#monster feels

[maude-pie]

Kinda just wanna stomp around and bite things

[osmanthusoolong]

Reading folklore and fairy tales made me know enough to be wary of people who consider someone a magical being by virtue of their simple existence.

Being treated as some kind of supernatural Other by people with a vested interest in seeing me that way made me much more sympathetic to the fairies and beasts and monsters in those stories.

That’s not a golden chain being offered, it’s a snare.

[monstersandmaw]

*taps microphone and creates ungodly electronic screeching noise* “Your attention please.” 

We interrupt our regular schedule of answering requests due to a devastating strike of inspiration which has rendered Ghosti unable to write anything but the modern orc x female reader angst and feels fest that got dreamed up in the wee small hours of this morning. 

Writing of the 9/10 remaining requests will resume upon completion of said angst and feels fest. 

Thank you for your attention. 

[kindasmallmonster]

Tired Jack

I’m just exhausted re: being nb and ndn and it’s like...things look so much easier on the other side of these things. 

What if I was a girl? What if I cut ties? What if I didn’t need what I need, or was who I think I am? 

I see cishet folks, esp. white nonNatives and I’m like...drawn to and repulsed by what they have. Do they feel like they have to keep running so fast to stay where they are? Do they feel like if they stop kicking they’ll drown in how others see and define them? What does it even mean to know who you are and trust that it will be there when you wake up the next day?

Often times I love the whirlwind of who I am, the strange constellation of meaning I’ve made of my body, mind and voice. I love the ways my relationships have grown up and around my trellised ribcage, have been rooted and nurtured in the earth between who I am and where they stand. It’s like being on a rock outcropping, wind dry and rushing through me, the valley stretching below. It’s all potential energy. Who I am is poised and ready.

Other times, I’m exhausted. I’m tired of feeling a beat out of step. I’m tired of walking just a few inches above the ground and trying to fit in a world where I don’t for so many reasons.  

I’m not in any danger, or anything. I just am feeling it today. 

[kindasmallmonster]

Tightrope Gender

It’s days like today when I wish I was deep into medically transitioning, wanting to be more physically masc and also pretty. I’m tiptoeing around this drive towards witchy, pretty things and trying to avoid triggering dysphoric weirdness. 

I want silver rings dripping with geods, black shawls and my septum pierced, my deeper voice more grounded, I want to drape pretty things over different shoulders. I want to be a different person so badly.

I want to be a different kind of discord than I am right now. I want to find a different liminal harmony. I want my pretty impulses and needs to be read differently. I want to feel like my reclamation is still rebellious, is still queer as fuck and powerful. I want to be disruptive and not feel like I’m falling back into an expected gender, but stepping up and stepping into a space not expected for me. 

I see versions of that out there, folks who are further along in their transition, rocking the midnight lipstick and flower prints and I feel this deep need in me. I want to step up into my boihood, to feel my body move and reshape and change, in part so that I can be my soft self, to explore the pretty and the magic in the ways I feel I need. 

[amorremanet]

draconically speaking, i think i would have a better friend in rubeus hagrid than in daenerys targaryen, because i too would give my baby dragon a cute if slightly silly sounding name and fuss over it like a little princess like, don't get me wrong: viserion, rhaegal, and drogon are badass names and they have Hella Significance™ (for dany's brother who is kind of recently dead, her other brother who died kind of a while ago & the son she lost, and her late first husband) — but personally, just… screw that, okay? i don't need badass names, and i don't need any Significantly Significant Names™ either. when i get a dragon, i'm naming it something sweet like norbert or doodlebug or mister whiskers or fluffy. maybe malley, just… in honor of maleficent and her badass dragon level-up form b/c good goddamn i love that evil medieval fairy queen and her dragon form is such a good but that's the only Significant Name that i'll seriously consider, and my bb dragon's name will still be malley