I try to read rooms. I do my best to be patient. I stay quippy and relevant. I hone this skill for decades.
People still turn away when I talk.
I know they love me, I know it's just part of socializing, I know I commit equal sins of dismissal.
People still turn away when i talk.
I read books to build empathy and patience and kindness, i watch videos on improving relationships, i practice differentiation, i have calm, loving conversations where i worry i'm complaining too much or can only be sad too often or i'm being too harsh or defensive.
People. Still. Turn. Away. When. I. Talk.
I can handle it tomorrow, but today i'm just gonna be sad about it.
















