I know I don’t do discourse here but I do find it very funny when people go “the term “system” is only meant for plural systems w did/osdd😡” because “system” isn’t a term solely used for plural systems, but it’s a medical term for groups. Family systems. Internal family systems. Couples therapy. Systemic therapy — systems.
It’s just that the word system can be used by many, and can be used as an identity by many. It’s not reserved for those with did/osdd. That’s all
its very relieving to find pro endo systems as the majority in the wild
in the early years of us discovering the community (and even now sometimes), we were very paranoid of hate and harassment. it's very nice being able to take a breath for once
For ivy-vinezz‘s 1K event, once again! This particular entry is Day 2: “Hell yeah I'm all natty! : Edit something inspired by nature.” and I had particular fun with this one!
By yours truly! I made the userbox frame AND the insides together as well. I made everything by myself and I couldn’t be happier! I also noticed there was a lack of stamps around certain specific nature loving things, so I had to add to the gap there, haha!
Credit this blog (@lava-lamp-graphics-blog) whenever you use the userboxes (wherever the alt text doesn’t work, as the alt text has the credits too.) at least wherever your credits will go! If you can’t credit these, please tell whoever asks you where you found these! It’s just nice to know where these all come from, y’know? The moodboard has my credits there so please, DO NOT remove it or I’ll probably move it to being a watermark in the centre. Okay? Okay.
I can take requests for this userbox frame I’ve made, or a moodboard theme! Just say you want nature userboxes, or add a 🌳 to your ask! :3
I think these reasonably shouldn’t be too eyestrain-y or anything, but if they are, please PLEASE let me know! 0<0
The userbox variants are: User, System, Collective and Constellation - in that order!
@ivy-vinezz hi again hehe, get yourself NATURED todayyy /silly
Well, first, have an extremely WIP pronouns.cc page.
@FallingStars uses They/them pronouns.
Next, my account for the Pro-endo court where you can share your system stories!
The Scribe’s House
Also, my AO3!
https://archiveofourown.org/users/Enj0y_th3_sh0w/profile
Before you ask me for donations, please read this post.
Our AO3:
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the
Organization for Transformative Works
Heyo! We’re a nondisordered mixed origins system of, uh… (checks notes) 69 including the host/“original”!
We are bodily 17!
DNI: Anti-endo, racist, homophobic, Pedo/MAP, Zoophile, TransID EXCEPT GOOD-FAITH IDENTITIES, transphobic, enby or acephobic, anti-good faith identities, Anti-Semitic, pro-Trump, pro-genocide, SHblr/SH-posting (I don’t want to see that), pro-ED, pro-SH, believers of “NPD abuse”, people who post porn (nothing against you, it’s your body and/or your art and you choose what to do with it, but I genuinely hate seeing it so please don’t interact with me if you post it. If it’s photos of a real person who is not you, though, I do not like you, please go touch grass.), JK Rowling supporters (people who like Harry Potter are fine as long as you don’t support JKR), Neil Gaiman supporters (people who like Good Omens, The Sandman, etc are fine as long as you don’t support Neil Gaiman), people who ship incest or child x adult
I am RQ neutral unless you support harmful paraphilias, in which case DNI. I don’t think I know enough about RQ to form an opinion.
PLEASE DO NOT ASK ME FOR DONATIONS. I do not have a payment app, nor a credit card, nor much money, so I cannot help you. I have asked multiple times so please stop asking.
Here are our members:
Cait (She/Her)
The heck do I put here? Hi, you can call me Cait, I’m the host of this chaotic little bundle!
Doppo Kunikida (He/Him) 📓
Hello, my name is Doppo Kunikida. I do not like Gen A slang or general obnoxiousness. It’s nice to meet you.
Lullaby (She/her) 😴
Hi, I’m Lullaby, a brain-made willogenic headmate! I really like snow, sleeping, plushies, things like those. I don’t front a lot.
Kenji Miyazawa (He/him) 🐮
Hi! I’m Kenji from BSD, I like animals and farming and music and theater and stuff like that!
Alastor (He/Him) 😁
Greetings! My name is Alastor and I’m from some old Hazbin Hotel roleplay on Fandom (as in, from before the show even aired)! It’s very nice to meet you!
