Oh mother , i think i learned how to drown without ever touching the water



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Oh mother , i think i learned how to drown without ever touching the water
having a disability that would have been easily preventable had I just been treated properly as a child is a different type of grief.
the doctors told my parents I needed surgery. I spent my teenage years telling them i was in pain, asking for the surgery. and they refused. they refused. it wasn't even that we couldn't afford it or we lived somewhere we couldn't access the healthcare--we weren't bad for money, we lived the in the state's capital city. it would've been primarily covered by australia's public healthcare system. it wasn't a risky surgery. but they refused and i still don't know why. something that could've been easily done with and had no lasting impacts had they just gotten it treated has me now in a wheelchair. what was supposed to be one surgery is now at least four and it won't even fix all of it. i tell the surgeon what the condition is and he goes "but that's easily treatable as a child" i know. "why didn't the doctors pick up on it?" they did. "why didn't your parents get it fixed as a kid?" i don't know. i don't know. i will never know. fuck.
i haven't seen my dad in a while but when i talk about my wheelchair i wonder if he feels guilty. i try to love him but i can't help but feel like his choices stole my life from me. what could've been. what should've been. i love my disabled community and what it's given me and i try so hard to be okay with it all and most of the time i am but i miss skating. i miss hiking. i miss sailing and swimming and dance. and i could've had all of that if they'd just said yes to a single fucking basic surgery.
Hey, psst, whovians…
As I already mentioned there’s some merit to the theory that Ruby is one of the pantheon BUT also a running theme in ruby’s story is birth parents being kinda shitty to their kids and finding family elsewhere whether that be through adopted parents or the friends you make along the way.
And one of the few thing we now about this mysterious Pantheon of gods is that the Toymaker has children like maestro and in their words is a bad parent to his children so the familial dynamics there are likely kind of shitty so the Toymaker abandoning one of his children isn’t out of the question
Just saying… 👀
From: Is it safes to come into da bathroom now, mum? @Jenergy83
haiiiiia wanted to finally introduce my fursona properly :3 she's an anarchist cat called Lotl and I've also been doing some worldbuilding around her and her friends which I'm looking forward to sharing soon!
Tell me this doesn't remind you of the times you'd cry about your mum hurting your feelings but want to be something better for her.