#n2n proshot

[alex-sondheimsversion]

“I’m gay” “I’m straight” “I’m trans”

Ok and I’m alive??? I’m alive??? I am so alive??? And I feed on the fear that’s behind your eyes??? And I need you to need me it’s no surprise??? I’m alive??? So alive??? I’m alive???

[dasiesanddarkness]

the way Superboy and The Invisible Girl is Natalie literally begging her parents to see her pain and give her the support and love she needs but both of them dismiss it because in their eyes Diana is doing worse and requires more support

and in I’m Alive when Dan says “it isnt always about your comfort, it’s about helping your mother” and Natalie says “as always” because it has never been about her comfort, it has always been about helping Diana and she has always been left to figure it out on her own

and then in Song of Forgetting when Natalie hugs Dan, initiating contact with someone other than Henry for the first (and i think only) time in the show because she’s in so much pain because her mother forgot who she was and he hugs her back until Diana starts to remember when they met and then he pulls away and once again doesn’t offer her the support she needs because he’s too focused on Diana

and how throughout the show Natalie still acts as her mother’s protector (“that’s bullshit, she trusts you!” right before Didn’t I See This Movie, yelling at her dad when he breaks the music box, and driving her to the hospital during I’m Alive reprise) because she still cares about her so much and wishes she would get better so she can have a good relationship with her

and at the end right after I Am The One reprise when she walks in and Dan starts sobbing and she becomes the one that takes care of him by reassuring him and turning on the lights because she knows that he needs it and she’s so used to putting her own pain on hold

the way Natalie struggles the entire fucking show and it’s always second to her parents’ struggles

[starry-eyed-psychopomp]

Gabriel in Next to Normal is not a parasitic demon! He is not deliberately malicious for everyone! He is grief manifest!! He is present in each character’s life, and how he interacts with them is representative of how they handle their grief, but he is not a single sentient character. When he latches onto Dan at the end, that’s not Dan ~becoming like Diana~ because ~a parasite needs a host~ or whatever, because acknowledging Gabe’s presence is something he NEEDED to do! Diana was unable to let go of her grief for years, and it destroyed her relationships and mental health. She had to let go of Gabe. Dan, however, repressed his grief, and let it fester for years. Finally acknowledging his son’s existence is the first step towards healing for Dan, the same way leaving was for Diana

[ace-misplaced]

when i turn up to the sad wet eyes competition and see the goodman siblings

[whencartoonsruletheworld]

Next to Normal 2024 West End Proshot + things i said out loud while watching it

[dontyouknowemma-itsyou]

Gabe wears the same gray hoodie Diana once wore in a flashback, when she was pregnant with him. What was once hers becomes his, turning the hoodie into a quiet symbol of their bond. It ties past to present, showing how deeply her grief and love are tied to him.

[rowan-on-the-moon]

so uh. how about that blocking in the next to normal proshot

[menoetiades-the-giver]

EDIT: PLEASE REBLOG THIS EVEN IF YOU DONT NEED IT IM DESPERATELY TRYING TO GET IT TO PPL WHO WANT IT 😭

NEXT TO NORMAL PROSHOT if you dont want to get a vpn with american servers or dont want to wait until cinema release or are worried pbs will take the it down once there is a cinema release heres the whole thing!!! i screen recording the whole thing in chunks and edited them together as seemlessly as possible so there shouldnt be any noticable interruptions. if i try to post this one more time on youtube they will hunt me down so spreading the file itself will have to suffice