Marked by You | KNJ
Summary: What was meant to be quiet, intimate time together slowly unravels into something far more intense, where longing builds in every glance, every almost-touch, every interrupted moment. Even when distance pulls you apart, he finds ways to stay—through late-night words, restless thoughts, and the way his presence lingers on your skin. Because with him, love isn’t just something you feel… it’s something that stays, soft yet consuming, leaving you marked in ways you can’t hide—and don’t want to forget. Status: One-shot | Between Collisions Series Pairing: Idol!Namjoon x Reader Word count: 10.1k~ Genre: Idol!AU, Fluff, Smut Rated: MDNI, 18+ 🔞 Tags: ARMY, Boyfriend!Namjoon, Secret, Drama, Slice of Life, LDR, VCS, Nipple Play, Breast Sucking, Fingering, Vanilla Sex Posting Date: May 9, 2026 SCC: Ko-fi ☕️ ・ Taglist 📝
That afternoon, the air in the gym was still warm, filled with the clanking of equipment and slightly heavy breathing. Namjoon stood in front of the mirror, a small towel draped around his neck, but his mind clearly wasn’t on the workout anymore. He had been smiling to himself for a while, enough for Jungkook to glance at him with raised brows.
“What’s with you, hyung? You’ve been smiling this whole time,” Jungkook grinned while taking a drink.
Namjoon just shook his head lightly, though the corner of his lips stayed lifted. “Y/N is coming today.”
“Oh…” Jungkook’s expression immediately changed, his smile widening. “Really?”
Namjoon let out a small sigh, half helpless. “Yeah. And she’s staying over.”
Taehyung, who was stretching nearby, immediately joined in. “No wonder you’ve been acting like you’re in love all over again.”
Namjoon didn’t deny it. If anything, he grew even more impatient. Every time he checked the clock, it felt like he wanted to speed up the workout.
“Let’s go home,” he suddenly said, even before finishing the last set.
Jungkook laughed. “We’re not done yet, hyung.”
“I am,” Namjoon replied without hesitation, already grabbing his bag.
Taehyung shook his head, chuckling softly. “Love is dangerous.”
A few hours later, Namjoon’s apartment had completely changed in atmosphere. It was warm, filled with the aroma of cooking, and your voice could be heard from the kitchen. You were still wearing your work outfit, only now with a slightly oversized apron on top.
Namjoon stood near the kitchen island, doing nothing but watching you. He leaned casually, but his eyes never left you.
“Are you tired?” he asked softly.
“You look more tired,” you replied while stirring the food. “You just came from the gym and you’re still standing there.”
“I’m enjoying this,” he stepped a little closer. “I like seeing you cook here.”
You just smiled faintly, your cheeks warming under his gaze. Before the moment could settle further, the door suddenly opened.
“Hyung!” Jungkook’s voice came in before he even appeared.
Namjoon immediately turned, his face changing instantly. “Why are you here?”
Jungkook walked in casually, took off his shoes, and went straight to the kitchen. “I’m hungry.”
You laughed softly. “You came here just to eat, didn’t you?”
Jungkook grinned widely. “Yes, Y/N noona.”
Namjoon sighed deeply, clearly not too happy but unable to protest, especially seeing you look pleased.
“You said you were just stopping by,” Namjoon reminded him.
“Yeah. Stopping by to eat,” Jungkook replied casually, already sitting down.
Taehyung, who came later, just laughed at the situation. “I should head home. I don’t want to disturb.”
“You don’t want to eat?” you asked.
“I do, but I’m not as bold as him,” Taehyung said, pointing at Jungkook.
“No. You should eat too,” you said, glancing at Namjoon to make sure he wouldn’t give Taehyung any weird signals. Tae immediately brightened and sat down at the table.
Not long after, the dining table was full. You sat between them, and Jungkook ate enthusiastically.
“This is so good…” he said while continuing to take more. “Seriously, noona, this is really good.”
You smiled, satisfied. “Eat a lot.”
Namjoon actually wanted to sit close to you, enjoying time together, but now he had to share. He could only watch you from the side while occasionally eating, though his focus remained on you.
After eating, you started cleaning up. Namjoon immediately helped, but Jungkook relaxed on the sofa. Taehyung, after helping wash dishes, excused himself to go home.
“Hyung,” Jungkook suddenly called.
“What now?” Namjoon replied without turning.
“I’m staying over.”
Namjoon froze mid-movement. He turned slowly, his expression serious. “What?”
Jungkook stood as if it was the most normal decision. “I’m staying over. It’s already late.”
Namjoon panicked. “No, go home.”
“But I’m tired,” Jungkook said casually. “Besides, we don’t have an early schedule tomorrow.”
Namjoon was about to protest again, but you spoke first.
“It’s fine,” you said lightly. “Let him stay. I’m happy my cooking got eaten.”
Jungkook immediately smiled in satisfaction. “See?”
Namjoon looked at you, half in disbelief. “You’re serious?”
You nodded while drying dishes. “Serious. He’s not bothering anyone.”
Jungkook sat back down comfortably, already grabbing a blanket. “I’ll stay here.”
Namjoon covered his face for a moment, frustrated but unable to be angry. You stepped closer, standing beside him.
“Just two days, Joon,” you whispered.
He looked at you, his expression softening instantly. “It was supposed to be just us.”
“Yeah,” you smiled softly. “But I’m still with you.”
That was enough to silence him. He exhaled slowly, then pulled you a little closer, his arm wrapping briefly around your waist.
“Tomorrow, I don’t want to be disturbed,” he murmured.
“We’ll see,” you replied teasingly.
In the living room, Jungkook pretended not to notice, though his small smile was obvious. The night turned out busier than planned, but warm in a different way. Namjoon might have been slightly annoyed, but every time he saw you laughing and happy, he knew he still won.
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Night grew quieter after everything settled. The apartment lights dimmed, leaving only a warm glow from the bedroom. You had just come out of the bathroom, your face fresh, your hair slightly damp. When you entered the room, Namjoon was already there, leaning against the headboard, glasses on, a book in his hand.
He glanced at you as soon as you walked in. His gaze shifted instantly, from focused reading to something much softer.
“You took a while,” he said quietly.
“Were you waiting or reading?” you climbed onto the bed.
“Both,” he answered without hesitation, closing his book and setting it aside.
You had just pulled the blanket when he moved closer automatically. His arm wrapped around your waist, his face near your neck, his breath warm.
“I missed you,” he whispered.
You paused, then smiled faintly. “We just met earlier.”
“Not enough.”
He leaned closer, his nose brushing your skin, his hold tightening slightly. His movements were slow, but clearly going beyond just cuddling.
You held his arm. “Joon…”
He hummed softly, not stopping. “Hm?”
“Jungkook is here.”
That made him freeze instantly. A few seconds of silence.
Then he let out a long sigh, dropping his face onto your shoulder. “I forgot.”
You laughed softly, patting his arm. “You…”
“I don’t like him being here,” he muttered, half sulking.
“You said he could eat.”
“I didn’t say he could stay over,” he shot back.
You turned slightly to face him, your smile soft but clearly holding back laughter. “It’s okay. We still have tomorrow.”
He stared at you for a moment, then sighed again. “He has to leave tomorrow.”
“We’ll see,” you replied casually.
Namjoon narrowed his eyes. “That’s not reassuring.”