Kazuo (He/Him) 🐱
Hi!!! I’m Kazuo! I’m an OC, I’m also Kenji’s best friend! It’s nice to meet you! I really like cats, the big city, music, theater, stuff like that!
Joker (He/him) ☮️
Joker is from a story I (host) used to be a part of. He doesn’t front a lot, but he’s a really sweet guy.
Mikado (He/him) 🔌
Oh, hello. I’m Mikado Sannoji. Please don’t judge me by my actions in source. I’m from an incomplete comic host was making called Danganronpa: Infinite Encore.
Engel (He/him) 📝
Hey, I’m Engel! My source is Fundamental Paper Education. It’s nice to meet you.
Winnie (He/him) ❄️
Heyyy, I’m Winnie from Cold Front! I really like music and general happiness.
Augustine (He/him) 🔥
Hey, I’m from Cold Front. Winnie and I are partners. It’s nice to meet you.
Light (He/they) 💡
Heyyy, I’m based on Omori, but I’m not really him if that makes sense!
Harrison Finn Tailor (He/him) 🎧
I bet nobody knows my source… haha, anyway! You can call me Harry. I’m from essentially how my host would have written Inescapable: No rules no rescue. It’s a pleasure!
Orion (She/her) 💜
Hello, I’m Orion. I am Brainmade. I do not talk a lot. Not a lot of us do.
Rambley (He/him) 🦝
Hiiiii! I’m Rambley from Indigo Park! I love making new friends! I have no idea what else to put here!
Nicole (She/her) 🧩
Sup I’m from class of 09 and I’m our resident “evil alter”, I like ruining my headmate’s lives in Oregon Trail and teasing them about shit.
Mori 🎆
Hello! My name is Ougai Mori. My pronouns are he/him. I enjoy interacting with others, especially sourcemates. My best friend is Yukichi, also from the Falling Stars. I can be a bit of a jittery mess. I do want to be a good parent figure, although I’m not sure how good I actually am. :)
Fukuzawa (He/him) 🐈
Hello, I’m Yukichi Fukuzawa. I don’t know what to put here, but, er, I like cats. Ougai and I are actually not from canon Bungo Stray Dogs, but since our source does not technically exist, canon BSD will work for sourcemates.
Fedya 🪄
AUtive from the fanfic “Damned Angels”, or at least the plans for it. Also known as Fyodor. He/him. Middle (15 years old). Please feel free to talk to me about my source.
Kolya (he/him) ♠️
Hiiii, I’m Kolya! I share a source with Fedya. I really like Quidditch and flying in general! I have a pet owl named Three-Of-Hearts. What else should I put here?
Soren (he/him) 🦡
Hello, pleasure to meet you. I’m Soren, the host’s Hogwarts Legacy protagonist. I’m a Hufflepuff. I really enjoy exploring the world around me.
Gold (he/it) 🪙
Hey there, I’m a gold watcher! I don’t know what else to put here! But it’s nice to meet you!
Niko (he/him) 🖲️
👋 I’m Niko! My source is Nanbaka! I don’t know what else to put here!
Vanitas (he/him) 📖
Hey there, my name is Vanitas. I’m a vampire doctor, I guess? I don’t know what to put here. But it’s good to be here, even though I sometimes wanna go home.
Phineas “Finny” Thatch (he/him) 🛡️
Hey there, I’m Phineas Thatch, former member of the trust. Nice to meet you.
Rui Kamishiro (he/him) 🎵
Hello there, my name is Rui, my source is PJSK! It’s a pleasure to meet you!
Giorgio (He/him) 🔎
Hey, I’m Giorgio! I’m from Ace Romanc— Just kidding! My source is The Art Of Murder!
Seishi Yokomizo (He/him) 📚
Hey, I’m Yokomizo! I’m from a BSD-crossover fanfic thing host is writing!
Mushitaro Oguri (He/him) 🔑
Hi. I’m Mushitaro. I share a source with Yokomizo.
Ranpo Edogawa (He/him) 🕵️
Heyyy, I’m Ranpo, I share a source with the two idiots (/aff) above me!
Edgar Allan Poe (He/him) 🐦⬛
Hello, I’m Poe, I share a source with Mushitaro, Ranpo, and Yokomizo.
