Mr. Ives on trying and failing to be happy for a more successful whaleship they just gammed with:
“How little is necessary to the upsetting of ones serenity, and peace of mind. Now here we were this morning feeling particularly good. Patting each other on the back, and congratulating ourselves on being the possessors of 820 bbls of Oil. When, “presto changes”, the “Kathleen” hove in sight boiling and cutting all at once, and showing every indication of having taken a large amount of oil. As soon as this fact became generally known we wasn’t on the -congratulate- so much as we were. We didn’t feel quite so good as we did. And our 820 Bbls didn’t appear quite so large, in comparison with the “Kathleen”’s probably One Thousand. It’s all very well to try and appear gracious about it, and as though one didn’t care. You may try the magnanimous dodge and say “well I’m sure I’m glad to hear of her good fortune. She needed it after all, for up to within a month she hadn’t seen the spout of a whale for nine months, and she is out 2 1/2 years you know.” But it is -only trying- after all; you can’t make a go of it and you must acknowledge to yourself that you really wish the Kathleen had kept out of the way, and if she must see whales you wish she might have seen them somewhere else. You feel as though you had a sort of prior claim to all the benefits to be derived from this cruising ground; a sort of primary right and title to all the advantages accruing therefrom, because you -got here first-. Now this is very like selfishness I’ll admit, but it’s human nature as well, and as my Uncle says, “humane nature’s a queer feller.”
-Feb 6th, 1870, aboard the Bark Sunbeam.