You just laughed softly and rested your head on his chest. His arm wrapped around you again, calmer this time, though he still sighed occasionally like he was holding something back.
“I’ll wake you up early tomorrow,” he said.
“You’ll wake up first?”
“If I have to,” he replied quickly.
You knew he meant it. You just smiled and slowly fell asleep in his arms, while he occasionally stroked your back, calming himself.
Morning came sooner than expected. You woke up to sounds from outside the room, like someone pacing.
Namjoon was still asleep beside you, but when you shifted slightly, he immediately opened his eyes. “Morning already?”
“Do you hear that?” you whispered.
Before he could answer, there was a soft knock on the door.
“Noona…” Jungkook’s voice came from outside.
Namjoon immediately covered his face with a pillow.
You almost laughed. “Yes, Kook?”
“Can I have breakfast?”
Namjoon sat up instantly, hair messy, his expression somewhere between disbelief and surrender. “He woke up earlier than us just to eat?”
You held back laughter. “I’ll go out first.”
You stepped out, and sure enough, Jungkook was already sitting on the sofa, looking fresh like someone who had slept peacefully.
“Good morning, noona,” he smiled brightly.
“Good morning. You’re… very energetic,” you said while heading to the kitchen.
“I slept well,” he replied casually.
Namjoon came out a few minutes later, still half-asleep, his eyes immediately landing on Jungkook.
“You’re still here?” he asked flatly.
Jungkook shook his head casually. “I was thinking… I’ll stay another night.”
Namjoon stopped mid-step. “What?”
You turned from the kitchen. “Seriously?”
Jungkook nodded. “Yeah. It’s nice here.”
Namjoon looked at you, clearly hoping you’d refuse this time.
But you smiled lightly. “It’s fine.”
Namjoon sighed deeply for what felt like the hundredth time in 24 hours. “I have no say in this house, do I?”
Jungkook laughed. “You don’t.”
You started cooking again, and just like the night before, the kitchen felt warm. Jungkook sat near the island, watching your every move.
“It smells so good…” he said.
“You’ve been saying that nonstop,” you laughed.
“Because it really does.”
When the food was ready, Jungkook ate just as enthusiastically as before, maybe even more.
You watched him, a soft smile forming.
“Are you sure this is good?” you asked suddenly.
Jungkook paused, looking at you seriously. “It is.”
“Or do you just really like eating?”
He shook his head. “I do like eating. But I wouldn’t eat this much if it wasn’t good.”
Namjoon chimed in from beside you. “He once rejected my food.”
“That’s different,” Jungkook replied quickly.
You laughed softly. “So this is really good?”
Jungkook nodded again, more confidently. “Very.”
You finally felt satisfied. There was a different kind of warmth seeing him eat like that.
Namjoon glanced at you, then leaned a little closer. “I’m eating a lot too, you know.”
“You’ve barely eaten,” you replied without looking at him.
“I’m maintaining my image,” he said seriously.
Jungkook burst out laughing. “Hyung, you don’t have an image in front of noona.”
Namjoon shot him a sharp look. “Go home now.”
“No,” Jungkook replied casually, continuing to eat.
You just shook your head with a smile. The two days that were supposed to be quiet turned lively instead, but that’s what made everything feel alive. And deep down, you knew Namjoon might be annoyed, but he didn’t really want to stop this… as long as you stayed by his side.
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That afternoon, you came home from work with steps a little slower than usual. Your body was tired, your mind was full, but the moment you reached the door of Namjoon’s apartment, a sense of warmth immediately settled in.
You opened the door… and froze. The smell of cooking. Not leftovers from yesterday. This was fresh.
You stepped inside, and the sight in the kitchen made you smile instantly. Jungkook was standing in front of the stove, wearing a casual T-shirt and an apron that… you had no idea where he got. His hair was slightly messy, but his expression was completely focused.
“You’re… cooking?” you asked, still half in disbelief.
He turned right away, flashing a wide smile. “Y/N noona, you’re home!”
Namjoon sat on the sofa, only glancing over. “He’s been in the kitchen the whole time.”
You walked closer, looked into the pot, and without realizing it, your smile grew wider. “It smells so good…”
Jungkook looked proud. “I thought you’d be tired. You cooked yesterday.”
You were genuinely touched. “Thank you, Kook. Seriously.”
He just grinned, a little shy but still relaxed. “I also wanted to eat something good.”
Namjoon scoffed softly from the sofa. “That’s the real reason.”
You laughed, then sat on the chair near the kitchen, watching Jungkook as he continued cooking. There was something warm about this moment. Not complicated, not tense. It simply felt like home.
Dinner that night… was really good. And you didn’t hesitate to say it.
“This is really good, Kook. Seriously,” you said while eating.
Jungkook smiled in satisfaction. “Told you.”
“You’re actually good at cooking,” you added.
Namjoon, sitting beside you, leaned back and watched the two of you. His expression was a mix of resignation and… a little jealousy he didn’t fully hide.
“You two get along well,” he muttered.
You immediately looked at him. “What are you talking about?”
Jungkook laughed. “Hyung is jealous.”
“I’m not,” Namjoon replied quickly.
But it was obvious he was a little annoyed. Not at Jungkook, but at the situation. The two days he had been waiting for, which were supposed to be just the two of you… had now turned into three.
And strangely, he still couldn’t be truly mad. Because he cared about Jungkook. And he could see that you were happy.
The night grew late. Jungkook, just like yesterday, ended up staying in the guest room again without much discussion, as if it had become the default decision. And Namjoon… this time, he stayed quiet.
But the moment you both entered the bedroom, the atmosphere changed. The door closed. Silence.
You had just sat on the bed when Namjoon moved closer immediately. Not like yesterday, when things were still relaxed. This time felt different. More… intense.
The room lights were dim, casting a warm glow over the bed. The door was locked, yet there was still a sense of caution in the air, as if both of you were aware that someone was just on the other side of the wall. And somehow… that made everything feel more intense.
Namjoon stood close to you, barely any distance left. His hand rested on your waist, fingers moving slowly as if memorizing you again after days of being apart.
“I’m leaving tomorrow,” he said softly.
You paused, then nodded. “I know.”
“For a month.”
His voice dropped lower. His hand tightened slightly around your waist, pulling you closer.
“We didn’t even get enough time alone,” he continued.
You looked at him, a little soft-hearted. “Joon…”
He leaned closer, his forehead nearly touching yours. “I miss you already.”
You could feel it. In the way he held you, in the way he spoke. Everything was deeper than usual.
But you still hesitated.
“Jungkook is here,” you whispered.
Namjoon sighed, then stood up for a moment… and locked the door.
Click.
He came back to you, his gaze now more serious. “We’ll keep it quiet.”
You almost laughed in disbelief. “Are you serious?”
“Yes,” he answered quickly. “We can.”
“You know that’s impossible.”
He stepped closer again, his hand slowly rising to your cheek, thumb brushing gently. “We’ll try.”
His voice softened, but there was a pleading tone underneath.
“Please,” he whispered.
You hesitated. Your mind knew this was risky, but your heart… especially seeing him like this… made it hard to refuse.
“Just… not too long,” you finally said softly.
Namjoon’s expression changed instantly, like a child finally getting something he had been waiting for.
He pulled you into a tight embrace right away.
