#my babe.

[bean-bog-blog]

ME WHEN I LOVE IZUTSUMI. god i have to rewatch/reread dunmeshi. i miss it

[softshuji]

Such a simple minded creature, I saw a shirt that said 'angel' on it and I blushed cos it reminded me of-

[pashaar]

Last night was one of the worst nights I’ve had in a very long time. Going through a break up when you have bpd is so fucking awful and intense it feels like your whole world is crashing down. But I took my poor body home, I laid her down to sleep and cried. I woke up this morning and pushed myself to go to work, I came home and rested, I talked to my mother who I never open up to- and cried even more. But I didn’t use my unhealthy coping mechanisms like I have for the past 12 years of my life. Is this growth? I don’t know. I need to get a new tarot deck soon and I’m worried about all these bills I have to pay but you can really recover if you have people around you…cleaned this old couple’s home today and he has so many books and I felt so good doing that for them because it’s just yeah I know it’s my job, but he was so sweet and she had a stroke and he takes care of her and it was all very humbling today. Seeing inside the lives of other people and their homes, their art, their plants, their pictures, the way they live…it just makes me feel less alone for some reason. I think the idea of feeling like I’m unworthy of love stems from the Separation from others or the natural world around me- it’s isolating and terrible to feel that way. My therapist says I need to look inward more and not outward and I agree. I hate being alone and I find answers outside of me. I look for reassurance and guidance and validation outside of me. I need to find that within…and a part of me has been. A part of me has been taking care of this little girl inside of me because she’s so so hurt and wants to mend the relationship with her father and wants to feel like she has a home and she’s always looking for a home even if she’s not ready to be present in it; she wants love so badly deep down but pushes it away. I have to make this about me. I have to stop thinking about you constantly or at least not give those thoughts energy. I have to not think about you with her. I have to remain strong and steadfast even though sometimes the pain hits me like a fucking train or like this deep aching and agony that I can literally feel my heart physically hurting.

There are good and bad things happening. There is still the summer ahead of me, radical acceptance that everything is where it’s supposed to be, that maybe one day you’ll come back or at least be my friend. The good and bad are probably just life though. There’s always a reason behind all of it and that brings me comfort.

[archived-swallowedblood]

𝙀𝘿𝙄𝙏𝙎   𝙊𝙁   𝘽𝙄𝘼𝙉𝘾𝘼   𝙎𝙏𝘼𝙍𝙆     ,     12 / ?

𝗆𝗎𝗍𝗎𝖺𝗅𝗌 𝖼𝖺𝗇 𝗋𝖾𝖻𝗅𝗈𝗀.

[braveryviolet]

Everytime I see Bust e latt:

[chingonaclawsarchive]

     LAURA HOWLETT.  06.

[snowinabottlearchived]

  WHY DID SHE EVEN TALKED TO THESE DUMBSTERS ? maybe she should try to run away again, to find a way out of this goddamn misery. NO. SHE COULD NOT. not in a thousand of years. and this human mess as one of the main reasons. anger rising in the small brunette, fingers starting to tingle immediately. peter didn’t trusted her. did he trust anybody besides himself ? had he never learned what love, what FRIENDSHIP meant ? OH, AMELIA WAS FURIOUS ! arms crossed in front of her chest, dangerous glance fixing the other. was this all nothing but a huge joke ?! in a world full of strangers, full of threats and darkness she had believed him to be a light shining when nothing else did. a place to retreat, someone to speak to. WHY WAS HE SO STUBBORN ? or was it a huge lie ? an attempt to keep her where she was ( good girl, not revolting too much, not causing any problems ). no. NO !  it could not be ! WHAT HE WAS WAS NONE OF HER BUSINESS ? temperature decreasing, ice covering hands and lower arms. OF COURSE IT WAS !   ❛   YOU GODDAMN BLOCKHEAD !  ❜  , she almost spit out while taking a deep breath.   ❛  do you really think all i am interested in is to persuade you to leave ?!  ❜  lips trembling due to the mere flash up of emotions.   ❛   i do care ABOUT YOU, idiot !  ❜  and if he was too blind to see, too stupid to realize, she would freeze his ass off !   ❛   ——  i just care about you.  ❜  words getting lower, expression.   ❛   not about me. not about whom these lunatics plan to sell me to. i care about peter quill.  ❜  

╰╰✩ CONTINUED FROM HERE WITH @outlawiism

[shauriofabydos]

cannibalisticwhistler replied to your post: // she’s not even in the foreground of this scene....

she’s channeling her inner Braca

*waits for the inevitable bondage voyeurism scene in this movie*