Noé Archiviste (He/him) 🥧
Hey! I’m Noé, nice to meet you! I hope we’ll get along! I’m from VNC, by the way.
Montgomery Gator (He/it) ⛳️
Hey, there! I’m Montgomery Gator, from FNAF Security Breach! And I have no idea what else to put here so that’s all you’re getting!
Dave Miller (He/him) 🐰
Hello, I’m from Dayshift at Freddy’s! For the record I am sorry about what I did in games 1 and 2 of my source. Anyways hiiii!
Johann (He/him) 💕
Why, hello! My name is Johann, from VNC! Great to be here!
Luka (He/him) 🎤
No.
Ivan (He/they) 🖤
I do not entirely understand what’s going on here, but according to the others I’m from an AU made by my host.
Cheng Xiaoshi (He/him) 📸
Hi there! I’m from Link Click, I think! Nice to meetcha!
Lu Guang (He/him) 🕰️
Hey there, I’m Cheng Xiaoshi’s friend and sourcemate. I’m hoping I get along with people here. I like cats, reading, and photography.
Kazuichi Soda (He/him) 🦈
Heyo! I’m Kazuichi, and I’m actually from a fanfic we’re reading! It’s pretty cool. Not for me, I get stuck in a time loop and it sucks, but I think other people would like reading it if that’s their thing!
Oleander (She/her) 🐻
Hiyeeee, I’m a Danganronpa fictive but I’m not sharing which one!
Eito Aotsuki (He/him) 🐞
Hey, my source is Hundred Line: Last Defense Academy, and for the record I do want to be a nice person. It’s nice to meet you!
Nagito Komaeda (He/him) 🍀
Hi, you can call me Komaeda. I’m not exactly from Danganronpa, I’m from a rewrite of DR3’s despair arc that our host is doing. Nice to meet you!
Shin Tsumiki (He/him) 🧑💻
Hey there. My source is an AU of Your Turn To Die. That’s really all I have to say, sorry.
Jou Tazuna (He/him) 🐶
Hi! I’m from the same source as Shin! You can call me Joe! Nice to meet you!
Garry (He/they/wilt) 🥀
Why, hello there. My name is Garry, I’m from a game called Ib, I believe. It’s a pleasure!
Geiju Tsubaraya (He/him) 🎨
Hey there. I’m from some Yansim thing host wants to make. I don’t know what else to put here.
Till (He/him)
Sup! The name’s Till! Apparently I’ve got something called a source? Some fanfic for Alien Stage cause apparently that’s a whole different thing in this universe.
Keizo (He/him) 💭
Hello. My name is Keizo Yamaguchi. I am from some kind of… custom save slot, apparently, for Yandere Simulator?
Ballister (He/him) 🗡️
I don’t quite know what to put here. Apparently I am from a movie which happens to be named after a friend of mine? (His source is Nimona btw)
Liu Xiao (until further notice) (He/him) 🦉
Hello there. I am technically a fictive of Liu Xiao from Link Click. However, seeing as I’m unsure of how much I’ll identify with him by time we know more about his personality, I’m unsure of who I’d like to be at the moment.
Hermes 🪽 (He/him)
Why hello there! I’m Hermes, the messenger god, and I have no idea what’s going on here but it looks fun! (Btw he’s from Epic the musical)
Polites 🪷 (He/him)
Hello there! My name’s Polites! I’m from wherever Hermes and Tiresias are from, I think? I also think I may be our resident Hellenic Polytheist. Tiresias and Hermes too considering they share a world with me where the gods are very much present, and Hermes literally is a god.
Tiresias 👁️ (He/him?)
Hello. My name is Tiresias, I am a prophet. It’s a pleasure to meet you.
Apollo ☀️ (He/him)
Hey. I’m technically the god, but instead of being from myths I’m from some nonexistent webcomic the host wants to write.
Kestrel 🪶 (He/him)
Hello hello! I am also technically Hermes, but I am from the same nonexistent webcomic as Apollo. I've named myself something new! (Cause two Hermes' would just be confusing)
Odysseus 🏹 (He/him)
Hello, apparently I’m from something called a fanfiction for something called epic the musical. Cool.