He drew you even closer, his arms tightening around you as his face dipped to your neck, his warm breath brushing against your skin. His touch wasn’t rushed, but full… as if he truly wanted to savor every second without missing anything.
Namjoon kissed you softly. His fingers began to move lower, slipping between your thighs. He shifted your underwear aside, sliding one finger inside you, pulling it out and pushing it back in a few times, gently trying to open you up before adding a second finger.
You reflexively closed your eyes, your hands rising to his shoulders, gripping lightly.
This time, his movements were careful, but still full of feeling. He was really trying to hold himself back, every touch becoming slower, deeper, as if he was savoring every single moment.
“Slow…” you reminded him softly.
“I know,” he replied quickly, though the way he leaned in again showed how much he was holding back.
He kissed you softly, at first light, almost as if he was making sure. But the moment you kissed him back, everything deepened, lasting longer, more intense. His fingers were still moving in and out of your warm, wet core.
Once he felt you were ready, he quickly pulled off his boxers and took out a condom he had prepared earlier in the drawer beside the bed, no more time to linger.
He gently cupped your face, which already showed how overwhelmed you were by something he usually did much faster. Then he lifted your night dress, carelessly slipping your underwear off onto the carpet, before slowly pushing himself inside you.
You realized your breathing was becoming uneven, and instinctively you tensed, your lips parting slightly as they pulled away from his.
“Joon…” you whispered again.
He stopped, your foreheads touching. His breath was warm, slightly uneven. “I’m holding back,” he murmured.
You almost laughed, but also felt for him.
“This was your idea,” you whispered.
“Yeah… but it’s hard,” he admitted.
You touched his cheek gently. “If you can’t—”
“I can,” he cut in immediately, looking at you seriously. “I just… miss you.”
That sentence made you fall silent. The way he looked at you, the way he touched you, everything felt deeper tonight. It wasn’t just desire, but a longing he had been holding back for so long.
You finally gave a small nod. And that was enough for him.
He leaned in again, this time more careful, but still full of feeling. Every touch was slower, more intentional, as if he was truly holding himself back. His hands moved gently, unhurried, and somehow that made it even harder for you to stay composed. He pressed soft kisses along your neck, adding a faint suction without leaving a mark. Then he moved lower, to your chest, brushing his tongue lightly over your areola before taking it into his mouth.
Several times, you had to hold your breath, even covering your mouth, your shoulders tensing whenever it felt like a sound might slip out.
Namjoon noticed immediately. He leaned close to your ear, his voice barely a whisper. “I’m here… relax…”
His tone softened, more soothing, but that only made you more sensitive to every touch. “Nggh…” you whimpered very quietly, trying your best not to make a sound, though it was impossible.
“If you’re too loud, we’ll get caught,” you whispered, half warning, half panicking.
He smiled faintly. “That’s why I’m being slow.”
“That's exactly why,” you replied quickly, almost at a loss for words.
He let out a soft chuckle but quickly muffled it, as if remembering the situation. Then he pulled back from you again, before moving against you once more—not as hard as usual. But that only made it feel deeper, closer, his embrace warm and comforting, as if telling you he wasn’t going to rush.
In between, he still managed to slip in a quiet whisper between his breaths.
“Look at you, taking me so well,” he said.
“You always say that,” you replied, your voice softer now.
“Because it’s always true,” he shot back.
Namjoon placed another suck right above your nipple, harder than before. This time, it would definitely leave a mark.
“JOON!” you whispered louder than before, but still kept it hushed.
“I’m leaving my mark,” Namjoon said with a playful smile. You knew you would remember this later, standing in the bathroom, seeing the reddish-purple mark on your chest.
You lightly hit his shoulder while smiling too. He continued again, this time with a faster pace.
“Hold on a little longer, baby.”
The atmosphere softened a bit after that. Your movements slowed, not because the feeling faded, but because you both wanted to stretch the moment longer.
You closed your eyes, trying to focus on staying quiet. Namjoon’s pace quickened before he finally let out a relieved sound. He collapsed beside you, his arm still wrapped around your waist.
You opened your eyes, looking at him. There was something in his gaze that made your chest feel full.
“A month is a long time,” he continued.
“Yeah.”
“Don’t forget me.”
You frowned slightly. “What are you talking about?”
He smiled faintly, tightening his hold on you. “I’m serious.”
You leaned closer, resting your forehead against his. “I should be the one saying that.”
He shook his head. “Impossible.”
You rested your head on his shoulder, your breathing slowly steadying. His hand continued to stroke your back gently.
A few seconds of silence.
Then suddenly, footsteps were heard outside the room.
You both froze instantly.
“Joon—” you whispered, panicked.
He went completely still, even holding his breath. The footsteps stopped right outside the door.
Silence.
Then…
“Hyung…?” Jungkook’s voice came softly from outside.
You buried your face into Namjoon’s chest, trying not to make a sound. Namjoon closed his eyes, clearly torn between answering or pretending to be asleep.
“Hyung, are you asleep?” Jungkook asked again.
Namjoon finally answered, keeping his voice as calm as possible. “Yeah.”
“The door’s locked?”
“…yeah.”
“Okay. Good night.”
The footsteps faded away.
You let out a breath you didn’t realize you were holding, almost laughing but still tense.
Namjoon stared at the ceiling for a moment, then looked at you. “He almost came in.”
You lightly hit his chest. “Exactly!”
He chuckled softly. “Exciting.”
“You’re weird,” you whispered.
“But you’re still here,” he replied quickly.
You couldn’t argue. Just a small smile.
Eventually, everything slowed down. The mood softened. He pulled you into a more relaxed embrace, his chin resting on your head.
This time, there was no rush. Just warmth.
And before you fully fell asleep, you heard him whisper softly, almost to himself.
“Tomorrow, I don’t want to share anymore.”
You smiled faintly in his arms. But deep down, you knew… tomorrow might still not go as planned.
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That morning felt slower than usual.
Sunlight streamed through the apartment windows, falling softly onto the dining table already set with a simple breakfast. You stood in the kitchen, preparing everything slowly, not because you had to… but because you wanted to. This was the last morning before he left, and you realized that from the moment you woke up.
Namjoon walked out of the bedroom, hair slightly messy, wearing a loose white shirt, his face still half sleepy. But the moment he saw you, his expression softened.
“You woke up early again,” he said.
“You always say that,” you smiled.
He came up behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist, resting his chin on your shoulder. No words. Just standing there, holding onto a moment that would soon pass.
“What time are you leaving?” he asked quietly.
“As usual.”
He nodded, but didn’t let go. Before the silence grew too heavy, footsteps came from the living room. Jungkook.
“Morning, noona!” his voice was bright as ever.
“Morning,” you laughed softly.
He sat down immediately, eyes already on the table. “I’ll help finish everything.”
Namjoon sighed. “You always ‘help finish’.”
“That’s my contribution,” Jungkook replied casually.
Breakfast felt warm… but also a little heavy. You smiled, chatted, but there were pauses you couldn’t avoid. You ate slowly, occasionally glancing at Namjoon. He looked at you too, but didn’t say much.
After eating, you started cleaning up. Jungkook helped without being asked.
“You’re diligent today,” you teased.
“I’m a good kid,” he replied.
Namjoon scoffed. “Only today.”
You laughed, then turned to Jungkook. “Kook.”
