eyes and say it” You roll your eyes, lip shaking as your throat closes up again to make sure you don’t cry. You feel that pang in your stomach, you thought about when you first started dating Hyungwon, when he actually cared about you and how happy you both were. This was so hard for you do and he didn’t seem to care at all.“I can’t do this anymore, Hyungwon. I keep waiting for a sign, any kind of sign from you or even from the universe that you care about me, but I get nothing every single time and I just… You know what, I think it’d be best if I leave” Tears start streaming down your face again, you don’t even want to look at his face because you know it’ll kill you even more to see not one look of hurt or sadness on him.
“Maybe it is best” He mumbles, letting go of your hand.
“You do realise, I walk out that door, it’s over… right?” You whisper, trying for the last time, to see if he cares about you and this relationship in the slightest.
“It’s been over for months” He says monotone and while it hurts you intensely, he is right. You’re hurting but it’s not like you didn’t expect this and haven’t been trying to build up the courage to confront him and do this for a long time. With that, you grab your bag and your jacket and opened the door, but before you left you stopped and turned to face him.
“Thank you, for the great times we did have and for helping me realise my worth” You say, with no response. With that, you close the door. You walk down the hall, dry your tears. You feel free.
i both love and hate you for requesting this this caused me s O MUCH PAIN AND THIRST OH MY G O D. i’m so soft for monsta x but guess i’m a changed woman now.
shownu - this man is really so awkward so as much as we’d all like to think he has a raging daddy kink, i can’t see it being that way :( maybe he’d like if it you just like called him it during sex n let him dominate but i don’t think he’d be as into it as other people. idk this boy is too soft as a person to be into like anything super dominate, he’d just enjoy taking care of you and making you feel good and seeing you feel so much pleasure because of him.
wonho - this boy still confuses me, i can see him being a switch, but more on the sub side? but also he could be really dom when he wants too aaa. im really struggling to tell what he’d be into to. it’s not a kink but i can see him being really into marking like bruising, scratches and making your skin go red from slapping it. also choking! i think he’d really like choking you/being choked. again, not a kink but i also think he’d really like having his nipples played with ooft he’d turn into such a whiny baby from that.
minhyuk - this boy would be such a brat!!!! such a tease!!!! in the subby way too. he’d get off on teasing you and talking back and then getting punished for it and having to beg. i can see him having a daddy/mommy kink too AAAA. even if he has a dom side, he’d still be such a brat ugh. i can see him being into pet play too lowkey, as in being the pet. i love a whole baby boy.
kihyun - such an asshole this one. i can see him getting so hard over making you beg, like to the point where you cry. bringing you so close to your orgasm and then just stopping and enjoying watching you whimper/beg/cry. maybe he’d even overstimulate you after denying you of it. he’d take it all away, then give you even more of that all at once. he’d be really sweet afterwards with the aftercare tho ;-; uwu
hyungwon - i’m really not sure how to feel abt this boy. i get rather vanilla vibes from him. i feel like he’s one of those people who would love foreplay more than actual sex. he’d love making you such a mess from his fingers which are rlly fuckin long n sexc ugh or his tongue/lips whICH ARE SO PLUMP AAA or from, even better, not even touching you; as in using toys and similar stuff. he’d l o v e getting you so worked up over the bare minimum, which isn’t really the bare minimum bc he’s so good at it.
jooheon - my goddamn baby!!! uwuwu. i see him being a more soft and passionate lover, but also having that more stronger dom side but its still not overly dom. he just would never want to hurt you in anyway so he’d be a bit scared to try anything like that. he’d love squeezing your ass and grabbing it and spanking it a little when you’re making out, but that’s about all i can see tbh haha aAA AAA. i can also see him l o v i n g thigh riding. when you ride his thighs and he has his hands on your hips guiding you as he just sits back and watches you in complete awe of how hes doing absolutely nothing yet you’re such a mess (sweet je SUS SEND HELP). he’d be really into praise as well, both giving and receiving it. he’d just love to watch your face and listen to the noises when you’re doing sexual stuff ugh he’d think your especially angelic during those times.
changkyun - another asshole, even more so than kihyun i reckon. also into teasing you, making you beg to the point you cry. orgasm denial as well. i think he’d be really into like, brat taming. you’d love pushing his buttons on purpose and then he’d love punishing you in return and making you beg and prove you’re a good girl. he’d really love bending you over his knee and spanking you. h a r d. i can see him being an avid toy user as well, whips, vibrators, collars, you name it he’s got it. he’d also be really into choking, bringing you to the point of passing out and then stopping. I REALLY DON’T KNOW WHERE THIS IS COMING FROM I NEVER SAW CHANGKYUN IN THIS LIGHT BEFORE BUT GUESS THIS HOW IT BE.
