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Title: Forty Years Author: NoaVice Rating: M Tags: A/B/O Dynamics, Alpha Dean Winchester/Omega Cas, Graphic mentions of self-harm, Veteran Dean, PTSD, Schizophrenia, Long Lost Love, Hopeful ending Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Word Count: Estimated 25,000 – 30,000 Summary: While shopping at the local farmers market, cold and calculated divorced Cas is pulled by his pregnant daughter to see someone at the food truck area. This someone is none other than Dean Winchester, his high school sweetheart, who left him forty years ago to join the army.

Their plans to meet change whan a snowstorm hit, and Cas has to save an unconscious Dean from his snow-covered car. After regaining consciousness, Dean shares his tragic past, his consequential PTSD and schizophrenia diagnoses, and his struggles ever since. Cas, at the encouragement of Dean, shares his fear of losing Claire because of his need to keep control of everyone around him.

Cas understands he has to forgive the past, and himself, in order to save his relationship with his daughter, while Dean has to accept that he is still worthy of care and empathy. These are challenging tasks, especially after Cas has a world rocking revelation.

Keep reading for a snippet. Posting will start May 7, 2022!

“Dad, is this about your compulsive need for control? Because if it is, you need to snap out of it, and fast.” She gave him another assessing look, after which, her stance changed to a softer one as she went on. “Look, I don’t know what went on between you two in the past, or why you two broke up in the first place. All I know is that he has a picture of you from when you were together, forty years ago, in his wallet, and that he was extremely upset at the prospect of me damaging it. You are obviously someone he still sees as significant to him, and I know you’ll probably deny it, but I have a feeling you still see him as someone significant as well. So if you make your freaky control obsession as an excuse to not stay here beside your long lost lover, so help me god, I’ll make sure you’ll never hear the last of it. Now, you get back there and keep Dean company while I bring the man his meds.”

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My art for Irrwisch’s @bottomcasbigbang  fic: Where we go ‘round

Link to the fic

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AO3 Skin Adjustment

This is for @noavice​, because she saw this on my lap top and liked. This is how the Archive of Our Own site looks for me:

If you’re also interested in having the same skin, under the cut you’ll find everything you need to set this up.

1. Go to ‘hi, [username]!’ at the top right part of the page. 2. Choose ‘my preferences’. 3. Choose the ‘skins’ link. 4. Choose ‘create site skin’. 5. Choose a name for the skin. I went with ‘New Moon’, but that was before Twilight, so. It doesn’t really matter which name you use, just as long as it’s clear to you and AO3 accepts it as ‘unique’. 6. Copy paste the following text into the CSS window:

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7. Under ‘actions’, click ‘submit’. 8. You’ll get a page showing you the code and at the bottom, choose ‘use’.

That should be it. You should be able to see AO3 with this site skin now. Enjoy!

[noavice]

Forever Mine

Author: @noavice

Challenge: Bottom Cas Bing Bang

Side pairings: Dean Winchester/Lisa Braeden (mentioned for like a second), Ash/Jo Harvelle.

Rating: Explicit

Tags/Warnings: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Alternate Universe – Human, Alternate Universe - High School, POV Castiel, Strangers to Friends to Lovers, Chubby Castiel, Gay Castiel, Goth Castile, Depressed Castiel, Castiel had a rough childhood, Thoughts of self-harm, Pining, A little bit of angst, Bisexual Dean Winchester, Goth Dean Winchester, Castiel has a crush on Balthazar but nothing happens between them, Sort of a love triangle, First kiss, First time with a man, Shower sex, Hand jobs, Non-Penetrative Sex, Bottom Castiel/Top Dean Winchester, Humor, Dom/Sub undertones, Happy ending, Metallica References, References to car accidents, Piercings.

Summary: Castiel gets to high school, cubby and weird, and meets Dean, a goth like him, and they become friends. Together they befriend Ash, Victor, Jo, Mag, and Charlie. He has a crush on Balthazar, but does nothing about it but stare.

During high school, his friendship with Dean becomes more and more important to him, at the same time as he starts to be friends with Balthazar. His rough childhood and the hard environment at his home make him feel angry and depressed, but his friendship with Dean helps him escape it for a while.

After ups and downs in their friendship, that started with silly banters and graduated to Dean teasing Castiel in a sexual manner without any payoff, it gets to a turning point at a school trip when Dean invites Castiel to join him in the shower. Although Castiel feels insecure about himself and about the nature of their relationship, he eventually agrees to everything Dean is offering.

Will his fears of their sexual experience ruining whatever there is between them come true? Or will it be Like Dean told him when he expressed his worries: “It's you and me we’re talking about. We'll figure it out, like we always do.”?

Word Count: 28447

Written for @bottomcasbigbang

Link to fic

Thank you @diminuel​ for the cover.

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שנה טובה!

Shana Tova! 

Happy Jewish new year!

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Some animal pictures I took recently.

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I made a thing. Nothing here is a lie

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I peeled an orange I found inside Like inside a nest A boy is sleeping