“Yes, noona?”
You stood in front of him, your expression turning softer but more serious. “I’m leaving Namjoon to you.”
Jungkook nodded immediately. “Okay.”
Namjoon looked at both of you. “Why am I being handed over?”
You ignored him. “If he acts weird…”
Jungkook narrowed his eyes slightly. “Should I report it?”
“Yes,” you answered quickly.
Namjoon laughed in disbelief. “I should be the one protecting her.”
Jungkook replied, “No, you’re the one who needs to be protected.”
You laughed, but kept your gaze on Jungkook. “Seriously.”
He nodded again, more firmly. “Don’t worry, noona. I’ve got him.”
Namjoon shook his head, smiling faintly. “You two are really in sync.”
You finally looked at him. “Because you’re weird.”
“I’m not weird.”
“You are,” you repeated lightly.
He stepped closer, lowering his voice. “You’re still mine.”
You didn’t answer right away. You just smiled softly. “Yeah.”
Time passed, and eventually you picked up your bag. It was time to go. You stood by the door, shoes on, but your feet hesitated. Namjoon stood right in front of you. Silent. Looking at you like he wasn’t ready to let go.
“You really have to go now?” he asked quietly.
“Yes. I’ll be late,” you said gently.
He nodded, but didn’t move. A few seconds of silence.
Then he leaned closer. “Give me a kiss.”
You glanced toward Jungkook.
“You…” you held back laughter. “Jungkook is here.”
Namjoon glanced briefly, then looked back at you, clearly unwilling to compromise. “So?”
You gave in slightly, leaned in, and kissed his cheek quickly. “There.”
He frowned. “That’s it?”
You almost laughed. “What else do you want?”
He leaned closer again. “A real one.”
You looked at him, half shy, half incredulous. “Joon…”
He turned his head. “Kook.”
Jungkook looked up. “Yeah?”
“Go to the kitchen. Don’t look.”
Jungkook paused, then a slow grin appeared. “Oh…”
“Quick,” Namjoon added.
Jungkook stood up, chuckling. “Okay, okay. I won’t look.”
He even walked while briefly covering his eyes. “I’m a good kid.”
You covered your face. “What are you doing…”
Namjoon didn’t answer. He just waited until Jungkook disappeared. Then he turned back to you. Close. Even closer.
“Now,” he whispered.
You hesitated, then sighed softly and leaned in. This time, not his cheek. Short. Soft. But enough to make your heart race. When you pulled back slightly, he was still looking at you, clearly not satisfied.
“Not enough,” he murmured.
You stepped closer again, kissing him deeper this time. He didn’t waste the chance, deepening it further, pushing his tongue inside.
You pulled away, lightly hitting his chest. “That’s enough!”
You fixed the lipstick left on his lips. He laughed softly, then pulled you into one last hug, tighter than before.
“You know I’ll be really busy,” he whispered near your ear.
“I know.”
“But I’ll still make time.”
“I know.”
You pulled back, looking at him. “I’m not asking for anything.”
“I want to,” he replied quickly.
You touched his cheek gently. “I trust you.”
He went quiet. That simple sentence carried weight.
“I won’t break that,” he said softly.
From the kitchen, Jungkook’s voice called out, “Are you done yet?”
You quickly stepped away, almost laughing. “Yes!”
Jungkook came back out with an innocent expression. “I didn’t see anything.”
Namjoon just shook his head, still smiling.
You opened the door, pausing at the threshold. “I’ll wait for you to come back.”
Namjoon nodded. “I’ll come back.”
You stepped out. The door closed slowly.
Inside, Namjoon stood there for a few seconds, staring at the door, before exhaling softly.
Jungkook approached from behind. “Hyung.”
“Hmm?”
“It’s okay.”
Namjoon glanced at him. “What?”
“I’ll take care of things.”
Namjoon chuckled, patting his shoulder. “I should be the one taking care of you.”
Jungkook grinned. “Not this time.”
Namjoon shook his head, still smiling. Because in the middle of distance, schedules, and everything else… he knew one thing. He had you. And that was enough to always come back.
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A few days later, morning came in a different way. Quieter, slower, and somehow… a little empty.
You woke up without the warmth of an arm around your waist, without soft breaths against your neck, without Namjoon’s presence that was always there—even in silence. All that remained was the pillow beside you, now cold, and the sheets still faintly holding his scent.
For a few seconds, you just lay there, staring at the ceiling.
“He really left…” you murmured softly.
There was a small pause in your chest. Not overwhelming sadness, but more like the loss of little routines you didn’t realize meant so much.
You eventually got up, taking a deep breath, forcing yourself back into your usual rhythm. The day had to go on, work was waiting, and you weren’t someone who stayed still for too long.
You walked into the bathroom, movements automatic. The light flicked on, and you stood in front of the mirror, casually starting to undress—until you stopped.
Your eyes locked onto your reflection. There they were. Faint reddish-purple marks scattered across your chest. Not many, but enough to be obvious. Too familiar to mistake.
You stepped closer, tilting your body slightly. “Ugh… Namjoon…” you muttered, brows furrowing.
Your tone sounded annoyed, but not entirely. Your fingers lifted slowly, brushing over one of the marks. The skin still felt slightly sensitive, warm… and instantly, your mind drifted back.
The way he looked at you. The way he held you. The way he whispered that he missed you. You quickly pulled your hand back.
“He definitely did this on purpose,” you murmured again.
You tried to stay annoyed. You really did. But underneath it, there was something warmer. Something softer. Like a part of him was still with you.
“So annoying,” you added again, but this time your lips curved slightly.
You stepped into the shower, letting warm water run over you, trying to clear your thoughts. But even then, your mind kept going back. To his voice, his touch, the way everything felt heavier that night. And now… all that was left were marks.
After you finished, you stood in front of the mirror again, a towel wrapped around your body. Your hair was still damp, droplets sliding down your skin. And your gaze drifted back. You sighed.
“What if someone sees this…” you murmured.
But instead of covering it, you kept looking. Your fingers touched one of the marks again, softer this time. And without realizing it… you smiled.
A few seconds later, you picked up your phone. The front camera opened. You hesitated.
“This is a bad idea,” you told yourself.
But your thumb moved anyway. You adjusted the angle, just enough. Not too much. But clear enough.
Click. You stared at the photo.
Embarrassment. Curiosity. A small thrill. Then— Sent.
On the other side of the world, in the United States, the atmosphere was completely different. Namjoon sat in a waiting area, surrounded by the others. Light chatter, quiet laughter, the usual post-travel atmosphere.
He looked calm. Normal. Until his phone vibrated. Your name appeared. He opened it. And immediately locked his phone again. Too fast.
Jungkook glanced at him. “What’s wrong, hyung?”
“Nothing,” Namjoon said quickly.
“You looked surprised.”
“I didn’t.”
“Show me.”
“No.”
Too fast.
Jungkook narrowed his eyes, but Namjoon had already stood up.
“One second.”
He walked away, creating distance, then opened your message again. This time, he really looked. His breath hitched slightly.
“Oh my God…” he muttered.
His hand covered part of his face. Then he typed.
Namjoon: Are you seriously sending this?
Back in your apartment, you were sitting casually, sipping coffee, completely relaxed. You smiled.
You: Whose fault is that?
Namjoon: Don’t send photos like that.
