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Update on my Cleaning Strike: Day 3

So, they think I'm not feeling well. They think that because of my sciatic nerve pain I'm not able to do what I normally do. I overheard them talking and saying I need to rest. So, they're letting me rest 🤣 yet, nothing is getting done.

Hubby was looking for clean shorts. 🤣 too bad, so sad. Bella was looking for her favorite cup, it's in the sink dirty. Oh well! Bella told me I'm "acting different" ... and I was like " oh?, how so?" And she said she couldn't explain it.

Yet... dishes are piling up and I'm chillin on the couch ( I'm dying inside though) ....

Hubby is planning a cookout for tonight, this means a huge mess. Always. I love that he cooks, but why use EVERY SINGLE COOKING ITEM? I clean as I cook, anyone else?

Well, still waiting for them to realize what's going on. I'm worried this will backfire and I'll end up cleaning a weeks worth of mess.

[redefiningthirtysomething]

I'm on a roll tonight ... I'm feeling an energetic pull and I'm overly excited. 💕

[redefiningthirtysomething]

I always knew I would sacrifice a lot when I became a mom, but never did I think It would be like this. I can't even really explain how it is for me in this season of my life. It's a combination Happiness and Joy mixed with exhaustion and frustration. I look in the mirror and I see a plain face, make up free, messy unbrushed hair in a bun, dark circles due to lack of sleep, milk stained bra mommy of two beautiful girls.

I am comfortable in my new skin. For me it shows the strength, the sacrifice, the hard work that I put in DAILY to make sure my girls are happy, healthy and growing. It's not easy, somedays can be so frustrating and I cry from missing myself. Yes, I miss me. I miss my friends. I miss doing whatever I want. But, this is part of life and GROWTH. We go through different seasons in our lives and right now I'm in one where I have put myself on the back burner. I believe we as women do need to take care of ourselves in order to be good mothers, I try to find atleast 1 thing to do for myself daily, sometimes even the smallest thing can have a great impact. For me, I like to write in my journal, this site, get a workout in, or even just have coffee alone (if I can).

This picture of us from last night, I'm helping Bella with homework, while cooking dinner during a baby tantrum. I had to strap her on the carrier because she wanted to be with me. Cooking with a baby and washing dishes was a task for sure, but she was happy. She kept looking at my face a giving me kisses. That's when I stop and tell myself to relax. Then I feel awful for being frustrated. These are the moments to appreciate. They won't be little forever. These girls were given to me to protect and to love.

Last night before going to bed I got about 20 minutes of quiet time, olivia had gone to sleep and I finally layed on the couch to watch my shows, Bella came out and layed with me, hugged me and said she loves how closer we are now that I'm home with them. She feels like she knows me better. I didn't even realize she thought she didn't know me enough.

The sacrifices are totally worth it.

[redefiningthirtysomething]

This year, instead of Christmas presents for our 10 year old, we decided to give her a bedroom makeover!

So, she's 10 and in between wanting kid toys or teen age/ older kid gifts. She has LOL dolls, I shit ton of them, but they're literally all over the house, she plays with them for 15 minutes and then she's over them for months! She was asking for that 100$ box set of LOL dolls, but I'm not convinced.

The other item on her list, iphone 11 max pro, wireless ear pods, ipad ... ummmmm I dont even have an iPhone lol. I use android, but she does have an iPhone 7, but never ever uses it, only for school and when she is over at her friends house, other than that the battery is never charged. She's too little still, I think, to be completely responsible. But out of paranoia we got it for her to easily contact her.

Her Christmas list is to extreme, one to the other. How do you go from Calico critters to an iPhone? So, Elijah and I have been stumped. We got her a new mountain bike, she still has her kid bike and all her friends ride to school, its across the park, but she will walk because she refuses to use her little kid bike. So, the bike is a little upgrade. Grandma is sending her gifts as well. So after some thinking and going back and forth, and almost giving in to ear pods ... we decided I nice room makeover would be awesome!

New bed frame, desk, bed spread/comforter and some paint! Buy some nice frames and decorations. I went through her pinterest board of her favorite bedrooms and I have a good idea what to get.

