#new illness

[asian-drama-whump-blog]

The Gardener Ep 1

[thecaveisupsidedown]

I’m really trying to be okay.

I am.

But I’m not. I’m not okay. I’m sick of being in pain. I’m sick of putting in a colossal amount of effort for the result to be just that I don’t feel like garbage.

I don’t feel good

I don’t feel great

All this effort and I can juuuust get through my days by the skin of my teethe.

I miss my old life. I miss it so much.

Right now I feel like I’m in an abusive relationship with my body. Nothing I do is good enough, and I’m basically walking on eggshells all the time waiting for my body to get pissed at me randomly over something (aka nothing)

I’m trying to keep faith but some days I got nothin’

[thefriedbird]

In a lot of pain today...

I believe I pushed myself to my limits these past few days, with trying to move everything from the house. It is likely that my childhood home is going to be repossessed due to reverse mortgage...

So, everything has to be taken care of in a short amount of time. Which, for me can be impossible. I literally have a whole list of things I have to do before the Fall semester starts and I just do not have the spoons...

Using the rollator and staying in bed it seems..

[mynewidentity]

I thought the year started out well until I caught whatever everyone else is having. It’s not the flu, it’s not the cold, it’s not strep throat. What is it?!

[sherlylawks]

I think I have discovered a new illness.

I'm being serious, you guys. All that I've done was look at pictures of Tom Hiddleston all day, and now I am experiencing the following symptoms:

Fever

Headache

Did I mention fever

Burning of the flesh

Oh and I'm hot

The fan is on high, I have removed my shirt, and I have a cold wet rag. 

I have diagnosed myself with Hiddlestonitis.