You: Like what?
Namjoon: You know what I mean.
You: I’m just sending proof.
Namjoon exhaled, running a hand through his hair.
Namjoon: I’m in a public place.
You: So?
Namjoon: What if someone sees?
You bit your lip, amused.
You: Afraid of getting caught?
There was a pause. Then—
Namjoon: Not afraid.I just don’t want them to see… that.
Your expression softened slightly. Your fingers brushed your skin again.
You: You made them.
Namjoon: I know. So I’m responsible.
You laughed softly.
You: How are you going to take responsibility?
A short pause.
Namjoon: I’ll make it up to you.
You stopped mid-sip.
You: Make up what?
Namjoon: Time. I’ll make up for everything we didn’t get.
Your heart skipped. But he continued.
Namjoon: But seriously. Don’t send photos like that again.
You: Why?
Namjoon: Because it stays on my mind.
You: And why is that?
Namjoon: I’m far away from you. And you send something like that. It makes it hard to focus.
You closed your eyes briefly. Warmth spread through your chest.
You: Alright, I’ll cover them up.
His reply came instantly.
Namjoon: Don’t.
You blinked.
You: What?
Namjoon: What do you even want? Don’t cover them. They’re mine.
You go completely still this time. Your cheeks feel warm, your breath catching slightly. Without realizing it, your hand drifts back to your chest, touching the mark more gently.
Annoyed? Yes.
But the other feeling… is much stronger. The butterflies are still there. Maybe even stronger than earlier this morning. And for the first time since he left, you smile without having to force it.
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The day went on as usual… but his messages made everything feel different.
Your phone vibrated again, and like the past few days, you didn’t even need to check the name to know who it was. Instinctively, you opened it.
Namjoon: Just finished rehearsal. Tired. Miss you.
You smiled.
You: You always start with “tired” and end with “miss you.”
Namjoon: Because it’s true. The tiredness can go away. Missing you doesn’t.
You leaned back in your chair.
You: It’s only been a few days, Joon.
Typing appeared.
Namjoon: I know. That’s why it’s weird.
You: Why is it weird?
Namjoon: I should be used to this. We’ve done long distance before. But this time it’s harder.
You paused.
You: Why?
His reply took longer.
Namjoon: I think it’s because I love you more now.
Your heart skipped. You read it again.
You: Me too.
A pause.
Namjoon: I know.
You frowned slightly.
You: You think you know everything.
Namjoon: It shows. From what you did yesterday… Sending “that.”
You laughed softly.
You: You’re still thinking about it?
Namjoon: Yes.And that’s the problem.
You: Your fault for staring too long.
Namjoon: I couldn’t not look. It’s you.
You smirked.
You: What if I send another one?
Typing appeared immediately.
Namjoon: Don’t.
You laughed.
You: Scared?
Namjoon: Not scared. I might fly home right now.
You paused.
You: Seriously?
Namjoon: Don’t test me. I’m in the United States. But if you send something like that again… I might actually book a ticket.
You bit your lip.
You: That whipped?
Namjoon: Worse. And it’s dangerous.
You walked toward the window.
You: And this is just the beginning.
Namjoon: Yeah. It’s only been a month. After this, I still have a tour. Almost a year.
You went quiet.
You: I know.
Namjoon: That’s why I’m storing you. In my head. In my memories. And a little… on your body from yesterday.
You covered your face, embarrassed.
You: You’re really…
Namjoon: What?
You: Annoying.
Namjoon: But you miss me.
You paused.
You: Yeah.
Silence. Then—
Namjoon: Where are you?
You: At home.
Pause.
Namjoon: Send a photo.
You laughed.
You: You told me not to.
Namjoon: A normal one. Not like yesterday.
You teased.
You: I’m in home clothes.
Namjoon: That’s dangerous too.
You: Why?
Namjoon: Because I know what’s underneath.
You bit your lip again.
You: You’re getting weird.
Namjoon: I’m far from you. It’s normal. And you’re making it harder.
You took a simple photo. Nothing too much.
Sent.
A few seconds passed.
Namjoon: … You’re so beautiful. And that doesn’t help at all.
You smiled softly.
You: Why?
Namjoon: I’m in the dressing room. There are people here. And I have to act normal.
You laughed.
You: Poor you.
Namjoon: Yeah. I’m the victim.
You: Drama.
Namjoon: I’m serious.
I want to go home.
That made you pause.
You: I want you to come home too.
Typing appeared.
Namjoon: Hold on. Just this month. I’ll make up for everything.
You: Promise?
Namjoon: I always promise you. And I always keep it.
You leaned against the window.
You: I’ll wait.
Namjoon: Me too.
Waiting for you.
You: I’m right here.
Namjoon: Yeah. That’s why I have to come back.
A quiet pause.
Namjoon: I have to go. Don’t send anything weird.
You smiled.
You: What if I miss you?
Namjoon: Hold it in. Or send something safe.
You: What’s “safe”?
Namjoon: Something that makes me smile. Not something that drives me crazy.
You laughed softly.
You: No promises.
Namjoon: You really… You make it harder to be away from you.
You stared at the screen for a moment. Then typed slowly.
You: Come home soon.
A few seconds passed.
Namjoon: I will. To you.
And somehow, just from that… the heaviness in your chest turned warm.
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Two weeks into the tour. Time kept moving, schedules stayed packed, but one thing became clearer… the two of you were getting less and less used to being apart.
That day, you came home from work exhausted, immediately collapsing onto the bed without even changing. The room was dim, quiet, but your thoughts kept going back to the same thing as the past few days. Him.
Your phone vibrated.
Namjoon: Just finished. Today was really long.
You smiled faintly, eyes still half closed.
You: You say that every day.
Namjoon: Because every day is long. Especially without you.
You turned slightly, facing your screen.
You: Where are you?
Namjoon: At the hotel. Just got into my room. It’s quiet.
You paused. It was a simple word, but you knew what he meant.
You: I’m on my bed.
A short pause.
Namjoon: Don’t tell me you’re wearing home clothes again.
You let out a soft laugh.
You: Why? Are you scared?
Namjoon: Not scared. I’m alone too. And that’s a dangerous combination.
You bit your lip, teasing him on purpose.
You: I’m tired.
Namjoon: Me too.
You: I want to be held.
The typing stopped for a while.
Namjoon: Me too. A lot.
You stared at the screen a little longer.
You: If you were here right now?
His reply came slower, but steady.
Namjoon: I’d go straight to you. Hold you. For a long time.
You pulled the blanket closer.
You: And then?
Namjoon: I’d kiss you. Slow at first. Like yesterday.
You immediately buried your face in your pillow, embarrassed.
You: You remember everything.
Namjoon: I won't forget. I keep it.
You: Everything?
Namjoon: Everything. Including how you pretend to be calm but clearly can’t stay still.
You: Joon…
Namjoon: What?
You: Don’t start.
He didn’t reply right away.
Namjoon: I haven’t even started anything.
You: You already started with your words.
Namjoon: Because you’re there.
You sighed softly.
You: We’ve done this before…And it always gets weird.
A few seconds passed.
Namjoon: I know. And I’m asking again.
You went quiet.
You: Joon…
Namjoon: I’m serious. Our schedules are hard. Sometimes we can’t even catch each other just to chat. Moments like this are rare. I just want to feel close again.