We spoke to her about it last night and she's completely on board! She loves the idea and completely forgot about her techy requests. Thank goodness! Excited to get started on the remodel! I'll post before and after pics!

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Who else over indulged over Christmas?! Hahaha I know I sure did. I enjoyed every freaking second of it too! I put my healthy eating aside for a few days and spend a good time with my family!

We cooked a honey glazed ham, mashed potatoes, asparagus, deviled eggs, and baked a ton of cookies. Our neighbors brought us cookies as well and a box of chocolate pretzels.

I've been pretty consistent with my healthy eating but I had to enjoy time with my family. This was the first time EVER we had Christmas by ourselves. We always jump from house to house but this year decided to stay home. It was so nice although lonely a bit. But we got to nap on Christmas day and watch movies, eat and eat. Bella then went to her friends house to see what they got for Christmas and they were running around back and forth playing.

Yesterday I started back on my workout routine, feeling bloated and still full. But I'll workout daily and as soon as the New Year starts I'm definitely going to put in 100%. Right now I'm focused on both my girls and having the best time for the Holidays. 💕

My priority is always my family first.

[redefiningthirtysomething]

Happy Birthday to my baby girl! You're 10 but will always be my baby. 💕💜💕💜

This is the girl who made me a mama. She is just incredibly kind and smart, a girl with a huge heart. I can't describe her, but she is definitely her OWN kind of person. She was born the way she is, I had nothing to do with that, I still dont know how I got her, what I did in this life to deserve a child like her. I was definitely blessed.

My life mission is to make them happy, always. Feel loved and protected. I love my life because of my girls, they have given me something that is irreplaceable, an unconditional type of love.

[redefiningthirtysomething]

So... I think I'm finally finding my rhythm here at home with the baby. In the beginning when we moved here in July, I was having a really tough time just getting used to the idea of not going to work, not being independent financially, and having to stay home and look after a baby. I was really struggling, I couldn't get on the same page as the baby and I felt like I was failing. I'm sure many posts on here show that I was having a hard time, but I finally feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I finally have a good workout schedule that I can work around the baby, she plays around while a workout, now that she's starting to walk I'm able to do my work out and she's patient so that's a really big thing. I'm getting better at coming up with breakfast lunch and dinners for the entire family! At first I did not know what to cook and I was copying Elijah's recipes from when he was at home. Last week I made the most delicious chicken soup and everybody loved it and I even made a little side dish for the baby and I've been giving her chicken soup with rice everyday for lunch. We have our morning routine now, we love our morning walks, we have our daily workouts, and play time in her room. I mean we still have days where she is a pain in my butt and she doesn't want to listen but you know... she's a baby ... and I get that. I feel a lot happier these days and a little bit more at peace. I feel like I'm finally getting it together and now it's just about starting the next step of what I'm going to be doing for income while I'm at home. I've been dabbling with a few things here and there, but I'm still uncertain whether I'm going to go back to school or I'm going to start something online, a business. I don't know yet, but that's my next step. I think I just needed to get in sync with the baby and figure this out before I took on too much. Not saying it'll always be like this, she's a changing baby every day, it's never going to be easy ... but it's definitely better.

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Went to bed at midnight. The girls were still up late and I feel weird going to sleep before they do, so I was up late, still in bed, but scrolling aimlessly through Facebook and Instagram.

It actually read some Interesting articles about parenting, attachment parenting, sleep and no cry methods and I followed some new pages to help guide me in the toddler stages. I started off well and I ended up watching shit show street fights haha.

I'm regretting staying up late, Olivia has been up since 6a, Elijah left at 7a and I had to get up. Having coffee in Olivia play room since the girls took over the living room. Olivia has a huge play area filled with toys... yet she's here trying to eat my phone charger. Like seriously, she needs to go play.

Anyway, Sunday Funday? I wish....more like Lazy Sunday. Hoping to get a workout in today. I did upper bod yesterday since I hurt my knee, trying to stay off of it. But, I need to get my cardio in. I'm rambling.