#mysimplethought

[mysimplethought]

it hurts that i have to reassure myself that i’ll find someone one day

because you were supposed to be that person

and i wasn’t supposed to have been in this position hoping to find someone because i would have already had you

[mysimplethought]

i can’t believe how much you disrespected me, as if we meant nothing, as if i meant nothing

[mysimplethought]

i continue to create scenarios of us in my mind. all the ways that we could coincidentally run into each other, the possibility of you coming back for me, the potential conversations we could share, all of which is a pointless waste of my time

[mysimplethought]

learning to go through each day without you hurts more than you’ll ever know

[mysimplethought]

you derailed my life

you talked about how you didn’t want to hold me back but you leaving me ruined me

for months i cried over you and i had no motivation

now i am left with lost time and a future i have to salvage

[mysimplethought]

everything about us feels conditional

you’ll only like me if

you’ll only stay with me if

i’m only good enough for you if

i can be a part of your life if

[mysimplethought]

i didn’t want to be the one who gave up on us,

so i stayed because i thought we were worth saving,

but you proved me wrong

[mysimplethought]

holding onto my anger toward you so i can stop getting sad over all the things you did that made me happy