Your heart softened immediately.
You: You really…
Namjoon: I know. But I still want it.
You exhaled.
You: If you start getting weird…
Namjoon: I’ll be gentle.
You: You’re never gentle.
Namjoon: I’ll try.
You laughed quietly… but you didn’t refuse.
A few seconds passed.
Namjoon: I’ll video call you.
You: Are you sure?
Namjoon: I want to see you.
You finally tapped “call.”
His face appeared. Slightly damp hair, loose shirt, tired face—but his eyes immediately focused on you.
For a few seconds… you just looked at each other.
“You…” he started softly.
“What?”
He studied you. “You’re wearing that at home?”
You pretended to be casual. “Yeah. Why?”
He exhaled slowly. “You know that doesn’t help.”
You smiled faintly. “Then don’t look.”
“I can’t.”
Silence. Then you teased him again.
“Do you remember…” you said casually. “The marks you left?”
He went quiet instantly.
“Which ones?” his voice shifted.
You touched your chest lightly. “The ones you said were yours.”
His gaze sharpened. “They’re still there?”
You shook your head. “Of course not. It’s been two weeks.”
He narrowed his eyes.
“Let me see.”
You held back a smile. “What?”
“Just show me.”
His tone was calm… but deliberate. You knew exactly what he was doing. And you still played along. Slowly, you shifted your position, pulling your shirt down just slightly.
“That’s enough,” you said quickly.
He didn’t respond. His expression changed. Deeper. Heavier.
“You did that on purpose,” he murmured.
You just smiled faintly, not covering up right away. That was enough to change the atmosphere.
Silence. His breathing grew heavier.
“Don’t continue,” he said softly.
“You asked to see.”
“I know…”
Pause.
“But I’m far from you.”
You bit your lip.
“You started it.”
He let out a quiet laugh, clearly holding himself back.
“You’re dangerous.”
“You too.”
Silence again. Longer. More intense.
“I miss you,” he said again.
Your expression softened. “Me too.”
For a few seconds… you just looked at each other. Then he exhaled, eyes dropping briefly before meeting yours again.
“Stay with me,” he said quietly. His tone changed. More honest. More… vulnerable.
You froze slightly. “Joon…”
“I’m not asking for anything,” he added quickly. “I just… want you here. Even if it’s just through the screen.”
You looked at him for a long moment. There was hesitation. But also the same feeling. Missing him. Wanting closeness. You finally nodded.
“Okay…”
It was soft—but enough. After that… words didn’t matter as much. You stayed on the screen. Looking at each other. Sometimes speaking softly, sometimes just short replies… but mostly silence that felt full. You were there. And that was what he needed.
At one point, he closed his eyes briefly and whispered, “I really miss you.”
You leaned closer to the camera. “Me too.”
Your voice was soft, calming. He closed his eyes again. You knew what he was doing. There was a mix of embarrassment and something else… something warmer. Because out of everything, he still chose you.
Like you were really there. Like the distance didn’t exist. For a few minutes… nothing else mattered. Just the two of you. Just that feeling. Just closeness forced through a screen… but still real.
He said your name a few times, until finally he let out a long breath. Calmer. Relieved. His eyes returned to you.
“Thank you, baby…”
You smiled softly. “Come home soon.”
He nodded. “One more week.”
You nodded too. “I’ll wait.”
For the last few seconds, you just looked at each other again. Softer now. Warmer. Then the call ended. The screen went dark. Your room became quiet again. But this time… it wasn’t empty. Because even from far away… you still found a way back to each other.
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That night after the call ended, you stayed still for a few seconds, staring at the now-dark screen. Your heartbeat hadn’t fully returned to normal, your breath still felt warm in your chest. There was a feeling… fullness. Not just because of what had just happened, but because of the way he looked at you, the way he needed you.
You finally turned off the light and lay back down on your bed, hugging the pillow beside you. Cold. But this time, it didn’t feel empty like before.
“You…” you murmured softly, a small smile forming on its own. “You make things difficult.”
On the other side of the world, Kim Namjoon was still sitting at the edge of his hotel bed. His phone lay beside him, but his mind clearly hadn’t settled. He leaned forward, elbows on his knees, one hand covering part of his face as he exhaled deeply.
“Crazy…” he muttered.
Not tired. Not frustrated. More like… overwhelmed. A feeling he knew he couldn’t get from anyone else but you.
A few seconds later, his phone vibrated.
You: Feeling better?
He smiled instantly, picking it up.
Namjoon: Yeah. More than better.
You read it with a small smile, shifting slightly on your bed.
You: Drama.
Namjoon: I’m serious.
You: Yeah, yeah.
A few seconds of silence passed, but it felt comfortable.
Namjoon: Are you going to sleep?
You: Not yet. Still thinking about you.
The reply came quicker than usual.
Namjoon: Me too.
You bit your lip softly, holding back a smile.
You: We literally just video called.
Namjoon: Exactly. It makes it worse.
You exhaled quietly, staring at the ceiling.
You: One more week.
Namjoon: Yeah.
A pause.
Namjoon: I’m counting the days.
You: That whipped?
Namjoon: More.
You let out a soft laugh, closing your eyes for a moment.
You: When you get back… don’t go straight to work, okay?
Namjoon: I’m going straight to you.
You opened your eyes, your heart beating a little faster.
You: Seriously?
Namjoon: Seriously.
A pause.
Namjoon: I miss home. But I miss you more.
You stayed quiet for a few seconds, letting his words settle in your chest.
You: I’ll wait.
Namjoon: Don’t go anywhere.
You: Where would I go?
Namjoon: Nowhere. Just stay right there.
There was something softly possessive in his tone, and you could feel it.
You: I’m here.
Namjoon: Good.
The conversation slowed down. Fewer words, but still full.
You: Go to sleep. You must be tired.
Namjoon: Yeah. Good night.
You: Good night, Joon.
A few seconds passed… then one last message came in.
Namjoon: I love you.
You smiled, deeper this time.
You: I love you too.
That night finally felt truly calm.
The following days passed faster than you expected. Work, home, chats, sometimes calls. The same routine, but now there was a countdown constantly running in your head.
Until finally… one week. That morning, you woke up with a different feeling. Lighter, but also… tense. You hadn’t even checked your phone yet, but you already knew. He was coming home today.
Your phone vibrated.
Namjoon: Landing.
Your heart immediately started racing.
You: Already?
Namjoon: Yeah.
A pause.
Namjoon: I’m going straight to you.
You sat up instantly, almost in disbelief.
You: Now?
Namjoon: Now.
You got up right away, moving on instinct. Not because you needed to look perfect, but because you simply couldn’t wait.
A while later, you were already standing by the door, unable to sit still. And then finally— The sound of the door.
Click.
You opened it. And there he was.
Kim Namjoon stood in front of you, wearing a simple hoodie, a bag slung over his shoulder. He looked a little tired… but the moment he saw you, his expression changed.
Silence. Then suddenly, he dropped his bag to the floor and pulled you into a tight hug. No words. You hugged him back just as tightly, burying your face in his chest. His scent hit you instantly. Familiar. Warm.
“Crazy…” he murmured above your head. “Finally.”
You nodded softly against him. “Yeah…”
He didn’t let go right away. His hand moved gently along your back, as if making sure you were really there.
“You’re really here,” he said.
