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My psychology search history during the years:

2022: MBTI Test + Enneagram + Temperament

2023: Instinctual Variant + The Big 5 (SLOAN) + Attitudinal Psyche

2024 + now: Autism

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How did it come to this?

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“Bill” Clinton [ISTJ sp/sx 1w9]

Anyways I wouldn’t give any details about my mbti oc character, since this is just me finally releasing the weight that have been aching my mind for too long.

I actually still like drawing mbti/16 personalities characters, but there’s just a random reason or art block of why I couldn’t draw them much,,, so ❗️undercut.

Disclaimer; [RANT/Ramble]:

P.s. I didn’t mean to join it along with this drawing but I wanted to let out my thoughts for once.

To be honest there’s this aching perfectionism that have been aching me when it comes to thinking about MY style of drawing them. Of course, it’s seems like a normal thing for someone as an enneagram 4 artist, since 4 by growth/in SP instinct acts like that of an Enneagram 1. And the reason why I had to point it out right now is that I feel it, I feel “envy”.

The irritating thing of this “envy” and “perfectionism combined together, is the fact whenever I come across a drawing or mbti artist with their own style of the 16 personality types, I get inspired normally. And by inspiration, there’s an idea and that idea needed to be composed. But the idea is tiresome when you’re too busy with something else.

Which also led to minor insecurities or doubts, which led to the lack of posting since I thought if I didn’t draw the characters in my style, it ended up being bland and just as it’s “original” style (16 personalities avatars).

So as a new and matured me, I’m breaking the zealousy loop. Finally and letting go of incompetence to have confidence and finally draw what I wanted to draw. I knew I’m no professional artist, and I knew art is well, communication, freedom and so much I can say. But that’s all for my ted talk.

Another side note: I wouldn’t consider this a vent, it’s more of a core fear situation that I finally dealt with.