It's like I do this every weekend.
I want to be completely alcohol and cigarettes free.
Today is 8/15. Let's go 30 day challenge.
Workout for at least 30 to 40 minutes 5x a week
I am so excited for tomorrow to start! I need to detox and eat healthy to start 🥰
Ok guys!! Tonight is the Eve before my 30 day challenge. I'm going to try to remember to blog daily in order to track my progress. My hubby volunteered to join me on this journey, he doesn't have to, but I'm glad he suggested it. Tonight we decided to drink as a final hoorah ... but I totally regretted it. I felt so sleepy and off after a few drinks, so I stopped. I got a headache and spent the rest of the afternoon on my bed watching TV. Hubby drank the rest 🙄 and now he's snoring away.
I turned 38 a couple weeks ago, and I'm just ready to be completely as healthy as possible. I just can't party like I used to and it's not fun anymore. Plus, weight my weight loss and exercise going great I wanted to incorporate a more healthy lifestyle.
Guys, pray for me, not because I fear I'll drink, I need prayers for strength & guidance. This can be life changing and I'm so excited!!
So, here we go. Goodnight for now.
Today is now Tuesday and its day 3. The no smoking is harder than I thought. So I did smoke but I'm definitely trying to smoke less and very few. I try to avoid it until I'm severely craving one. We stay home a lot and sometimes I need to get a break, for me going outside and sitting alone brings me peace and I often smoke. So I do smoke a half and save the other half for later. I think yesterday I maybe had 3 total. I skipped my morning smoke and worked out, then had my protein shake. It wasn't until around 12pm when I took a break outside. Not perfect, but improving.
Today I'm going to get my workout in, work on my podcast episode, do some marketing and promotions and maybe take a grocery store trip. Life has been challenging for sure, but I'm so grateful for everything we have and for my daughters health and safety. So, we are riding it out and staying happy.
Day 2: was great. I woke up fresh and energized. Something about being absolutely present feels so good. I killed my morning workout, got dressed for the day and did some house cleaning. We are still staying home as much as possible. I recorded my podcast and I'm preparing for our next episode.
Day 3: another great morning. We didnt drink, although my uncle bought eli a 12 pack. We decided to put it away. But its upsetting hes not respecting my request to not buy him beer. It already planted a seed. We know it's there. People really think it's a joke when you decide to quit drinking.
Day 4: fuck. We fucked up. We drank the beer. So, yesterday after the morning rush and bella finished school, we decided to go do a little shopping. It was hot outside (115) and we were bored. After the shopping trip we came home and eli took the beer out. He said " I'm bored, I'm having one. I'm sorry, you dont need to have one if you dont want to". Initially I said No and was watching TV with him. But, when he got up for that second one... I said I would have one too. We finished the 12 pack, and we had a small argument after he compared me to my sister, it triggered something and I got upset. I went to bed and he slept in the living room. This morning he is still asleep, and I'm livid. The kitchen is a disaster, the living room a mess and I haven't had my coffee yet. I'm not hungover but I'm not 100% and I'm annoyed that he's asleep. Have you ever cleaned while mad ? That was me earlier. Slamming, throwing, crying...
I'm upset that the backyard he started to clean isn't finished yet, I'm upset he hasn't taken his real estate exam, I'm so upset over everything. But honestly I'm mostly upset at myself. I'm so mad that I drank and that I gave in. I'm so mad. I'm SO MAD. I finally sat down to have my coffee and fed the kids. He is still asleep, most likely hungover. But its Thursday and I hate sleeping in during the week. Its NOT the weekend. Get the fuck up.
I'm trying not to be too hard on myself. Starting again today as much day 1.