You pulled back slightly, looking at him. “You too.”
Your eyes met. Close. Too close. And this time… no interruptions. No one else. Nothing holding you back. He lifted his hand, gently cupping your cheek, his thumb brushing softly.
“I missed you.”
You smiled faintly. “I know.”
“You don’t know how much,” he said quickly.
You didn’t get the chance to reply. Because the next second— He kissed you. Not soft like before. Not hesitant. But deep. Full. As if everything he had held back for a month… was finally released. You kissed him back instantly, your hands moving to his neck, pulling him closer. And in that moment… That one month of distance completely disappeared.
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The kiss didn’t stop right away. If anything, it grew deeper, longer, like neither of you wanted to be the first to pull away. Namjoon’s hands slid down to your waist, pulling you closer until there was almost no space left between you.
You let out a soft breath when he finally pulled back slightly, but only for a moment. Your foreheads stayed pressed together, your breaths mixing.
“I don’t want to hold back anymore,” he whispered.
You looked at him, your heart still racing. “Have you been holding back this whole time?”
He let out a small laugh, but there was something deeper in his eyes. “A month.”
That was enough to make you go quiet.
Before you could respond, he kissed you again. This time slower at first, like he wanted to savor it, but still intense. His hands moved to your back, guiding you further into the apartment without breaking the kiss.
The door closed behind you.
Click.
And the atmosphere shifted instantly.
Quieter. Closer.
You took a few unconscious steps back until your back hit the wall near the door. Namjoon followed, his body close again, his hands braced on either side of you, trapping you without actually forcing you.
“You know I missed this too,” he said softly.
You bit your lip, trying to stay composed. “Which part?”
He didn’t answer right away. He just looked at you for a few seconds… then lowered his head and kissed your neck gently.
You inhaled sharply.
“This,” he whispered.
Your hands instinctively grabbed his shoulders, your fingers tightening slightly as his kisses turned slower, longer. Warm. Familiar. And enough to make your body react instantly.
“Joon…” you warned softly, but there was no firmness in your tone.
“I know,” he replied quickly, but he didn’t stop.
His hands moved back to your waist, this time firmer. He pulled you away from the wall while keeping you close, then slowly guided you toward the bedroom.
You followed, your steps uneven, slightly stumbling because neither of you ever really stopped touching each other.
“Aren’t you tired?” you managed to ask between breaths.
“I am,” he answered honestly.
You raised an eyebrow slightly. “And?”
He looked at you, the corner of his lips lifting. “This is more important.”
You almost laughed, but lost focus again when he kissed you once more before you reached the bedroom.
As soon as you entered, the door closed.
This time, without a sound.
You had just sat down on the bed when he was already in front of you again, standing between your legs. His hands came up to your face, holding you gently, but his gaze… far more intense than before.
“Can I?” he asked softly.
You knew what he meant. And you didn’t answer right away. You just looked at him for a few seconds… then gave a small nod.
That was enough.
He immediately leaned in again, kissing you deeper. His hands slowly moved down, creating just enough distance to pull your shirt up, his movements unhurried, as if he didn’t want to rush this time. Different from before. More patient. More… indulgent. Then he slid both your pants and underwear down at once. Namjoon was already very skilled at undressing you.
The moment your breasts were exposed to him, your nipples were already hardened just for Namjoon. He didn’t waste a second, immediately taking one of your nipples into his mouth. You moaned, feeling his tongue circle the sensitive bud while his other hand slipped between your thighs, rubbing your clit. More of your wetness spilled out, slowly trailing down, but Namjoon caught it and brought it back to your clit, his fingers moving smoothly and gently.
You moaned at how skilled his hands were.
“You’re still the same,” he murmured softly, his eyes scanning you.
You felt a little shy, but still answered, “You too.”
He gave a small smile, then leaned down again, kissing you—moving slowly, from your lips, to your jaw, to your neck… then continuing lower. Every touch lingered longer, deeper, as if he was truly memorizing you all over again.
You closed your eyes, your hand slipping into his hair, tugging gently as the sensation grew stronger. Because you already knew where this was going this time.
“Slow…” you whispered, more to remind yourself.
“Yeah,” he replied, but his breathing had already changed.
He didn’t waste any time tasting you. He pressed a kiss to your clit, then briefly replaced it with his fingers before finally tasting you properly this time. Namjoon was like a starving man, savoring you in a way that, in any other situation, might have made you embarrassed by the sounds you made—but not now. You were breathing heavily as his tongue moved against you, his thumb pressing firmly against your clit, circling it in a steady rhythm.
You were close, and you gently stopped him from going further, shaking your head slightly. Namjoon understood immediately and reached for the condom he had prepared earlier in his pocket, opening it and putting it on quickly.
He knew you were ready. You were already so wet from what he had done just moments before. Slowly, he guided himself into you, fully aroused. He still held back, his movements remaining gentle, but there was something undeniably more intense beneath it. His hands traced along your sides, unhurried… and somehow, that only made everything feel heavier.
“This is harder than I thought,” he said quietly.
You almost laughed. “You’re the one who said we’d go slow.”
“Yeah…” he paused, your foreheads touching again. “But I missed you so much.”
That… again, left you speechless. You just nodded slightly. And this time… you were the one who pulled him closer first.
The next kiss was deeper, longer, and after that… everything started losing the slow rhythm you had tried to keep.
Your breathing turned uneven every time he moved. At first, he kept it controlled, letting both you and himself adjust. But once he was sure he wouldn’t lose control too soon, his movements grew stronger, more intense. One of his hands gripped the sheets beside your head, and he kept making sure to kiss you in between, sometimes stopping just to kiss you, holding himself back on purpose. You knew he was delaying it.
It was torturous. But also… incredibly good.
“You feel incredible, baby,” Namjoon murmured, his voice low, always slipping in those soft praises that made your chest warm.
His hands were no longer hesitant. Neither were you. Time seemed to disappear again. There was only touch, breath, and the feeling that was finally released after being held back for too long. You trembled from the intensity of it—until eventually… both of you truly slowed down.
Your breathing was still unsteady, your bodies still close, but the atmosphere softened into something calmer. Namjoon eased down beside you, his arm immediately pulling you into his embrace without a second thought. Tight.
You rested your head against his chest, listening to his heartbeat that was still racing. For a few seconds… just silence. Then he let out a long breath.
“I missed this,” he said softly.
You smiled. “Me too.”
His hand moved slowly along your back, rhythmic, soothing.
“This time no one’s interrupting,” he added.
You let out a small laugh. “Yeah… no Jungkook.”
He laughed quietly too, but his hold on you tightened.
“Don’t even say his name,” he said quickly.
“He’s not even here.”
“Good.”
You lifted your head slightly, looking at him. “You’re still annoyed, huh?”
“I’m traumatized,” he replied flatly.
You laughed again, but the warmth stayed. A few minutes later, both your breathing had completely settled. He was still holding you, not letting go.
“Are you going anywhere today?” he asked.
“Work,” you answered casually.
He frowned immediately. “Today?”
“Yeah.”
He let out a long sigh. “Can’t you take a day off?”
You looked at him, half amused. “You just got back and you’re already being possessive.”
“I’ve been possessive since yesterday,” he shot back.
You touched his cheek gently. “I’ll come back tonight.”
