warnings: mention of kissing, cheating, abusive and unhealthy relationship, suggestive, being manipulate, being used
ratings: sad and 16+
a/n: very shitty bear with me pls i just need content in this blog so, anyways, please don't read this if you get triggered easily, if any of you are facing this stuff please leave your partner, talk to me and remember you are not alone
disclaimer: this is just a fictional work of writings, nothing in the story happen in real life or relate to the character. character have the purest heart in real life. remember this is just pure fictional character.
"he’s not good for you !” your best friend said out loud feeling frustrated at you. You lay your head down her lap letting one tears fell down. "why kept on forcing yourself to stay with him, you deserves so much better than him, he’s not good for you. He’s damaging you and you kept on succumb to his word." The truth hurts but you can’t stop this, you love him too much as if you can’t find an exit spot out of this relationship, you feel trapped.
“then what am i supposed to do? Left him? Not in a million years i will left him. He loves me and i loves him too more than anything in this world” you spat at your best friend. She felt like giving up talking to you, she feel so bad for how your boyfriends kept on manipulating you. He brainwashed you until you can’t think straight “see you knew this, you knew you are trapped in that relationship. I know its going to be hard but we can try this together."
“what we? What this? I don’t think i agree onto leaving him, he is the only thing that can make me happy. I can’t see my future without him. He’s just tired and stressed from college he will get it over soon trust me don’t worry too much." Your best friend let out a sigh of defeat. Giving up to convince you anymore.
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You are cooking taeyong favourite dish when you hear a knock on your door. nonetheless you open the door knowing its your love of you life waiting outside the door.
"hey babe i miss you so much today” taeyong said while embracing you in his warm hug, a hug that you will never get bored off. "i miss you too tae, oh btw i just finish cooking how bout we eat together while watching netflix?."
“yeah sound nice to me but can you please run a bath for me first i’m sweating a lot today” you nodded while pinching his cheek.
You call taeyong immediately when you finish running the bath tub. Not even a minute he arrived still wearing his shirt and jeans from the morning. You help him taking off his clothes while facing his back. You are in a complete silent peace not when you found a scratch mark from his back. It looks like nail scratch. it comes from below his shoulder blade to his waist. If it wasn’t more obvious. You knew what it was, you decide to play it cool and left him alone in the tub letting your mind having its head argument. you want to deny it but its too clear that u can't push the idea outside your head. feeling the rage and anger inside you, you start eating without him.
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After taeyong finish his shower, he went to the living room and is quite suprised watching you already started eating and watching the movies without him. "hey why did you start it without me?" disappointment could be heard in his tone. "how does that feel?" "what do you mean?" now his tone turning to annoyance rather than disappointed. "why did you do it” "do what?” he rolled his eye than take a sit beside you
"everynight, everyday, you went to my house and hug me, it is warm, comforting and i love it, i used to love smelling you, you smell so nice, that cologne that you always wear was my favourite. But all i could smell now is women perfume, cheap perfume u could find at the road, i hate that smell. it never be my favourite, neither do you. you always buy me expensive one since you like the smell the most but now its not me smell on you, its that your least favourite perfume And also that sex reek smell that you always had” Tears start to fall slowly down your cheek and you begin to clench on you hand. Slowly a hand creeped up on your cheek and begin wiping your tears. He hug you and let your head fall into his lap.
"whenever we sleep together i would hug you feeling those back scratches that was made by some women that isn’t me. Or someone marking you up, making you as her territory. I thought you were mine?. I thought you love me?. All the promise you made to me, what was it all for? Am i your playthingー.” He hushed you and kissed your mouth hard more to demanding and rough. He kissed you hard almost knocking the air out of your lung. Biting you lower lips and slipped his tongue in your mouth. He kissed and sucked you hard until you lips are swollen. He break the kiss and stroke the nape of your neck. "i’m sorry my angel, i love you so much, i promise it won’t happen again. I was just so stressed with college and final semester. I want to let my frustration out without bothering you, i love you so much that i don’t want to burden you. You know i love you right? Don’t you love me?. Do you hate me now? I’m sorry for everything my love, i will change for you. Please don’t leave me i don’t know what am i if you leave me."
"i love you too, i will not leave you, i will never leave you. I love you so much. Please don’t hate me, i’m sorry" your tears falling hard and it hurts your heart seeing you boyfriend tears falling. You kiss his tears away hugging him tightly. You love him so much that u can’t leave him, he is your everything. Your world, your universe. Taeyong lift you by your thigh and carry you to you bedroom. He put you down slowly and kiss you before pulling the duvet covering both of your bodies. He stroke your cheeks and hair while intertwined both of your hands with him.
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Days turning to weeks and turning to months. It isn’t getting better at all, its more common now, you getting used to it. Being used again all over again, being manipulated every time you confront him. Its a weekly routine now. You hate it everytime you try to left him he always hit the point right at your heart that you can’t live without him that taeyong are your everything. Today, you saw a message from someone from his phone “it was fun, can’t wait to see you again” appear on the screen your heart sank but it didn’t hurt you anymore, you are numb. You don’t even budge seeing hickey covering his neck now. Whatever you do say or done, he manage to take you back to his arms everytime. At this point you let him used you because you know he doesn’t love you like you do. Letting him using you so that he won’t leave you. He is your world. He is your everything. You can’t leave him.
college!au, love at first sight, elegant reader, self loathing, angst, smut?¿ ( tell me which u prefer, with or without smut) stranger to lover.
♤; fluff, ♧;angst ♢;smut?¿ ☆;humour
✰summary: it's been a while since you had ur last relationship. its all because your past relationship traumatized you and decided to take a break from giving your heart to anybody. not until your plan was totally ruin by your bestie, lee donghyuck who one day, out of the blue introduce you to a tall, sweet and gigantic man. a sudden caring nature came to your life and makes it very confusing and hard for you.
a/n : this is my first ever au that i have written here on tumblr. it may be poorly written but i wish its just my feeling~ i don't know whether i want to write smut or not i'm still dwelling on it but any suggestion is fine !
playing : treehouse - alex g
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“you know, i really do appreciate your sweet gesture and every effort you’ve put.” You inch closer to him, tiptoeing to his ear and say breathily, “i’m actually a very insatiable women and would prefer a chase and catch kind of game but if you insist, see you tonight.” you end the conversation by holding onto his chest and nibbled on his ear. Lucas stood there blushing hard and everything feels hot that moment. He watch you walk away. But something in his mind must’ve snap, he chase you and turn you around towards him. Body flush against each other, “you’re the one who initiate the game, make sure you aren’t the one to back off.”
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“stop” you say to lucas staring at his eyes. He back off from you, tilting his head and give you a pout. “ i’m sorry if i make you uncomfortable, please i’m so sorry.” He says, pleading to you for your forgiveness. You stroke his cheek and give him a small smile. “i want to leave.” “what do you mean you want to leave” he looks at you full of concern and love. “i want to leave this game.”
hehehe :) since its my first ever au that i will release in this app i would like to overexaggerate this ! tmrw or tmrw after tmrw i will release a preview of of a w.y.h x reader au. please support my post and give it love~ i enjoy writing it so much and hope other people would too. i don't associate with any networks yet but i will soon~
