#myburden

[ohnogotafeeling]

Idk if its too late or if you've read this one before but this one is very good. It takes place before, during, AND after the Sgt Pepper release party and theyre just...hungry for each other. Repeatedly.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/60420700

NEVER too late to rec me fics, im a greedy bastard!!!!!! read this yes but thank you for reminding me of this bc now i will be rereading all their fics ehehehehe #bedtimestory

[villa-anj]

Naturally flavored what a crock. This super taster caught your use of gross artificial sweetners. #whatashame #supertaster #myburden #ijustedwantedsometea

[onpump]

I can’t ever do things right

It seems like, well - I just can’t do anything right. School? I’m terrible. Lifting? I’m struggling with motivation. Social life? God, every time I try to open myself up to a group, I get stung. As cliche as it is, I honestly try so hard, and it just doesn’t matter. I’m simply looking for an outlet right now.

So I’m one of the newer people in a Magic group. I play Magic as the main outlet of my strong competitive instinct. It seems like there simply has to be something in my life where I feel competitive, but more than that, I need to believe that I’m good at something. Without that, I somewhat worry about depression at times.  Anyway, somewhere down the line, it seems that I’ve rubbed several people the wrong way. Again. Tell me, why is it so hard to make myself understood? Why is it so hard to get people to accept that I don’t intend ill upon them? What is the purpose of trying? How much more will it take to succeed? I swear, I feel like I’m running low on motivation, energy, just a general sense of direction. And to make it all worse, this is one of the worst times for me to be going through all of this.

So now I’m going to play Magic tomorrow. With the same people. A number of mistakes over time have left open problems with no real clear way to resolve them. The issues can basically be broken into several categories:

People annoyed because I asked a couple times too many for help.

People annoyed that I was outspoken about a few troublesome decks.

People angry because I spoke my mind about another player who they seem to dote on.

Some blend of annoyance/dislike that’s related to more than one of the above, or one of the causes of these categories.

So now, I’m once again left in a situation where I can barely trust more than 3 or so people at all. My other social circle is basically one borrowed through my roommates. I just don’t know how people do it. To my eyes, everyone seems to enter my vision with these ready made groups with deep connections. I just can’t ever truly become a part of someone’s group. And so, I’m back to being my same lonely self. Finally out of the closet, though that satisfaction is short lived. I’m pathetic in so many ways, it’s not even funny. I’m so nervous of even something like online dating apps. It’s going to take some time to clear this latest storm with some sun-rays of fake optimism. I just don’t feel like I’m ever making progress. Every time I think things are going well, it turns out I’ve been fucking up the whole time, and it was just taking time to get on people’s nerves.

[carmenthefangirl26-blog]

You are probably a bitch, and you hate me but if no one is there for you I will gladly help you out. I would hate to see anyone suffer. Even those who want to see me in pain.

[kendallknightmusic-blog]

There is some unknown mystery to the art of making music that reaches to the depths of my soul. Call it passion. Call it love. Call it whatever you want. I call it Gods gift to humanity. Music is what helps me process the link between man and it's creator. #SongWriting #Worship #GodsCreation #Uncharted #Undone #Mystery #MyCalling #MyBurden #MyLife