He stayed quiet for a moment. Then gave a small nod.
“Alright,” he said.
Pause.
“But tonight, you’re not going anywhere.”
You smiled. “I’m already here.”
He finally smiled too. And this time… it felt completely calm. Not just because the distance was gone. But because now… you finally had time again. Together.
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That afternoon passed faster than you expected. You still went to work, even though honestly… half of your mind was still left behind in the apartment earlier. The way he looked at you. The way he held you like he didn’t want to let go. And the most dangerous part… the way he touched you, patient but intense.
Several times you had to refocus on your work.
“Why do I keep thinking about it…” you muttered softly at your desk, your cheeks warming on their own.
But you knew the answer. Because he had just come back. And he wasn’t done.
That night, you almost rushed home. Even your steps were a little faster than usual. When you reached the door of your apartment, you paused for a moment, taking a breath. Calm down. Even though you knew it was useless.
The moment the door opened… he was already there. Kim Namjoon stood in the living room, wearing a casual black t-shirt, his hair slightly messy, and his expression immediately changed the second he saw you.
“You took long,” he said softly.
“Were you waiting?” you replied, taking off your shoes.
“Since earlier.”
You raised an eyebrow. “All day?”
He didn’t answer. He just stepped closer.
And that was enough of an answer.
“You haven’t eaten?” you tried to divert.
“Not yet,” he answered quickly.
“Why—”
“I was waiting for you.”
You stopped walking for a moment, looking at him. “Joon…”
He just gave a small smile. “Now you’re here.”
The sentence was simple, but it made your chest feel warm.
You didn’t even get the chance to continue speaking, because he had already gently pulled you toward him. His hand returned to your waist, reflexively, as if that was the most natural place for him.
“Tired?” he asked softly.
“Yeah,” you answered honestly.
He nodded slightly, and then… instead of letting go, he moved even closer. His face lowered to your neck, his breath warm again like earlier that morning.
“I’ll help take your tiredness away,” he whispered.
You immediately held back a laugh. “You really…”
“What?” he replied casually, but clearly didn’t pull back.
“You’ve been thinking about that this whole time, haven’t you.”
He finally laughed softly against your neck. “I’ve been holding back for a month.”
You shook your head, but your smile didn’t fade. And without much warning… he started again. Not rushed. Instead, slow. Small kisses that lingered on purpose, instantly sending shivers through you.
“Joon…” you whispered, your hands moving up to his shoulders.
“Hm?”
“You’re being really serious.”
“I am.”
You pulled back slightly, looking at him. “Why are you… like this today…”
He didn’t answer right away. His hand rose to your cheek, gently brushing it.
“Because I want to leave something before I go again later.”
You frowned. “What?”
The corner of his lips lifted slightly.
“A mark.”
You went silent… then let out a small laugh. “What even?”
“I’m serious.”
You kept laughing lightly, half not believing it. “You’re like a high school kid.”
“Let me be,” he replied casually. “I like it.”
You crossed your arms, pretending to be skeptical. “So? You’re gonna cover me in them?”
He stepped closer again, the distance now too close to stay relaxed.
“Yes.”
You looked at him for a few seconds… then ended up laughing even more.
“You’re weird.”
“But you’re not refusing,” he shot back quickly.
You stopped. Because… he was right.
You let out a small sigh, but your smile remained. “We’ll see.”
That was enough for him. He immediately pulled you closer again, this time tighter. His face lowered to your neck, and you instantly knew… he wasn’t playing.
“Joon—”
“Relax,” he whispered.
He slipped off your blouse, unhooked your bra from behind, and his hands immediately moved to massage your chest before gently pinching your nipple. You tried to stay relaxed, but as soon as he started again—slow, lingering, intentional—your hands reflexively gripped his shoulders. His mouth moved closer, before softly sucking your nipple. He really was like a hungry baby.
“Nggh… Joon~” Without realizing it, a soft moan escaped your lips.
You arched your back, breathing unevenly as he circled his tongue around your nipple. The other one was held in his large palm. He did the same to the other side, his lips flushed afterward. Your nipples looked the same, reddened from the attention they had just received, still glistening with his saliva. You shivered, meeting his eyes as he licked his lips.
The sensation was familiar. Too familiar. And that’s what made you remember. The previous night. A month ago. Every moment he had left on your body. This time, Namjoon was completely focused on your chest. Longer than usual, softer, more sensual, it felt fuller.
“Ugh…” you closed your eyes briefly. “You’re really doing this on purpose.”
“Yes,” he answered without guilt.
You laughed softly, but your voice wavered. “People will see later.”
“Good.”
You opened your eyes, staring at him. “What do you mean?”
“So you remember me.”
His tone dropped. Deeper. More honest. You went quiet. And he continued.
Slower. Be more careful. As if he was truly enjoying the closeness, not just rushing toward something.
Your hand unconsciously moved into his hair, your fingers slowly threading through. Not resisting. Instead… enjoying it.
“This is weird, you know…” you murmured softly.
“Hm?”
You laughed a little, still shivering slightly. “Suddenly I understand why babies get fed milk when they cry…”
He paused. Look at you. Then let out a soft laugh.
“Why?”
You looked at him, half amused, half disbelief at your own words. “Because… It makes them calm.”
He went quiet. For a few seconds. Then a soft smile appeared on his face.
“Then I’m right.”
You immediately laughed. “What are you even saying?”
“I feel calm too now,” he said casually, like it was the most logical thing in the world.
You thought his answer was already absurd, but Namjoon added again. “If I’m stressed, thinking too much… I can just come to you?” he said, his eyes still fixed on your chest.
You really laughed this time, your head falling slightly onto his shoulder. Embarrassed and confused by his words. You tried to cover your chest with both hands, being dramatic.
“You’re seriously absurd.”
“But it works.”
You couldn’t argue. Because indeed… beneath the amusement, the shivers, and the embarrassment… there was that full feeling. A feeling only he could create.
Eventually, you sat beside him on the sofa. You leaned against his chest, still slightly weak, and Namjoon helped button your blouse again, then casually stroked your arm.
“You know,” you started softly.
“What?”
“Sometimes I see the marks… and I get shivers on my own.”
He immediately turned.
“Why?”
“I think of you,” you answered honestly. “The way you… back then.”
He went quiet for a moment.
Then a faint smile appeared.
“Then it worked.”
You lightly hit his chest. “Annoying.”
“But you like it.”
You didn’t answer. You just moved closer again. And that was enough. He hugged you tighter.
“Every time I leave for a long time,” he said softly, “I’ll leave a mark.”
You looked up slightly. “Seriously?”
He nodded. “So you won’t forget.”
You smiled faintly. “I never forget.”
“I know,” he replied softly. “But I want you to remember this way too.”
You stayed quiet. Warm. Slightly shivering. But comfortable. And strangely… you didn’t want it to disappear.
That night continued slowly. More hugs, small kisses, and light conversations that were sometimes absurd, sometimes made you just shake your head while laughing.
And in the middle of all that… you realized one thing. That he had his own way… of making you feel full. Even before he left again.
Author Notes: These are actually drabble from my ongoing series, so they’re still connected to the main storyline I’ve been working on. You can check out the full series (Between Collisions). Likes and reblogs make me happy, but comments? They make my whole day 👀. I’m still new to writing, so any kind of feedback would help me improve and keep going!
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