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[hushedlover]

I have no idea what this stuff means but please feel free to judge me for it/tell me about it

[secretsinthevoid]

No surprise that our test results from the blood draw last week were normal, or at least not giving a reason as to why the fainting spells have gotten worse and my heart is doing weird things. Dr’s gonna wait till the heart monitor results are in but that probably won’t be till after the holiday - I don’t even get the monitor till Monday and have to wear it for 48 hours. So, not surprised that the test results came up with nothing, I always expect them to come back normal or within normal range. Yay for being chronically ill 😮‍💨

[secretsinthevoid]

Had a small date night with spouse. Went out to dinner and so thankful I grabbed my headphones before leaving the house since this was a spur of the moment dinner date. The restaurant was so loud, there was no way I would’ve been okay without them.

[secretsinthevoid]

Ordering the little one’s school picture and the spouse asked if we wanted to do the same thing as last year;

Me: “yeah, because I want one every year and your mother probably wants one. Aunt and grandma will not be getting one.”

Him: “Why?”

Me: “They’re doing the same shit they did when I was a child and it shouldn’t be up to me to do check ins or anything.”

Him: “Yeah, it is a two way street.”

If they really want them I guess I can give them the info and they can order whatever they want for themselves but, I’m done attempting to put effort into a one way relationship with anyone.

[secretsinthevoid]

Got the process to get an official autism diagnosis started. When they called they asked for my pronouns 😭 no ones ever asked that before. I’m excited and nervous to start this next chapter in my healing journey.

I also can tell my therapist I got it accomplished cause she was worried about me the last time since I hadn’t done yet and it’s kind of our only “goal” at the moment.

[secretsinthevoid]

I love that my spouse knows how bad thunderstorms affect me. We had one that momentarily knocked the power out and shook the house. The second the lights went off I was already in panic mode, covering my ears and the moment they were back on he was right there checking on me. 🥰

[secretsinthevoid]

I was hoping allergies would hold off until after this week. Little one has their birthday in a few days and we’re gonna do something this weekend for them but I can’t do that if the allergies have me in a tight grip. Nyquil again tonight to see if it helps.