Hyacinthus 🪻 (He/him)
Hello, apparently I’m in stories that originated in Ancient Greece. That’s interesting.
Yuri 🖋️ (She/her)
Uh, hi. Apparently I’m from a visual novel called DDLC…?
Ethan 💘 (He/him)
Hello! My name is technically Eros but I also go by Ethan, I am from the same nonexistent webcomic as Apollo and Kestrel!
Wistario ⚙️ (He/him)
Hiya! My name is Wistario, and the others say I’m from some kind of compilation of cutscenes from a mobile game that’s part of this franchise called Gundam?
Micheal 💿 (He/him)
Uhhh, hi! I’m Micheal, I’m from something called Be More Chill.
Jeremy 👾 (He/him)
Hello, my name’s Jeremy. I’m from some kind of fanfic for Be More Chill, I think?
Klefki ☄️ (He/him)
Hiiiiiiiiiiiii my name’s Klefki, I’m technically also Ivan but I’m from a swap AU (which doesn’t exist yet grrrr)! Nice to meet ya!
Es ⛓️💥 (They/them)
Hello, Luka tells me I’m supposed to write here. I’m Es, I’m the warden of MILGRAM, though apparently I’m not anymore because I’m here.
Mikoto ❤️🩹 (He/him)
Also from Milgram, he’s not fronting between the two of us at the time of writing this so he probably isn’t getting an intro, ah well
John Doe 🎸 (He/him)
Also from Milgram, I’m too lazy to write an intro
Najimi Osana 🦋 (Your/mom) (jk anything goes lol)
Hiyaaa I’m Najimi from Komi Can’t Communicate! Nice to meetcha!
Syobai Hashimoto 💰 (He/him)
John here, this guy refuses to introduce himself. He’s not necessarily the version from SDRA2, he’s the version of him we play in a subreddit.
(RP Blogs under the cut)
RP BLOGS
@no-longer-crabfries - Osamu Dazai (BSD)
@fuck-it-go-my-fyodor-rp-blog and @the-archangel-rat - Alternate Fyodor Dostoyevsky(s) (BSD)
Hindsight really is 20/20. Some stuff from when I was young that I didn't know was system related at the time:
- having 'imaginary friends' appear mentally when upset or lonely and comfort me or talk to me, but having no input/control over them at all (bonus points if they were much older)
- feeling like someone was 'reading my mind' or trying to control me mentally by inserting thoughts or taking away/blocking certain things
- having different 'personas' for different situations that I would slip into by accident or even sometimes on purpose, I just thought I was super adaptable
- buying random outfits or things that at the time felt right but then later realizing it's not at all my taste and never touching it (but somehow it keeps getting used and moved around)
- letting my 'imaginary friend' who was really smart take my tests for me when I was struggling and watching him pass with ease
- being really bad at something, hearing 'let me try', and then suddenly being really good at the thing
- being hungry/needing a task done but having no spoons or too depressed and 'space' out then suddenly food is made/task is done
- shifts in mood/perception that at the same time affects my handwriting/drawing style/body language/balance/etc and having blurry memories from those times
having some feelings, thinking about the way that my switches seem to happen and just... wondering if it's at all "normal" and if anyone else experiences it like that. Mostly because I only have experience with myself and with a very disordered, very internally antagonistic system with a piece of shit core/host (my ex)...
So it's like...
Generally, switches feel almost voluntary? Like, when I finally got back into the driver's seat on Saturday night (Adam was driving most of the day), it was after having an actual internal conversation about like, how I wanted to be fronting again and missed my partner and he was just like "yeah sure".
But it wasn't like, immediate. It was this slow, gentle shift from Adam's mental landscape/mindset into my own over a few minutes (and also started happening during the "conversation" between me and him). Though it totally feels like, if I wanted to, I could probably make a switch happen and that doesn't feel... "right" to me.
Mostly because like, my experience with my ex was that his switches were absolutely involuntary and usually happened almost instantaneously or if not, he'd kind of half pass out with some of them.
I know co-consciousness is totally a thing that other systems have experienced, but he didn't have any of that and I keep thinking/feeling like... that it's evidence of me "faking" somehow. IDK.
Consider this me asking the plural comm what co-fronting or co-consciousness feels like for y'all? Or what it feels like for y'all to have a switch???
