Gaslighting myself into being a girl bc I stumbled upon a ff that didn’t specify gender, but said panties/bra/pussy
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Gaslighting myself into being a girl bc I stumbled upon a ff that didn’t specify gender, but said panties/bra/pussy
The nb struggles of having a queer gender identity
But also identifying and being comfortable with your agab
Making you feel cis and Trans at the same time but also neither
The imposter syndrome never end
I hate when people perceive me, especially old men.
No I am not a sweetheart or a dear or whatever. I am a being beyond your comprehension.
No i am not a ma'am, I'm not a woman. I'm an abstract thought. I'm your worst fucking nightmare.
I hate my tits so much, not just for dysphoria reasons but also because you roll over in bed wrong and your tit gets in the way and you experience an obscene pain no one whose never had tits above a C will experience.
So I was just looking at my younger self, a cisgender, straight kid.
Then I see my current self, a nonbinary lesbian, and think "wow... How the fuck did I not realize this sooner?"
So I'm nonbinary (agender, specifically), and the only bad parts are
1) I don't know how to ask people irl to use new pronouns for me, and 2) I don't know what types of people are attracted to me.
Let me explain.
When I identified as a woman it was easy. Anyone attracted to women could theoretically be attracted to me. But now, I am not a woman. Or a man. I don't know who's attracted to me! Who do I hit on? How do I sort myself on dating apps that ask if I should appear in searches for men or women? Like, what's up with that?
What kinda cisnormative nonsense . . .
Tfw you're nb but not out yet and your father wish you happy women day
yaknow when teachers divide the class by boys and girls and ur neither? and ur just like, do i go with the one people think i am? am i being self-centered if i stand in the middle?