On the upside, to balance out all the bullshit in my life I posted about earlier: today I spent several hours in bed cuddling with my wife and feeling incredibly loved and held. I read her (fucking excellent) Don't Starve fan fic (like, the best in the fandom, tyvm, she is SUCH a good writer), and she nuzzled her face into my neck and gave me gentle little kisses, and we both told each other how much we love and value the other literally dozens and dozens of times.
"Ahh, Tish! How long has it been since we last waltzed?"
"Oh, Gomez... hours!" [they waltz]
- me with my wife but replace waltzing with me confessing my love
One time, I wrote short play about our relationship, and was told that even though the dialogue was true to life, I needed to tone down the intense and constant verbal affection because it came across like I as a writer was going WAY over the top with the saccharine language.
I adjusted the play so the language wouldn't be too distracting. And I waited apprehensively for the day she no longer loved me like that.
And our 10-year anniversary was last month.
Turns out she meant all of it as earnestly as I did, and we are just Like This and very in love. She makes me like myself so much. She is a joy to love. She is my Favorite and my best friend and even on her worst-mood days, she has never been mean or cruel to me or to my canine son whom she spoils with love. ❤ I am a lucky lucky Jack, and I tell her so every damn day. ❤